A/N: This one jumps about a bit (and when I say a bit, I mean a lot).
My mind had played over every moment I'd spent with her, ever.
I was going crazy without her.
From the first time I saw her I knew my life would never be the same again. Whether I attacked her or not, I knew it would be different. Even with the hole in my heart I would never regret a minute of the time we spent together.
Not once.
Maybe I was always crazy. Hearing voices in your head is a known sign of being mental. Maybe the only reason I couldn't hear her was because she was the only one who could save me…from myself. She was an innocent human who had run off with my heart. A human, yes, but that was the irony of it all.
Harmless yet lethal.
The residents of Brassington had given me room, quite enough. None of them knew I was here which suited me just fine, I knew they wouldn't come at night anyway. I would get no visitors wanting to welcome me back here and it was probably better that way. No one wants to get attacked by a heart-broken vampire that hasn't fed since he was in America.
I would need to hunt soon though. As much as I didn't want to leave I would have to. I didn't need to get so weak I couldn't move. I wouldn't have enough power to think. I promised myself I wouldn't forget. If I couldn't think I wouldn't remember.
I had to hunt. Now.
My legs were shaking under me as I stood but I didn't fall. I took a deep breath from the depths of her jumper and vaulted out of my window, leaving it behind.
When we were hunting near Brassington we had to be so careful. The humans were a lot closer than Forks and the wind would normally bring their scent to us. I almost forgot this and I dug down deeper into the forest.
Soon, I had found a mother deer and a fawn, and had drained them both dry. I pulled up a tree and buried them both under it. No need for anyone to get suspicious just yet.
I walked slowly by a small yet deep lake. It was hidden under a canopy of trees and I was sure we hadn't found it before. Without thinking, I found myself stripping off my clothes and diving down as deep as I could.
I wasn't drowning myself. No, I knew I couldn't. I just wanted to see what it was like underwater. I'd never really stopped to look. I didn't need to breathe and I'd never been diving. I was such an idiot, but for so many different reasons.
Once I settled and the animals had gotten used to me, I could see so many things. The reflection of moonlight that had crept through the cover of trees in the water gave the liquid a gloomy look. Fish swam in groups, very much awake, looking alert.
Everything looked alert in the water. I wondered why that was. Me? Possible, but hadn't I been sitting here for over half an hour already? No, it wasn't me. Something else…
A harsh movement from above shook the water. The fish were knocked about and some were bashed against rocks, leaving them bleeding and I was glad I couldn't breathe down here, they would be dead. My head was bashed about in the water so I swam up towards the surface to see what had caused it.
I couldn't see anything so I collected my clothes, put them on and ran back to the house, my hair drying in the wind.
When I got there, I was suddenly very glad I fed before I got back, because nothing could have shocked me more than what I saw ahead of me.
I was fed up.
Alice hadn't spoken to me in two weeks and the whole house seemed depressed even with Jasper here. Emmett was the only real one talking to me. Everyone tried small talk but that was it. Emmett never left my side and if he did I knew I would collapse.
If possible, school was worse than the house. All the teachers seemed to pick on me to answer their stupid questions. Thankfully, Emmett never really had to leave my side there either. We had it so we had the same time table. Lunch, as usual was uneventful. This idiotic new school we moved to was just so boring! More so than Forks! Yes, we were new but that didn't mean we needed talking to every second of the day.
Now, I realised how much Edward brought us all together and how I never saw it. He was always the calming attitude. You'd think it was Jasper, Carlisle even but I saw it. It was Edward.
And Bella too. I didn't notice that either. She was a harmless human that had turned lethal. One word from her had changed Edward's life forever.
Jasper couldn't stay near me for long, only long enough to send some calming over to me and tell me it wouldn't be so bad.
I was all my fault. I didn't need to go to Edward to ask him, but I would go. I'd try and make up for what I did and I'd try and bring him back. I needed to clear my conscious before I did something I'd regret.
I walked into Alice's room, ready to make it right when I found a note from both Jasper and Alice, lying on the coffee table in the middle of the room.
I read it and fell to the floor.
I was fed up.
I hadn't spoken to her in the two weeks since Edward had left.
I wouldn't speak to her until she got him back from England. The whole house had changed because of what she'd said. Jasper spent most of his time with me and he was the only one I'd really talk to. He was the only one who hadn't let me break down.
Edward was the only thing that brought the family into a calm focus. You'd think Jasper but it really is Edward. He was the first person who made this family a family. Without him, it wouldn't be Carlisle, Esme, Emmett, Rosalie, Jasper and me. It would be Carlisle and Esme, Emmett and Rosalie, and Jasper and me. We hadn't had a proper conversation together in two weeks. Rosalie would set it right or so help me –
I was in a private room in Forks hospital. Bella sat hooked up to machinery that would check her heart. Charlie and a doctor stood in the room. Charlie was shaking.
"…in a coma. As in you were in-"
"A coma! How?" Bella looked so frail.
"Well Bells," Charlie recovered and stepped in. "You collapsed on the beach, Jacob drove you to the hospital, again, and well, here you are. It seems to be becoming a recurring thing with Jake. I'll go and call him now. He's anxious to see you." Charlie pulled out his cell phone and walked out of the room. I turned back to the doctor, as did Bella.
"How long have I been in said coma?"
"Oh, um, about three days." A little short for a coma…
She continued. "And you knew it was a coma because…?"
"You had all the symptoms and you were unconscious up until now."
"What now?"
"Well, we obviously can't send you home straight away now, after all this. We'll need to check on you, so I'd say we might let you go on Sunday. We'll have to see how you do."
She groaned out loud. The doctor pulled out a stethoscope. "Are you okay?"
"Yes, I'm fine. I just don't think I'll be able to stand being here all week with nothing to do."
He laughed a throaty laugh as the cold stethoscope touched where her beating heart was. I wondered if she remembered anything about us.
"There doesn't appear to be anything wrong as such, but we will have to check up on you every hour today. It's not normal for someone to wake up like there was nothing wrong." When was Bella normal?
Charlie came back in at this point. "Jacob's on his way now, Bella."
She nodded. The doctor left after checking the machines and writing on the clip board at the end of the bed. "What's the time?"
"Oh, um." He looked at his watch. "It's about five."
Okay, five, but when was this? What day? I needed to know. If Bella was back in hospital it meant something was wrong. She should have been straight out, not straight back in.
She nodded again and pulled the covers higher up.
My vision returned to normal. Jasper was staring at me, jaw clenched, just like Edward did.
"Bella." I whispered. "In hospital again."
He pulled me into his chest. He knew how close I and Bella had gotten while she was here and he knew I cared for her. He could feel it all too.
"What do you want to do?" I felt the vibrations in his chest and they comforted me somewhat.
"Don't tell Edward. I need to go and see her, make sure she's okay. Come if you want. We can tell everyone else when we get back or I'll write I note." He kissed my hair and I took that as a yes.
I took out the pen and paper I kept on the coffee table, for occasions just like these, and started to write.
I just had a vision. Bella is in hospital again, something is definitely up. Jasper and I have gone back to Forks to check on her. Please don't follow us and don't tell Edward, he'll only worry. We need to do something about all this, whether it's bring Bella back into the family and explain or just plain bite her (I am opposed to this, currently) something needs to be done. We won't meet with her but it's getting to that point. Edward can't live without Bella and we need the old Edward back. It's tearing us apart, we've all seen how much we need him here.
Rosalie, I don't blame you, but I think you should be the one to set it right, seeing as you were the last to see him. We'll talk about it when we get back.
Alice.
I looked back at the words and they seemed truer every second.
We made our way to the cars and took Edward's Volvo, it only felt right.
"I'll drive. You get in and look for Bella's future." I agreed and got into the passenger side.
It was harder to find her than before. Perhaps because we were so far away from her, perhaps another reason. I didn't get anything more, only visions of her sleeping. I didn't like it and I told Jasper to speed up
He did and soon we were pulling into the hospital parking lot. He parked and I kissed him hard on the lips and told him to wait. He said he would. I was so lucky to have him.
I stepped out into the rain and dashed to the side of the hospital. No one saw me as I climbed to the forth floor and in through the window. It was still visiting hour so I had nothing to worry about, I just couldn't be bothered with reception. Too much fuss.
I made my way to the private rooms. They were at the side of the floor and the wards were in the middle. I looked through each window as I dashed passed at a slight, vampire jog that looked like a sprint to human eyes.
A woman in room one hundred and one with a man at the end of her bed, clutching her hand. An old man in room one hundred and two, sleeping off drugs. A mother in room one hundred and three with two toddlers and their father talking to her. Bella in room one hundred and four, closing her eyes to sleep with Charlie reading a newspaper next to her. An old woman in room one hundred and five –
I spun around and crept just below the window, my eyes just peeping over the edge.
She looked warn out, exhausted, but a slight smile played on her lips that a human couldn't pick up on. Charlie on the other hand looked so relieved it was unbelievable. He kept glancing up to make sure she was still there, still breathing.
I took a deep breath in and was about to sigh when I smelt what I had just sucked in.
Werewolf.
I sprinted down the hallway to the corner of the wall where the ward started, and prayed that I wouldn't be seen, and that the disinfectant would cover my scent. I was not up for fighting a werewolf today.
Jacob Black walked into view. Tall, muscular, and that disgusting scent that rolled off him told me he was a werewolf. I glared at the scent the brought with him.
He got to Bella's door and sniffed the air. My breath caught. If he knew we were back I don't know what would happen. His eyes narrowed as he knocked on the door and entered. The one time I need Edward to hear what he's thinking and he's in England.
I strained to hear what they were saying because I was so far away and because the ward was so noisy.
"Visiting hours are over." The ward.
"…is she?" Jacob, yes, that was Jacob.
"Visiting hours are over now, you have to leave, I'm afraid." That was the ward again
"Well," Charlie now. "She woke up a while ago. Me and Dr. Jones walked in and there she was just reading a book, like nothing was wrong. She's so worn out, Jake. Dr. Jones thinks its something to do with the…" "Please leave the ward now…" "…all she's done is sleep when she got back. School wore her out so much she ended up going to bed at seven, eight or nine. Not like before, she'd usually get off at, like eleven at the earliest. It's not right. I'm so worried for her."
"…You'll have to leave." The ward…
I strained to hear more.
"I am too, Charlie." That was Jacob again.
"Yes, I know. I'm sure a lot of people at the school are too. She'll be getting floods of visitors this week."
"So is she in all week then?"
"Yes or so Jones says. I have no idea what will happen now. If she died–"
"Charlie, don't think like that! She won't die, she can beat this. You know she's strong."
"I know, Jake, I know. I don't like to think about it but I have to. Honestly, how many teenage girls fall in and out of comas each day? And in Forks of all places? Bella's a mess. I don't know if you can save her now." She really had been in a coma?! This was a lot worse than I'd thought.
Jacob didn't say anything. There was silence for a while and I suddenly realised how lethal Bella was by being totally harmless. She had vampires andwerewolves fighting and defending her.
"Sorry, I didn't mean that."
"Don't worry about it Charlie. It's fine. I need to get going anyway."
"Oh, well, tell Billy I said hi."
"I will. Tell Bella I said hi too. I'll be back tomorrow."
"Sure."
He closed the door and sniffed the air again.
His eyes narrowed, he turned his head and looked straight at me.
I was in for it.
I was staring at my cell phone, waiting for the call from Charlie that would break my heart and shatter my life.
I had to drive like a maniac to get Bella to the hospital. If it wasn't for my reflexes I would have been in the accident and emergency just like Bella.
Not that I didn't mind saving her life, but I wish she didn't have to endanger it so often. It wasn't good for her, but hey, at least the leaches were gone. It wasn't all bad.
My phone vibrated and I grabbed it, without checking who it was or letting it ring.
"Hello?" My voice was urgent.
"Jake, its Charlie."
"Charlie, how is she?"
"She's awake, I still need to speak with her doctor about what's happening. You can come down if you want?"
"Really? Isn't it too late?" I was asking something else and he caught up on it.
"No, I'm sure she'll be fine with it too."
"Okay, I'll be there in a bit."
And I was too. I pulled into the parking lot in less than five minutes, thanks to more reckless driving. I walked into the reception.
"Bella Swan." I said, after the receptionist asked who I was visiting.
"Floor four, room one-oh-four." I thanked her and as I made my way to the stairs, instead of the elevators, I felt her gaze at me. I didn't care, I had too much energy to burn.
I was on floor four before I knew it and was making my way around to the private rooms. 101, 102, 103, 104 and I was there.
I sniffed before I entered and a horribly sweet smell got caught in my nose. My eyes narrowed.Vampires? Impossible.
I knocked on the door and went in. Charlie was sitting by the bed and he turned to greet me.
"How is she?" I asked, looking at her delicate body breathing in deeply. She was a human, so harmless and yet she had vampires and werewolves fighting over her…
"Well, she woke up a while ago. Me and Dr. Jones walked in and there she was just reading a book, like nothing was wrong. She's so worn out, Jake. Dr. Jones thinks its something to do with the coma. The first time all she's did was sleep when she got back. School wore her out so much she ended up going to bed at seven, eight or nine. Not like before, she'd usually get off at, like eleven at the earliest. It's not right. I'm so worried for her."
"I am too, Charlie."
"Yes, I know. I'm sure a lot of people at the school are too. She'll be getting floods of visitors this week."
"So is she in all week then?"
"Yes or so Jones says. I have no idea what will happen now. If she died–"
"Charlie, don't think like that! She won't die, she can beat this. You know she's strong." I was such a hypocrite. Was I not the one who had been thinking about the deathly phone call and the words he'd have to say?
"I know, Jake, I know. I don't like to think about it but I have to. Honestly, how many teenage girls fall in and out of comas each day? And in Forks of all places? Bella's a mess. I don't know if you can save her now."
I didn't say anything. That hurt. There was silence for a while.
"Sorry, I didn't mean that."
"Don't worry about it Charlie. It's fine. I need to get going anyway." I stood.
"Oh, well, tell Billy I said hi."
"I will. Tell Bella I said hi too. I'll be back tomorrow."
"Sure."
I shut the door behind me and sniffed again. The sickly smell was still here. It was here.
I scowled and faced where the smell came from.
The small, inky-black haired Cullen stared back and then was gone in under a second. I blinked and then darted after her. Faster, faster, Jacob. What was I thinking? I erupted into my wolf form with ease and sped after her. I didn't think about the ward…
Screams could be heard as tore past nurses and doctor with total shock on their faces. I slipped on a corner and skidding into an empty trolley. I started to sprint again and I was gaining on her.
Jacob Black, what are you thinking doing that in a hospital?! Sam's voice screamed in my head.
Then she was gone and it took a moment to register that she jumped out the window.
Jake, get out of there! Sam again…
I jumped out to follow her. I landed and heard something snap but it didn't stop me chasing her.
I'm out already!
She was speeding away to a silver Volvo, the one that Bella's leach had.
Jake! Quil…
I sprinted after it.
Jake, what are you doing?!Embry…
I was gaining on it again now…
Jacob Black, come back to La Push right now. Sam…
So close…
Jacob Black, get back here now or you shall have the whole pack turned against you.
I skidded to a halt, with the red lights of the car in my face.
They drove away.
I ran back to La Push as fast as I could.
I was in for it now.
I kept my eyes fixed on the hospital. I wouldn't let them leave until Alice was safely back in the car where I could see her. I never liked the fact we were so close to werewolves. I don't know a vampire that did.
I put the radio on to pass the time. It was on some classical station, left there by Edward, no doubt.
I left it on. Classical music always seemed to sooth me, calm me down. I may be able to control other's emotions but sometimes you can't control yourself. I've worked that out enough times to know it's sunk in.
My mind drifted to Bella and Edward and the happiness that just rolled off them, practically drowning me in their love. I didn't understand why Edward left her at first but thanks to his depression I understood almost straight away.
Half an hour had passed. I frowned at the clock on the dashboard. It shouldn't be taking this long, should it? All she needed to do was look at the clipboard.
I was about to go out and get her until I saw something.
Alice came sprinting around the hospital, with a wild look in her eyes.
Something was wrong.
I leant over as fast as I could to open the door for her. She leapt in and slammed the door shut. I was waiting for something, some sign, for her to say something.
"Drive. We have a slight werewolf problem." I turned the engine on without hesitation. I just knew this would happen.
Stupid, reeking werewolves!
And then I saw it in my wing mirror. It was big, really big. Big for a werewolf even. It looked dark under the setting sun and the rain made its coat look darker but I could see red in there.
I didn't get too long to get a good look. I had to rush, neither I nor Alice were up to fighting a werewolf. We hadn't hunted in a while and this one was large.
It was gaining on us. I pushed down on the gas pedal and we sped up again, only to be caught up with.
Alice was just staring at it, not blinking, watching it's every move. She was on her knees, hands resting on the head rest.
I looked in my wing mirror. It was getting closer and closer, close enough to bite the car lights.
Then it skidded to a halt. It looked scared, terrified.
I kept driving until we got back to the old house and turned the engine off.
Alice was still facing the road behind us, breathing hard. I grabbed her by the waist, pulled her into my lap and kissed her.
I dawned on me how harmless Bella was and how lethal she could be too. She had vampires and werewolves fighting for her and she had no idea.
I kissed Alice again. "Care to explain?"
A/N: As you wish Jasper. I'm just trying to say how breakable and harmless Bella is yet she is the most lethal thing out there to Vamps. and Wolves. She's just torn apart the Cullen family by jumping and Jacob almost got eaten by his own pack because of her! Okay, so it's not actually her fault, I just like making chapters match and I needed to get the message across somehow...
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