Second chapter! Ok thankyou for the reviews! I didn't expect to get feedback so fast and so positive. And I want to say my heart goes out to you all who feel so hurt by Tris's death. I will admit I sobbed for an hour, I had to stop reading just to get a grip and then I had to read the ending of the book again because I couldn't see through my tears the first time. The next few chapters won't really have anything exciting in it til the fourth one. But I will keep it as interesting as I can, and update as soon as I can. But please keep reading because... .I don't want to spoil it so just keep reading. P.s this fantic is rated M for a reason, I can promise that there won't be any swearing but there will be adult themes – Rionsremy

Disclaimer: I don't think this is necessary, because if I actually owned the divergent trilogy, the third book would have had a completely different ending. I don't own divergent just to be clear.

'Tobias...' I can hear her calling my name, like a siren.

'Tris!' I call to her. Searching through the crowds and crowds of people, I cannot see her face

'Tobiassss...' she beckons again, more longingly

'Where are you?' I yell

'I'm here!' she calls from behind me, I turn and she isn't there

'I can't see you! ' I panic

'come find me' she taunts

'Tris please!' I beg her, my eyes welling

'I never left you Tobias' she whispers

I turn and there I see her in the crowd. She is not how I remember her, taller, older, more beautiful if possible. 'Tris' I call as I start my way through the crowd to her.

'Tobias!" she says more urgently

'I'm coming!' I yell back frustrated by the crowds that won't move

'Tobias come find me' she begs and I can see tears pouring down her face now

'I can't' I say stopping in my tracts. 'You're dead; I can't go to you there'

'Tobias, I never left you. I'm here, save me!' the screams as I see the crowd pushing her back

'Tris!' I scream

'Help me Tobias, they have got me! Don't leave me here!' she begs

The words come out before I realize 'I will find you Beatrice'

The bang is what pulls me from my nightmare. My head is thick with a brewing headache, and I can here panic banging on my door. I get up and go to open it

'Well it's about time four!' Christiana say worriedly, 'I've been knocking for a while now and calling out to you, I could hear you screaming on my way for a jog this morning! What's happening in there?'

I sigh, what a headache today is already turning out to be.

'Nothing, thanks for checking on me' I say rubbing my eyes

'Didn't sound like "nothing" to me; have you got someone it there? It sounded like you were talking to someone!' Christina gets on her tip toes and peers over my shoulder into my apartment eyes darting over the room in search of whoever she is looking for

'I was having a nightmare okay' I say deadpan

'Another one? Four that's one every night this week since-'

'Yea I know! I don't want to talk about it okay' I snap and start walking back into my apartment, I go to close the door but Christina is already inside behind me, sneaky girl. I look at her and her expression has changed from alarm to pity, great just what I need, a pity party

'I'm sorry four I didn't mean to make you mad, maybe you should go and see Matthew'

'I don't need to go and see Mathew okay, I'm fine!'

'Could have fooled me champ. I'm serious you should go and see him, he is working on some pretty amazing stuff lately, he Cara and Caleb have made some amazing break throughs in science and anyway it's hard to explain but he is into the whole psychology thingy maybe he could give you something for you nightmares.'

'Chris just drop it I'm not in the mood ok' I rub my temples and go and flop on the bed. In the last three years we have become such good friends, I wonder if this is what having a sister is like.

'Four' she whines dragging out the last part of my nickname. I told her long ago that she doesn't have to call me four, but she said she couldn't call me Tobias because that belonged to Tris. And she didn't want Tris to think she was cutting her grass if ever Tris was watching. I kinda agree with Chris, I only want Tris to call me Tobias.

'Chirstinaaaa' I whinge back into my pillow suppressing a smile. She hates when I mimic her. I tense up in expectation of the pillow she will peg at me, but I don't move I just let it hit me and my smile broaden knowing that I got a rise out of her.

'Ow' I say into my pillow and she laughs. I look up at her and give her a soft smile, she has grown into quite the woman, taller, more developed, she is a real stunner I admit, and whenever we go out she always gets stares. She makes me think of Tris and my dream, would Tris be taller if she was alive, would she be more developed, not that I thought she was ugly at all, I loved every bit of her then as I do know, but age changes us, and I wonder if she would have changed, she was only young, I guess she probably would look more womanly, and graceful.

'What are you thinking about four?' the question sorta catches me off guard, Tris would have asked me that if she were here.

I sigh 'I was just thinking, if Tris was alive, do you recon she would look different then she did at 16?'

'Well duh! Her boobs probably would have come in' Christina jokes, still Candor to this day she speaks her mind.

'She had boobs' I protest, slightly blushing, remembering that once and only time we were one. 'You just couldn't make them out through those baggy t-shirts she wore'

Christina looks like she has been given Christmas early. 'You mean you saw them stiff?'

I look at Christina and roll my eyes 'of course, I was her boyfriend' I try to make out that it's not a big deal.

'But she was such a prude and had intimacy problems, she said that you and her never-'

'We did!' I cut her off 'the last night we were together we did' and then sadness creeps over me and I bury my head into my pillow again, unable to face the day.

'Sorry four, I didn't mean to bring up that memory'

'Do you mind just leaving me for a while, I gotta get ready for work and I don't want to talk about it anymore?

'ok' she says quietly, and after a minute I hear the door shut behind her. She lingered like she wanted to say something and then left, like she thought better of it.

I bring my head back up and look to the empty side of my bed. I got the bigger bed so that it would remind me of her, and so that I could imagine her sleep next to me at night. Pathetic right.

I close my eyes tight and it's like she is there, lying next to me. I reach my hands out and draw her to me stroking her hair, smoothing my hands over her waist. Good morning Tobias she pouts, and I kiss her lips, and she kisses mine, and I run my hands through her hair and her hands trace the contours of my back, like they always did, she then does something I wasn't expecting, she pushes me back onto the bed and removes her clothes, I gaze up at her beauty, hips are a little bigger chest more fuller, and her eyes more brighter. I prop myself onto my elbows and run my hand through her hair, and I notice it's longer. I always liked her with short hair because of its practicality, but now it reminds me of how peaceful we could be. I pull her down to me and kiss her urgently and find myself getting more and more passionate. She gets up and says you're going to be late for work with that she walks into the bathroom looking over her shoulder at me and smiling, I can't help but admire her beautiful body as she walks.

I pull myself from my daydream long enough to realize that yes I do need a shower. I get up and follow where the apparition of Tris went and run the hot water, I look down at myself and think I should probably take a cold shower, I go to turn the taps and she is back, in the shower waiting for me. I step in and draw the curtain.

I think I will have a hot shower after all.

And that's the end of that, hope to hear feedback soon. Don't be afraid to ask me anything I don't bite... Like who wants to know what Four has tattooed across his heart?