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Kanda re-enter the large living room area a moment later. Looking around he easily spot the white hair teen seeming to stare profoundly at one of the paintings in the model's apartment. He quietly approach the oblivious boy and stood behind him. "Moyashi." Kanda whisper in the teen's ear making said person jump.
The younger male turned around while holding his chest. "Kanda, don't scare me like that."
Satisfy on having the boy's attention again, Kanda went to the small coffee table. Picking up the glass of water he had brought for the Moyashi, he handle it over to his guest.
"Thank you Kanda."
He gave a nod and watch Moyashi take a drink. At the same time Kanda wonder what would happen if the boy found out about the magazine that was recently published. What would the younger male say? Would he keep himself away from Kanda if he knew?
At this point the model was way in over his head with the white hair teen. He simply couldn't go back and try to pretend that he had never met the Moyashi. It was asking for the impossible. However, the thing he mostly thought about was would Moyashi reject him? Would the boy tell Kanda to never look for him again if he were to know about model's feelings. At times Kanda would tell himself that everything would be alright, but then there were doubts.
So far Kanda hasn't gotten anything out of the teen that could tell him that the Moyashi at least shared half of what Kanda felt. The ravenette needed just a shred of interest from Moyashi for him to be able to set those doubts aside. Yet, this being the first time Kanda has felt something so strongly and the model was sure he wouldn't let it end so easily. Kanda would fight the teen himself if it meant to win him over.
Sensing eyes on him, Kanda snapped out of his thoughts and turn to the younger male. Silvery hues curiously observed him. He stare back at the boy searching for anything that might give Kanda hope for a future. Those innocent eyes held nothing but wonder. In them Kanda could practically see the boy's soul and vice versa.
As he gaze in the depths of the boy's eyes Kanda found no desire, no longing and no lust. In them he saw warmth, kindness and understanding. It was the opposite of what he was looking for. Those clear grey eyes only saw Kanda as a friend, but he didn't just want to be friends with the Moyashi. He wanted to be more. So much more.
Just when all of Kanda's hopes began to die, it happen. The Moyashi blushed a tint of pink that slowly spread over his cheeks making him look very appealing. The youngster's eyes lower down seeming unable to keep looking at Kanda in the eye.
"Is something wrong?" Moyashi ask while finding the floor very interesting.
He wanted nothing more than to kiss the teen. His sudden shy act turn Kanda on. Following his instincts, the ravenette took his small chin and made him glance up.
"Why are you blushing, Moyashi?"
The boy in question couldn't blush anymore darker and averted his gaze. Kanda inched closer to him as the Moyashi stood in silence before he said anything.
"You caught me staring." The younger male appeared so small at that second.
One inch. One miserable, useless and unworthy inch separated the two from touching. The boy look at Kanda in confusion yet with colorful shyness. On his part Kanda showed nothing but yearning and suppression.
Slowly, Kanda massage the boy's upper jaw and soft cheek. This time Moyashi didn't try to pull from Kanda's touch, and he lean in to boy's personal space. This kiss would finally make or break Kanda. With caution, Kanda approach him. The white hair teen's breath softly touch his lips inviting him closer. He was almost there when the unexpected happen.
"Yuu-kun, are you-"
Damn you old man, damn you to hell!
Tiedoll had to just walk in at that precise moment. Not wanting the Moyashi to feel awkward, Kanda lift his other hand up and pretended to brush something away from the boy's face.
"An eyelash." The ravenette said lamely before freeing the white hair teen.
The Moyashi blinked a couple of times afterwards before touching his own face. "Thanks Kanda, I didn't know it was there."
He gave the teen a single nod before turning his most deadliest glare on the older man who had ruin his chance. By the look on Tiedoll's face the man knew he had wrong Kanda on a new level.
"Yuu-kun, I'm so sorry." The beard man began while looking briefly behind him to the watching teen.
Kanda didn't loosen his glare on his step father. The man deserves to finally be cut down by Mugen. His precious sword has itched to get at Tiedoll. Only one reason stop him right now and that was Moyashi. The model didn't want to frighten the boy away by shedding blood. He would have to do it in privet though.
"What?" That single word held venom powerful enough to kill a large whale.
Fidgeting with his coat sleeve Tiedoll smile. "Have the two ate? I can make something if you haven't."
That was the fucking reason the man had to disturb them. To ask if they have eaten? Curse his luck, Kanda really want to kill his manager. Not letting the small frustration that's starting to build inside him take over, Kanda turn around and look at Moyashi who's simply standing there. "Are you hungry?"
The younger male smile and nodded. "Yes, I can help your... um I'm sorry my I ask your name sir."
Moyashi stalk over to Tiedoll and stretched out his hand. The glasses wearing man instantly took his hand and warmly introduced himself. "Froi Tiedoll. I'm Yuu's father-."
"Step father." Kanda add in for reassurance.
"Allen Walker, nice to meet you sir."
"Please call me Tiedoll."
Kanda just rolled his eyes at the older man and watch the two interact. Moyashi is so natural at meeting new people, unlike Kanda who would simply ignore the entire world if he could.
"-you say Kanda"
Hearing the teen's voice Kanda glance up at the figures watching him. "What?"
"Allen-kun and myself are going to make lunch. Want to help us?" Like he would enter the kitchen and help the man who had destroyed a perfect moment.
"No." He simply turn away from Tiedoll.
"Oh come on Kanda, it could be fun and we would finish faster."
At Moyashi's words Kanda look back. Finishing faster meant his step father would leave sooner. With that in mind he turn fully to the boy. "Fine." The ravenette march into the kitchen while taking the unexpected Moyashi along with him.
"Kanda!" The white hair teen protested as they enter the kitchen. The both completely missing the surprising smile on Tiedoll's face.
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If anyone was to ever tell him that his Yuu-kun could be this affectionate, Tiedoll would have laughed. But seeing it with his own eyes Tiedoll was left stunned.
He felt really bad at interrupting his Yuu-kun's most intimate moment. Tiedoll knew he deserved whatever type of punishment would come at him later from his son. The man hadn't meant to enter the living room area at the moment he did. It was so quiet outside the kitchen when he finished talking on the phone that he thought that his Yuu-kun had left.
Of course his son was home and very occupied. The very moment Tiedoll had enter the living room he was left speechless. His Yuu-kun was about to kiss the boy on his own free will. Tiedoll almost fainted on the spot. He wished he could go back in time and stop himself from ever going to search for his son. Nevertheless, what is done is done. The best was to move on and try to help Yuu-kun on getting his feelings across.
Sighing softly, Tiedoll enter the kitchen and instantly spot the two younger men viewing the refrigerator. Allen-kun stood in front of his son whilst he had a cabbage on his hand. He was smiling and saying something to the ravenette who stood behind him listening to the younger teen.
They make such a cute couple. Tiedoll thought as he practically saw hearts all around the two.
Coughing on his hand, Tiedoll got the two busy teens attention. "So boys, what will it be."
"Meso soup."
"Soba."
At each others reply, Yuu-kun glance down at Allen-kun who was looking up. There was a little staring contest slowly forming.
"I like soba, Moyashi." The raven model broke the silence.
"I know Bakanda, but it wouldn't kill you to try other things."
Moyashi?... Bakanda? Very interesting.
Tiedoll look back and forth at each boy. Even as the two bicker on what they would eat, Tiedoll saw how much fun his Yuu-kun seem to have. He had never thought that his son would find someone who could match him and wasn't afraid to speak up against Yuu. "Alright boys calm down, we could make both." He stepped in after a few minutes. With that said the three began to prepare their lunch.
"Ouch!" Ten minutes in Allen-kun had cut the tip of his index finger. Tiedoll stop chopping the vegetables and was about to tend to the boy when his son quickly stepped in.
"Che, clumsy Moyashi." The ravenette took the boy's finger and examine it.
"I'll get a bandage." Tiedoll immediately went to a cabinet that held a fist aid kit. He heard a small gasp somewhere behind him, but didn't really pay attention. The man turn around and almost dropped the small band-aid. He saw his Yuu-kun with Allen's finger in his mouth. The white hair teen seem ready to blow up as his cheeks turn a crimson red. If he was teenage girl Tiedoll would have squealed with delight at the scene.
"B-Bakanda don't!" The boy stutter in embarrassment.
After a few seconds Yuu-kun had let go of the finger and straight up. He turn to Tiedoll who was stone shock. Composing himself the man reach his son and gave him the band-aid.
"Be more careful Moyashi." Did Tiedoll hear right? Yuu-kun was worry about Allen-kun's safety? Simply amazing.
Cautiously looking back Tiedoll saw the softness in Yuu's eyes as he watch the smaller boy inspect his wounded finger. Slowly the blush on his cheeks faded and a smile appeared on his small face. "Thank you, Kanda." Allen-kun said with a gratitude that was visible in his eyes.
Tiedoll was beginning to see why his Yuu-kun was falling head over heels for the teen. Allen was such a nice person who simply treated Kanda with honestly and normality. That brought tears to Tiedoll's eyes. Looking away not wanting to get caught staring, Tiedoll continue to chop the vegetables. There was talking in the background but Tiedoll played Mr. Oblivious and left the two to their conversation.
"No wait, Kanda that doesn't go there."
"Moyashi, stop pulling my hand."
"Kanda no not there!"
"..."
"Bakanda are you listening!?"
"..."
After a while Tiedoll look back at the two young men that hover over the stove. Whatever Yuu-kun was doing was probably wrong as Allen-kun shook his head.
"Taste it." The younger male had a spoon in his hand while waiting for Yuu-kun to open his mouth.
"Why me?" His son simply turn his head away refusing to comply.
"Please Kanda." Allen-kun give Yuu the kicked puppy look once the ravenette glance back. Tiedoll thought that his son would still refuse. That look never works on his son.
"Fine." The man's jaw dropped as he saw Yuu taking the offered spoon.
It was silent as both Allen and Tiedoll stood waiting for Yuu's respond. His son gazed at the boy with intense eyes as his mouth was attached to the spoon that Allen held.
"That tastes awful." His Yuu-kun glared at the spoon once it was free. His eyes turn to the boy who smiled contently.
"I told you Kanda not to put that ingredient in, but you wouldn't listen. Now say sorry for ruining the soup." The model wasn't going to apologize for his Yuu-kun never did wrong.
Yet to his utmost surprise he saw his son sigh blowing a few bangs out of his eyes. "Sorry."
Was the world ending? His Yuu-kun just said a word that Tiedoll thought didn't belong in his son's vocabulary.
"All is forgotten. Now let's start again." Allen-kun was all cheerful once again. The white hair teen had Yuu wrapped around his little finger and the boy probably didn't even know it.
It took them at least an hour to fishing their lunch. The three sat at the dinning table, Yuu opt to sit next to Allen-kun and Tiedoll sat in front of the two. They ate while talking a little about themselves. Tiedoll found out that Allen was living alone while he study at T University majoring in music. The boy loved the piano and his dream was to become a music teacher.
Tiedoll found both teens relax as they ate. Yuu-kun even participated in the conversation something he rarely did. Allen-kun brought something new to his son that Tiedoll appreciated very much.
Yuu-kun's happiness was Tiedoll's prize.
However, Tiedoll could tell that Allen was a bit naïve. The man had caught Yuu steeling glances at the boy and said person didn't even detect any of them. The problem here was that Allen was very oblivious as Tiedoll could tell. The boy needed to open his eyes and look at what was staring right at him. That being Yuu. How was one to approach things with a person like Allen?
At the beginning Tiedoll had thought that Allen-kun was just shy on get his feeling out, but now he saw it on how it really was. Would the boy ever come to view his Yuu-kun more than just a friend? Was it possible for such naïvety to look pass friendship? Yes it could.
After they finished eating and cleaning up, Allen-kun announced his departure. Tiedoll instantly saw the change in Yuu's entire body language.
"Stay a bit longer, Allen-kun." Tiedoll reason while he look at the standing teen.
"I would like to, but I have work in the afternoon."
At the end the ravenette ended up giving his address to the boy who had called his friend to picked him up. Yuu-kun had offer to drive him home, but Allen insisted that it was fine. Tiedoll saw disappointment briefly pass in his son's eyes
"I'll take you down." Yuu-kun said as he went to his room for a clean shirt.
Allen nodded and waited with Tiedoll by the door. This is a good time to get a few things out. The older man thought.
"Allen-kun."
"Yes?"
Tiedoll took a deep breath before speaking to the teen. "I just wanted to say thank you."
Allen-kun caught off guard stared at him before smiling. "I'm sorry Tiedoll-san. I don't understand."
"I'm thanking you for being here with Yuu-kun. You probably have notice that he isn't the most friendly person around but he's a good boy." Allen-kun was quiet and listen closely as Tiedoll talked.
"Yuu has always found it hard to make friends. Many people think that he's a bad person once they meet him, but they are wrong. Yuu-kun may be a bit edgy and can come off as cold but he is really sweet and caring once you pass those few layers. What I'm trying to tell you, Allen-kun is that whatever happens between you and Yuu-kun never think bad of him. Yuu is that kind of person that once they love, they love with all of their heart."
The white hair teen was silent a bit longer as he let every word sink in before lifting his head. "I understand Tiedoll-san. I would never purposely hurt Kanda."
Tiedoll was very glad to hear that from Allen, and he knew the boy would keep to his word. At that exact moment his son appeared and took Allen-kun away.
The man kept himself busy until the front door opened and in walked Yuu. His son didn't even say a word, walked pass Tiedoll, enter his room and closed the door behind him. He sighed softly after the small echo of the door had died. All there was left was for Yuu-kun to learn to be patient.
Allen stepped out of the elevator and turn to look at Kanda who stayed close to the machine. The ravenette had stop the elevator on the lobby area. Allen was surprise to see that Kanda's apartment building had two elevators. One that lead to the parking lot and the other for the lobby.
"Thanks Kanda, for helping me out earlier in the shopping center and for housing me." He was really happy to have seen where Kanda lived and had sped a good time with Tiedoll.
"It's nothing."
Allen took his phone out to see if Lavi send him a message but the red-head hadn't. He hope that his friend hasn't gotten lost, but then again Lavi was very good with directions unlike him.
Even I know how good I am at getting lost. He mentally sigh after that thought. He felt a tug at his hand and look down to see his phone gone. Glace up Allen saw the long hair male tying something on his phone.
"Kanda? What are you doing with my phone?" Allen question as he saw Kanda type something really quick on the device before handling Allen's phone back.
"Nothing Moyashi." There is amusement in the model's eyes and the teen wasn't ignoring it.
"Bakanda." Allen warn as he look over his phone. Nothing was done to it until he reached all the calls he has made. In the list is an unknown number, and Allen slightly frown and dial the number.
It took two rings before his attention went to Kanda as the ravenatte's phone vibrated in his hand. Kanda press the call button and answer. "Moyashi."
"It's your number?"
Kanda ended the call and pocket his phone away. "Yes." The model said as if he hadn't done nothing.
After a few seconds Allen smile. "Well good. I was going to ask for your number but I didn't know how. You might be a very busy person and I would simply be bugging you so I hadn't said anything."
Kanda was watching him as Allen babble on. As he talked Allen saw something in Kanda's eyes but couldn't figure out what it was. He thought that the ravenette was only half listening to him, but he simply brush that thought aside.
"Call when you want."
Allen quickly came out of his thoughts and stare at Kanda briefly. "You to. If you want someone to talk to, I'm here to listen."
They stay quiet for a moment as Allen watch Kanda. For some reason he can't seem to look away from the ravenette. As the seconds went by Allen began to feel his face hot. He was blushing again and he can't figure out why. Maybe it was the intense way Kanda was looking at him. It seem like the long hair model was gazing right at his soul.
Allen quickly lower his down once he had the opportunity. Why was he acting so strangely all of a sudden? He was acting like a shy person, and Allen was by all means not shy. Keeping his gaze on the floor the teen saw two pair of shoes come into vision. Looking up, he found Kanda standing in right front of him. He was ready to say something, but stop himself as Kanda leaned in and softly kissed Allen's forehead. Stunned, the smaller male froze on place until Kanda pulled away.
"You think too much Moyashi."
The ravenette turned, entered the elevator, pressed the buttons and the two metal doors start to close. The last thing Allen saw was Kanda smirk as he disappeared. Allen didn't have the time to ponder on what just happen as his phone buzz in his hand. Lavi had just arrive and was waiting for him outside the lobby.
Sighing softly Allen proceeded on getting out. He look both ways once he is outside and located Lavi's car. He didn't notice the brunette model who watched him with curiosity. Allen entered the car and the two drove away.
0o0o0o0o
"So Al how was your date with Yuu-chan," Lavi really wanted to know what the two did.
His friend turn to him on the passanger seat with his usual smile and began to tell Lavi about the activities they did.
"Oh, so a friend of Yuu-chan was there to huh." He wonder what exactly Kanda was playing at. Lavi knew the model liked Allen on a whole different level that the white hair boy didn't know about. If the model was after Allen on a romantic way why did he brought people along for? Was in it better for just the two of them to be alone together? Lavi would have done that if it was him. But this was not about Lavi, it was about Kanda. If Lavi really thought about it he could only come up with one thing. Was Yuu-chan trying to get little Allen jealous?
Ha! Good luck with that one. Lavi mentally laughed at Kanda's plan. He was sure that whatever the long hair male did had failed.
"His friend was a bit strange. For a minute there I had thought he believed that I was a girl."
Lavi chuckled at his friend's statement. Allen a girl? That was rich. Yet it gave him a wonderful idea. "Say Al, let's play a little game while we reach home kay." His white hair friend agreed and sat waiting for Lavi to continue.
He cleared his throat before beginning. "Let's pretend that you actually are a girl."
Allen turn to look at him as Lavi notice from the corner of his eye. The boy didn't say anything giving Lavi the sign to continue.
"Okay you are a very pretty girl, gorgeous and cute. Everything about your personality is the same. You know the helping, caring and wonderful boy that you are." Lavi came to a red light and looked over his friend. Allen is gazing at him and Lavi wonder if he had said something wrong.
"And what else?" Lavi mentally sigh. Once the light changed Lavi stepped on the gas while continuing with his game. "Alright, so in this pretend world you meet Kanda and quickly become friends. Let's just say that as the two of you continue to get close, Kanda falls in love with you. And in this pretend world Kanda is a model as well. What would you say to him? Will you accept his feelings or reject him? This is all pretend remember."
Lavi was waiting and slowly became anxious to know what his friend would say. It shouldn't take Allen long to answer that question. It was easier to the one he plan on asking later.
"Well... I think that I um... I think that I would accept his feelings."
Lavi saw that one coming, he just needed to hear it. "Alright, let's play another one. In this pretend world you are a boy and are exactly how you are now. Putting the same scenario as the last one and Yuu-chan does like you more than just a friend. What would you tell him? We are still just pretending okay."
He may be stepping on dangerous territory, but Lavi wanted to know. Was it in Allen to fall in love with Kanda if the possibility arrived. Could his buddy accept foreign feelings? This time Allen took his time on thinking about a reply. Lavi shifted on his seat whilst he waited. As time flew by Lavi wonder what exact thoughts went through his best friend's mind.
0o0o0o0o
Would I accept Kanda's feelings... when I myself is a guy?
This game of Lavi's was very weird, but he went along with it. Lavi tended to do or say unusual things.
Well the game is just pretending so thinking things through wouldn't hurt. Allen agree with himself, and let his mind wonder and be develop by all things related to Kanda.
The ravenette could come off as a bit of a jerk at times, but like Allen said before Kanda wasn't all that bad as a person. Being honest at the moment Allen could say that Kanda was good looking. The model has a good body he might add. The guy's hair was probably envied by every girl around. So seeing things just by the physical, Allen came to the conclusion that Kanda was attractive.
He is a successful model after all.
Setting that aside, Allen continue to ponder on the subject. When it came to Kanda's personally Allen – honest once again – would give Kanda a six out of ten. Kanda needs to call people by their name.
Moyashi isn't my name. It's Allen.
Yet, when he thought about the way the ravenette expressed his feelings Allen couldn't stop from smiling. Kanda may be well guarded but that didn't mean he could stop himself from showing how he felt. For the past week or so Allen started to feel this attachment to Kanda. It was just how Kanda showed care for him. He knew that Kanda was probably not like that most of the time or with others. Allen witness that when Kanda's step father arrived at the model's apartment. He actually felt how the room became heavy, but when Kanda turn to look at him whatever was bothering the long hair male at the moment disappeared.
He probably doesn't want me to feel awkward.
Speaking of awkward. Allen suddenly remember something that happened earlier in Kanda's apartment. There was a moment he thought that Kanda was going to kiss him. For his dear life, Allen began to panic when he saw how close the two had gotten. He felt his heartbeat in his ears, and his entire face was probably red do to the small panic he felt.
Instead at the end it was only Kanda helping him remove a fallen eyelash from his face. Allen could breathe the moment Kanda had pulled away. He didn't know though what he would have done if Kanda did actually ended up kissing him.
Why are you worrying? It's not like it was your first kiss. And it wouldn't have been your first kiss with a guy either.
Yes his self-conscious told him off. It reminded Allen of something that happen to him a long time ago. He may be a bit naïve but he wasn't stupid. Deep in his mind, Allen knew that there were men that found him appealing or attractive. This he learned when he met a boy he befriended.
Flashback.
He was traveling with his guardian once more. The two finally decided to make a stop and that just so happen to be in India. Allen was very happy to finally settle down even if it was for just a few months. Both stayed at a very luxurious place that nether couldn't complain about. Allen just wonder what exactly did his Master do to get the both to this place.
Along the way Allen met a boy by the name of Narian. Long story short, the two become real close. As months passed Narian's sister had told Allen something very important about her brother.
"He loves you."
Allen was only thirteen then, and so when the word love came up Allen had though that Narian loved him like a brother. At the time Narian's sister had only shook her head and said that Allen should ask Narian himself about the topic. Which he did.
It was a warm summer night when Allen and Narian watched the stars on top of the large stables. Allen pointed at the stars he liked and tried to remember the names of them. Lost in his own thoughts while stargazing, Allen didn't notice his friend moving next to him. He decided to look back and found Narian sitting next to the young teen facing him.
He smiled at Narian very happy to have made a friend. As the two stay quiet they were staring at each other when Narien began to come closer to him. Thinking that his friend wanted to tell him a secret, Allen stayed on place.
Then it happened. Allen felt something soft and warm on his lips. He blinked once then twice. After a few seconds Allen realized that he was being kiss by his friend. Shocked, he never moved from his spot and felt Narian move his lips with his own.
After a minute or so Narian pulled away. He was blushing and smiling warmly at the stunned Allen.
"I love you, Allen."
Not moving for he can't think straight, Allen was quiet. Now he finally understood what Narian's sister was telling him only a few days ago. His friend liked Allen like his Master likes women. Feeling the same warm and soft lips on him, Allen realize that Narian was kissing him again. This time though, Allen pulled away whilst he covered his mouth.
"Y-you k-k-kissed me!" Allen accused.
The story ends with Allen leaving a few days later. He hadn't accept Narian's feelings the night the boy had kisses him. He told the brunette that he couldn't love him back and wasn't judging him. Allen simply wouldn't hurt Narian's feelings by lying.
Forward.
He left with his Master to another country, but stayed in touch with Narian. To this day Allen still considers Narian a friend.
That reminds me, I should call him some time.
The funny thing about the whole thing was, Lavi didn't know about that incident. Allen thought it very personal and be kept only to himself. And now he was left with the question to their little game. Accept or reject Kanda. Giving it a last thought, he turn to look at his best friend.
"I don't know."
Lavi gave him a quick glance and smile before steering the wheel. "It's fine if you don't know. We're just pretending after all."
Yet Allen did know. He simply chose not to say it at the moment.
"Playing this game made me wonder how Yuu-chan went about courting people. I can't see him being all lovey dovey with anyone." Lavi broke the silence after a while.
"Don't be so mean Lavi."
The redhead laughed as he continue to speak of the model. "You know, he might just glare harder at the person he's interested in." Allen chuckle slightly as he picture Kanda doing just that.
"Instead of hugging them, Yuu-chan probably trips them and acts like he hasn't done anything."
Allen's laughter grew as Lavi put on a face that would represent Kanda. "Or, or hear this one it's the best. He pretends to forget their name while giving them a weird nickname!"
All humor is lost at Lavi's last words. Allen can feel his heart starting to pound harder in his chest. He began to feel as if everything around him slowly lost sound. The only source of noise coming from within him. Allen doesn't understand why he's feeling like this, but deep down there is a part of him that does understand.
Is it possible... Kanda.
A/N: Yay! Another chapter is out. Yes I know it was long.
It was fun writing it and hope you guys like it.
Thanks everyone for reading and reviewing.
See Ya!
