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Me: -begging Stephenie Meyer- Can't I least have Edward?

Stephenie: No.

12 Stones

The Way I Feel

Lately I've been wandering
Off the narrow path
You've given me so many things that I've never had
And all in all I know it's you that always pulls me through
If you reach deep inside you'll see my heart is true

'Cause I hate the way I feel tonight
And I know I need you in my life
Yes I hate the way I feel inside
And I promise to make the sacrifice

Ch 4 Morals of Right and Wrong

BPOV

I watched as the rain glistened off the window, making tiny sounds as it hit the roof of the car. I forgot how much I actually missed the rain. How much I missed all the green moss that covered every inch of the trees and rocks.

How ironic. I thought to myself.

Jane let out a long, exasperated sigh. "Are we there yet?" she asked Felix who was driving.

Felix sighed too. "You asked that about thirty seconds ago, what would make my answer change. We are not even close of being there."

"We are closer then thirty seconds ago." Jane contradicted. I took my attention off of the window and looked at Heidi who was sitting right beside me.

After Aro specifically told Demetri that he was not allowed to come to Washington with us, Heidi has been ignoring me completely. Actually, ignoring me would have her acknowledging that I was here, but she just stared off, not meeting my eyes. She almost acted mad at me.

"Heidi, what's wrong?" I asked her, touching my hand on her shoulder but she jerked her body away from my touch as though I just burned her.

"This is ridiculous, how long does it take to drive to the most deserted part of Washington!" Jane ranted, throwing her hands above her head.

I saw Felix look at Jane with an annoyed expression on his face while he said, "About another half hour."

I suppressed a laugh. I caught Felix's eyes in the review mirror and he smiled at me and I smiled back. I turned my attention back to Heidi.

"Please Heidi, tell me what's wrong. Is it something I did?" I asked, desperation filling my voice.

She snorted and mumbled something that sounded like "Of course it is something you did." I raised my eyebrows at her but she still didn't look at me.

"She's not going to talk to you." Jane's voice echoed in the back of the car. It took me a second to realize that she was talking to me.

"Why not?" I demanded.

"Funny," Jane mused, "I actually thought that you were smart." I glared at her and she continued, unaffected. "If you really want to know why Heidi hates you now, it's because"-

"Jane!" she hissed, finally turning her head and narrowing her eyes at her. I was utterly confused.

Jane acted as though Heidi didn't even say anything and continued, "Anyways, it's because Demetri spends all his free time with you now instead of Heidi. It's strange really; before you came I actually thought Demetri liked Heidi. It was unbelievable how much time he spent with her! I got so annoyed with them at times…but since you came along, he hasn't even looked at Heidi, I wonder why?"

I stared at Jane for a long time, not comprehending anything she was saying. Ok, so I comprehended everything, but I didn't want to. Demetri and I are just friends, nothing more then that. Sure, I spend all my time with him but whom else am I supposed to talk to, Aro? I shook my head.

"We are just friends…" I trailed off. I knew that we were just friends, but did Demetri?

Heidi snarled at Jane while Jane's high soprano laugh filled the car. "You are a terrible liar. I can see it on your face that you know I am right."

I was about to argue, but what was the point? She was right…the way Demetri looked at me, the way he held me against his chest when I was in pain…

No, I refused to believe that he liked me. He doesn't like me…or does he? But he can't! He knows that I love only-wince- Edward, why would he think differently? Is he that deluded to hope that I will move on with my life?

I felt my eyes widen with recognition. Something Demetri said a while back came flowing into my mind.

"Do you think…that maybe you will ever move on?" was that what he was implying, me to move on to him?

"Heidi…" That's all I could say. I was planning on reassuring her that she had nothing to worry about, he and I are just friends, but for some reason, I knew that was a lie. In my mind me and him were friends, but in his mind…?

"Don't tell me something I already know Isabella." She hissed out, crossing her arms over her chest.

"You don't know anything." I whispered; still not believe the truth behind Jane's words. But since you came along, he hasn't even looked at Heidi, I wonder why? I replayed her words over and over in my head, trying to make sense of them.

"I don't know anything!" Heidi fumed, turning her head around sharply to glare at me. Her eyes were turning onyx with a shade of red around the edges. "How dare you! You must take me to be a fool Isabella, do not think that I don't see what goes on between you and Demetri. I see how he follows you! Wherever you go, he goes too! I see how he looks at you and how you look at him! You must be blind to not realize he's in love with you!"

In love? My mind was in hysterics now, trying to think of something that explained that. He can't…no…it's impossible for him to love me. Why would he love me? I'm nothing special, just a broken mess.

"Nothing goes on between us!" I hissed. "He has been there for me when I needed him; we are just friends, nothing more"-

"Don't give me that 'Just friends' act. You and I both know you want to be more!"

"Obviously you are obliviously blind to the fact that we are just friends! You are making more out of this then necessary. Seeming as though nothing I can say will change your pathetic little mind, go on and think whatever you want, but nothing will change between Demetri and I." I said in an exasperated tone. Heidi looked away from me, mumbling something unintelligent that I couldn't make out.

Nothing is going to change between me and Demetri, I reassured my self. But something deep down inside of me had a strange feeling that it was going to.

There was an awkward silence that followed after our argument. I turned my body around so I was facing the car window again. I imagined Edward being here with me, wrapping his tight arms around my form and telling me everything was going to be ok.

The pain wasn't as bad as it could be. In fact, I couldn't feel the pain coming at all as I looked at my hallucination; it was almost as if the pain was letting me have a break. I silently thanked it and went back to my imaginary world.

I imagined him with little rain drops slowly sliding down his neck, his hair dripping wet also, his white shirt fitting perfectly against his muscular body while he smiled angelically at me. He extended his snow white hand towards me, beckoning me to come forwards. I reached out my arm but I couldn't stretch it across the distance.

Edward's smile faltered as he watched me struggle to get to him. He looked behind him and then back at me anxiously. It was like he was telling me to hurry up. Again I tried to reach him but whenever I did it felt like I was glued in that specific spot.

Pain crossed his eyes as he watched me struggle again and again I couldn't cross the distance. It was like there was an invisible barrier holding us apart.

His velvet voice rang into my mind. "Please Bella, you have to try harder." Surprisingly I didn't feel any pain when he spoke to me either, how strange.

Then there was a bright light that surrounded Edward. I shielded my eyes and when it dimmed down I looked at Edward again. He was fading away from me, slipping from my grip yet again.

Edward! I cried out mentally for him. It looked like he was struggling as well to reach me. I saw him jerking his arms back and forwards, his eyes still locked with me. His left hand reached out to me, agony showing clearly in his topaz eyes.

Finally I felt my legs running towards him, I stretched out both of my hands and reached for him, but he was too high up, I couldn't get a hold of him.

He reached for me too. We were both reaching for each other, trying to break the distance that held us apart.

"Bella!" he cried for me as he went higher out of my sight. Faintly I could still see his god-like figure. There was too much pain his voice, too much sorrow for me to handle. I felt myself fall on my knees, still reaching out desperately towards him.

Edward! I chocked out mentally. I could still see him, fury blatantly covering his eyes as he tried again to get down to me.

This strange force started to pull on my legs, getting heavier and heavier as I struggled to get away from it. I heard Edward's enraged snarl fill the air as whatever it was pulled on my more forcefully.

Then it started to burn me. It felt like my whole body was on fire as the force dragged me down, pulling me farther away from Edward. I mentally screamed out as I realized I was on fire.

I felt myself falling in black until I made contact with something scorching hot. I looked at my skin and realized it was black…burnt. As I scanned around, anxiously trying to find Edward in this terrible place, my eyes caught sight of a sign that hung over a grayish red rock. I went over to it, my feet burning with each step.

Hell: Hopes are burned and replaced with misery…

The car stopped suddenly, jerking me forward. It felt like my face was frozen with shock at the daydream I had. I tried to make sense of it, but I couldn't. What did it mean?

"Are you coming or not?" Felix's annoyed voice brought me back to reality. I slowly got out of the car and stood before a broken down house. It was huge, but it needed repairs done badly. The windows were boarded shut, along with the door.

I walked behind Felix, Jane, and Heidi, still studying the old house. It was fairly big; almost the size of the Cullen's old house, but it was out dated. The porch was cracked, looking as though it was about to fall any second. The white paint job was pealing off of the house as well, it looked deserted.

It looked abandoned, but I could smell them inside. Correction, I could smell the human. I was surprised that I couldn't hear the human's heart-beats in the car. It was as though with each beat it kept on getting faster and faster. The heart-beat was the only thing I could hear, it was so loud!

It was almost giving me a head-ach as we approached the door.

The heart-beat didn't bother me any more, it was the smell. It was a mix of cinnamon combined with vanilla. It was…mouthwatering. I felt the venom spread in my mouth as I breathed it in more and more, wanting it with each breath.

I saw Jane give me a smug smile as she nodded at Felix. He nodded back and then in a fast motion his hands collided with the door, sending it flying forwards.

If I thought the scent was bothering me before, it was like a shock wave coming at me now. The power of it left me stunned by the aroma. I wanted it, I needed it…now.

I quickly stopped the air flow to my lungs, and it was better for me. A lot better. I soon realized that Felix and the rest of them had put on their hoods, and I quickly did the same.

I didn't even have to scan the room to look for the vampire family. Three of them stood before us, all eyes carefully watching us. There was an amber haired women standing next to a black haired man, both holding each other's hands. Beside them stood a brown hair boy, not looking over the age of seventeen. His eyes weren't so guarded as the others. He looked hatefully at all of us, but what I noticed was he was standing right in front of a wooden door.

As I looked more closely, I realized he just wasn't standing by it, he was protecting it. His posture showed that he was ready to kill any one who got passed him.

As I listened to the heart-beat more carefully, I also realized it was coming from inside the wooden door. I turned my head slightly at the door as the heart-beat started to speed up drastically. I could hear the human's each intake of breath as though it was right beside me.

The brown haired boy saw me looking at the door and he snarled at me, his posture giving away everything.

I didn't like wearing this hood, so I shook my head back and forwards, the black hood dropping off of my head as my brown hair came flowing onto my shoulders.

The brown haired male snarled even louder.

"Alexander, hush!" The women spoke, never taking her eyes off of us. He stopped growling but still had his eyes on me.

"Jane," The male who was holding the women's hand spoke, "What a…pleasant surprise to see you here."

I saw Alexander roll his eyes.

Jane smiled at the male who just spoke and said angelically, "The pleasure is all mine, Christopher."

"Of course it is." Christopher said his face still wary as the women's was.

"What brought you all the way out here?" Christopher asked Jane. She laughed, and I saw him look surprised by that.

"Please do not play dumb with us." Jane spoke, still sounding as sweet as ever, "Rumors have it that you and you're family have been harboring a human."

They didn't say anything, and Jane continued, "A human who knows our secrets. Knows who we are and what we do…sound familiar?"

"Now, now," The women said, letting go of Christopher's hand, "I'm sure if we could just compromise about this then"-

"There is no compromising. You should know that by now Alicia. We made specific rules about keeping our kind a secret to the humans and you expect us to make one exception to you?" Felix spoke calmly and soft, but making his voice sound deadly all the same.

"Felix is right," Jane's voice sounding like a five year olds, "What would happen to our reputation if everyone found out that we let you slip by? You know as well as everyone else does that we don't give second chances."

I saw Alicia and Christopher exchange an anxious look.

"Now, where is the precious little human, I know it is in here, I can hear her heart beating faster by the seconds." Jane said, her eyes zeroing in at the wooden door.

"No!" The boy named Alexander snarled, leaping into the air and heading straight for Jane.

I stared horrified as Jane smiled at him like she always did to her victims. He landed on the floor with a loud thud and his body gave way agonized jerks. Everyone could tell he was in obvious agony.

Jane smile grew even more and he let out an ear shattering shriek of pain. The human's heart beat seemed to stop suddenly as the boy's pain filled screams came flowing out of his mouth. I heard feet shuffling in the door.

"Stop it!" Alicia screamed, trying to throw her body in the way of Jane's gaze, but Christopher held her back. It looked like he was about to do the same.

Jane never stopped smiling, and over the agonized screams she spoke to me directly, never taking her eyes off of him either, "Isabella, will you please get the human."

I looked at her in shock. Felix looked over to me and pointed the door, as if I didn't know where the human was.

Slowly I felt my legs carrying me over to the door as the humans heart beat started to speed up again. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Alexander, despite that he was in pain, trying to crawl over to me and stop me from opening the door.

His answering screams meant that Jane put a stop to that instantly.

I slowly opened the door, and inside was a girl with blonde curly waves that covered her face. She was sitting in the corner; it looked like she was clutching her knees.

When she heard the door open her head shot up, her blue eyes filled with fresh tears that were slowly sliding down her creamy face. She didn't look older then sixteen at the most. Fear crossed her face as her eyes locked with mine. I wouldn't blame her for fearing me, I knew what I was.

"Today would be nice Isabella." Jane's annoyed voice filled the room. I slowly knelt down, still holding my breath, and put out my hands for her to take. She shrank away from my arms as though I had hurt her already.

"It's ok, I'm not going to hurt you." as soon as the words came out of my mouth I knew they were a lie. I wasn't going to hurt her, but the others might.

Her blue eyes landed on my hands again, and slowly she took them. I pulled her up and she slowly let go of my hands.

She didn't look at me, but spoke very softly, "You're here to kill me, aren't you?"

It was like she already accepted her fate. I was going to say no, but that would be a lie as well.

Instead, I just said, "its ok." She shook her head at me once, understanding filling her blue eyes. Both of us knew that she was going to die. I put my hand on her shoulder and slowly led her out of the door so the others could see her.

Jane had stopped her power on Alexander and now the women named Alicia and the man named Christopher were holding him. When I brought out the girl, his eyes came desperate with mine, pleading.

I couldn't look away from him. I watched as he looked at the girl with so much love…I couldn't describe it. It reminded me of when I was a human and Edward was still alive. How he looked at me like that.

This boy loved this girl, an impossible love for both sides. I felt pity for both of them.

"She is a pretty thing." Jane's voice was gently as she spoke, looking directly at the girl.

"What is your name?" she asked her. The girl's heart started to beat faster as Jane spoke but her voice came out calm.

"My name is Bethany Wilson." She spoke, never taking her eyes off of Alexander as he was doing the same. I started to feel anger at Jane and the rest of them. I felt my right hand start to shake with something that was familiar to me.

"Bring her with Isabella." Jane spoke, sounding bored now.

"No! Don't take her! Beth!" Alexander cried out to her, fighting both of the vampire's that were restraining him, but he couldn't get out of their grip.

"I love you." said Bethany, choking back sobs.

"Isabella, don't just stand there, come on." Jane told me, waiting impatiently by the door. I couldn't decide what to do. I didn't want to get involve with this, part of me just wanted to walk out the door with this girl and get it down with, but the other part of me didn't want to move at all.

What was right? Would it be right for me to let Bethany go and be happy with Alexander like I once was with Edward? Or would I be saving her from a terrible heart ache that would soon happen when she realizes that she can't be with him, no matter how much she wants to.

Would it be wrong if I took her away from him? What is the difference between right and wrong? I didn't know that answer, but it felt wrong and right if I took her and it felt wrong and right if I left her. What was I suppose to do?

With all these questions stirring inside of me, I also felt anger toward everyone. Anger at Jane, Felix, and Heidi for trying to take them away from each other, anger at this family for making me do something I know I will regret, and to top it all off, irrational anger towards this girl and this Alexander for loving each other when I had no one to love.

"That's it; I guess I will have to do it myself." Jane said, walking over to me clearly irritated. I balled my hands into fist as the morals of right and wrong came back into my head.

Something clichéd inside of me as Jane reached to take the quivering Bethany out of my hands. I looked at the family one more time, all their eyes looking as though they were pleading with me to stop her. Stop her…

With a snap decision, I flung Bethany behind my back just as Jane was about to grab her. This heated energy started to fill my hands and as Jane was about to say something, I lifted both of my hands at her and lightening and fire came shooting out of my palms and into Jane.

Her body went flying through the wall. Felix and Heidi came in to see what went wrong, but I sent them flying back as well.

The family in front of me looked frightened, as though I was planning on doing that to them.

Instead I walked over to them, towing Bethany along with me.

"Listen to me carefully," I spoke urgently to them as I handed Alexander Bethany, "You have to get out of her now. Leave the country, start a new life, and then change her."

"No!" Alexander said, glaring at me as he clutched Bethany to his side.

"You have no other options; this is the only one I can guarantee for Bethany's life to be saved. If you do not change her, then they will be back to finish the job. You have to trust me on this."

"Why should we trust you?" Alicia said, narrowing her eyes at me.

"Because I could have killed her when I went into that closet, I could still kill her and all of you right now but I'm not." I said. They still didn't look like they trusted me.

"It's the only way. But right now you have to get out of here. I can hold them off as long as I can, but run away, far away."

"Thank you." Christopher said, sounding truly genuine. I smiled at him and then looked behind me as I heard an enraged snarl coming outside.

"Go!" I mouthed. I didn't need to tell them twice, because they were already heading straight for the door, Alexander cradling Bethany to his chest. But her eyes were not on his, like I expected, instead they were on mine. But her face quickly disappeared as they went around the corner.

I knew this was bad what I did, but as I headed for the entrance, I realized that if I could hold them back long enough for the family to get away, I could get away also.

I ran out onto the grass and started to run at full speed through the trees. I leaped over rocks, avoiding anything that might slow me down. This was the only chance I was getting at an escape and I was taking it.

Blonde hair was right beside me then, and before I could do anything, Heidi was already colliding with me, sending both of us tumbling down hill.

I landed in a stream of water, the rain still pouring off of my face as I slowly got up. I got into my fighting stance as did Heidi. I was not going to let her keep me from my freedom; I would rip her to shreds before she brought me back to Italy.

Something grabbed my arm and threw me, sending me spiraling down hill again. My body made contact with a tree, which I knocked over.

Jane tried to attack my again, but I bottled up my anger just like I did last time and sent it directly at her chest. She screamed out in pain as I held her in mid air with my power, my lightening staying connected with her body.

Then another hard body knocked me to the ground, making me lose my connection. I heard Jane's body make a loud boom as she hit the cold ground.

Felix bit into my neck, and I screamed out in pain as his venom started to spread through me. It felt like my transformation again, I could feel my neck on fire.

I lifted both of my hands and gripped his hair, lifted his head, and threw him backwards. I slowly staggered up, my neck still burning but not as much.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Heidi making her way over to me, but I dodged her attack by side stepping her. She wasn't expecting that so she went tumbling into a tree.

I looked over and saw Jane staggering up as well, clutching her chest as her breaths came out ragged. I knew she was in not condition to be fighting me again, so I started to turn around to make a run for it again.

Felix and Heidi were there, blocking my exit. Each looked ready to kill. I stared desperately for another escape route, but the only one I could find with out them catching me was if I ran passed Jane.

I turned my head to see if I could make it, but my chances weren't so good. Jane looked like she recovered from my attack, and now she looked beyond angry.

Just as I was about to make my move, I saw all three of them go rigged, each looking truly disgusted. But fear slowly dawned on their face as their eyes widened, looking off to the right.

I looked too, but all I could hear was this loud, pounding against the earths ground. It sounded oddly familiar, like I knew that certain sound from somewhere, but I couldn't place it.

"No…they weren't supposed to have come here today!" Heidi shrieked, clearly frightened by whatever was coming.

"That's…impossible." Jane's voice sounded strained as she slowly started to back up along with everyone else.

Something registered in my mind at the familiar sound, something I knew from my past, something that Aro told me I killed along with everyone else when I was fighting Annabel.

Something that Aro had specifically told me that I had killed. Aro had lied to me…

I heard a very distinctive howl coming from the direction, but not just any howl, a wolves howl. A werewolves howl of rage.

12 Stones

The Way I Feel

'Cause I hate the way I feel tonight
And I know I need you in my life
Yes I hate the way I feel inside
And I promise to make the sacrifice

Ok, so in case none of you got this, that little thing that Bella had about Edward, well, i was basically trying to show you what she thought of Edward. The light meant that Edward was being carried away towards Heaven, but he didn't want to go with out Bella, and Bella was being pulled down towards Hell because she killed an angel (edward) thats what i had her think anyways. it was just a day dream she had, nothing too serious to worry about.

Looks like Bella found out that she didn't kill Jacob or the rest of the wolves that were fighting that day with her. but jacob doesn't know it is her, his pack and him just think it is vampires on their land. and the reason they didn't find out that the other vampire family who was living in that house was because they just moved in that house only about a week ago and dind't really go out side much.

So when Bella, Felix, Heidi, and Jane were all fighting, they went quit a distance away from that house and more into the woods, making the werewolves smell them on their land.

I know i am evil to leave you guys on cliff hangers, but i just can't help it, i am addicted to them. :D

I know i haven't been keeping my updating promises either, but blame it on my moronic teachers to decide out of the spurr of the moment to give hours worth of homework! i think they actually enjoy torturing me with it! they know that i am going to updating on my story so they decide to make my life misreable by telling me to complete this ten paged packet by the next day! well, they don't know that i am writing a story but still, they just want me to have no life at all and spend all my free time doing all their lame homework.

Sorry for my rant their, but it annoys me! I can probably update tomorrow -a big IF there- if my stupid teachers don't give me any homework. but the day my teachers don't give me homework is the day Edward cullen magically appears in my room and asks me to marry him. -sighs-

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