Sorry for the wait, I thought I'd already posted this chapter! That's why you're getting a double post - I posted the 5th chapter as the 4th. Hope Ginny seems less cold towards Siria in this. Enjoy!
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24th August 1998
Dear Diary,
Harry's been and gone. But I'm still looking after our daughter. She has a name now – Siria. Female version of Sirius. To start with Harry suggested Lily, but I didn't really want her named after someone I didn't know, even if I presumed Harry would be looking after her. So we agreed on Siria. Then he dropped the bombshell. He wouldn't be taking her. Kingsley had told him that there was no chance of Raymond dropping the case against him, so being at the Burrow was a huge risk, to himself and to us. He couldn't risk Siria's future on his want for a normal life. He said he knew I'd look after her and bring her up well.
Harry left rather soon after that. We had a huge argument, the biggest we've ever had by a long way. I've never been so angry with anyone my whole life. He can't keep turning up and then leaving me alone all over again. It's just not fair. So know he thinks I hate him. I hate him for going away; leaving me again. But I don't hate him, Harry Potter the person. I just wish he wouldn't keep abandoning me. Abandoning me and Siria.
I never realised how hard it was to bring up a kid. I have to feed her, change her, comfort her at 4 o'clock in the morning, when all I want to do is go back to a normal life. I'd give anything to go back a year and stop all of this from happening. I wish Fred was alive. I wish Colin hadn't sneaked back to fight. I wish Lupin had been more careful. I wish Mad-Eye really was indestructible, like we all believed he was. And I wish that I had become pregnant when I wanted to, so Siria won't have the risk of growing up in a home that doesn't want her. I'm so scared that that's what is going to happen; I heard all the stories about Harry's time with the Dursleys, and I don't want Siria to grow up like that. I can hardly think straight – how am I supposed to look after her properly?
Not that wishing does any good. While my friends go back to Hogwarts to do their NEWTs, I'm staying home to look after my daughter. I didn't tell any of them that I was pregnant, even though they sent me dozens of owls demanding to know why I hadn't returned after Easter. I don't know what they'll say when they find out. I've instructed Hermione to explain the situation.
Fleur's pregnant now as well. She and Bill told mum a few days ago. She was overjoyed, saying that Siria would have a little cousin to play with. Perhaps that means I'll be able to have a break from looking after her.
Ron and Hermione returned from Australia with Hermione's parents, whose memories have been successfully restored. They're officially boyfriend and girlfriend now and going back to Hogwarts to complete their NEWTs next week. I can't help feeling jealous, knowing that in different circumstances Harry and I would be doing the same. They're facing their charges at the Ministry in a few days – they don't have to worry about a life sentence, they'll probably just get a hefty fine. McGonagall's the headmistress and one of her granddaughters, Andromede Teatrina, is taking over the post of Transfiguration teacher. I didn't even know she had grandchildren. I wonder what it might be like for me when Siria grows up. Ron or Hermione will have to write to me and tell me what the new year is like.
George has another job, but he won't tell us what it is. He doesn't want to go back to Weasleys' Wizarding Wheezes just yet. He's been having loads of trouble with inventing stuff lately. I'm guessing he's lost his inspiration. After all, if he can't crack a joke right now, how is he supposed to make other people laugh?
I'm not sure whose surname Siria should have. Siria Helen Potter. Siria Helen Weasley. Both work. Maybe I should mix it. Siria Helen Potter-Weasley. That sounds good. There we go then. The naming process is complete. I hope she doesn't hate her name as much as I used to hate mine.
The character 'Andromede Teatrina' is from 'The Last Year', by HighSummonerMelecca - it's a brilliant story, check it out!
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