My Tourniquet Chapter 6: ch5 My Fault, a twilight fanfic

An update!! I'm not going to give you any more excuses because honestly, I know none of you care. So I know this chapter is short but for some reason i always have the chapters with Edward's point of view short, i don't know why though.

anyway, on with the story!

Disclaimer:

Me: -see's a shooting star- i wish i was Stephenie Meyer!

Me:-5 minutes later, walks up to random person- Am I Stephenie Meyer?

Random Person: No...?

Me: Damn it

Pain

By Three Days Grace

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Ch.4 My Fault

EPOV

Running.

I seemed to be doing that a lot lately. I ran from my family during those weeks without –wince- Bella when they tried to reach out and comfort me. I ran from the awful truth that she was gone, trying to fight it with every fiber of my stone body. I ran from everything that haunted me; distressed me in ways that I could not handle.

And now I was running to the problem, heading straight towards it with no thoughts of turning back. And the source of this problem that was causing me all this anger and aggression, one word.

Victoria.

I pulled my lip over my teeth as I thought her name. She hurt Bella, changed her into a monster and caused her suffering. She made Bella kill her own father and then she sold her out to the Volturi, having them also wanting her dead.

A snarl erupted from my heaving chest as me and my family dodged the pine trees and obstacles that were trying to slow us down.

Victoria had hurt Bella, the wondrous incarnation of pure good, and now I was going to hurt her, bad. She was going to suffer, feel my pain for what she did to Bella, my beautiful angel.

I could see the light up ahead, but that's not what my eyes locked onto. It was a streak of red the danced in front of my vision, blinding me with its color. It blocked everything else around it. The red-haired demon was the only thing that I could see, the rest of my surroundings died out of my line of vision.

Victoria.

I didn't need to say the name out loud; my family figured it out as soon as I did.

Let's rip out those red locks from her head. Emmett smiled, his teeth glistening like extra sharp knifes.

Edward, Alice caught my attention and I turned slightly so I could see her, but still see the fiery red strands of hair.

We are about to cross over the boundary, are you positive you want to do this?

"I have never been more sure in my life then today." I told her, redirecting my eyes so I was watching as Victoria stopped moving around.

Agonized screams filled the forest, almost making me stop. We were too late from saving the man's life, I already accepted that we would be, but we weren't too late to rip Victoria apart piece by piece.

I focused on her mind; trying to decipher her thoughts. Surprisingly, she wasn't thinking anything. I kept on drawing up blanks each time I tried unsuccessfully to get inside her head.

I took a deep breath, and sure enough, I smelled it. Blood.

She bit him. Rosalie affirmed to herself, but she started to run just a little faster. I didn't know what we would do with man once we killed her. Should we kill him or should we give him a chance at life? What I didn't get is why would she want to change him? There was no point to it? I quickly banished that thought from my mind, letting the other ones consume me.

Kill her…

Just kill her…

For Bella, kill her…

Those are the thoughts I centered my mind around. I was doing this for Bella; for all the times this creature has hurt her beyond ways I could imagine for an angel. It was a sin, in my mind and I am sure in everyone else's as well, to cause an angel great suffering and now Victoria is going to pay for her sin.

"Jasper. Stop." I spoke deliberate, snarling out each word. He released his power on my immediately. I didn't mean to lash out at Jasper, but my thoughts and my emotions were already running around in an angry mob through my body. I couldn't control myself; I needed to let it out on her, the demon that hurt the angel.

And then we stepped through the trees that were shielding her from my view and the man. The first thing I saw was the man, not even in his mid-twenties as I really looked, withering on the ground and gripping his neck as the screams escaped his dry lips. There was a pool of fresh blood surrounding his entire lower body as he moaned in agony.

The second thing I saw was her, Victoria. She looked even more evil then the last time I saw her. Her red hair stuck to her face, covering her eyes from me. In one fast motion she wiped her hair away from her face, revealing behind it the dark crimson orbs that were her eyes, the devils eyes. she slowly put her arms by her sides….waiting.

But what made me quiver in anger from head to toe was the smile she had on her face as her eyes locked with mine. It was a simple smug smile, telling me that it was no use. She began to let lose small child-like giggles as she watched me become angrier.

Jasper was no longer trying to control anyone's emotions anymore, but just trying to contain himself from not killing her right this second. His thoughts were frantic, I couldn't make out most of them but the majority of it landed around the area of wanting to rip her to shreds.

"Who would have thought," Victoria spoke, putting her hands together with a bemused expression on her face, "That out of all the places I have been to recently, I happen to run into you, how convenient."

I was too overcome with anger to say anything to her. The nerve of her actually talking to us! I balled my hands into fist, trying to get a hold of myself. And what really struck a nerve was that she didn't seem frightened at all, like it was us who should be scared.

"But you really caught me, excuse me, I mean us," she waved her hand to motion to the man who was jerking back and forwards, "At a bad time, perhaps we should rearrange our meeting some other time?"

"There will be no other meeting." Alice smoke calm and collective, her voice sounding deadly all the same. This stupid, pathetic excuse for a vampire better watch her mouth.

Victoria pulled her mouth into a frown. "Well that's unfortunate."

Emmett snarled out, "Only unfortunate for you." Victoria looked confused as ever as Emmett said this, which made me grow more and more angry every second. Again I tried to read her thoughts, but drew up nothing.

"What he means is," I spoke for the first time, "You won't be living for much longer for a next encounter."

She narrowed her eyes at me as I spoke, but kept the smile plastered on her face. She walked over the man that was behind her and bent down to stroke one of her pale fingers across his face, only to look back at me while she did this.

"The odds are not on your side today Edward, there on mine." Victoria growled at me. I was about to respond to this, but I caught a glimpse of what she was thinking, or I should say, directing straight towards me.

You'll pay for what you did to James. And just as she thought this to me, it was gone. I felt my hands forming into fits; my arms slightly shaking.

"You will pay for what you did to Bella." I snarled, ignoring the stabs of pain as I said her name out loud. Victoria's smile grew wider.

"Silly child, Bella got what she deserved. She was meant to become a cold blooded killer like the rest of us and she did. I just helped her along. But I did enjoy watching her destroy her life right before her eyes, that was quit amusing…but now she's dead, probably rotting away in hell for what she did!"

I snarled and tried leaping towards her, but Alice put a restraining hand on my chest, preventing me any further.

Patience Edward. Alice thought to me, moving her hand so it was resting against my shoulder still restraining.

"Along with James." I spat out his name as though he burnt my tongue. This time I was not the one who lost their temper. Victoria stood up suddenly, all emotions drained from her eyes as a hiss escaped her mouth.

"Don't you dare say his name!" she snarled, taking two steps forward. It was that second that would decide who made the next move. Victoria stood before me, heaving with obvious hate at me while I and my family slowly started to get into our stances.

"Do you honestly want to fight me Edward?" Victoria whispered seductively, moving along with the gentle breeze of wind, pacing back and forwards slowly, never taking her eyes from me.

"It won't be much of a fight." I answered.

"You're right."

And with those simple words, I bent my legs forwards and sprang at her.

Kill her…

For Bella…

As those thoughts raced through my head, I saw something that I didn't want to believe. I thought my eyes were deceiving me, but apparently I was wrong.

I had leaped faster then my family, and for some reason, Victoria was anticipating that. Fire shot out of nowhere from the dark forest and landed dead behind me; I could almost feel the flames against my legs and I landed to the right of Victoria, ready to attack again. I felt Emmett land stealthy beside me, along with Jasper, but I didn't hear Alice or Rosalie. I turned my head in the direction were they just were, where the fire was, and dread seeped through my veins at that instance.

An orange fiery wall surrounded Alice and Rosalie, preventing them any further. I heard something I would never want to hear; something so heart wrenching that it made my feet stagger with the force.

Alice screamed out in pain.

It was like a horror movie was playing right before my eyes; I saw Alice, my sister, the only person who knows exactly how I feel, fall gracefully to the ground, landing with barely any noise.

I waited with tense eyes, as did Emmett and Jasper, hoping-begging she would get up.

She didn't. She stayed down, not moving once; motionless.

Oh no…I could see Rose through the blazing fire rushing over to her side, kneeling down besides her.

"Alice!" Jaspers tortured cry echoed off the suddenly disturbing silence. I waited for it to be over, waited for Alice to spring up and laugh cheerfully like she always did. I waited….

Edward…oh no…I have to…Alice! Jaspers thoughts were incoherent. I saw him put his hands on his head, gripping his hair tightly. He stepped forward, and for a second I thought he was heading straight to the flames, but he quickly turned his body around, his eyes onyx, his lips curling over his teeth, revealing the razor sharp weapons. He let out a furious snarl, clenched his fits together in anger, and sprang like a bullet being shot from a gun behind us, straight at Victoria.

Just as Emmett and I were about to do the same, something flew right passed us and collided with Jasper, sending him flying backwards.

In his place, stood a man about the age of seventeen, brown wavy hair blowing with the breeze, golden eyes blazing. His clothes were torn everywhere; his shirt was barely clinging to his body. There was something about him…that I didn't like. He looked right at me, his eyes showing nothing. No remorse, no guilt, no emotion at all.

Edward Cullen. He thought, his eyes never wavering from mine. He looked over at Emmett, who was fuming with anger. His chest was heaving up and down as this strange man studied Emmett's appearance as well.

Emmett Cullen. He thought this time, nodding his head slightly.

Jasper was suddenly by my side, growling furiously.

I felt snarls ripping off of my chest as this man slowly and calmly walked to Victoria's side. Her smile grew even wider.

I looked over in Rosalie's direction. She was still kneeling beside Alice; I could see her hands on her face.

Alice, please get up…please. You're going to be fine; you just have to get up… for us…Rosalie's thoughts halted, as though she wasn't sure of something. I could see her press her head to Alice's, her lips right by her ears, whispering something that should have been too low for any of us to hear, but I heard it as though she was standing right besides me.

"For Bella Alice, please…"

Kill her…

For Bella, kill her…

I sprang.

My brothers sprang as well, only both of them heading straight towards the new male. I didn't see what happened with them, my only attention was for Victoria.

I snarled, my body colliding with hers, sending us both to the ground. I quickly repositioned myself so I was putting all my weight on top of her, making sure she could not escape.

She thrashed under my arms, but it was no use, I had the better advantage. Furious snarls came from behind me and then a loud thud as well.

I put one hand around her neck while my other hand gripped her hair forcefully. When I began to pull she started calling out a name that was unfamiliar to me, but I didn't care, the only thing that I cared about was killing her, making her pay.

I wrapped my fingers around her red locks and pulled and then I felt a hard hand grab my shoulder and thrust me backwards.

As I tried to get up, the same orange flame came soaring at me, hitting my square in the chest.

I crumbled to the ground at the force of it, gasping for breath as I felt the heat spread through my body.

Out of the corner of my eye I saw my brothers enraged forms charging at the male, but he sent them soaring backwards as well.

I looked up and watched as he helped Victoria up, brushing his hand over her hair.

As I tried to get up, he merely flicked his wrist, sending another wave of fire that made impact with my stomach this time, making me collapse against the ground as the pain intensified.

I looked over at my family, watched as Jasper got to his feet and ran through the fire that blocked him from his wife, seeming oblivious to the fact that I was hurt. I saw him slid next to Rosalie, huddling over Alice's form, stroking her tenderly. I looked over to my right and saw Emmett struggling to get to his feet, clutching his stomach and gasping in pain with each move.

Victoria didn't glance back at me at all, only flung the man that was changing over her shoulders and disappeared into the forest, the brown haired male following right behind her.

My fault…

Guilt overwhelmed me; crushed me with its power.

This was my fault that Alice was hurt, my fault that I put my family in this situation. Can't I do anything right?! I hated myself at that moment; I wanted to die right now. I was internally begging them to come back and kill me. I wanted them to finish the job; save me from this self raging agony that was slowly spreading through my legs. I wanted death, and I welcomed it with open arms.

I failed everyone…

I failed Alice…

I failed my family…

I failed Bella…

The pain locked around my dead heart, squeezing the life right out of me. I don't deserve to live; I am a miserable monster, failing everyone around me. I had put my family at risk for my moronic decision, put Alice's life on the line for my stupid mistake.

This is my entire fault. If I would have agreed with Alice about not crossing the treaty line, none of this would have happened, and then maybe she would be standing with my family right now, not cradled against Jaspers burnt chest…lifeless.

I couldn't tell if she was alive or not, her thoughts were blank, like she blacked out. But it wouldn't be the first person who died because of me.

Bella had died for my doing.

The agony ripped through my shattered heart, tearing at it from all angles. It felt like it was slowly being pried from my chest, each stab of pain constantly reminding me what I live without.

I moaned from the intensity of it.

I knew I should try and get up, but when I did a new wave of physical and emotional pain swept through me, making me crumble against the dirt ground. I didn't deserve to live, I deserved to die.

Loud booms echoed off in the distance, sounding like rocks slamming into rocks with great force.

With all the strength I could muster, I lifted my self off the ground, trudging my legs toward the rest of my siblings. All the while my thoughts centered around one main thing.

My fault...

Pain

By Three Days Grace

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand

I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain

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