disclaimer: I don't own anything associated with The Black Donnellys.

The next morning Teddy went to the bar with Tommy. When they got there Jimmy was there, that wasn't an issue she wasn't really getting along with Tommy or Jimmy right at this moment, but she began feeling weird, "Tommy, I want to go home."

"In a minute, I need to talk to Jimmy."

"I want to go now."

Tommy shook his head, "Sit down and we'll leave in a minute."

Teddy went behind the bar and dialed the phone, "Kevin, can you come get me at the bar? Tommy's right here, but he won't bring me home. Ok." She hung up, "I'm gonna wait out front, Kevin said he would be here in a few minutes."

Tommy blocked her way out from the bar, "You'll wait in here."

"Come on, I'm just gonna wait out front." She turned to go out the other side and Jimmy was blocking it.

He shook his head, "You'll wait in here."

"Move, Jimmy!"

"No!"

She got right up in his face even though she knew Jimmy hated it, "Move!"

"No!" He yelled back.

Teddy made a move to go over the bar and they both moved in front of the doors.

Teddy screamed because she felt trapped, "You don't want to let me out willingly, fine!" She picked up a beer mug and smashed it on the floor.

Teddy looked at her brothers, they didn't budge. She came out from behind the bar, picked up a stool and threw it. She looked again, nothing.

They were both holding their stances. Jimmy looked at her unimpressed, "Are you done with the tantrum?"

She walked over to him, "I want to wait outside."

He leaned forward, "We don't always get what we want in life do we, sweetie?"

Teddy began freaking out, "I need to get out! The walls are closing in! I need to get out!" She was pounding on the windows and tables.

She even pounded on Tommy's chest, "Let me out! Please let me out."

Tommy shook his head; he figured it was just an act to get them to let her outside.

Teddy began hyperventilating and she grabbed her throat. She staggered backwards clawing at the air.

She had a look of terror in her eyes; it was that look that made both of her brothers move toward her.

Tommy grabbed her arms and shook her, "Breathe! Breathe, damn it!"

Teddy's eyes rolled up into her head and she fell limp in Tommy's arms.

Jimmy reached them, "Is she ok?"

Tommy sat down with Teddy on his lap, "She's breathing fine now."

Jimmy wiped his face, she was scared shitless, but he wasn't going to tell Tommy that, "What was that?"

"I'm guessing panic attack."

Jimmy sat down, "How long is this going to go on for?"

"I don't know, but until she can control it we'll have to keep her at home."

"Ok, I can close the bar for awhile."

Tommy shook his head, "We can keep it open and we'll just take turns coming down here."

Kevin walked in and immediately went to Teddy's side. He knelt on the floor next to Tommy's leg and stroked Teddy's face, "What happened?"

They told him what happened and Kevin was shocked, "You weren't going to let her outside?"

They both shook their heads, "Nope, she needs to stay with one of us at all times."

While Kevin was thinking about what they had said, Teddy groaned and opened her eyes, "Where am I?"

"You're at the Firecracker. You got all worked up and passed out." Tommy said doing a mental assessment of her condition.

Teddy stood up and was forced to grab Kevin's arm because her knees felt weak. She looked up at Kevin, "I need to go home."

Kevin put his arm around her waist, almost holding her up, "Ok, honey, let's go."

Tommy stood up, "I'm coming too."

"Yea, I'm going to close the bar and come home too." Jimmy locked the back door.

"You two don't have to do me any favors, I'm sure that Kevin and Sean can handle this. I wouldn't want to put either of you out."

Jimmy and Tommy stopped; Teddy's comment hit them both like a bullet to the chest.

As they were walking home, Kevin spoke, "You shouldn't be so hard on them and they are only looking out for you."

"I know, but I'm not a baby. I can handle things on my own."

Kevin shook his head, "No, you can't, baby sister. I remember what you looked like when you were laying in that hospital bed and so don't they. None of us have ever been so scared in our lives. So if they get to be a little overbearing then you have to understand, ok?"

"Is that a request or is that an order?" She looked at Kevin.

"That is just a suggestion. I know you're going to do what you want to do anyway, but don't forget that no matter what they do they are always going to love you."

Teddy hugged Kevin, "Ok, I understand. How about when we get upstairs we play some checkers?"

"You got it."

Sean got up at 2 am; he thought he heard a noise in the living room. He crept out of his room as quietly as he could, but before he got to the end of the hall he saw Teddy in the kitchen, "What are you doing up?"

Teddy looked at him, "I couldn't sleep so I thought I'd make some coffee and read. Do you want a cup?"

Sean shook his head, "No, I prefer not to have a caffeine buzz at 2 am. Plus, I need to work in the morning."

She nodded, "You go back to bed then, I'll be ok."

He leaned up against the wall, "It will be you and Kevin here tomorrow, you ok with that?"

"As long as our other brothers leave me alone I'm ok with it."

Sean shrugged, "Good night, Teddy."

"Night, Sean."

That morning all the guys came out of their rooms to find Teddy asleep on the couch with a book open on her chest and a half drank cup of coffee on the table.

Sean put a blanket over her, "She finally fell asleep."

"What do you mean, she finally fell asleep?" Tommy looked at Sean.

Sean grabbed a cup of coffee, "She was awake at 2 o'clock. She said something about not being able to sleep."

He put his cup in the sink, "Kevin, I've gotta go to work. Tell Teddy that I will see her later and that I said for her to be good."

Kevin nodded, "You got it, Sean."

He closed the door and Teddy sat up, "Ma?"

Kevin brought her a glass of water, "No, sweetie, Sean left for work. He said you were up early this morning, couldn't sleep?"

She took the water and shook her head.

"I'm not going anywhere today, so why don't you just take it easy."

She nodded, "Where's ma?"

"She already left for work."

"Can I call her?" She looked at Kevin.

Tommy sat down next to her, "You can call her when she goes on her lunch break."

She stood up and looked at Tommy and Jimmy, "Don't you two have somewhere to be, running a bar or scaring small children?"

Jimmy looked at the floor, "Tommy's going down to the bar today."

Teddy rolled her eyes, "Wonderful." She turned to Kevin, "I'm going to my room."

Jimmy watched her walk down the hall, and then he grabbed a cup of coffee, "She is going to hate us until all the shit she was taking is out of her system."

Tommy nodded, "I know, but we can handle it. I'm just worried about how she's going to handle this and I want to know who was giving her that shit."

Jimmy turned to him, "I still have some friends on the streets that I can ask. I'll do that and then I'll meet you at the bar later."

"Ok" Tommy nodded and turned to Kevin, "No matter what she does do not let her leave this apartment."

"I'm not stupid, Tommy, just go and do what you have to do. We'll be fine here."

Tommy and Jimmy left. Kevin began cleaning up the apartment, 'Maybe if Teddy hears me cleaning she'll come out.' He couldn't be that lucky because Teddy didn't come out.

Teddy didn't come out because she was on her cell phone, "No, I don't have the money, Charlie."

"You owe me for the last shipment and you still owe me for the 1800 dollars you used to bail your brother out, don't think I forgot about that."

"I know and I'll get it to you somehow. Right now they're all watching me like hawks. Poor Teddy has a drug problem and all hell breaks loose, but Jimmy had his problem for years and no one said a damn thing."

"I don't want to hear about your fucked up family I just want my fuckin' money. Get it to me by this afternoon or you won't like what happens."

Teddy began to panic and she didn't like it, "I can't get out of the house, how am I going to do that?"

"I don't know, you figure it out." Charlie hung up the phone.

Teddy started to hyperventilate again, her panic attacks seemed to hit her when she got upset. She couldn't scream so she pounded on the floor, hoping to get Kevin's attention.

He came charging in the room, "Teddy, are you…" Kevin fell to his knees next to her, "Calm down, you're ok. I'm here."

Kevin stroked her hair and held her in case she passed out. Teddy closed her eyes and tried to take deep breaths. It took a good 15 minutes, but she managed to calm down.

"I can't handle this anymore, Kevin; you guys either need to let me have the drugs or let me die."

Kevin sat back, he was shocked by what she said, "I don't think so. Do you know what would happen to all of us if you died? We would fall apart and probably follow you to the grave."

Teddy climbed up on her bed and lay down, "I'm tired, Kevin, I think I'll try to get some sleep."

"Ok, sweetie, I'll be right out here if you need me." He kissed Teddy's forehead and went back out into the living room.