A/N: To point out, Raditz is six months pregnant and a saiyan takes twelve months. So Raditz may give birth in Spring. May not play out how you actually predicted.
Chapter 13
Age 761, Afterlife
Raditz was standing in front of King Yemma waiting for his judgement.
"Raditz, you are a difficult decision to make. You have slaughtered many races into extinction. That is a heavy sin. But you have also gave yourself up for the sake of love. A love so pure that it could be deemed good. You suffered for the sake of your prince's safety and happiness. Gave up your child in order for her to have a happy life. There is a reasonable reason that you were pushed into your job-"
"I wasn't pushed into anything." Raditz quickly said calmly and firmly. "I chose what I did, and understood the consequences for it. I sinned relentlessly for my selfish desires and won't be reasoned out of it because I have suffered through them. I expected to go to hell when I planned my suicide, and that will be where I will be."
"Calm down." The man told him. "You've been given another place instead of hell or heaven."
"Another place?"
"You are to reside with the Supreme Kai. He told me that he found your intelligence and heart to be most useful to him."
"And if I say no?"
"Then I will put you in heaven."
Raditz squinted at the giant, red man as he vaguely breathed through his nose. Heaven was a place of bliss and joy, but to the saiyan, it would be mockery on his conscious. He then nodded in agreement. "But if my brother comes and asks for me, tell him that I tried to attack you and that you sent me to hell."
"How come?"
"Because I've read and heard about this Supreme Kai. That means there are kais among us. I'm pissed that my brother made me go out like that, but I supposed that since my brother will become alive, he might as well have a fighting chance with my prince." Raditz said this more to himself and then said to King Yemma, "I'll go to Supreme Kai, but my brother better be given to your best kai."
The giant was taken aback by this. "What?"
"You heard me. My brother is an idiot but he has the obvious qualities of a heroic warrior. It's without a doubt that someone else would want the same for him, so they would want my brother to be trained by a kai. Make sure that he's given the best treatment by giving him permissions. Make him get away with anything."
"Isn't that asking for a bit much?"
"Not at all. Because my brother has a good heart...It's the least I can do for him. So do this for me, and I'll be forever loyal to the Supreme Kai and do my best to restore the universe to peace."
King Yemma now that the saiyan was being ridiculously too full of himself. "You really think you can do that?"
Raditz said with a promising, reasonable tone, "I'll do whatever I can. You know how determined I can be for the people I love to have the best I can offer. It's doubtful by the fact that I have only been with my brother for so little time and our reunion wasn't the best, but give me the chance to show my devotion."
The king took the proposal into consideration and felt like it wouldn't hurt seeing how strong these fighters were compared to the others. He agreed, and so Raditz showed his devotion by creating the court with the help of the Supreme Kai.
His bodyguard Kibito didn't trust him at all, but seeing how this was approving the universe, he let the man do as he wished. Raditz had shown to be a true genius when he was able to persuade powers in the universe to rely on him and trust him. He had been able to get out of controversies and conspiracies despite how much pressure there was.
All within two years, Raditz had been allowed to be with his children through his daughter's necklace. Through making his children go through adventures throughout the universe, they were able to become warriors and gain recognition from Master Kunkun.
There was the issue of Supreme Kai wanting her children to take care of Buu with him, but the mother advised against it and left it to the hands of his brother to reach his further potential, and that the dragon balls would clean any mess that happened.
Further through the twenty years of teaching his children and building the court to near completion, he was unaware of the former kai's plans of taking possession of his soul. Now all hell within him, as destined, would break out.
Raditz lied on the stone bed that was surrounded by the bubble that was keeping her asleep. Bardock stood next to her without moving an inch. Kid Mame was standing on the opposite side. Eyes completely lifeless while their halos shone above them. Neither of the parents could look at each other or speak.
They were given a day to see their child. Both feeling guilt and remorse. So much so by knowing that Raditz wasn't mad at them for obvious reasons that many children would feel toward their abandoning parents.
For now, all they could do was give support to their son by just a simple lingering touch on her hands. Unknown to them, Raditz could feel them in her dreams.
The woman was a man within her mind. Her true form. 'He' was standing in his mental sanctuary dressed in just his black speedo. It was the secret place with the healing liquid flowing and rocks shining above. But instead of simply that, there were sculptures of his family and friends. Each one holding a book of his cherished memories with them.
The saiyan lullabies could be heard as he walked out of his mental sanctuary through a door to a peaceful meadow with ponds reflecting the blue sky. Soon the field was blown away into a rocky desert with the skies covered with blackened clouds that thundered and sent lightning onto the land.
He wasn't afraid by the horrific mental images since he was looking for someone. "Former Kai. I know you're here. Your heart is beginning to beat within me. You're no new child, and your energy is also flowing inside me. I want to talk to you."
Then there was a whirlwind that blew his hair back but his body stood still. He wasn't intimidated at all when a blue lightning strike appeared in front of him. When the natural attacks disappeared, it left a woman behind. She had bright yellow skin, pupil-less eyes, a black mohawk and was as tall as Goku. She was wearing the Supreme kai uniform with the color orange.
"I'ow'u'ow'me." She spoke which seemed like a different language, but it was really a mixture of words said through an accent.
"I do. Former Supreme Kai of the Center. The right hand woman of the Grand Supreme Kai who became corrupted by rage and hatred."
"I'wa'no'corrupted!" She shouted angrily which did nothing to convince the man. She then spoke of how the supreme kais were too ignorant and weak. That they died from not listening to her to take hints of dangers and intervene! That they relied too much on other people instead of themselves to keep the universe safe in the first place! Their own job!
"Yes. And what do you hope to achieve by having the god genes inside me? You're already a god."
She told her that having the genes of a saiyan would make her twice more invincible than the usual saiyan and the Supreme Kai.
"I see...Well, you're going to do this for nothing."
"Ho'da'ya! I'wi'be'the'strongst!"
"And defeat the purpose that you are doing this. You are not capable of handling the saiyan gene with your power range already. You will just become a legendary super saiyan again, and we all know how they ended. One destroyed himself and the original home planet of the saiyans, and the second one is obsessed over killing my brother for just crying and died as well. You don't want that fate for yourself."
"Shu'up!"
"QUIET!" Raditz's voice boomed in a shattering way that had the former kai silent. "That is how you tell someone to be silent." He lectured, and approached the woman, and slapped her. The woman countered with a punch which Raditz took without defending himself.
The former supreme kai punched him multiple times until he stopped her hand, kneed her in the stomach and threw her across the rocky desert. The woman flew back to him to kick him on the side but was pushed back by his palm, was met with a knee to the lower jaw, and then got backhanded to the ground.
"You're not thinking clearly. This is just a dream, and yet you are reduced to this. GET UP AND SHOW ME THAT YOU DESERVE THE POWER OF A SAIYAN GOD!"
"RAAAH!" The woman engaged in further battle with him. She tried to think quicker and more clever, but the male was better. In a second, she was grabbed by the ankle and was hanging down from his grip in a former of a little child.
"You should've known better than to face a genius in his own mind. I know that you are not created from me because you're presence in my mind is not mixing well with mine, so don't bother to try to play any mind games."
The plain around them turned into the sacred grounds of the supreme kais. Raditz put the woman down on the ground and had them sit. She demanded answers of why they were here. Then she saw her old self running away from Eastern Supreme Kai. Her younger self stole the Eastern Kai's favorite book so he would pay attention to her.
She watched how happy she was as she ran away to be naughty. Her child self ran so carelessly that she pushed the North Supreme Kai into the water while he was just fishing. She then ran below the South Supreme Kais legs, jumped up from the shoulder of the West Supreme kai, and then leaped away by the Grand Supreme Kais tummy, and pretended to fly.
"Center Supreme Kai!" Eastern Supreme Kai cried out. He was met with a sudden kiss on the nose before having the book smacked to his face. She ran away again and did cartwheels and back flips. She was just so carefree and shameless. It wasn't a problem since her antics were simply childish.
But as time went by, she began to have her own critical questions. Her own ideas. Ideas that was often denied. Denied or ignored too much for the girl who wanted to make a change by being heard and being right. As years went by, she became more aggravated and lonely when no one seemed to share her thoughts.
"No, Center Supreme Kai. We are only to overlook the universe, but not intervene. We must depend on other lives to settle the problem."
"A'serious?!" The woman screeched. This had the other Supreme kais dumbstruck. "This serious! Ma'poful'an'us! Wust taction uselves!" She told her grand kai. Trying to make him understand that there was evil coming and if not handled now, they wouldn't be able to later. "Li-"
"ENOUGH!" The grand kai demanded. "You are a Center Supreme Kai! You know the rules of our race, and I expect you to follow them now!"
The Center Supreme Kai's bottom lip trembled as tears formed in her eyes. She turned away swiftly.
"Wait, Center Supreme Kai!" Eastern Supreme Kai reached out for her hand, but she moved abruptly from his touch and screeched that she would have nothing to do with them anymore! And so disappeared.
Raditz spoke to the Former Supreme Kai that was the present, "It must have hurt to not be heard, and restricted from doing anything truly meaningful."
"Wha'dya'ow?"
"I know enough from what I see. You were practically acting like a teenager at this time, and you believe now that because of your choice to leave them to sulk, they died."
She retorted that they died for their ignorance, and that now she was doing what was right. That she was bringing justice.
"And convinced Judge Suoigiler that you were. That freak barely has the virtue of modesty in him to have not seen through your actions. Neither did the Grand Kai who should've nurtured your strong personality instead of letting fate happen without him doing anything."
The Former Supreme Kai demanded of what did he mean, and firmly told him that what she was doing should be praised to happen by even him since she was doing something.
"What you're doing is grieving." Raditz retorted.
"'At?"
The man explained, "Often times those who were never there to stop a unfortunate event, often blames themselves that even if forgiveness is said, they could never forgive themselves." A man and a woman, Raditz's parents, appeared before them. The saiyan stood. "They ignored me and hurt me." The scene turned black to show the scenes of Bardock disowning him and his mother insulting him. "They were never there for my events of misfortune," There were soft images of Raditz being beaten down without a chance to defend himself and other times when he was all alone crying, "but I forgiven them." He showed the scene when he did during the after life. "Do you think they believed me?" He looked at the woman who looked back at him.
She waited for his answer instead of answering herself. She was curious of this story of forgiveness.
Being excused from a session of training, Beetra and Froze were walking together along the sand. Some of the others staring at them as they did.
"Poor them." Chichi commented. "It must be hard for them to wait for their mother."
"Yeah," Krillin agreed. "And I heard from Yamcha that the court rejected her flat out when she wanted to have the law over no abortion to be voted over again. The law is to spread to even the Eastern galaxy into even earth. Tarble is still trying to fix this."
"I don't like it." 18 told them. "Forcing a woman to have a child within a body that is her own business is like saying that she has no will of her own. Are there even women in this court?"
"They said there are but then even if a majority of them voted against it, they were outnumbered by women who agreed with the others. Some men were also against this, but only a minority of them." Gohan explained.
Discussing it wasn't making anyone feel better, but life moved on, and they only hoped that Raditz would survive the due date.
Later that night, Beetra was staring out the window.
"Babe?" Yamcha called out after exiting the shower in a bathrobe. The woman didn't respond, so the male wrapped his arms around her waist. "I miss her too, babe."
"...No...It's not that. I mean I do so much but..." She turned around and positioned his hands onto her tummy. She gave a big smile as she announced, "I'm pregnant."
The man was silent with a face of complete shock, and then realization, and a great big smile broke out on his face. "Are you serious?"
"Yes." She nodded. "Yes."
The two shared a kiss and a twirl until they landed on the bed.
Yamcha had to cry out, "I'm gonna be a dad!" He was completely ecstatic, but then caught the bittersweet expression on his fiance's face. "Oh right. Babe, your mom is gonna be psyche when you tell her."
Beetra smiled more sweetly by the comforting words. "But I won't be fitting into a dress properly until a whole twelve months later."
"But it's still this year, and with a metabolism like yours, you'll be rocking a wedding dress in no time with your mom there."
"I hope so."
"No, she will be there, babe." He kissed her sweetly, and comfortingly. They both planned together on how to tell everyone.
"They never could accept my forgiveness. My mother watched me for the majority of my life from hell to only witness my suffering steadily becoming worse. My father didn't. He paid most of his attention to Kakarot who made him the proud father. When I died, my mother cried in front of anyone for the first time when she knew she could finally hold me. Her tears finally bought my father's attention to me to realize what had happened to me, and what I've become."
Another version of Raditz was standing in front of him. A Raditz who was so angry and unforgiving. A half of the version breaking like glass to reveal a half of his mother yet only to rot and melt away into dust to show a demonic monkey oozing out purple flames.
"I am not blaming them, but it is partly their fault. Everyone said it was from their point of view. I became so powerful from their ignorance, but have no control of it because when I become heartless. I would think that everything is useless. That everything was just in the way and when it was gone, I felt nothing for it. I try so hard to love. To not seep back into that stage of indifference, but I can't. I can't go back when I want to. And because I can't, I am the one who feels guilty."
"Guity'fo'wha'?!" She questioned. "The'di'ya'bad!"
"I don't care. I just want the pain to go away." Raditz looked at the woman with lonely, pained eyes. "I just want to be loved and respected. Not be angry or bitter or strong. I don't care how much physical pain I have to endure because physical pain can go away in a few hours, or minutes or even seconds. All that is left is fear afterwards but even then, you can overcome them. I want to overcome the past and leave it behind to be happy."
There was a pause. Then the former Center Supreme Kai growled and accused Raditz of manipulation.
"Manipulation. Hmph. If this was manipulation, I would've done better and have you miscarry inside me in a heartbeat. You planned this carefully, but you had too much of an ego to not realize that you are not fit for such power. Or maybe you do know, and you just want to become a victim so you'd feel rightfully punished."
The woman said nothing since she felt caught.
Raditz pointed at her as he continued to speak, "You see, I easily made you feel terrible about yourself with a few measly words, and it was just a retort. The point of this was so you could stop being stupid and realize that you should start forgiving yourself because Supreme Kai would love to have your company." The woman was in doubt, so Raditz added, "Even after what you tried to do. If you still try to get away with it, he'll always be waiting for you to make the right choice. Like the others would have."
"Th'righ'choice...?"
"That choice is rightfully yours to make."
"Bu'wha'is'th'righ'choice?" She questioned feeling more unsure of herself. She felt a warm hand on her shoulder. Raditz pulled her near.
"Whatever can make you feel right. Everything we do...everything with a purpose happens for the pursuit to feel something. What do you want to feel? And if it's the feeling you want and feels so right to you, then pursue it. If you feel doubt, its just a part of the process of trusting yourself again and knowing you can find forgiveness by following it. But also have brains, too, to not act too recklessly."
There was silence again. As there was, Raditz looked back on his past.
Raditz was standing beside the Supreme Kai and was watching his daughter, Beetra, playing happily with Froze. Tarble and Gure watched them from afar like a pair of content parents. The mother was sure that he felt the same. Completely content with how his children were doing.
"I heard that you decided to see her after a year of working beside me, Raditz." Supreme Kai told him with that cute sly voice of his. Kibito was by his side like usual.
"My mother deserves to see her only child for a day before I go back to work." He responded. The man had abandoned his saiyan armor for the Kai uniform in the color of red. He didn't wear the earrings though since they reminded him of Zarbon.
"You've certainly done a lot, Raditz. I wouldn't mind if you bought your mother here." The god was amazed by how much work was done for the universe with Raditz now by his side. Things were really looking up for the universe.
"Don't be generous, Supreme Kai. That generosity of yours will be your downfall if you don't man up."
"Ah, right! I'm sorry." The male blushed, feeling ashamed. He certainly has been taking in Raditz's advice on how to be more firm and direct. But the supreme kai couldn't help keeping his innocent and kind personality that made him a victim to the saiyan's tricks when he was bored or too tense from work. "I hope you will have a nice visit with your mother."
Kibito said the same. The bodyguard was appalled at first about a saiyan being among them, but then softened up and fully respected Raditz after he showed that he was a competent planner. Especially with what Raditz was creating now which would be known as 'The Court'.
The saiyan bid them an adieu before leaving to Hell. He instant transmission himself to the position he was sure his mother was at. He had been given training by the Supreme Kai to do such simple tasks that was helpful on the job.
He surprisingly found himself among other saiyans who stared at him with widened eyes and whispered to each other. They were updated by gossip that Raditz was formally given the position to be beside the Supreme Kai: a god who looked over the universe.
Raditz didn't bothered with them since he wasn't necessarily fond of them. He just rose his arms when the person he wanted to see ran to him with tears of mixed joy and sorrow. "RADITZ!" His mother hugged him tightly. He instant transmission them away from the crowd to the planet.
The man continued to hold his crying mother until she was tired. "Mother," Raditz told her softly. "I've missed you."
"Please..." She croaked. "Don't be gentle with me, Raditz. I was a bitch."
"Yes, but I still love you. I figured that spending time in hell has cleared your head and taught you something."
"It did. I watched you grow up and...Oh my god, Raditz, how can you look at me?!" She moved away from him. "How can you look at the woman who abused you?!"
"Mom-"
"I was a bitch! I was the worse! I blamed you for everything!"
"Mom."
"I watched and couldn't protect you! I wanted to so much, but I wouldn't have been there even if I was! That's how horrible I am! I made you suffer."
"Mom!" Raditz turned her around, looked her directly in her eyes, and told her softly, "It's all in the past, and whatever you blame for yourself now, I forgive you."
The woman heard his words but shook her head as her face pinched itself to suppress any further emotions. Though it didn't work; she couldn't forgive herself. She couldn't. What right did she have? She was the reason her son broke. If only she was more loving, he would have sought that kind of comfort. But no. He sought the comfort in her worse moment. Now her baby was so frightened of himself. A fear not so easy to overcome.
What right did she have for forgiveness?
The topic of her son's forgiveness wasn't discussed again when Raditz just wanted them to develop a relationship now. Get to truly know each other and know their little likes and dislikes and stories. Raditz was careful to not cross conversations of his own past to trigger the woman into guilt again. Yet, the woman was aware of this so their time together was always so bittersweet.
Then after the next few years with Raditz making visits from the living world to the Other world to nurture his children, the mother had been inquired. "What's grandpa like?" A teenage Beetra asked. Froze was also curious. The three were stargazing on a peaceful planet that was a living being itself. The trio had just saved it from being invaded and taken over.
"Hm? Well...he's very brave and proud like a natural saiyan. Though his fighting talent was something to admire." The man told his children.
"Did you do stuff like this with him?"
"This?" The man lightly laughed. "No. He was a very busy man."
"But you're busy, too, with your other job." The child pointed out. Froze nodded along.
"There's a difference. Your grandfather needed to sleep." Raditz responded. But the kids looked at each other with knowledge that they both knew that that was untrue. They had a good idea about the saiyan's culture and history to reason that there was neglect involved.
"Then can we see him?" Beetra asked. "We saw grandma."
"See him?..." Raditz vaguely remembered how his father disowned him. His heart pinched by that memory, but knew that the past had to be left behind. So he smiled sweetly at his children, "Alright. But I'll have to ask him first."
And so, when Raditz had the time from his job, he used it to see his father instead of his children. He did feel a sense of awkwardness and need to back away. Not because he didn't want to see his father, but because he didn't want to be disappointed when he does. Does his father even remember him? Did his emotions really matter at the moment? It was his children's request, and they deserved to know their grandfather. So he sucked it up and went, but his mother was against this.
"The bastard ignored you for his whole life! Why the fuck do you want to make him waltz in?" The woman questioned him on the Sacred Land on her visits. She was lying lazily against a tree. Raditz was sitting next to her to really think this through.
"I don't care about how he treated me. I don't want to deprive my children of any more family members."
"What about their uncle then? That faggotty-good-getter half-brother of yours?"
"He'll get to see them when he's permanently dead as well."
"Hmph. I still think its a bad idea to let that man in your kids life. You know he only cared about the other bastard. Not you."
"...Mother...I do feel like this is pointless since he's nothing but a stranger, but my children asked for him, and...I want to make amends with the past."
"You mean forgive him like you did me?...You're too good a kid, Raditz. Sacrificing so much for love. Don't you at least think you deserve better?"
"...No." He shook his head with a small smile. "I already have the best." He said this with his children in mind. "I don't give a fuck for the past or who wants me or not anymore. I just want to do this for them. I want to give them their grandfather. Even King Vegeta if he wants to."
His mother didn't say anything anymore on that subject. Raditz pretty much had the reason to begin with. Just needed to hear himself say it.
He went to hell and found his father with his team. "Father." He called out to have the man turn to him.
When Bardock did, the man's eyes widened. "Raditz?"
"So you do know my name. I'm here on a proposition for you to visit my children. Your grandchildren."
"Raditz..."
"I expect nothing from you or feel obligated to owe you anything if you do this. I just want them to know that I had a father, and that I don't hold onto useless grudges to refuse them to see you. When you agree to see them, and speak nothing of how you neglected me, tell that to the hell guardians. I'll come fetch you." Then Raditz left.
He thought that he would have done that with more composure, but then seeing him for the first time face to face and actually talking to him, it moved him emotionally. But now he felt like he's accomplished his greatest feat. Now he was to wait until he was answered. So once again, he was waiting for his father.
A few weeks had passed, but then Bardock eventually agreed to see them. Raditz had planned the occasion outside of the Other world through his daughter's necklace.
Bardock tried to speak to him on that day, but then Raditz kept interrupting him with instructions in order to go out and see his children.
The man was taken aback by Froze, but wasn't bitter against the baby. Beetra was a very inquisitive child who kept asking him about his saiyan life, and had asked questions about Raditz which the man tried answering with very basic answers. When the man couldn't answer a question, the little girl excused it for the fact that she was told that Bardock was a very busy man as a saiyan.
Froze was just plain active. Wanting to fight with him despite being a ghost that couldn't touch anything tangible. The dog-like baby then played catch with his sister who threw a stick to another planet like a meteorite.
Even though he is a ghost, Bardock was tired out mentally and emotionally. He'd glance at Raditz who just smiled with complete content at them. Even at him. A smile that burned into the man's eyes. And when his grandchildren went to their mother, they were filled with so much joy and love. He noticed the children keeping a small distance, but only because they knew they couldn't be held by their own mother. Beetra had to hold Froze for that warm comfort.
Yet, hearing how Raditz spoke to his children, it was easing on the heart. It was clear, direct, articulate and loving. So much love. It made the father curious of where all that love came from since the man was told the story of how his first son lived. Filled with so much pain and suffering. Seeing him now, it all became lies.
When the play day was over, the two left to the Other world. There, Bardock took his chance, "Raditz."
"Yes father?" The man inquired curiously. Still holding that smile. A genuine smile.
"I..." he didn't know what to say. So far he's only told Raditz his own name. He tried planning the words, but they kept falling through.
But his son told him with a tone of joy, "Thank you for doing this, father. They had a lot of fun with you. They really like you."
"That's..." He was thinking of a very simple sentence but even that fell through from his thoughts that was a clean slate. Then he felt a hand on his shoulder. A hand that was caring but distant as if Raditz was trying to play the act of how a warrior treats another.
"Father, I'm just happy that you agreed to do this. Becoming a part of my life for once."
"Raditz!" Bardock shouted without meaning to, but forming the words were hard, and he was annoyed that his son spoke to him so easily. So lovingly. "Stop."
"Stop what?"
"Stop. I know I acted like a bastard."
"Yes, you did, but I don't blame you like I don't blame my mother. The two of you made me by accident, and as much as it hurt that you didn't want me, that is in the past now. And I just want the past to be the past now that I'm dead. I don't want to hold onto grudges. A part of me feels like I should because I feel like I'm worth too much to have you in my company. But that is childish. I just want to move on, and be happy."
"I see...But aren't you the tiniest bit furious?! Don't you want to lash out of me?! I swear that I can handle it! It's what I deserve."
Raditz sighed, and then kneed Bardock in the stomach. The older man fell down to the floor on his hands and knees, coughing out. The younger man chuckled a bit sadistically. "I've been actually wanting to do that to Kakarot, but you'll do."
"I...Is that all?"
"Yes. I am a mother, father. I can beat you many times as you like, but then I prefer to handle this more maturely such as beating you with words. Mother is stronger than you."
That certainly did the trick to break the man's pride. "You're...You're just playing with me."
"If you're asking for forgiveness, then I forgive you."
"It can't be that easy!"
"Really because I think I just did."
"Raditz!"
The man's son laughed at him. "Alright, I'll admit that I don't entirely see you as my father nor do I to my mother. So I guess it's easier because I don't hold you at a high place in my life. You're just a man I'm related to Bardock. Forgiveness or not, blood is thicker than water. So just answer me this before I leave for work, when my children wants to see you again, will you come?"
"...Sure." Bardock didn't feel complete after his son left to work. Raditz had been perfectly honest, but the forgiveness felt too easy to accept.
Raditz knew of this, but his father had to accept his version of doing things. Kneeing him in the stomach was fun and all, but he felt completely mature and at peace with himself when he could just speak and be heard. There was no greater way to forgive.
He thought that all would be good, but then he was horrifyingly wrong.
"I wish I never existed."
Raditz was interrupted from his thoughts when the former kai gave him her answer. "No." She told him that she would not stop what she was pursuing.
The man gazed at her expression to see that it wasn't for a clear purpose. Just blind stubbornness. A trait that a lot of her people seemed to share around him. Why couldn't he be surrounded with people who were able to let go of their stupid stubbornness.
Raditz's eyes glowed red for a short second at the shorter woman. But his face stilled with an expression of complete and utter haughty disgust for the creature. The Former Center Kai's eyes wildly widened at his cold gaze, and shivered in fear when he uttered the words, "So you'd hurt people just for your self-satisfaction now. What happened to the passionate savior? Was that all an act? Heh. This always happen with you hopeless retards. Always so stubbornly pursuing like a bunch of saiyans killing just for satisfaction. A satisfaction I have never felt for myself, but this isn't about me. It's about you."
The surroundings around them turned into a desolate planet. The Former Kai grabbed her throat when it felt like she couldn't breathe.
Raditz looked straight ahead to the dark sky while she was kicking wildly to stop this pressure in her throat. "I told you that I wouldn't try to manipulate you into stopping this nonsense. I want you to find a change in character in yourself. If that means making you suffer, then so be it."
"No, Beetra. You and Froze cannot take this mission. Leave it to the others." Raditz told his daughter. The two were at a different planet with Beetra taking care of a bunch of invaders.
"But mom!"
"No 'but mom's with me, young lady. You and your baby brother need to understand that this type of mission isn't suited for your ages. Let the adults handle this."
"I'm seventeen!"
"And still a teenager discovering her hormones and her type of alien males, and Froze is a baby."
"He doesn't have to come!"
"ARF!" Which was translated as, "TRAITOR!"
Beetra flinched from his accusation. "Can you at least tell me what the mission is?"
"All I'll tell you is that it deals with a chain of prostitution."
"Prostitution?"
"Yes."
"You mean like the women who sell themselves for...you know." She looked at her mother with wide, blinking eyes.
"Yes. The 'you know'. It had gotten out of hand and is now being handled by the other space police officers."
"Hasn't this case been going on for weeks though?"
"It's complicated. Prostitution is both considered forced labor and a job, and their pimps aren't exactly merciful in giving away their merchandises. We've been successful in saving some who came out unharmed or injured to a certain degree. The others were beyond our reach."
"Why not just blow up the place?" Beetra figured the afterlife would save the innocence from their captors.
"The success is to keep them alive to help try to heal them back to their feet. The after life doesn't exactly give a victim the best self-esteem. Death shouldn't be considered the first option. I told you that, Beetra."
"Right. Sorry."
"Make sure to keep that in mind, Beetra. Even you, Froze. You shouldn't take death so lightly just because I'm doing fine. The after life should be considered the very last stop of life since it's the exit. Do you understand?"
Both children stopped beating the crap out of the invaders to nod.
Raditz thought that would be the end of that conversation, but he should've expected better when Beetra told his mother about the mission and how he didn't want her or Froze to be a part of it.
Like the retard his mother was, she encouraged them to do something anyway, thinking that Beetra was the appropriate age to take care of it.
But his uneducated mother wasn't aware of how much Beetra was a sponge to her advises and lessons. And to add the teenage hormones setting in on top of that, it was one huge disaster.
Raditz had tried to keep his prostitute life away from his children. He had only told them of how his defected trait kept him from being with Vegeta and going to Frieza to hide it in exchange of him doing under the radar jobs.
Beetra wasn't prepared in any way for what she was about to witness with her eyes. Luckily, Froze had kept the job to take down the guards, take the prostitutes outside to the safety ship, and be the lookout outside of the place. Unluckily, the teenager was captured and was stripped to nothing. She tried to get out, but turned out that they knew about her strength and used their best metal cuffs to hold her down.
The person in charge told her about the past of her mother and how it happened. Beetra's necklace was taken and placed upon a device in his hand that could harm any soul it can come in contact with.
That day Raditz was completely busy with putting the court into function. He was completely caught off guard when his soul was taken and tortured. Feeling a pain that he familiarized himself with before.
"MOM!" Beetra cried out as tears fell.
The men laughed, telling him that this was pay back for making their 'big boss' (Gamete) upset for leaving and have been trying to find a way to make him pay. The effects were to last forever since he couldn't die.
Unable to stand the abuse of her mother, Beetra's eyes glowed orange. All Raditz could remember was a bright light and that multiple planets were taken down all within a minute by the amount of power his daughter released. It would've been half the galaxy if Froze hadn't powered up and created a containing barrier around the power.
Everyone in range died. Raditz was already dead so at the end of the flash, there was only darkness. The male slowly disappeared back to the Other world since the necklace was destroyed as well.
The mother panicked and quickly used the crystal ball to see what was happening to her children. She found them in the safe hands of Master Kunkun. Raditz was aware of who this man was and just hoped that the man was a good one as he took care of them.
Later, when Raditz found a way out for one day by the help of Fortuneteller Baba, he quickly went to his children who were back home with Tarble.
Froze had stayed by his sister's side-in their room-not knowing what had happened but understood that his sister was in deep, remorseful thought.
Their mother knocked on the door since he was tangible now through Baba's magic. "Beetra. Froze. It's mom. May I come in?" It took Beetra a moment before giving permission that he could. Raditz entered to see his children sitting on a bed. He immediately got on his knees to hug them both, and coo to them in comfort.
They were both surprised when he held them. The first time in a long time that they could feel his arms wrapped around them.
"I'm so sorry." Raditz apologized sincerely.
Beetra easily broke into tears as she gripped the fabric of her mother's fabric. Using his shoulder to catch the tears. "No." She sobbed. "It's my fault. I should've listened to you."
"Consequences will come from your actions, Beetra and Froze, and hopefully you both learned of why some missions are left to the adults." He withdrew back to look at both of them with a serious expression which softened with love. "But I'm just glad that you are both safe and not injured. You made quick work of saving a majority of the workers. A percentage higher than anticipated so despite how bad things ended for the villains, you both did great work." He gave them both a kiss and a honest whisper of, "Good work."
"So you're not mad?" His daughter asked wiping her tears with the back of her hand. Breathing shakily but was regaining composure.
"I am upset with your disobedience, and will be for a while before I can trust the two of you again with news about missions. But great minds and passions shouldn't be contained. I guess the court has been keeping me so busy to not see that my two children needed further responsibilities to gain further experience." He grabbed one hand of each. "So I'm putting the two of you in the hands of a great master: Master Kunkun. He will train you to be prepared physically, mentally and emotionally for harder missions. And there is to be a new necklace so I can be with you two again."
"Like this?" Beetra referred to Raditz's solid form.
The mother sadly replied "I'm afraid not. This magic can only last a day. But what's better. Being tangible for a day, or being intangible until the fateful day, huh? So I'm gonna give you two all the hugs you need if you don't feel mature for them, yet."
Froze was just a baby so hugged his mother with great intensity that didn't crush him too much while his tail wagged happily. Beetra giggled and joined in.
The three then spent the rest of the day eating, playing and just chatting. Froze wasn't too rough when they did play-training. The children were attached to him like moths to a flame since being held by the one they love did wonders for their heart.
Yet later, Beetra became withdrawn at the beach. Their favorite place as a family. She sat on the cliff, staring down at the waves crushing against the sharp rocks. Dissolved oxygen bubbling away like fizzy soda. Raditz sat next to her, wrapping his arm around her shoulders. Froze was playing with Beetra's other friends. "Is something wrong?"
"It's nothing." She said, shaking her head yet avoiding eye contact. She fell silent as she thought lightly about her previous deep thoughts. She sighed out after a moment, and then said, "They told me the truth. What Frieza really did to you in exchange of my real dad's safety...and to keep me a secret."
"Beetra-"
"Is it true?" The younger teenager looked at her mother. "Were you prostituted just like those women, men and...children?" Her voice cracked. "Were you put into those torture rooms and drugged?" She breathed in shakily as the scenes she witnessed were vivid in her imagination.
"Beetra, I wasn't prostituted because of you." Raditz answered the real question.
"Are you sure? Because it all started-"
"It started when Frieza planned to kill your biological father. Frieza didn't know you were alive. I could have chosen to be with you and Tarble, Beetra, but I chose your biological father. I made my choices, and they weren't the best, but everyone I love is happy."
"What about you?"
"The happiest. You and Froze are so strong and smart and good, that I couldn't be any prouder as your mother. Frieza and a majority of everyone who hurt me is in hell being given their rightful punishment."
"A majority?"
"A majority soon to be all. You have nothing to truly worry or question. I'm here. No longer in pain and filled with the greatest joy. It's the truth, Beetra." That last phrase seemed to pierce into his daughter.
"...Mom...when they told me that I was the reason, I wished that I never existed. And when they hurt you-"
"Beetra," Raditz had his hands hold her shoulders, making her look at him straight in his eyes to see the emotion of protection and need, but it softened to hurt and remorse which he couldn't show. He closed his eyes and hugged her close, "Never wish for that again. No matter what, never wished for that. I need you to exist Beetra. You and Froze. The two of you are the reasons I strive, so please never wish for that again." He didn't mean to give his daughter guilt but hearing her saying that she wished for such a thing because of him, broke walls inside him. He never wanted to hear his children ever wishing they never existed. He loved them too much to ever fathom the thought that they didn't, and he'd never know.
After the day, Raditz couldn't look at his mother, but he had to get his words across. So the two met at Hell in privacy. "Ra-" She wanted to speak, but the male rose his hand.
"Let's get something straight. I don't hate you or blame you, but I am greatly upset with your actions with my children. Influencing them to go into something they know nothing about. That should be saved for unexpected danger. NOT FOR A PROSTITUTION MISSION! ESPECIALLY IN GAMETE'S TERRITORY WITH PEOPLE WHO KNOW ABOUT ME!" He folded his lips as he tried not to strain his eyebrows to knit any lower or closer. "Of course not since IT WAS NONE OF YOUR FUCKING DAMN BUSINESS!" Then he said to himself out loud, "I should've known better to have let someone with NO EXPERIENCE IN HANDLING A CHILD!"
"JUST GET OUT WITH IT ALREADY THEN!"
"OUT WITH WHAT?! WITH WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?! OR HOW FUCKING RETARDED OR SOFT AM I TO THINK IT WAS A GOOD IDEA TO ALLOW YOU IN MY LIFE!" He realized he approached his mother...this stranger too closely. He backed away to breathe out his nose and calm down. His face felt strained and heated while his chest pounded. He had his hands rub down his face.
He continued, "I guess I should start with this first to make sure it doesn't happen again to my children or anyone else's because you are a pathetic excuse of an adult. But I hold you at a higher pedestal because you actually came home unlike father. But this is not about what's wrong with him, but what's wrong with you. You had your tragedy of losing your parents, and having to hide who you truly are for survival, which must've hurt your pride very well. You may have not hit me, mother, but your words were enough to make me wish that I never existed.
"The only thing that kept me breathing was that I thought that maybe father might think differently. But no! Why I kept living? I don't know! I don't know! It wasn't for you; it wasn't for dad, and it wasn't for my heritage, so why couldn't I have just killed myself. I wasn't scared, but something kept telling me not to!" Raditz sighed out. He wasn't looking at his mother so didn't know what she was thinking. He refused to look at her because if she was hurt, his weak heart would've softened his words but he didn't want to.
"You...are so selfish and weak. And trust me. With what I went through, I know what sin truly is. Those who sin, they are not strong. They didn't know how to retain themselves. Didn't have the strength to be better. They were weak JUST LIKE YOU!" He looked at his mother straight in the eyes now. The woman was in tears with the biggest frown on her face, but she stood still. Not saying a word obediently. And Raditz felt no sincerity for her. His eyes glowed a passionate red. "But for this, I'm to blame like usual. So to correct this, you are not allowed near me or my children. You and Bardock."
The Former Supreme Center Kai was locked in a dungeon on top of a jagged rocky floor. Only a barred hole above was a source of light. Wet ropes tied her wrists together and chafed against her skin. She didn't understand how she was powerless within the saiyan's mind when she held more power. But after all the pain and disturbance she experienced, her passion was near depleted.
Raditz sat down next to her. "So how do you feel?"
"Sshet." She replied bluntly.
"Have you found forgiveness?"
"...Yes." She sobbed. She admitted to the fact that Raditz was right. That she was just too stubborn to forgive herself, and now all she wanted was to go back to Supreme Kai.
Since it was within Raditz's mind, he knew that the former kai was being honest. "There is a way. Miscarry yourself from me."
"I'ill." She then killed herself within Raditz's womb by rejecting his body. She soon faded away from the ropes.
Raditz faded away, too, as he was finally releasing himself from Master Kunkun's sleep bubble. Returning to his female form.
A/N:
So yeah, Raditz does forgive his parents in his own way, but due to Mame's mistake, they aren't allowed near him or his children anymore. And yes, Raditz worked along side Supreme Kai.
And Beetra is pregnant with a demi-god. Beetra is full god since Raditz's god genes override the other species mortality and lack of power. Though Beetra is mortal from a wish and stuff. Froze is too young to decide his life span.
Beetra was born at Age 749 (Raditz-22, Vegeta-17, Goku-12, Yamcha-16)
Froze was born four years later at Age 753 (Raditz-26, Vegeta-21, Goku-16, Yamcha-20)