Shock.

Shock doesn't even describe how I was feeling when Victoria did that.

There I was, sitting, trying to ignore my baby sitter that was Jane and Victoria knocks on the door saying she needs to speak with me. Jane allows her in and busies herself at the other end of the room as Victoria comes over to me.

"I don't know what I'm doing," she said. "I didn't mean for it to happen like this." She tried to sound sincere when she said it but luckily for me I could see the truth in her head that went something from 'Vile mate killing slob' and 'Get him on your side. Quickly.'

So, imagine if you will, after hearing all this insults and plans, she comes right out and kisses me. I'm too stunned to even breathe but somehow she's grabbed my wrists and has pushed me up against a wall.

Oh, and to make matters worse. Bella saw the whole thing.

So, here I am. Bella is at the door and Victoria is still holding my wrists. I'm totally stuck.

Bella, my one true love has seen some woman kiss me. After I left that letter. After she wrote I love you back. After she's just come out of the change…What must she be thinking?

I truly am a monster. She must hate me, and will hate me for all of eternity. Victoria is pure evil and I'm even worse.

"Bella!" I called out of the empty door. She had run from me. I looked left and right once I shook Victoria of my arms. She was sprinting down the hall way trying to get away from me.

"Bella!" I called again. This was another reason I liked being the fastest.

Her long flowing chocolate hair streamed out behind her as she ran. She was faster than I expected, all things considered and hadn't tripped once. I just wanted to hold her but she'd never let me now. I'd never get to hold her, call her my own like I wanted to for so long.

"Bella," I'd finally caught up with her. I grabbed her hand and spun her around so she was facing me. "Bella, listen. It's not what –"

"Don't touch me."

I released my grip on her hand, knowing that my face was showing more hurt than ever before. As much as I wanted to hide it, I couldn't.

Those three words hurt me more than being apart from her. Bizarre, seeing as another set of three words from her could make me so much happier. Make my existence complete.

She walked away from me as I sunk to the floor. I could hear her sobs from where I was slumped and I joined in her weep of tears that would never fall. I wept for happier times, where everything would work out and nothing would be complicated. If we were both still human.

I vaguely recall Alice crouching down beside me and sweeping me into a hug, mumbling about how she saw everything.

It didn't matter if she saw it all. Bella didn't love me.


A/N: So, fair do's? I think not.

This chapter and the last one have been short because I needed them to be. The next chapter is the Ball and is in Bella's POV. I've had dresses picked out for all of them since nearly the beginning of the story... I love Bella's. I want it but I don't have that much money. Of course I'll put it up. God guys, what do you take me for? It's beautiful!

Emma