[A/N] An update and so soon, what is happening? Okay so I'm trying out a new thing, how would you feel if I updated more regularly (every 2/3 weeks) with a slightly shorter chapter (Around 10,000 words), let me know through PM or by reviewing. Thanks again for the constant support of this fic, I was blown away by response I got for my last chapter, so thanks for that. I can only hope this chapter is received half as well.
"Good morning" Paige's voice rasped as her eyes fluttered awake, taking in Emily's half-sleeping form as she lay affectionately curled into her side.
"Morning. Last night was umm?" Emily began, her voice timid and still laden with sleep.
"Last night was... interesting?" Paige filled in the blanks after a moment of hesitation.
"I guess you could say that." Emily laughed lightly. "So now what?"
"Well I plan on kissing you some more this morning. Only if you'll let me?" Paige spoke confidently a twinkling glint in her eye.
"Nope, morning breath. Sorry." Emily shrugged, nuzzling her face into Paige's side to cover her breath.
"Emily? Really? We were together almost three years and after the first month or so who cared about having a minty fresh mouth. We've made out hundreds of times in the morning, I have willingly and happily kissed you after you've eaten garlic." Paige explained her tone bordering on whinging, desperately craving Emily's lips once again.
"Yeah well, I want this time to be as good as perfect." Emily smirked, biting her lip after seeing the pure hunger in Paige's eyes.
"Oh shut up, now you're just making excuses." Paige leaned forward while using her hands to capture Emily's chin, pulling the other girl's face towards her own. Their lips finally meeting again, crashing together passionately and reinvigorating the feelings and memories from last night. The embrace was like opening a time capsule and reliving certain elements of the past whilst tongues rekindled a brilliant friendship, as desperate lips mixed together.
Paige never once allowed her lips to leave Emily's for more than a few seconds, only for when the two needed to capture a breath of air. She moved carefully so she was half lying across Emily's strong frame, allowing their two bodies to become even closer. Emily's hands immediately entangled into the brunette's soft hair as she pulled Paige even further into her.
The two sets of lips growing ever redder and swelling as a result of ongoing nipping, sucking and teasing. Brief, meaningful glances shared between the two, every few minutes when they separated for vital amounts of air that was needed to sustain their heated kiss. Paige's hands falling to Emily's hips, her fingertips grazing the exposed skin found between her tank top and pyjama pants, the electrifying touch enough to elicit a subtle moan from Emily's lips.
Emily eventually found enough strength to reluctantly push Paige off her for a moment. "Paige... Paige, stop for a minute. Maybe we should talk about this."
"I am so tired of talking" Paige sighed, moving forward to re-capture Emily's lips in one swift movement. Emily couldn't help but kiss her back.
"Paige, PAIGE! Are you in here?" The two girls separating on hearing a voice rocket through the room.
"Shhh, just stay still" Paige whispered with panic, trying to quickly untangle herself from Emily and straighten herself up just in time for Hanna to come bursting into the room. Paige nearly fell over as her leg became twisted and tangled up within the comforter that had been tossed to the floor mere minutes before they were interrupted. Emily struggled to hold back a wicked snigger at her ex-girlfriend's clumsiness, as she tried to stay quiet and keep her presence hidden from her best friend.
"Are you okay?" Hanna asked quizzically, her eyes scrutinizing Paige's awkward stance.
"Yeah, yeah, you just umm... uhhh I... I just woke up." Paige faked a yawn trying to add substance to her lie.
"You're all flushed, and have sexy bed hair. Did I umm... did I just walk in on some private, self-loving Paige time? I mean I'm all for that kind of thing, no need to feel embarrassed, Paige." Hanna smirked, quirking an eyebrow towards Paige's brightening red-face.
"Umm yeah... I guess you caught me... ha ha." Paige went along with Hanna, her tone shy and awkward.
"Okay well, breakfast is ready... whenever you're ready of course, no rush." Hanna spoke with such nonchalance, her smirk only growing when she saw Paige grow even more embarrassed at her playful words.
"Okay thanks... yeah maybe I'll umm... go shower and be right down." Paige rubbed at the back of neck, unable to look Hanna in the eye.
"Cool. You haven't seen or heard from Emily this morning, have you? She's not in her room and the bathroom's open, so?" Hanna questioned.
"What, Emily? No... no I didn't see her. I mean why would I? I was here, alone. Just me all along. Yep, no Emily." Paige tried to remain as calm as possible but she was terrible in these kind of situations, she could already imagine Emily face palming at her response.
"Okay, maybe she was up early and went for run or walk or something? See you in a few, Paige." Hanna shrugged her shoulders, thankfully associating Paige's odd behaviour down to the fact that she may have walked in on Paige at an awkward time.
"Yeah maybe?" Paige added, before Hanna turned to walk down the stairs. The moment she left, Paige was able to slump against the wall letting out a relieved sigh.
"That..." Paige began talking to Emily.
"Oh and Paige... maybe make it a cold shower?" Hanna quipped taking a few steps back up the stairs so Paige could hear her, giggling quietly to herself.
This time she stayed frozen until she knew the blonde was back on the first floor.
"That was close..." Paige finally released her breath, pushing the door closed before wrapping her arms around Emily who had walked in from the balcony and into the room.
"Umm yeah... but now what? I can't just waddle into the kitchen and act like I was in my room this whole time, Hanna will know something's going on. I mean this is Hanna we're talking about." Emily exclaimed speaking into Paige's shoulder, leaning further into Paige's warm embrace.
"Please tell me you're brought some work-out gear?" Ideas started to procure in Paige's mind.
"You want to work-out?" Emily pulled out of Paige's hold, a little confused as to where Paige was going with this.
"What no?! Just, where are they?" Paige looked at Emily just as confused, shaken her head briefly before realising Emily's confusion was perfectly warranted, given she hadn't actually explained her idea.
"They're in the bottom shelf in my room, why?"
"Start jogging on the spot, don't stop. Go! I'll be right back" Paige pecked Emily lips before tentatively making her way across the landing and entering Emily's room, quickly grabbing some work-out gear and trainers before returning to her own room.
"Paige, what's the big plan?" Emily looked on amusedly, trying to read the other girl's mad idea.
"Keep running and put these on, we need to convince the others you went for a run." Paige ordered, her mind still racing.
Finally Emily had worked up enough sweat to meet Paige's standards of convincing the others, and quickly changed her clothes in the small walk-in closet.
"Okay now we can go downstairs." Paige let out a sigh of relief.
"What? No, we can't?! That still doesn't help matters, Paige. They're going to know I came from upstairs and there's no way I can just sneak past the kitchen and living room, you have noticed how open plan the first floor is, right? There's literally no walls or anything to sneak behind between the kitchen and the front door." Emily spoke logically, watching as the cogwheels began to turn in Paige's head once more, quickly seeking out a more sound idea.
"Fine... come on, you can climb-down from the balcony." Paige spoke as if it was nothing.
"Please tell me you're joking. You want me... As in me, Emily Fields with the dodgy leg and hip to scale down the side of a three-story cabin. Are you crazy, Paige?" Emily laughed in disbelief.
"No, look it's not to bad, there trellis down to the small shed roof attached to the side of the house. Once you reach that, you're good to go. Plus all the windows face out front or to the back there's only one on this side and that's our bathroom. You can do it."
"Paige you realise, we're twenty five and we staying with our friends, we really don't have to hide. We can make up some other story like we shared drinks last night; which we did, and I fell asleep in here; which I also did. None of the other details matter."
"Well then, how do I explain my reasons for lying to Hanna? I don't want to complicate things." Paige huffed dejectedly.
"You're such a numbskull, McCullers." Emily reached forward knocking on Paige's head for extra emphasis, before kissing her cheek.
"Numbskull? What did we just travel back to the 1970's?" Paige laughed at Emily's action, pulling her in for another breath-taking kiss, the kiss on the cheek not satisfactory enough.
"Paige if I die it's all your fault, and that will be an even more interesting story to explain to everyone... and you'll have to suffer that one all alone." Emily added making her way out onto the balcony, clinging onto the trellis and guttering to edge around the corner of the house.
"Well just try you best not to... I'm kinda getting into this whole kissing thing." Paige stuck out her tongue, watching intently as Emily disappeared around the corner, her heart suddenly racing with worry.
"You owe me, McCullers!" Emily shouted up as she continued climbing down, edging closer and closer to the safe confines of the small wooden tool shed.
A few minutes of silence passed, almost too long for Paige to withstand. Her heart racing at the idea of Emily falling and hurting herself.
"I'm down!" Emily finally declared proudly, doing a silly dance to celebrate her success. Her actions making Paige laugh loudly and her heart soar.
"Nice to see there will be more kissing in my future." Paige declared jokingly.
"You should be so lucky, McCullers. Now go enjoy that cold shower Hanna recommended, I think she may on to something." Emily added, shooting the brunette a brilliant smile and tantalizing wink.
Paige released a sigh of breath taken astonishment a direct result of Emily's flirtatious actions, before playfully flipping the other girl off. Laughing lightly to herself as she sauntered off towards the bathroom.
Paige finally came downstairs for breakfast where most people were already eating, the only free spot being a seat between Caleb and Emily.
"You're late this morning, Cull" Caleb added, once she took her seat.
"Uhhh what?!" She asked suddenly panicked, hoping Hanna didn't pass on the news of what she thought she had walked in on.
"You're up late, did you not sleep well or what? No need to be so tetchy." Caleb looked at his friend a confused look on his face trying to read Paige's jumpy behaviour.
"Sorry. I umm, I think I may have had one too many glasses of champagne last night" Paige offered apologetically, her excuse causing Emily to laugh gingerly. The two blushing shyly once their eye line met for a brief eclipsing second.
"Yeah sorry, Paige. I can't imagine this New Year's was particularly easy for you... considering everything." Spencer added understandingly, a sympathetic look registering on her face.
Paige simply nodded, not knowing how to respond especially given her reputation of being a terrible liar, it was honestly easier just to say nothing at all. Emily immediately took the opportunity to move closer to Paige, setting her hand on Paige's lower back acting as if she was offering comfort to the girl, but was more so just grateful for the chance to simply touch the brunette. Paige instantly immersing herself into the new sense of comforting contact, the two were already missing the shared sense of connection that they had established earlier.
"... and Em what about you?" Aria interrupted, causing Emily to flinch on hearing her name.
"What?! What about me?" It was Emily's turn to feel under pressure. She had already handled her lies about jogging this morning with ease, but it was a little more difficult having Paige now sat beside her, staring intently and feigning interest trying to get her back for earlier.
"Did you enjoy last night?" Aria asked again.
"What yeah... well I mean it was pretty uneventful for me, which was nice. I got to relax, reflect and just re-live old experiences in a way. Maybe the best New Year's I had in a while" Emily spoke sincerely, the slightest hint of a smile hidden on her lips as memories of last night invaded her memory, while she continued lightly rubbing at Paige's lower back before separating and moving back to her original position.
"I think this may have been our most successful New Year's ever. I mean; no one passed out drunk, no one ended up kissing a random stranger, no body fought. There was no drama." Spencer spoke up this time.
"I still think the year you kissed Emily was our best one yet, Spence." Hanna added wanting to ruffle some feathers, everyone laughing while Spencer rolled her eyes.
"I was drunk... and we were both single at the time. There's nothing wrong with making out with your best friend to ring in the New Year. Plus who wouldn't want to make out this one." Spencer sulked for a moment, everyone laughing at her expense.
The group continued their hearty conversation, enjoying the company and warm atmosphere as they finished up breakfast.
"But Emmy... I thought you said you don't kiss friends like that? That's what you said 'bout you and Paigey." Jacob who had remained quiet but had obviously been listening intently through-out the conversation, spoke up interrupting the group. He always knew when it was the best time to bring up an awkward situation.
"I don't, Jacob. That was just me and Spencer joking around a few years back. If I ever do decide to kiss someone, it's because they're incredibly special to me. When Spencer and I kissed we were both sad and unhappy... so to make us both laugh, Spence kissed me. But Spencer's the only the friend I've ever kissed like that, it wasn't serious. I'm sorry if what your Mom said just now confused you, after what I told you before Christmas." Emily explained she should have known Jacob would pick apart her previous explanation. Unbeknownst to anyone sat around the table was that the words, although simple, were having a big impact on Paige, the girl now feeling like she has been hit by a wave of emotion.
"...and Paigey!" Jacob spoke up, his words causing Emily and Paige to pale. Emily briefly choking on her drink, the fear of getting caught weighting on both their minds.
"What bout Paige?" Emily stuttered out still trying to clear her airway, and fake normalcy.
"She's your friend... and you kissed her too. Member? Under the mister toe?" Jake announced, the child had supreme memory skills.
"Yeah... yeah, that too. But that happened because we didn't want any bad luck. Remember?" Emily replied hastily, wishing the conversation would just end. Her eyes seeking out Paige in search of some kind of solace, sadly her eyes were only met by the image of Paige slumped over, a saddened air now hanging over her.
Thankfully Aria and Ezra stood up and began clearing the table and washing up after breakfast had finished. Emily, now struggling to hold back her need to understand Paige's newly defeatist form, walked towards the brunette masking her concern as much as possible, so she wouldn't raise any unnecessary distress from the others sat around the room.
"Paige?" Emily gently placed her hand onto the small of woman's back. The movement initially causing the other girl to jump, no doubt a result of being caught up in her thoughts and not noticing Emily's advances towards her.
"Emily... not now." She simply whispered, her voice choppy with mixed emotion, alarming enough to send a wave of shattering worry to ripple through Emily's heart.
Before Emily could say anything else, Paige stood up walking towards the front door grabbing her coat and scarf. "I'm going out for a walk, if that's okay? I'll be back in bit." Paige declared loudly her expression blank, but her noticeable mood change now catching the other's attention.
Both Spencer and Caleb stood up in an instant, as soon as they detected her open the large front door.
"I think she needs some time alone..." Emily interrupted, her voice was quiet this time a stark contrast from when she talked earlier on that morning. Her eyes never once straying from Paige's form, desperately seeking out some kind of reassurance from the girl's motions. Sadly her efforts were left unanswered. Her words stopping both Spencer and Caleb in their tracks, as they tried to re-assess the situation, taking in what Emily had to say. Both, Spencer and Caleb were so over protective when it came to Paige, it could be seen as coddling, smothering and even condescending to a point. The two's sense of protection having intensified immensely after seeing her at her worst, lowest and most dejected state a few months back.
Paige shooting a small side smile towards Emily, her lips hiding a thousand unspoken words. She was grateful for the fact that Emily seemed to understand she needed to be alone for a little while, even though she could read the worry hidden within her almond eyes.
"Is Paige okay?" Caleb finally voiced the question that lingered on everyone else's lips, which was supported by a room full of surprised, worried and bemused facial expressions.
Emily simply shrugged her shoulders, a whirlwind of anguish raging in her own thoughts. Moving swiftly across the room, she took a seat on the floor next to Hanna to help with a jigsaw puzzle the River's family had begun to make as she tried to entertain the idea of mindlessness, wishing it to take over from the sick feeling of regret bubbling in the pit of her stomach. Dread washing over her with the realisation that Paige may well be re-considering what happened last night and this morning. Hanna briefly examining Emily once she sat down, a crease burrowing into her brow for a moment, which was quickly shook away as she decided she wasn't going to overthink what just happened.
It was approaching four in the afternoon and the day was riding out the balance beam moment where it is dancing between light and dark. Emily having noticed Paige was still outside decided to just bite the bullet and see what was going on.
Paige had come back inside the cabin since her walk, but it was only brief, she had only journeyed inside about one thirty to grab her sketch book, some pencils and a warm mug of tea to fight off the cold in the air. Once outside she took a seat beside the firepit, settling down in one of cushioned benches carved out of a huge oak tree trunk. Toby had wandered out a little while after to see if she was okay, he knew exactly what it meant to need some space so when he didn't get much out of the girl so instead he offered to light the fire, which was immediately welcomed by Paige. There was just something about being outside that she always adored, the fresh air, the stillness and the subtleties of nature helped to free her mind. It just helped a lot being outside.
Emily cautiously approached her ex-girlfriend, two new mugs in her hand, this time the contents being hot cocoa. Without saying a word she simply handed a cup to Paige who graciously took it but remained silent throughout their interaction. Emily placed her cup onto the brick surround of the fire, gently lifting Paige's legs that were currently spread out across the bench seeking out a spot for herself next to the brunette. Paige didn't react to Emily's actions simply stretching her legs back over the other woman once she had got comfortable. Emily, now that she adjusted into her new position kicked off her boots before placing her sock clad feet up onto the stone wall surrounding the fire. Sighing contently, if only for a moment.
The two continued drinking in silence, staring into the mesmerising simmer and crackle of the blazing fire.
Another hour could have passed and neither spoke a word, silence seemed to be a constant between the two as of late. But silence never solved anything, it was just a way of putting off the inevitable.
"Paige, if kissing you last night and this morning... if kissing you at all, was out of line and overstepping the mark. I'm sorry." Emily began, her eyes still firmly fixated on the blazing fire.
"Stop!" Paige punctuated with anger, her eyes looking up surrounded this time with tears; red, orange and yellow reflecting the dancing tongue of flames contained within the burning fire.
"Do you know what I would've done, what I would've given to have you kiss me the way you kissed me last night, five years ago? Everything just suddenly hit me all at once this morning. We kissed last night and this morning, numerous times and I just don't know how to feel. Kissing is such a simplistic yet complex action, meaning, expression; something millions of people experience on a day-to-day basis. All those years ago, I wanted nothing more than for you to just kiss me the way you used to before the crash... just once more. I wanted that to fix us, Emily. All we needed to do was kiss and make-up and the world would return to it's rightful spectre of colour, not the dimmed, shitty version I was given. A version I didn't want. I guess it's just a lot to take in. Hearing you say those words about kissing someone at breakfast this morning, it just made the whole thing sink in. We kissed for the first time in five years and it was everything I could have wished for all those years ago. I guess I just don't know what it means just yet... and that scared me for a minute. It still scares me." Paige continued, tears still red hot on her face as Emily looked at her.
"Paige, I'm sor..."
"Emily don't! No more apologies please, the words are losing their meaning. We have re-captured and re-built a bond based on pointless, meaningless apologies. It needs to stop." Paige interrupted Emily, who could no longer hold the brunette's intense gaze.
"So what now?" Emily mumbled, her question terrifying her. She was so afraid she was losing Paige all over again.
"Well honestly? I would really like to continue kissing you." Paige spoke shyly, the slightest hint of a smirk hung on her lips. Her face approaching a contradiction.
"But you said..." Emily replied confused.
"I know what I said, I don't know what any of this means just yet. We're still just Emily and Paige figuring things out; I'm still scared, confused and worried but I'm also excited. Maybe we should just let things progress naturally and we'll see what happens." Paige explained again.
"Just Emily and Paige."
"Yep."
"Well then, I would really like to continue kissing you too." Emily added shying, their hands coming together once again, kept hidden behind Paige's legs in case any of the others were watching on.
"Come on, let's head inside before we both turn into icicles." Emily added pulling Paige up from the seat.
The two began walking back in towards the house.
"Thanks, Em." Paige spoke as she nudged lightly into Emily's side, a grateful smile appearing on her lips before the appearance of a quiet bubbling laugh as she noticing Emily wobble on feet from the sudden burst of contact.
"No problem." Emily smiled in return nudging back, only this time she chose to hit into Paige's side a little harder taken the paler girl by surprise and sending her much more off balance.
"Oww" Paige sulked rubbing at her shoulder, faking hurt.
"Awhh poor baby, I'm sorry. Here let me kiss it better" Emily exaggerated, thankful there was no windows near the hidden downstairs entrance beside the garage, leaning across to place a kiss to Paige's shoulder.
Paige unable to fight her restraint anymore, placed her hand under Emily's chin pulling her back up to eye-line before sensually capturing the soft lips of the slightly taller woman. The two immediately falling into the other's hold, and embracing every single second of the brief kiss. Passion ensued for only a minute, but thankfully it was just enough to satiate the thirst and tension that had been building between the two since they had kissed that morning.
"Come on let's get inside before we get caught" Paige whispered, laughing coyly pecking Emily once more before opening the door, letting Emily enter before her.
"You mean I have to sit in there surrounded by our friends and act like I'm not dying inside to kiss you."
"Yep." Paige simply nodded, offering a sympathetic smile.
"Tonight was great, but I think I'm going to head to bed" Paige yawned, it was approaching midnight and tiredness was most definitely setting in on her.
Saying goodnight to the rest of the group, she headed upstairs to her room, changing into her bed clothes and her Stanford hoodie before walking out onto the balcony. Fresh air.
She stood up against the railing, looking out across the lake. Her mind still trying to process everything that has been happening between her and Emily, she tried not to think about it too much having experienced the downfall of overthinking things, she wanted it to evolve naturally and so far it was. She could only hope clarity would come as a result.
The calm of the lake never seized to amaze her, the vast stillness a beauty in it's own right. The power, force and meaning of the water always helped to put her mind at ease.
Paige made the subtlest jump movements when she felt two arms wrap around her from behind, having not heard any footstep come from behind, the sudden feel of contact briefly frightening her.
"Penny for your thoughts" Emily whispered, resting her head on Paige's shoulder as she hugged her from behind.
"I just needed some fresh air." Paige offered a half smile, not wanting to continue their conversation from earlier.
"It didn't take you very long to decide to head to bed" She added, a playful twitch to her tone.
"Well after you left, everyone else started to head away too. So..."
"Oh and here was me thinking I was so irresistible, you simply couldn't wait any longer to get your hands on me"
"Nope! Sorry to burst your bubble, McCullers. It was either, I stay downstairs in the cold and dark by myself, or come up here and see what you were up to. So make of that what you will." Emily smirked, her fingers now playfully duelling with Paige's as she remained wrapped tightly around the other woman.
"You know being around you has really bruised my ego lately. I'm not so sure I approve." Paige turned in Emily's hold, the two now face to face while a growing scrutinizing look registered on Paige's face. Emily taken the perfect opportunity placed her two hands on Paige's face, capturing her cheeks before moving in to kiss her heatedly, so much so it left the paler girl momentarily breathless.
"How's your ego feelin' now" Emily smirked proudly knowing she had managed to quickly work Paige up.
"I'll let you know in a little while" Paige responded just as quick before she re-engaged their lips into a heated battle. The kiss this time more intense, more needing.
Tongues quickly found their companion, fighting for dominance. Paige taken further control, gently pushed Emily backwards up against the wooden slats, Emily groaning slightly once her back made contact, surprised by their sudden movement. Emily quickly decided to get Paige back, she did this by biting down teasingly onto the other woman's lower lip, tugging ever so slightly; enough for her to earn a breathless sigh of satisfaction. Paige's hand moving to Emily's hips, her thumbs running just under the seam of Emily's t-shirt, aching for any kind of skin contact. The electricity that flowed as a result was addicting, comforting and exhilarating. Emily's hands remained tangled within Paige's long brown silk of hair as she pulled the ever so slightly smaller girl into her. Paige moving from Emily lips, lead of trail of small kisses along Emily's cheek to find what she hoped was still Emily's weak point, her lips landing onto Emily's racing pulse point, she initially placed a soft kiss there before sucking gently, teasing the skin beneath by grazing her teeth along the darker girl's neck soothing the hint of burn with warm, passionate kisses. She was no doubt doing a good job and instantly pleased to find out that Emily was still worked up and wound up by that one spot on her neck. On realising, Paige smirked to herself hearing the soft moans roll uncontrollable from the raven-haired beauty's lips, her hips now pushing further into Paige desperately seeking out more contact.
Emily's eye's rolling freely to the back of her head as she felt Paige continue to go to town on her neck. Paige continued working down as far as the girl's collarbone, and up to the tip of her ear, playing most precise attention to her pulse point.
"Pai... Paige, I swear... If you mark my... if you mark my neck..." Emily just about spoke in coherency, the rapidly growing heat coursing through her body and her ragged breathlessness making it difficult for her to speak in complete sentences.
"Or what?" Paige replied, proud of her work.
Emily didn't reply she simply moved to capture Paige's lips between her own once again, she began taking control while moving her hands from Paige's hair, she grazed her fingers the length of Paige's back evoking shivers, before stopping briefly on Paige's ass. The two continuously grinding trying to satiate the growing warmth between their legs. Emily, then allowed the tips of her fingers to edge into the seam of Paige's pants, before dragging them teasingly around the back of Paige's pyjama pants to the front. Paige's knees near buckling as she felt Emily's fingers creep closer and closer to where she needed her most.
"Fuuuuckk" the words barely audible coming out in a thirsty sigh. Emily's bold moves enough to drive Paige crazy. Instantly deciding to take back charge she carefully picked Emily up wrapping her arms around the girl's slim waist, their lips finding their way back once again, as she moved them to the bed. Laying her down carefully, Paige crept on top of her ex-girlfriend as Emily began pulling herself up the bed to lie on the pillows. The two sharing a brief moment of eye contact, both pairs of brown eyes darkened with lust and hunger.
Kissing ensued as Paige trailed her right hand the length of Emily body, feeling every single curve and detail desperately wishing there was less clothing between. Her hand stopped once it reached Emily's face, cupping her cheek.
"You are so beautiful, Emily" Paige voice hummed with a rasp, her eyes peering into the depths of Emily's orbs.
She went to kiss her once more, only this time Emily turned away. Her darkened eyes now filled with water and unspoken secrets.
"Don't say that." Her voice quivered, Emily now looked like a completely different person than what she was, a mere five seconds before.
She looked broken.
"Em? Are you okay? Talk to me?" Paige moved trying to get a closer look at Emily's face, suddenly worried by the rapid mood change. Emily lay still, her head remained turned to the side while the feeling of having old wounds ripped open began tearing her up inside.
"Was this all too fast? Did I do something wrong?" Paige continued, an urgent panic evidenced by her shaky voice, and a terrified look plastered on her face.
Emily nodded signalling a no and she meant it. It was the words that slipped from Paige's mouth so seamlessly that triggered a painful past. "This... this was perfect." Emily voiced in a low almost inaudible tone, her words quivering, stuttering and mumbling together as she struggled to hold back just how upset she was.
Paige now sat, kneeling on top of Emily thighs, her legs either side of Emily's lying form. She stretched a hand forward tentatively, cautiously aware of every move Emily made, afraid she might further her anxiety. Cupping Emily's cheek, she leaned down to place the softest, most caring of kisses to Emily lips, letting her know she was there for her. Telling her that she was safe.
"Talk to me, Em."
Emily nodded in agreement this time, forcing a watery smile as she sniffled back her tears. She gentle pushed Paige off her, so she could sit up. Taken a deep breath Emily raised her top above her body before taken it off and letting it fall to ground silently. Paige's eyes never once straying from Emily's face. Once she was down to only her bra, Emily lay back down this time kicking off her socks, before unbuttoning her jeans and pushing them off her legs. Paige taken the opportunity to grab a hold of Emily's free hand, entwining their fingers. Emily was now lying still in only her underwear, her brown orbs looking to Paige who had never once pulled away, patient for when Emily was comfortable enough to speak again. Emily had to bite the bottom corner of her lip to stop it from quivering, feeling weak with the amount of overwhelming emotion.
"I stopped feeling beautiful..." Her words hung in the air for moment, Emily feeling so full of shame looked away from Paige. Paige needing to take a moment to process what was going on, the feeling of tremendous guilt bubbling in the pit of her stomach, immediately understanding why the words were said and why Emily felt such a way. But this wasn't about her, this was about Emily and being there for her when she had just revealed something so vulnerable.
Paige moved forward, allowing her thumb to wipe away the streams of tears imprinted on Emily's face. She placed another soft kiss to the broken woman's forehead, before resting her own there for a brief second.
"Your scars from the crash?" Paige whispered knowingly. Emily didn't respond she simply met Paige's eyeline for another brief second, telling her all she needed to know.
Paige moved down the length of Emily body, she had never seen Emily's scars to this day, only briefly when they were still wounds and before Emily stopped allowing her to sit in when she had to get her dressings changed or showered. Paige climbed out of the bed, removing all her clothes down to her underwear, feeling it was only right to open herself up to Emily too. The scars from her self-harm still lingered tattooed forever on her thighs. Paige also had scars from the crash, some so minuscule they were difficult for the naked eye to see but other's on her arm, shoulder and ribs were a little more visible, but none were overly noticeable and none as bad as Emily's. Paige slide down the bed, not saying a word she simply lay down to rest her head on Emily's flat stomach, taken a moment before she allowed her finger's to trace the length of the scarred skin, the most significant mark being some scarred skin that spanned from her ribcage, over her right hip, about half way down her right thigh, mixed in with some minor scarring that curled around onto her back.
Paige moved closer, opting to do the very same thing Emily did for her. She placed a chaste kiss to every single scar that marked Emily's skin. Tears still falling one by one from Emily's eyes. The scene mirroring that of the time Paige broke down in front of Emily all those years ago.
"I stopped feeling beautiful, feeling worthy a few weeks after the crash, when it began to become real. You still looked at me the same way for the most part, I know it was hard for you to see me like that too, and for some reason I felt ashamed. I near despised you for looking at me like I was still the same person you fell in love with, Paige." Emily stopped taking a moment before she would continue, Paige remained still, all the time caressing the damaged skin.
"My whole right leg was as good as paralysed with the amount of nerve damage and muscle loss, I was bruised and broken and yet you still loved me. I was terrified about being present, how were we going to have sex ever again, if I couldn't even stand up straight or walk. The scars haunted me, a constant reminder sown into my skin, I couldn't and can't do anything about them. Once you left it got a little easier, I just avoided looking anymore... and of course there was alcohol that helped for a little while too. Being told you're most likely going to be wheelchair bound, or need some kind of walking assistance for the rest of your life at the age of twenty one, is devastating and terrifying. People began to pity me. That made it worse! When I finally focused on getting my leg back in shape that helped too. That very first step I took on my right leg without using any walking assistance was enough to challenge the momentous first step on the moon, at least in my mind. Then I got better, I could walk again, jog and stand up for long periods of time... now I can dance again. But the scars still plague me. A constant reminder of a sense of acidic ugliness."
"Em..." Paige began wanting Emily to stop. Hearing the way Emily spoke about herself was stomach churning, it hurt to hear Emily say such things.
"No, Paige please I just need to speak. I couldn't even have a functional relationship with a girl, because of the scars. One night stands were always fine, because that never lead to questions just the physical act. Every time I began falling for a girl we'd get to the point of sleeping together and I just couldn't do it, I felt like I was suffocating, smothering in my own self-consciousness. Tess was the longest relationship I've had, but that only worked because we were friends first, she knew about my scars, my hidden secret... she knew how I felt about them. But I eventually screwed that up too... and now we're here. Paige, the words you offered me just now with such sincerity and such unforgiveness, are the closest thing I have to maybe one day believing that it's okay to be scarred. I can look at them for the first time in five years and not wish they'd just disappear." Emily just lay still finishing her explanation as she felt Paige hold her tighter, tracing the markings on her skin. The feeling of water appearing, tears falling from Paige's eyes warm but then cold against the skin of her stomach. The tears most likely a mirror of the river's flowing down Emily's cheeks as she continued to speak. Paige now remained silent, everything Emily needed right now.
"It's okay." A few minutes of heavy silence past before Paige whispered, her voice honest. The words hanging in the air, Emily letting her hand meet Paige's where it had remained constant as she traced the delicate edges of the scarred skin. Paige taken the other girl's finger, now using it to trace the markings, which she couldn't help but consider mesmerising and truly beautiful.
They stayed like this for over an hour, just lying in silence. The only light in the room coming from a small lamp in the corner sitting on the large oak desk, and the flickering light of a dying cinnamon scented candle that Paige had lit when she entered the room first. Their fingers still entwined, twisted together in a comfort that set them both free, Paige revelled in the movement up and down caused by Emily's steady intake and release of breath. While Emily settled into the feeling of safeness she always had with Paige.
"You shouldn't feel ashamed." Paige broke the silence again, before continuing; "Do you remember any of the things you told me when you first saw the scars on my thighs up close."
"I remember some things, yes. Why?" Emily replied, her free hand had found it's way into Paige's hair, her fingers rubbing and massaging the base of her neck. Thankfully the tears from both woman had eventually subsided.
"Well you said to me 'I don't think I have or will ever know a stronger person', I don't know how true that still is for you. But that's how I feel towards you, towards these beautiful scars. You have always been the strongest person I've ever known, Em. They may be a devastating reminder of the accident, but they're also a reminder that you survived, battle wounds that you can actually be proud of..." Paige trailed off placing a kiss to Emily's abs near the scars once again.
"I still think you're the strongest person I've ever known and still know." Emily added, her voice broken again as another few tears were shed. "Only you could help me began to see myself in new a light, Pay. So thank you." Emily continued, a true sincerity hanging onto every inch of her words.
"...Plus didn't anyone ever tell you, scars are hot as fuck?" Paige joked, knowing the best way to cheer Emily up and to lighten her mood was to make her laugh.
"Wow, way to kill a deep sincere moment, Paige. Now come up here." Emily laughed rolling her eyes while her already racing heart was set alight, a result of Paige constantly being able to provide everything she ever needed in any given moment.
Paige was and will always be her constant.
Emily gently pulled Paige up along her body from where she had positioned herself lying across her stomach. Once she was in reaching distance, Emily seized the brunette's lips in an impassioned kiss, pouring her whole soul into it, trying to let Paige know just how genuinely grateful she was for her patience, understanding and overall loving nature.
Once they separated, they found themselves breathless once again, it was becoming a regular occurrence between the two past lovers. Any time they kissed as of late, it was like they purposely aimed to steal the other's breath away, the two pouring as much passion, intensity and lust into the other as if they were so desperately trying to make up for the five years they endured apart. The two woman compensating for the mixed-up emotions, whirlwind of confused feelings and the tragic intensity and tension that still hung heavily between them.
Their kisses slowed becoming lazy, tiredness wrapping them up in her hold. Paige finally letting out a tired yawn glancing to the clock, noticing the night was approaching three am.
"We should get some sleep" Emily pecked Paige's lips once more before nuzzling her nose into Paige's cheek, placing minute kisses there too. Paige simply offered a lazy nod, moving down slightly to rest her head onto Emily's chest finding comfort in their closeness and the steady rhythm of her heartbeat; a sound Paige didn't realise just how much she had missed, until this very moment.
Emily's eyes fluttered awake first, Paige was still sound asleep laying motionless across her chest, one of her hands spayed protectively over Emily's right hip, her palm soft against the slightly rough textured skin underneath.
Paige began to stir, once she realised Emily was awake she placed a light kiss to Emily's chest next to where she had fallen into a peaceful sleep. Paige surprised by the reaction her simple movement had caused, as a sensual hum vibrated from Emily's lips. Taking advantage she began kissing the girl's abs again, sucking and biting in different places. Emily reacted exactly how she wanted her too, her head falling backwards while her eyes rolled free in her head.
"You said I couldn't leave my mark on your neck, how about if I leave my mark somewhere where only I know it exists?" Paige's voice rasped still laden with sleep from the night before, but it only added to the growing tension in the room.
"Paige, don..." Emily began but her words slipped into a pleasurably moan as she felt Paige's lips shoot an electric chill, which ran the length of her spine. The feeling of Paige's lips on her causing goose bumps to appear on her perfectly bronzed skin where Paige had set to work, teasing the edge of her rib cage with her tongue, lips and teeth.
Moving upwards and happy with the subtle and still sensitive bite mark she left on Emily left side, she began teasingly grazing the top of Emily's breast, just above her bra line. Emily unable to hold back the incomprehensible sounds slipping from her lips.
Emily, feeling a little left out moved her hand to the back of Paige's bra, hesitant at first briefly looking to Paige's darkened orbs for permission before moving any further. The answer came in a succinct nod and an understanding, lustful stare before the paler girl went back to teasing Emily's still bra-clad chest, also nipping intermittently at the girl's defined collar bones. Emily unhooked the bra with ease, her hands trembled with adrenaline, simply wanting to experience more and more of the gorgeous woman kneeling above her.
Paige moved to allow the bra to slip from her chest and off her lengthy arms, Emily's breath momentarily stolen from her, the brunette was just as remarkably beautiful as she was five years ago. Her hands moving to capture the newly freed skin, the action enough to make Paige falter on her knees above Emily for a second as she allowed her head to fall into the crook of the bronzed beauty's neck, a breathless moan of pleasure seeping from her own mouth this time.
It didn't take long for their lips to meet in another battle of dominance, as their bodies rolled seamlessly together, mirroring the natural entwining, entangling and synchronicity established by their hands. The sounds between them already evoked a mixture of guttural groans, sweets moans and swear words and they had barely touched each other yet. Paige allowing her hands to work their way to Emily's back trying to unclasp the bra, successful in mere seconds.
The movements and actions of their bodies, both familiar and new. Paige had only ever been with Emily up until their break-up, she had fooled around with Shana but they never had sex, and Emily had only ever slept with Maya before she and Paige became serious. Since their break-up the two had been with other women while; in relationships, dating and just flings, they learned and experienced different things as a result, and that only seemed to make this moment even more exhilarating. They had both matured, sex was always great for the two of them when they were younger, but now it leaked with elements of mystery, a teasing boldness and an electrifying newness that was linked together with a familiarity that naturally brought them back together. The two still knew the other's body inside and out, they understood how to push the other over the edge and they respected and paid full attention to the natural connection and chemistry the two seemed to always share.
Paige moved down, taken advantage of Emily's now bare chest, paying attention to every inch of the newly exposed flesh. Her mouth teasingly playful with Emily's nipples, biting and sucking earning a flutter of incoherent words to fall from Emily's mouth as she writhed desperate for more, beneath her. An astonished smirk appearing briefly on Paige's mouth at the mesmerising beauty beneath her, she was sure Emily's natural radiance, glowed now more than ever before.
"Pai...Paige... more... pl... please" Emily's voice stuttering with pure desperation, lust and a need that wanted to be fulfilled.
Paige was already worked up enough, she knew now wasn't the time to play games. Letting her hand trail the length of Emily's body, she allowed her fingers to continue to work up the girl beneath her even more so, as they danced teasingly across the lacy fabric where Emily needed her most.
"Fuck Paige...please" Emily voiced breathlessly almost angry about the teasing, which continued working her over but not enough to get her off. Paige looking up, shooting a tantalising smirk to Emily this time which only caused the girl to roll further back into the pillow and bed, her heels digging into the mattress as a result of the ever tightening coil and searing heat mounting between her legs.
"Paige..." Emily pleaded, pulling Paige into a heated kiss this time. She allowed her own hand to gently graze the length of Paige's underwear, knowing expertly from old times that two can play at this game. The action causing Paige to involuntarily jerk, her body reacting immediately to Emily's touch as a pleasurable grunt interrupted their kiss.
Knowing she wouldn't be able to hold off much longer, especially if Emily continued testing her back, she allowed her fingers to hook the edge of Emily's panties, before trailing them off the length of the other girl's body. Taken a moment to appreciate the woman's modelesque legs, Paige was moved to stillness at the beauty that lay before her.
"God... you're so fucking beautiful" Paige sighed a new hunger registering on her words. Thankfully this time her words had the desired effect on Emily, the girl this time more believing of what Paige had said, it was hard not to with the astonished, dazed and lustful look in her blackened eyes.
Paige reached down to kiss Emily once more, the two sharing meaningful glances, constantly checking the other was okay, allowed her hands to fall into place where Emily so desperately needed to feel her touch. Emily reacting instantly, as her hips moved in rhythm to meet Paige's strong but soft hands, the warmth and wetness instantly coating Paige's touch as she sought out Emily's most sensitive spot with her fingers. Using her fingers she began delicately teasing the heated bundle of nerves, moving in slow movements gradually becoming quicker. Emily's body reacting beautifully, her stomach muscles tightening and loosening in a hypnotic harmony as she fought to control the build-up of feeling growing with a burning intensity within her. She continued swearing breathlessly as her back arched off the bed, a glistening sheen of sweat highlighting her every curve. Paige knowing Emily was getting closer, slipped her fingers inside allowing her thumb to continue working her up on the outside.
"Fuuuck" Emily screeched in pleasure, as she felt Paige's finger begin to move in the most delicious of ways inside of her.
"Pai... I'm gonna..." Emily tried to formulate words as she dug her fingers into the paler girl's back no doubt leaving shameful marks, as she tried so desperately to anchor herself.
"I know, It's okay. Come for me, Em" Paige whispered as she dipped her head into the nook of Emily's neck peppering her with more kisses, and support. The words enough for Emily to allow herself to fall over the edge as waves of pleasure rocketed across her body, her hip involuntarily jerking while riding out the orgasm, as her lungs tried to re-capture any essence of oxygen.
Slowly coming down, her chest heaved still trying to catch some much needed breath, turning to place a lazy kiss to Paige's lips. Her hips jerking pleasurably once more with the feeling of Paige carefully removing her fingers from inside of her, enough to steal her breath once more and sending small shockwaves strong enough to evoke another soft whimper to seep from Emily's mouth into Paige's.
They kissed slowly for a little while, taken in the other's essence, silent words exchanged through meaningful glances, shy smiles and the softest of caresses.
But once Emily regained her energy she quickly took control of their kiss, her energy revitalised by her need to simply touch Paige. Emily wanted to cause an incoherency in Paige's mind as she became overwhelmed by pleasure, wanted the woman to twist and turn in a blissful desperation, making sure feeling was the only thing her body and mind could grasp hold of.
Rolling over, she captured Paige's lips hungrily. Her hands already taken in the feel of Paige's body beneath her, paying strict attention to the girl's abs, back and breasts as her fingers wandered with precision and passion, evoking momentous sighs and breathless moans as the brunette revelled in being the subject of Emily's meticulous, delicate and burning touch.
Moving lower she allowed her mouth to explore the path her hands had just traced, taken in every dip, mound and curve beautifully laid out on Paige's perfectly sculpted body.
"Paige..." Emily sighed with incredulous, unable to register a word worthy of describing the way she felt towards Paige. Emily was not capable of realising how much she so desperately longed for this moment since Paige fell back into her life. Instead, taken the moment to place another kiss to Paige's reddened lips, letting their embrace speak volumes through a slow established movement of mouths gliding perfectly together, tongues no longer battling the other for control, instead melding together in a perfectly synchronised harmony. Fervent heartbeats coming together like those of age-old lovers. It was the moment Emily realised she had falling wholeheartedly back in love with Paige McCullers, too afraid to utter such words.
Breaking apart, she felt the desperation for release radiate off Paige as she begged with her darkened eyes for Emily to simply fulfil her need. Emily allowing her hand to travel lower, didn't bother teasing, simply going to work straight away removing the last of Paige's clothing. Kissing her way down she hovered above Paige's stomach, while ghosting kisses across the girl's abs Emily's eyes mesmerised by the slight twitch of the muscles found there, as she let her fingers re-explore Paige's most intimate places for the first time in over five years.
Sweat re-appearing on both their brows and coating their bodies as Emily continued building up the tortuous intensity growing within Paige. The two's eye-line reconnecting every few moments as Paige uncontrollable twisted beneath Emily's strong hold, desperately seeking out release. Almost selfishly wanting more, Emily entered Paige earning herself the sound of a pleasurable sigh that rocked Paige's being. Eventually moving lower, she allowed her tongue to cause havoc on Paige's most sensitive spot, making delicate movements across the surface of Paige's slick core. Her fingers moving with a determination inside the woman she had fallen for all over again.
"Fuuu..uuckk, Em. Don't stop" Paige husked, as her hands found the back of Emily's head, entwining into the beautiful vastness of raven hair, overwhelmed by the feel of Emily's mouth on her sucking, licking and gently grazing with her teeth. The feeling rapidly becoming all too much.
"Come, Paige" Emily purred, her warm breath shooting a wave of electricity across Paige's sensitivity.
Emily continued eagerly, knowing Paige was so close, her walls tightening and her whole being tensing with pleasure, before the moment of release.
"Ohhh God, Emily" Paige cried out as she finally reached her threshold, falling over the edge.
Her body remained in a realm of ecstasy as she felt Emily inch her way back up the bed, unable to move very much she simply revelled in the feel of Emily's closeness. Using the last of her energy, Paige dropped her head, nuzzling her nose into the other girl's neck placing a single kiss there, soaking up every drop of Emily's aura. Emily wrapped her arms tightly around Paige, placing a kiss to girl's forehead as she allowed Paige to come back to her own, tingling aftershocks still rolling through her.
[A/N] Thanks for reading. Please review.
P.S. That was my first time to write a full on M rated scene don't go too hard on me.