Well, it seems I decided to write a second chapter at last ;) The first one was really sad, so in this chapter I'd like to make it a bit happier. Oh, and this and the previous chapter was corrected by a beta (my first thing corrected by a beta :D ) Pheonix Evans , so thanks a lot for your help! :D

Disclaimer: I don't own Stargate :(

Story: Please stop
chapter 2: Forever
By: Mischel


How could she have been so stupid? How could she even think, that Jack changed? Of course it was just a secret mission. Of course he didn't want to behave like that. But he had to. And she didn't know that. She had foolishly thought he had actually changed and was doing it of his own free will. But he hadn't been.

And she came to him to tell him she didn't like it, just to run away with tears in eyes. She'd thought she could change him back. She could remember the sadness in his voice when he said he couldn't and then she's gone and bolted back to her room. To her safety.

And she'd told him all those things. And for what? For his rejection and her weeping. She almost told him she loved him! Well, she essentially did tell him. She had told him that it was killing her to see him like that. She had told him that she'd even wanted him back. Her Jack. And it was enough for him to find out that she cares for him. He probably now knows that she loves him. But she really didn't want him to know that.

That moment, when she was in his strong arms, feeling safe, she felt complete. Not alone anymore. She just wished that moment could remain forever. But it didn't. And the moment when he told her he couldn't stop, killed her. It stabbed a dagger into her heart. And it broke her heart into a million pieces, she wasn't sure she could get it together again. He completely destroyed the moment she thought was theirs.

She was crying. She cried alot since that moment. When he told her he can't stop and that he's sorry, and she ran away. There, locked in her room, she was crying again. Every time she saw him behaving the way he had been, she almost could see her old Jack slowly disappearing. And in these quiet moments, tears always started to form in her eyes. But she had to be strong. She didn't dare show her tears in front of others.

And finally when General Hammond sent Jack away from SGC, she was brave. She didn't cry. At least at the base. Because the moment when she returned back home, she cried the whole night. The next day at the SGC she felt like something was missing and felt more alone than ever. So much more than before.

Days went by and by and she felt more and more alone. She almost didn't feel like Sam Carter anymore. A shadow was over everything in her life. Over the SGC, the work she loved so much, even friends. Without Jack she was nothing. And she had realized that too late. When he was already gone.

But after one week, when she thought nothing could make her smile again, a miracle happened.

Jack returned.

She almost thought she would never see him again. But the day, when she saw him in the SGC again... It lighted her so much, she wanted to run up to him and hug him, tell him how much she missed him, how much she was glad he was back and plenty of other things. But she couldn't. She had to pretend, that it wasn't the best day for her. As if she didn't have feelings for him. Like he was just her friend and he was the Colonel again. She had to just smile and tell him she's glad he's back. She couldn't hug him in front of the others.

But then again, he had destroyed it all and killed her for a second time. He wasn't there to return to SGC. He was there, because he just wanted to go to another planet, and to stay there forever. Because he wouldn't be allowed to take a code with him to get back through the iris. So he couldn't return on Earth. Ever.

This moment, when she had found out about that, she almost collapsed. But she was strong. When she was standing in front of the Stargate, with General Hammond and Teal'c by her side and Jack standing in front of the wormhole, she stayed brave. She didn't let her tears fall, that were apparently in her eyes. She kept blinking and biting her lip so as to not allow the tears to fall.

And when Jack disappeared into the wormhole, she slowly turned and left, ruined, back to her room. She locked the door, turned the lights off, curled up onto her bed and started to cry. She had been crying for awhile, before someone knocked on the door. She stood up, wiped away her tears and went to the door. But her red rimmed eyes gave it away.

When she opened the door, she found out it was Daniel. He went there 'cause he wanted to check if she was alright. He knew what her feelings were for Jack. And when he saw her red eyes and traces of tears still apparent on her cheeks, he went in, closed the door and just held her to him. Because he was her friend.

The words Jack had told her when they met in the hall, still kept repeating in her head. It was harsh what he had told her. And when she had heard it, she knew that the Jack she knew so long, was gone.

"Carter," he said and continued on his way with Teal'c.

"Sir?" she turned around to him.

"What?" he asked and turned back to her, looking annoyed.

"Is there anything I can do?" she asked a bit hopefully.

"About?" was his responce.

"Well, sir, with respect, you aren't exactly acting like yourself." she said. But his answer was cruel. She couldn't believe he had even said it.

"No Carter. I haven't been acting like myself since I met you. Now I am acting like myself." and then he simply walked away.

He left her to stand there alone. Something that Jack, her Jack would never have done.

But after another 2 days, something incredible happened. Jack returned. For the second time. But this time it was for real. This time, he was back to stay, and he was their friend again.

She could admit to herself that she was a bit upset by what he did. But she understood it. It was in the name of more important things. It was an order he couldn't disobey. And she would probably have done the same, if she had been in his place.


So after all of that had happened in the last week, she was in her room again. She was seated on a chair and looking at his photo again. But this time she was smiling. How could she have been so stupid to even think he had changed? She wanted to apologized to him, that she had actually believed that it was anything but an act, but in the same time, she was a bit afraid to go to him.

She was avoiding him, 'cause she was afraid of what he would tell her, and what would she tell him. But that was until the moment when someone knocked on the door again. She sighed, she put the photo on the table and stood up.

When she opened the door, she winced. It was Jack. But this time it was her real Jack.

"Carter?" he greeted and slightly smiled.

"S-sir?" she managed to say after a moment of complete surprise.

"Can I come inside?" he asked.

"Of course sir." she stepped aside and when he walked in, she closed the door behind her. He turned to her.

"Sam, I..." he began "I wanted to apologize for my behaviour."

"You don't need to, Sir, it was an order and I understand why you did it." she looked down.

"I know, but despite that, I've hurt you and I know it. I know it had to of hurt, when I told you all those vile things. And for that I am truly sorry." He reached out his hand and gave her a beautiful blue flower. She took it and sniffed it. It had a beautiful smell. But then her eyes betrayed her and liquid started to fill them.

When Jack saw it, he immediately reacted:

"Oh, Sam I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you, I am so sorry."

"No, Sir it's alright. It's just... It's beautiful..." she sniffed and smiled. And that was enough for Jack, to come to her and pull her into his arms. It was his apology. And she was glad for that.

'Cause this time, it was real. This time, he was her Jack. This time, she didn't need to worry if he was gonna tell her no. This time, she was truly happy.

She was in his embrace, in his strong arms. Safety. She finally felt complete. As if she belonged to him.

Forever.

The End