Whispers of What We Were
Chapter 9
"Yes Gemma, I understand… Fine… I'll be there I promise… Yes, I'll bring a salad… Ok… See you Saturday… Bye."
Tara sighed as she hung up the phone. There really was no way to say 'No' to Gemma Teller.
Going to this barbeque meant she would have to see Jax. Talk to him. The thought made her nervous. He would ask more questions. She knew he didn't believe her door story and like his mothers, Jax was hard to say 'No' too. Plus, he could be a persistent ass sometimes.
Tara glanced up from her patients chart and looked at the time. Thirty minutes until her had to be in surgery. She had to go and calm herself down. All this thinking about Jax was making her fidgety. Not good for a surgeon. She decided to make the familiar trip through the hospital to her favorite spot; the newborn nursery. Full of cute little babies she wouldn't have to operate on. These little babies, whose lives didn't rest in her hands; her currently fidgety hands.
Rounding the corner she stopped in her tracks. There, looking into the nursery; her favorite place to relax; was Joshua Kohn. The man who haunted her dreams. "Hello Tara. Babies… Gotta love them." He said casually.
She took a few cautious steps closer to him. "What the hell are you doing here? My restraining order works in the State of California." She said to him, trying to him her rattling nerves. Josh was unpredictable, irrational, and worst of all, unstable to a high degree.
"Not everything if about you Tar Tar." He said and Tara shuddered at the pet name. "Chicago came across a lot of illegal guns confiscated from a local gang… Surprisingly they've been traced all the way back to little Charming. to your beloved SAMCRO." Tara's heart fell. The last thing the club needed was ATF breathing down their necks; especially Kohn. "A Federal Agent trumps a little RO any day."
Tara stood frozen in place. She couldn't move. Of course he would work within the law to get at her. That's the only reason he hadn't been arrested for harassing her in the first place. "It's nice seeing you again Tara. You're looking well, considering…" He made a note to look into the nursery.
She knew what he was referring to and glared at him. "Get out of this hospital. I doubt your investigation has led you here."
He held up his hand in a defensive pose. "Ok, ok." He started walking away, "I'll be seeing you around."
SOASOASOASOA
Three and a half Months Ago…
Tara sat on her couch reading a medical journal. Emily and Abel were each at sleepovers and Tara had a rare night to herself.
KNOCK KNOCK
She glanced at the door. She had ordered some Chinese food but only about ten minutes ago. "That was fast." She said to herself.
Without looking to see who was at the door, it swung open and she was pushed back into her apartment. "How dare you!"
"Josh! What the hell are you doing here? What are you talking about?" She backed away from him, trying to find her phone.
"You know what I'm talking about. I know where you were two days ago. I know what you did." He said, seething.
"Josh, I-"
"You killed our child!" He accused.
"It wasn't a child." She stated matter-of-factly. It was obviously the wrong choice of words.
"How the hell can you say that? You're a murderer."
Tara ignored him. She knew how some people felt about abortion however, it was not a tough decision for her to decide on it. There was no way she could have this mans baby. "We are not together anymore Josh. You got notice of my restraining order…"
"I love you Tara! Don't you see that?" In two quick steps he was holding her arms firmly in place at her sides. She winced at the pain. It reminded her too much of her father when he used to yell at her when he was drunk. She struggled in his grasp. Thanks god Emily and Abel weren't here.
"Leave Josh. Leave now and I won't call the police. I don't love you! Get out!"
She knew yelling would upset him be she could help it. "Stop being such a bitch!" She yelled, letting for of her left arm with his right and punching her in the face; hard.
Tara flew back, landing on the floor. "You did this Tara. You! You and I are meant to be together. You'll see. You'll come around." He said before walking out the front door.
SOASOASOASOA
Tara had gotten another surgeon to take over her cases for the rest of the afternoon and after quickly checking on her post-op patients, she decided to pick up the kids early from the garage. They were with Jax and if ATF was digging around, she didn't want them near that. She also didn't want to risk Emily or Abel running into Josh while Jax was around. Her kids seemed to be good at spilling the beans these days.
She drove to the club house and saw Jax letting Emily and Abel help him work on his bike. Tara smiled, trying to forget about what had transpired at the hospital.
"Mom!" Emily shouted, running towards her and jumping into a hug.
"Hey baby. How was your day?" She asked, walking with her over to Jax and Abel.
"Good. I helped Juice replace a car battery." Emily said proudly. What had happened to her sweet little girl who like Barbie dolls? "But then I got dirty and it was gross." Tara smiled. There was a little sweet girl left in her.
"You're here early." Jax mentioned, getting up from his knees. She had to admit he looked good. Baggy jeans, or course and a white SON shirt, which was currently clinging to his sweaty torso.
"Yes. Surgery was cancelled." She lied. "I was wondering if you could take a look at the Cutlass? It's been making these weird noises when I brake." She didn't want to be alone with the kids right now. This bought her more time at the clubhouse. The safest place she knew of.
"Yeah sure, no problem." Jax turned to the kids. "Why don't you guys go inside? I think there is some ice cream left in the kitchen freezer." Emily and Abel ran happily into the clubhouse. Jax turned to Tara. "Just a heads up… I've been contacted by ATF. Some bullshit lead they think they have. I just want you to know in case they come asking questions."
Tara stilled. Josh had already been here and had talked to Jax. She smiled, "thanks for the head up. I'm going to head inside before those two get ice cream all over the place."
"Good idea." Jax laughed. "Are you coming to the Barbeque on Saturday?"
"Yeah. We'll be there. Gemma insisted."
"Good. I still want to talk to you."
"I know. We will." Tara confirmed. She had to talk to Jax about Kohn before this whole thing got out of hand.
END CHAPTER.
A/N: Ok... I wasn't planning on writing this chapter today because I'm at work but I managed to sneak it in. A lot of over the shoulder looking and minimizing was needed but I hope you all like it!
