They both had a difficult case to work on and somehow they managed to not think of the other all the time. Gail showed up at Holly punctual, which was a little wonder since she changed at least 8 times until she decided to show up in blue jeans and a white T-Shirt, crazy how much effort she put in dressing although they just wanted to go shopping. Holly locked gorgeous as usual, but she looked good in everything. She wore her skinny jeans and a black shirt with a cardigan.
While they drove Gail asked "Is this a date or something?"
"I don't know if you take groceries shopping as a date, but if we buy candles it may be a little romantic don't you think? I also could kiss you by the toilet paper, I always wanted a date like this"
"Shut up" Gail grinned
As they arrived Holly took a shopping cart and they entered the supermarket.
"So what do you wanna eat for dinner?" Holly asked as the went through the shelves
"Do you like pancakes?"
"Excellent choice officer" said the brunette and put a sack carrots in the cart.
"Isn't it unfair how kids can sit in the cart and get carried, while I have to walk all by myself?"
"Oh Gail" Holly laughed "Come get in"
"What?"
"I will carry you, get in"
Gail just grinned and climbed in the cart. "Wow that's actually comfy"
"Really?" Holly didn't believe her
"Yeah, and now I want you to push a little faster otherwise I will fall asleep"
"You really are a child at heart, huh?" asked Holly and kissed her on the head
She carried her trough the shelves and put milk and eggs and apples in the cart.
"Do you want to have kids?" Gail randomly asked as she saw a mother with her kids standing by the magazines
"Uh, with the right woman, why not?" she looked at Gail and the blonde nearly blushed.
Some people gave her a confused look, as they saw the grown woman in the cart, but Gail didn't care. She didn't care because she was with Holly.
"There's no space anymore" Gail said as Holly put a chocolate bar in.
"Oh, how come?" she winked at her
Gail rolled her eyes "It's relaxing in here"
The continued their purchase as Gail just called:
"Stop!"
"Huh?"
"Can we take it along?" she pointed at the cereals with chocolate and fruit
"Chocolate and fruit, isn't that a weird mix?"
"It'll blow your mind if you taste it, trust me"
She grabbed one and put it in Gail's lap. "Okay"
Gail helped to carry the grocery bags in her apartment.
"What do you like your pancakes with?" Holly asked, taking out her pan.
"Nutella" Gail replied and Holly grinned.
While Holly cooked Gail watched her. Watched her move, watcher her fingers and her arms. She was beautiful, she really was and Gail realized in this moment how beautiful one single person can be.
While they ate they shyly smiled at each other. It wasn't a big deal but it made Gail's heart race anyway. As their hands touched while they did the dishes Gail asked herself when she would kiss Holly next.
They sat on the couch and watched a random soap. It rained outside and Gail's head laid in Holly's lap and the brunette stroke her hair. In the show a couple confessed their love for each other and the boy named John said all the things he loved about his girlfriend. It was actually really long. Gail said without thinking
"Why do you love me?" and it surprised them both. She regretted it the moment she said it.
"Uh-I" Holly stumbled "Because..." she didn't find the right words.
"Forget it, stupid question" Gail stand up "I actually have to go now, I have to be at the station tomorrow"
"Wait, Gail, I didn't mean-I"
Gail slipped out the door and said "It's okay, how dumb of me to think you might be into me"
Holly ran after her and shouted "Gail" in the cold air, Gail turned around already soaked from the rain.
"I do love you" she said "but I don't know how to describe it, it's just.. it's the way you laugh and the way you do the thing with your hands when you're nervous. It's also the way you kiss me and the way you hold your fork. I love all of your little things and I literally don't know how to put this into words. I feel real and safe with you, that's all"
Holly walked towards Gail, looked her deeply in the eyes "Y-you know what I mean.."
"I want you to say it" Her blue eyes mustered her exactly
Holly put her hand on her cheek and said "I've never met anyone like you, that's true... You give me feelings I wasn't sure I even had.. when you're at work I'm worried about you, can you understand that? And I know that you're scared, but sometimes you have just to try something new, who knows maybe you will like it, maybe not, but please, don't always leave" She took a deep breath. " I love you"
Gail was at work and suddenly she felt guilty of not saying I love you back yesterday night, she knew whatever that was it was love. She should have said it back. But once again her fears held her back. If she says it out loud it was real. Then she couldn't deny it anymore. But at this point she didn't even want to deny it. She wanted to say it to her. She wanted to admit her love for the brunette pathologist with those gently hands. Oliver interrupted her thoughts as he said "Gail I have a report, would you bring it to the morgue?" He winked at her, lowered his voice and said "I know you might bring it more likely than the others"
"Shut up"
"I think that's a yes" he smirked, put the report on her desk and left. She wanted to see Holly, but she knew she needed to say it to her, because otherwise it would be unfair. Holly was just so special to her and she deserved to know what goes on in Gail's head. Instead of saying it Gail just grabbed a post-it note and wrote down 'I love you nerd' and taped it on a paper in the middle. That's a great idea, Gail thought. She made her way to the lab and as she saw Holly she felt butterflies in her belly. She couldn't help it, it was just so beautiful to see Holly at work. The way she leaned over to grab something, or the way she held her scalpel. The way she did her work, concentrated and precise. A blind man could see how much Holly loved her work. Gail cleared her throat and Holly noticed her
"Hey, what are you doing here?" She asked with a bright smile
"Oh you know, I just wanted to bring that report" She raised the report
"Ah yeah, thank you"
Gail placed it on the desk and moved towards Holly "I also really missed you" she wrapped her arms around Holly's neck and she put her hands on Gail's hips. "I missed you too" was all that Holly said before she placed her lips on Gail's. It was a long kiss and finally Gail broke it because she needed to breathe. "Oh god, I think I should come over more often" she said looking at her. "Definitely" Holly whispered in her ear and kissed it lightly.
"Gail we have a case to solve, you don't have time for a make out session"
Gail abruptly turned around and saw Steve standing in the door frame
"Uh-yeah I actually just wanted to bring the report..."
"I see, come on, we need you"
"I'll be right there" she said and turned to Holly
"I'm sorry ... can we meet after work?"
"Of course"
"Great, do you wanna watch movie? There's a good action film on"
"Whatever you want" she smiled
Gail stroked Holly's hair behind her ear and kissed her goodbye.
They met in front of the cinema and Holly thought that Gail looked fantastic. She wore a short, black dress that fitted her curves perfectly.
"Hey"
"Hi"
They stood for a few minutes just in silence, both had their arms crossed. They looked at everything besides each other. "So uh- do you wanna get in?" the brunette asked.
"Yeah"
They bought the tickets and searched for the cinema hall.
"Here it is" Gail said "Number six"
"Ah yes, good eye"
The made their way to their seats, it was the last row and nobody sat there. The film hadn't begun yet and more people came in and searched for their seats. "So... is this a date yet?"
"Sort of, yes" Holly said, looking at the big screen.
"And who pays?"
"Me"
"Why?"
Holly looked at Gail and grinned "Because I said so"
"Then I'm gonna pay on the next date"
She raised an eyebrow "Next date, huh?"
Shit, Gail thought "I-I meant uhh, you know when we go out or something, I just want to make it fair, if you pay today, I pay next"
"Yeah right" she smiled.
The film was pretty good. Gail enjoyed it especially when Holly put her hand on her knee, when she couldn't handle the action. Funny how she can do an autopsy but frighten when someone in the film gets shot. Near the end of the film Gail took Holly's hand in hers and didn't let go. As they walked out of the cinema their fingers were still intertwined. It was already dark outside, just the light posts spent a little light.
"Do you want to spend the night?" Holly asked carefully
"I'd love to" and so they walked down the street to Holly's apartment.
Gail was always stunned by her apartment. She never saw so many books at once in her entire life. Every shelf was full with books and in every room were at least two books. She once saw some in the bathroom and one looked like it fell into the water, it may happened as Holly took a bath, Gail assumed.
"Did you read them all?" she questioned
"Yeah"
"Even...", she took a thin book out of the bookshelf and lifted it "this?"
"The bell jar? Oh yeah, it is actually one of my favorites, it was her only novel and she-"
"How?" Gail interrupted
"Huh?"
"How did you read all these books? You have tons"
"I am a fast reader" she wrapped her arms around the blondes waist and kissed her neck. Gail closed her eyes.
"I found your note" she breathed against her neck. Gail swallowed "And?"
"Can't believe you didn't use punctuation"
Gail laughed and rested her head on the brunettes shoulder "I hate you"
"Oh yeah? Then tell me what your hands are doing on my ass"
"You know I can't resist you" said Gail and looked in those dark, beautiful eyes.
She just smiled and replied with a kiss. Gail didn't know when but her hands wandered under the fabric of Holly's shirt, caressing her bare skin. It felt so good.
They stumbled to the couch and Gail took of her shirt and tossed it on the ground and Holly unzipped her dress, it fell slowly to the floor. Thank god I wear my good underwear, Gail thought. Holly cupped her face and kissed her with all her passion while Gail unzipped her jeans. She pushed her onto the couch to get rid off her jeans more easier. And then there they were. Both just in their underwear. Looking at each other as if it's the last time they would see each other. Gail leaned down and kissed her and then she just wrapped her arms around the brunette. Her hands trembled on her back. "We don't have to do this, you know"
"Yeah" Gail replied, still on top of Holly.
It was that kind of intimacy that you just could have with someone you really trust. Just lying in each others arms, not doing anything. It was that kind of intimacy that you have when you are understood by the person you love.
After minutes or even hours Holly asked
"Are you sleeping?"
"No" Gail mumbled in her hair
"Do you wanna dance?"
Gail faced Holly "What? I can't dance"
"I'll teach you" she kissed her nose.
Holly put on some music. It was a slow song.
"Uh- so what am I supposed to do?" Gail asked
"Put one hand on my shoulder and the other one in mine" She did. "Good, and now move your right foot forward"
As she did, Holly moved her foot backwards.
Holly teacher her the waltz. "Really good" Holly praised.
"I just have a good teacher" she smiled at her.
Soon they danced as if they were once. Holly turned Gail around and they couldn't help but smile at each other.
Dancing with your significant other in underwear is intimate. No one can deny this. And Gail neither. She wished she could stay with Holly forever like this. She wrapped her arms around her waist and rested her head on her shoulder and Holly did the same. In this position they continued dancing, or, you could say moving their hips to the left and to the right. After several minutes Gail said so quite that Holly almost didn't hear it
"I love you"
A/N "The bell jar" was written by Sylvia Plath and it's really good! I hope you liked this chapter, I'm really glad that you read it, it makes me so happy you have no idea
