Hellooo everybody! I am very sorry that I have not updated in a while. I had family come and visit me on the weekend and aside from that my life is falling apart (don't ask, and also don't grow up its a trap!)
Ok so I'm not sorry for this chapter. I'm going to warn you now, this chapter contains a little bit of adult context and also MUSH (ew!) that I actually do apologize for, I am not the overly romantic type. (My ex once wrote me a love song and I wanted to vomit all over him!) But ever since reading allegiant and getting to know Four I kinda got the feeling he was a bit hopeless without Tris. And well this chapter is purely to please those who want some sexy mushy goo! Actually the original chapter I wrote was alot more explicit and alot less cheesy. I wrote it for my friend cause she is a pervert and has no life. But alas here it is, we will get back to the plot after this chapter. A storm is coming. - rionsremy
My hands are covered in blood. Tris is standing before me and I yell her name, but she doesn't answer. I have shot her between the eyes. She stands with a gaping hole in her head and looks at me like she isn't there but in a distant place.
'I thought you loved me Tobias' she drones. Walking towards me like the undead.
'Why did you kill me?' one of her eyes it looking in another direction. Blood dripping down her face and her neck is bent in a wrong angle.
'I'm sorry' I plead and get down on my knees as she steps closer.
'I thought you loved me!' with that she takes my gun and presses the barrel to my forehead.
'I do, Tris I love you more than my life!' I beg her to believe me
'Prove it!' she says coldly. When she opens her mouth maggots crawl out.
'Tris please!'
'Be brave Tobias' and she fires.
I wake up gasping for air and in a cold sweat. I'm not alone because hands slide up my back and rest on my shoulders.
'Are you okay?' she asks worriedly. I nod.
I stand up to go and wash my face and get a drink of water. I look in the bathroom mirror.
You're a mess!
As I splash my face I hear her small feet pit pat into the room and slide her hands around my waist. I dry my face and hands and slide my then over her perfectly soft ones.
'You have nightmares often don't you' she says knowingly.
I sigh when I turn around and rest my forehead against her's and close my eyes. I breathe in her smell. She smells so good.
'You dreamt about me didn't you?' she asks and I nod. 'You dreamt that you killed me'
'Tris I'm so sorry' I breathe into her neck.
'Oh Tobias' and she holds me tighter. She feels so slight under my huge t-shirt, so birdlike.
She pulls back and kisses me softly. I kiss her back and for a while we just stand there kissing. It feels good to have her in my arms, to have her body pressed against me.
She takes her lips off mine and kisses my neck, and then my collar bone where she can reach more easily.
I can't help myself grow in want for her.
'Dammit Tris your making me hard!'
She stops kissing me and smiles,
'So?' she breathes in my ear.
She is driving me wild; I push her back gently when she starts kissing my neck again.
'Tris, we don't have to do that, not just yet. I only just got you back' I look at her. Her lips are full and puffy.
Damn she looks good
And she pouts at me, electricity coursing through our two bodies. Like she is trying to make me want her. She doesn't have to try hard, I want her, but I'm trying to have self control.
'What if I want to' she whispers quietly. I close my eyes trying to put the thoughts of a naked Tris from my mind.
'Tris I-' she kisses me again cutting my sentence off. I mentally try to fight off the feeling but succumb to her completely.
Oh my god!
I kiss her passionately now not holding back anymore and push her up against the wall. I am pressed against her so tightly I feel like I'm hurting her, but she seems to likes it and wants to be closer still. Her hands reach below the waistline of my pants, and I have to stop kissing her and swallow hard when she finds what she is looking for.
I pull her hand out, and catch my breath.
'Wait' I look her in the eyes and hold her face in my hands. 'I have something I want to give you before we do this.' and I lead her back into the bedroom and to the chest of drawers on my side of the bed. I grab what it is I'm looking for and hold it in my hand so she can't see.
'Tris' I pause, I have no idea how to express myself at this point, there is so much going through my head. 'Tris, the day I went back into Chicago to try and stop my parents from waging war against each other I managed to grab something that was important to me. Something that I wanted to give to you that night, once everything was over and we could rebuild together. I always planned on making my life with you. I imagined we would make a home together, have normal lives, maybe even one day have children. And right now I still don't fully believe that you are real. But I'm not going to let another second go by without doing this first, Because I want to have no regrets, whether you're real or not.' I look into her beautiful eyes. So calm and familiar, they make me feel strong and yet they weaken me at the knees.
There are many ways the factions would do this. But right now I go with what's pounding in my heart. I feel humbled by her and inadequate to be in her presence so I get down on my knees and kiss the palms of her hands.
'Tris, I promise you, that I will live each and every day for you, I will die for you a million times just to see you smile, I promise to make you happy, and I pray that this ring finds better favour with you then it did with its previous owner. May it be a constant reminder to me to be a better man then my father' I take the small silver band that was once my mother's from out of my hand and place it on her finger.
Tris looks at me and then to the ring on her finger. 'You kept this ever since that day?' she asks
I nod. And she gets down onto her knee's and looks directly into my eyes, they sparkle with tears but they do not drop. I still hold onto her hands, like they are my lifeline, tethering me to this world.
She smiles, and then laughs and raises an eyebrow 'kids? Really?'
I laugh with her and she throws her arms around my neck and we kiss. I scoop her up in my arms and lay her on the bed and continue to kiss her there.
'Can we do it now' she mumbles through my lips
I reply by removing my shirt.
I will try and update sooner I really will. But this month is gonna be a busy one! As most of you have figured out I'm Australian so when post this at 1am my time most of you are just waking up! Oh and I have been loving your reviews! some of them make me laugh and actually I have changed parts of the story because of some of your reviews, not crucial parts or plots but, altered it because you have inspired me to. And for future references I think Monday nights is when I will probably update. Mondays my time.
Ps. I know that alot of you are probably hunger games fans too, so who is excited for Catching Fire this 21st! I know I am!
