"What did you choose to name her" He asked softly.

"Isobel "Jane told him just as softly, looking intently at him; she knew what this would mean for him even if, in true Vulcan style, he would never admit it.

Spocks brown eyes cut to meet her blue ones a look of soft wonder in them "Jane..." he was uncharacteristically lost for words.

"Thank you" he finally managed to edge out... "Th'yla"

The sense of calm and peace that had settled over Jane disappeared as soon as she heard that one word, "Don't call me that" she spat out harshly.

Spock froze "Jane'.

"No' Jane shook her head fiercely "You don't get to call me that. Ever again."

The arms that held their child tightened as Spock looked at his pale bond mate emotion dancing in his usually passive dark eyes, "I apologize" he told her softly.

"Just never call me that again" Jane dictated "It is offensively inaccurate. We are not th'yla anymore. We are not anything."

"We are still bondmates" Spock reminded her tightly, "As well as parents to Isobel"

"I am sorry if my naming Isobel after your grandmother gave you... false hope" Jane looked down at her hands "But I only decided upon her name because I felt it was only right that Isobel had a name that meant something to her family, and you and your mother are her family. But you are not mine, not anymore."

"I meant what I said, Spock" Jane sighed; she had just given birth, going through a long and painful 15 hour labour , did she really have to deal with this now?

"Our marriage is over" She told him softly "All my trust in you has been broken and without trust there cannot be love" Oh how she wished this was true "And without love there cannot be a healthy marriage. We are done".

Spock eye were darker than usual and filled with pain as he looked at the child in his arms; he could not look at his wife, not with what she was telling him

"Maybe humans can walk away from their marriages so lightly but as a Vulcan's I cannot especially not while we are bound by a thy'la bond. We are bound until death and nothing will change that."

"Are you kidding me" Jane straightened up in her hospital bed until she was half sitting up "You walked away from me, from our marriage 9 months ago.

And you made your plan of dissolving our bond clear before you threw me off MY ship."

"I spoke in anger" Spock admitted "My mind was filled with flames over your apparent infidelity I was emotionally compromised."

"And that excuses you?" Jane sneered.

"No" Spock looked down at the now whimpering Isobel, who picking up on the tensions on the room was beginning to cry "I owe you reparations. I do not know what would be enough to make up for the pain and suffering I caused you the last nine months but if I could, if you would let me I would spend the rest of my life making it up to you. I would spend the rest of my life winning back your trust and your love if you would just give me the chance."

"Give her to me" Jane demanded, her attention on her now loudly crying baby as she tried to ignore what Spock had just said.

Walking over to Jane, Spock tenderly and carefully placed Isobel into her arms.

"I'm not discussing this just now" Jane told him "Not when I have just given birth and my hormones are running wild and I am in desperate need of sleep."

"I will leave you then" Spock said "But may I visit my daughter and you tomorrow."

"You can visit Isobel" Jane told him "I meant what I said Spock. No matter what happens between us I have no plans on denying you your child or her you"

It had been two days since she had given birth and Spock's visit to see her; although the Vulcan had been back every morning and night to visit his daughter, and Jane was filling out the last of the paperwork that would discharge her and Isobel.

"Hello" said a cheery voice, distracting Jane as she signed the padd that would officially discharge her.

"Mrs Deluca" Jane greeted her former employer warmly.

"How are you and the princess today?" Angelica Deluca asked Jane.

"We are both in perfect health and eager to leave" Jane laughed.

"Well let's get you home then" Angelica gestured to the nurse who had just come into the room "I believe Captain Kirk is ready to be discharged."

Smiling at Jane the nurse took the padds off of her and after glancing at them she nodded "You are all done and discharged. Do you need a help carrying Isobel to your vehicle?'

"No thanks" Jane smiled at the nurse, who like the other nurses seemed a bit awed at Janes 'celebrity' status of the hero who had saved earth "I think between us, Mrs Deluca and I have it covered."

Walking over to the bassinette where Isobel lay placidly sucking her hand, Jane picked her up and turning to Mrs Deluca she grinned excitedly "Let's blow this popsicle stand!"

It was not until they were half way down the road that Mrs Deluca turned her attention from the road to Jane "Jack told me about the... incident that happened in his office'

Jane closed her eyes; she had never really expected Jack to spill the beans about their kiss to his grandmother "Mrs Deluca" she started.

"Angelica" Mrs Deluca told her firmly, "I am not your boss anymore. Just your landlord and friend."

"Angelica" Jane retried "Jack and I... we.." Jane trailed off not knowing where to go with this.

"I know Jack fancies himself in love with you" Jane mouth parted in shock at this tidbit and Angelica laughed ruefully "Jack has always had... a knight in shining armour complex, I guess you could call it" she told Jane "And as you are so beautiful and when he met you so vulnerable, I guess he fell or at least imagined he fell a little in love with that and you."

Jane started to protest but Angelica held up one hand "No dear" she told the protesting Jane "Let me finish. "Jane obediently (maybe for the first time in her life)shut her mouth again and Angelica commenced "Jack imagines he is in love with you, but you are not in love with him" she stated shaking her head "How could you be when you are still in love with your husband?"

Once again Jane opened her mouth to protest but after receiving a stern look from Mrs De Luca she shut it again "You are still in love with Spock and until you resolve the unfinished behaviour between you and him, I think it is only fair that you leave Jack out of it."

"Spock and I are finished. No matter my feelings for him the trust is gone so the relationship is dead" Jane told her softly "But you are right about Jack; I did like him" she admitted "But I do know now is not the time to start a new relationship."

"Believe me, Jane" Angelica smiled kindly at Jane "Nobody would be happier than me to welcome you into the family if you and Jack decided to be in a relationship after you and Spock settle things out but I don't want to see my boy hurt."

"I don't want to hurt Jack" Jane insisted

"I know" Angelica took one hand off the wheel and patted Jane's hand "And like I said after you and Spock resolves your issues who knows?"

"It may take a while" Jane admitted "To resolve Spock and my issues."

Mrs Deluca looked at Jane thoughtfully "Have you ever thought of trying to work things out?" she asked "After all you have Isobel to consider."

"No" Jane shook her head "Like I said he has shattered my trust. I don't trust him at all anymore and I can't imagine ever doing so again."

"Trust can be regained if you work at it" Angelica said quietly

"Not this time" Jane shook her head "He has done too much damage"

Angelica looked at Jane sadly "Maybe" she admitted "So when do you meet up with him to discuss Isobel and how you are going to share custody."

"Tomorrow" Jane laughed "Spock is not one to beat around the bush!"

Spock and Jane were meeting in a luxuriously appointed room in the Vulcan embassy; Amanda (and Sarek) had taken Isobel to visit some distant relatives and Jane smiled at that though; she knew her daughter's doting grandmother could not wait to parade her granddaughter all over the Vulcan embassy!

Sitting down in a plush chair Jane looked at her estranged husband "Let's get started shall we?" Jane suggested "Before your mother spoils Isobel beyond belief"

"What I thought would be fair is too work up to you having Isobel for weekends" Jane told a silent Spock "After all, as I am breast feeding at the moment, so it is not like she could be away for me for more than a couple of hours but I am willing to bring her here, to the embassy so you and your mother and father can bond and spend time with her."

"Jane" Spock shook his head "That is not going to work"

Jane slumped slightly; of course it could not be as simple as Spock agreeing to her, what she thought were, reasonable terms. Isobel was after all just a week old; it is not like anyone could expect her just to hand her over to Spock for a couple of day or even like it was possible... as she was breast feeding.

"What would you find reasonable?" she queried

"It is not what I would find reasonable but what will work long term" Spock told her quietly.

"You object to having her for weekends?" Jane frowned "I don't know if I would be willing to be parted with her for more than two days. Not until she is a lot older"

"That is not what I am talking about" Spock 'Vulcan sighed' which meant a slight, not noticible to anyone who had not been bonded to a Vulcan, exhale of breath, "I am talking about what will happen in the long term for us"

"I came here today to ask" Spock closed his eyes then shook his head "No" He corrected himself " I came here today to beg you for a second chance" The Vulcan slid off of his chair and walking over to Jane he dropped to his knees in front of her "I do not wish to be a part time, I think is the phrase, father to Isobel. Nor do I wish to ignore the fact that I wronged you, I accused you of betraying me when in fact it was I who betrayed you with my distrust in your innocence and my subsequent callous dismissal of you from my life and your ship."

Grasping her hands, Spock looked at her with, what to Jane's amazement, tears in his eyes "If you would but allow me I would complete any task you set me, I would do anything to regain your trust and love if you would just allow me the chance to redeem myself in your eyes"

A lump rose in Jane's throat as she looked into Spocks dark, tear-filled eyes before carefully withdrawing her hands from his "It's not that simple, Spock" she told him "I can't even think of any task that would allow me to trust you again."

"Allow me to court you." He suggested "Allow me to show you that I am worthy of your trust and love, allow me to show you that I am worthy of being your bondmate and Isobel's father'

"You are Isobel's father" Jane told him "But I don't think courting me would make me regain my trust of you; it is broken" bowing her head so he could not see the lie in her eyes she added "As is my love for you" she told him "There is nothing to be regained."

"I want you to be part of Isobel's life. I am willing to bring her here so you can build up a relationship with her and then when she is older I will be willing to allow you weekend visitations but any more than that? It is totally out of the question." Moving on to address other issues she knew faced them, Jane stated "I don't know what we will do when you enter Pon Farr seeing how our bond cannot be broken but I know I do not wish it to involve me."

"Whether you wish it or not" Spock told her stiffly "It will have to involve you; you are my bondmate and as you have mentioned previously, as our bond cannot be broken than no other will bring me relief from the flames and without... relief I will die."

" I can't do it Spock" She told him firmly "I can't rebuild my life if I have to wait around every seven years to do my wifely duty. There has to be a solution so I can move on. So we can both move on"

"There is one" Spock admitted.

"And you didn't think of mentioning it before now?" Jane snapped "Or were you hoping that I would accept the situation was hopeless and just give in and take you back? I am Jane T Kirk remember? I don't do no win situations."

"Truly" Spock agreed looking at her listlessly "If you will not consider allowing me the chance to win you back, to regain your love then there is only one option open to me to ensure that when the flames do descend that I do not either force myself upon you or else perish in the flames."

"Which is" Jane asked eagerly

"I will complete the rite of Kolinahr and purge all emotion; including my love for you.'

Author Note: Okay so I have always planned for this to have a happy ending but I am struggling to be honest. Part of me truly feels that no matter how he tries Spock will not be able to regain Jane's trust; he has truly shattered it beyond belief after all.

And without trust I do not think any relationship could be in any way healthy... so will this story have a happy ending?I was really rooting for it to... but I honestly do not know.

I hope you stay with me for the rest of the tale but understand if you don't for those serial happy ending lovers.