So first of all I need to apologize for abandoning this story. At the time I was using writing as a means to escape my depression. It helped alot but i was still in a bad place. A couple weeks after i had posted the first chapter my laptop got the blue screen of death. Unfortunately I didn't have the money to fix it so I just gave up writing. This story actually means alot to me and everyone who reviewed and read it really touched me so thank you for that. I'm going to try to give you some closure to this story. It won't be long though. Here goes.

Harry never though he would be here, he glanced around the structure that was in the backyard of the Weasley residents. The place was filled to the grim with family and friends for the wedding. He could see a sea number of redheads, most he knew a couple he didn't. He sighed, and thought of them.

He wished they were here with him. He had always felt better with them beside him. The golden trio they called them. Now it was just him. He thought of Remus and wondered if this is how he felt around people. Exposed, like bare bones clanking together. Can they tell? Can they see? Suddenly he felt claustrophobic and his hands started to sweat. He quickly located an exit and hurried toward it, brushing past a couple people of reached out to talk to him.

The cool air hit his damp forhead and he took a deep breath that only moments ago didn't seem possible.

He stood there for a few just breathing in the cold air before he realized someone was beside him. He knew who it was before he even looked. She always knew when something was wrong, always had. He waited to see if she would speak first.

"I wish they were here too" and so she did know, glancing to his side he took in Ginny Weasley. With long red hair done in some half do that made her look like some forest nymph as curls fell in a sweet array around her shoulders. Her wedding dress was lacy and a an soft beige that had a short train. She stood just an inch shorter then his 5'10 frame. She had shot up after the battle of Hogwarts, alot of things had changed after that shit show.

His heart gave a particular squeeze at the mention of them. Everyone seemed so happy and here he was still wishing his bestfriends were here. A part of him felt selfish. As if reading his mind she grabbed his hand. He clasped on a little desperately, they're was something comforting about know you weren't the only one in pain, the only one who remembers. It felt like nobody but him was still grieving. He tried not to resent them.

"You know that I caught mum crying in the closet today, she was holding on to their sweaters. She knits them every year, theirs and Freds. Dad has a list he keeps, questions about muggle things and people" she squeezed his hand "I'm not telling you this to make you feel bad I'm telling you this so you know if you're not alone I know it seems we've forgotten but we haven't Harry, I don't think any of us ever could."

She looked up at the bright moon ad spoke again.

"I feel so selfish, becau...because I get so angry at them. When I look at you and the hole its left. When I see my parents and that look they get in their eyes. Today i was so fed up you know, its weeding day and my mum was crying and my best friend can hardly stand to be around the house because all sees are memories. I wish i could just tell them off you know? How dare they be gone, how dare they!" she brushed off stray tears and continued on, never letting go of his hand.

"After the war ended and we looked for our injured and captured, I had the worst feeling even before we went to Malfoys, a part of me knew I think. Knew she wouldn't be there. The longer we looked and the more Ron and you were killing yourselves the more certain I became" the air felt charged with her confessions, a subject that many people who knew Harry Potter knew not to bring up. Especially after the incident with a reporter.

"I tried to forget them in the beginning. I was so angry with everyone, I had lost Hermione a woman who I considered my sister and I was losing my brother and you were there barely holding on to Ron. It was like the family was waiting for one of you two to die"

she paused briefly and her voice softened "Ron came to see me before he left"

Harry clenched his fist as he thought of him. With Ron there was so much left unsaid, things he had buried.

"He said that the pair of you were killing yourselves he told me what happened in the forest. I always knew there was something the two of you weren't saying. I can understand Ron being broken the way he was but you... it was like not only had you lost your best friend is was like you lost some one you loved someone you were in love with." she clarifed "I understand now that that's what exactly what happened. I was so angry at him that night, I shouted and when my words wouldn't work I punched him in the face and he let me, then i cried in his arms. When I was done he told me that he needed to leave and he didn't know when he'd be back."

"When you found out..." she spaced off and they both thought back to those first couple of months of Rons departure. Harry with disgust at his behavior and Ginny with a helplessness she still felt at times when she thought of dealing with Harry. There's only one women who could reach Harry and she was presumed dead.

"I lost two brothers that day Ron left and I haven't forgiven him for it."

Ginny turned to Harry, her voice sounding closer to that of a small childs.

"Do you think thay would forgive me Harry, because I don't."

Harry couldn't take it any longer and hauled Ginny close hugging her hard. She hugged him just as tight. He didn't know what to say. He wanted to say he was sorry, he was sorry for making things difficult, that he won't do it again. If he were to then they would've know it was a lie and he couldn't do that.

He exhaled a shaky breath and pulled back slightly to look into Ginny's tearful eyes.

"Of course they would forgive Gin, we've been through so much haven't we?" he asked gently.

" I never thanked you Ginny Weasley for what you did, for how hard you fought to stay by me when most of my friends moved on with their lives. You understood me. Every time I felt like it was too much like I couldn't take it any longer you would pop up amd force me to eat, force me to clean, force me to keep on living. Thank you so much." wiping the wetness from her cheeks he told her what has happened that day with Dean. The day their friendship had changed for the good.

"When I realized things with Dean were serious I took him aside and I told him that you were the most important thing to me; that I had lost my two best friends and all I had left was you. I reminded him that everything I did during the war , all the lives I had taken wasn't for the Wizarding World it had been for you" taking a deep breath he croaked out their names. "for Hermione and Ron. The first people other then the parents who I can't remember and uncles who only saw me what I reminded them of."

Tucking a lose curl behind Ginny's ear he looked at those blue eyes that reminded him of Ron so much his breath would catch.

" I reminded him of what happened to the Carrow twins, I told him but they wouldn't find him just like they couldn't find them" looking into her eyes for a beat longer he nodded when he saw the belief in them. Leaning forward he brushed a kiss across her forhead.

"I going to try hardy Ginny, I swear it"

Ginny smiled and ducked her head suddenly looking bashful. The tension broke suddenly and Harry became aware of the wedding part a couple yards away.

"Well thats good then because I'm going to need all the help I can get with thses two" he looked at her dimly for a second before she slid her had down to cradle her stomach.

"No way!" his mouth hung open and suddenly he started laughing.

"What are you laughing about?!"

"Is this why Molly has been rushing you, she wanted to married before you started to show?"

Giggling with Harry now Ginny nodded

Smiling widely he grabbed her close for another hug.

"I'm happy for or you Gin I'm so happy" Harry held her close and the two went in after a few moments. They danced and laughed and left the heaviness that haunted the two of them.

IMPORTANT

I'm writing this on my phone because I don't have a computer or a laptop so if there's any mistakes please bear with me it's a little difficult...

End note

Obviously this is not going to be a happy-go-lucky story although it will have some highlights it's definitely going to be a little angsty. In this version it's going to be a little darker than the books in the sense that lives will have been taken during the war because to me it doesn't make sense all these deadly curses and you have Harry and Hermione and Ron out in the middle of a forest and you're telling me they didn't go through struggles I mean weren't they starving at one point? I wanted Harry and Hermione and Ron to have been just closer in terms of affection in the way they held each other and I also wanted Ginny to be more of a best friend to Harry and Hermione because I didn't really ever see the attraction between the two I always felt it was a little bit forced when I was reading the novels and when I was watching the movies. So forgot about Harry and Ginny ever dating. She was single after Dean but dated after the war. Dean and Ginny get back with each other a year and a half before this chapter. Ginny is three months pregnant with twins and she's not showing yet because she very active and its her first baby. Regarding her look I changed it to her being tall. Think Deborah Ann Woll, I know Daniel Radcliffe is short but I picture him to be about 5'10 same high as Deborah Ann Woll but in the store and have Ginny being an inch shorter.

So if you're still interested in the story and let me know about this chapter again I'm very sorry about how I left this and I'm going to finish this hopefully in the next couple months. Oh and another thing I did this chapter taking place maybe a month before Hermione shows up at Grimmauld place. And in the next chapter to I think we're going to have Ron show up so leave a review! n_n

p.s. I'm leaving this chapter here and I'm going to go back and kind of bridge together where I plan to have the story going so there might be a chapter where it's just letting you know how things progressed I would say from the wedding all the way till they look for Hermione.