Pat six

Don't let me hang on

Like a Yo-Yo

Lilly's POV.

May 30

Dairy,

Kill me. I kissed Miley's big goofy brother. I mean, I wanted it. I wanted to be good for Jake. The fact is that I wanted it but I wasn't supposed to LIKE it. Jackson is cool and all but he's…Jackson. He's way too older. He's way too himself. He's way too goofy. I have to admit that he is cute and all but he's Jackson. But damn, he kisses like a god.

June 3

Dairy,

Things have been too awkward between Jackson and me. Not because of him. Because of me. I can't face him. Each time I'm around him, I freeze. I keep on focusing about something else than his presence, because when I look at him all I can see is his lips. Sweet and perfect. It seems like it didn't make Jackson awkward…Every time he just acts normal, like ever and speaks to me like if it never happens. I am so his little sister's best friend that he didn't take anything out of it. I mean, alright, I am just that…But damn, when my hands were playing with his hair and his hands were rubbing my hips, I would have lay him down and made out with him a long time…

BAD LILLY. STOP THINKING ABOUT THAT.

June 5

Dairy, I wanted to give you a new name, but couldn't found you one.

Are you a boy or a girl? I should decided that before naming you.

Oscar or Mina.

Anyway.

Alright, there is nothing bad about the kiss. Then, why can't it just quit my mind?

Miley asked me the most embarrassing thing ever yesterday. We were in her living room, watching "The Notebook" and out of nowhere she asked me "Lilly, how do you find my brother?" I then asked her "In which way?" trying to be nonchalant. She told me "Well, in every way…" I was really speechless. What could I answer? So I told her what I really thought. "Well, your brother is nice when he wants. He is kind of cute. He is funny but still goofy. I don't think I have anything else to say…" and then to add to the embarrassed moment she said : "Do you like him?" My goal was to seem distant. "Well, for sure I like your brother! It's Jackson! Who couldn't like him?" But she didn't got it and then asked me "No, I mean, do you like him in a non-brotherly way?" I replied to her : "No." But then a voice in my mind told me : "Quit on lying."

June 10

As stupid as it sounds, I avoid the Stewart's house for a little bit.

I had to make my though clear. I didn't know if I could see Jackson in another way than the brother-figure he has on me. I mean, he always defend me and took care of me. He was always nice but still hateful. I saw him like a brother and now this kiss came and changes it all. I came to realize things about him that I didn't though about before. So I decide to avoid him to make my thought clear. I mean, if you came to realize things about your best friend's brother that freak the hell out of you wouldn't just avoid him? It's not useful to my mind that I realized that when he smiles, one of his eyes keeps blinking. That when he watches a chick flick he bites his down lips. He bites his nails when his sister annoys him. He kisses like a God. His legs follows the rhythm of the song he listens to. He doesn't want anyone to know that he plays guitar and write songs. His favorite color is green. Arguing is almost his passion but when he looses, he laughs nervously and turn himself down. I came to realize things that unnecessary to my life about him. WHY? Earlier I was on the internet watching videos where we saw Miley and me as Hannah and Lola when AIM windows keep popping up.

JayStu: Hey Lilly!

JayStu: hey u there?

FreakyLilly: hey jay sorry wasn't on my comp. how r u?

JayStu: good you?

FreakyLilly: yeah

JayStu: so with jake-boy, how is it going?

FreakyLilly: going slow but doing ok I just don't know anymore…he seems distant…

JayStu: well I hope it all got better for you

JayStu: sry got to go, ttyl bye

JayStu logged off.

YeliMMiley: LILLY

FreakyLilly: hi

YelimMiley: not going at my house today either?

YeliMMIley: I don't mind I just can't come at yours. Got grounded.

FreakyLilly: I could come, yeah

FreakyLilly: LOL, why did you get grounded?

YeliMMiley: yelled at my brother and said a few bad words and my dad got it bad LOL

FreakyLilly: LOL, so funny

FreakyLilly: about what were you yelling at him?

YeliMMiley: tell me the truth, you like him don't you?

FreakyLilly: if you could see my face : I am sighing and raising BOTH eyebrows.

FreakyLilly: no, I don't like your brother Miles

YeliMMiley: I was yelling at him to tell me if he likes you

FreakyLIlly: WHAT?

FreakyLilly: THE

FreakyLilly: FUCK?

YeliMMiley: gtg bye

YeliMMiley logged off.

5m0k3n0k3n: hey lilly baby

FreakyLilly: wait for me to paste that to ur gf

5m0k3n0k3n: she isn't logged on

FreakyLilly: im talking to her right now o)

5m0k3n0k3n: WHAT? HOW? SHE BLOCKED ME? SHE DOESN'T LOVE ME ANYMORE?

5m0k3n0k3n: OMG HOW COME I DIDN'T SEE IT COMINGÉ.

5m0k3n0k3n: DO YOU KNOW ANYTHING LILLY?

5m0k3n0k3n: HELP ME PLEASE, DID SHE TOLD YOU ANYTHING??

FreakyLilly: ok oliver, I was joking she logged off like ten minutes ago

5m0k3n0k3n: YOU ARE SO NOT FUNNY, WTF, YOU SCARED ME!

5m0k3n0k3n: Ihateyou ?&/&"&E?Q/W&?

FreakyLilly: lmao roflmao

5m0k3n0k3n: omg its time for u to have a boyfriend so u wont be so rad!

FreakyLilly: thx appreciated.

5m0k3n0k3n: ask Jackson out, it's been one month he doesn't get a gf

5m0k3n0k3n: he must be in lack of getting laid or something LOLL

FreakyLilly: why would I ask Jackson out?

5m0k3n0k3n: well, lilly I think we need to have a little conversation

5m0k3n0k3n: you know, when a girl or a boy like a boy or a girl, the useful thing to do is ask the other person on a date which leads to a relationship…

FreakyLilly: OMFG I don't like JACKSON. DON'T. OK? GOT IT?

FreakyLilly logged off.