Whispers of What We Were

Chapter 10

It had been two days since Tara has had her run in with Joshua and she had not seen or heard from him. She had spent those two days on call at the hospital and had refused to go home. Gemma and Jax had been watching Emily and Abel and Gemma was going to drop them off back at home tonight.

When she had down time at the hospital she wouldn't sleep and couldn't eat; always feeling like he was watching her; waiting. By the time Friday afternoon rolled around Tara's nerves were shot. She'd just finished two back to back surgeries and now her body was finally betraying her. Her eyes were stinging and she could barely move.

Shaking her head, knowing what she was about to do was completely stupid she picked up her phone and dialed a familiar number.

"Hello."

"Jax, its Tara."

"Everything alright?"

"Yeah... Umm... Are you busy right now?"

"Not at all. Just came from lunch with the kids at Gemma's. What do you need?" He asked with concern.

"I was wondering if you could pick me up from St. Thomas and drive me home?"

"The Cutlass still not running right?"

"No, the Cutlass is running fine. It's just been a really long couple of days. My nerves are a little fried."

"I'll be there in twenty minutes."

"Thanks Jax."

"Anytime."

Tara hung up the phone, feeling a little bit guilty for using Jax like that. She quickly finished up the rest of her charting. Fifteen minutes passes quickly as she packed up her bag and headed outside.

Already waiting for her was Jax, leaning up against his bike. One of Tara's favorite sights.

"Hey... You ok? You do look fried." He asked her, concerned as he handed her his helmet.

"Gee thanks." She smiled at him. "Just tired. Long surgeries. Thanks again for coming to get me."

Jax nodded. Did Tara really not know that he would do anything for her? Anything she asked for and it would be hers. He got on his bike and waiting for Tara to get on the back. She climbed on behind him and Jax had to bite back a groan when she leaned her whole body against his back and wrapped her arms tightly around his stomach.

Jax started up the powerful bike and Tara had to hold back a moan of her own. She forgot how good being on the back of Jax's rumbling Harley had felt. It felt familiar to wrap her arms around Jax. As he pulled out of the parking lot, Tara leaned her face against the leather of his kutte. She had missed that smell.

SOASOASOASOA

Fourteen Years Ago...

"Donna is going to be so jealous. She still hasn't had a ride on Opie's bike."

Jax smiled. He couldn't think of a better way to spend his birthday. After he and Tara rode out of Teller-Morrow, he rode with Tara gripping him tight, all around Charming for almost an hour. They had finally stopped just outside of the town limits. Jax had Tara pinned against the bike, currently running his tongue down her neck.

"Your first ride is supposed to be just the rider and his bike." Jax admitted.

"Really?"

"It's kind of an unwritten rule with the club."

"But you took me?" She stated, clearly confused.

"Of course I did." Jax smirked.

"Why?"

"Really? You want to be a doctor and you don't know why I brought you with me on my first ride?"

"Enlighten me Teller."

Jax took Tara's face in his hands. "Because I love you Tara Knowles."

"You do?" She whispered.

"Yeah baby. I think I've been in love with you since that first night I walked you home."

Tara had tears in her eyes. She knew how much of a big deal this was. She didn't even think Opie had said it to Donna. Most young SAMCRO members relished in the feeling of not being tied down to one chick. She gripped the edges of his new kutte, relishing in its softness. She leaned in and kissed Jax.

"I love you too Jax. So much."

They continued to make out against the bike until Tara finally pulled away. "You know... My Dad is out of town this week..." Her voice trailed off mischievously.

"Mmm, you should have said that earlier." She kissed her once more before getting back on the bike.

"Ditto." Tara replied coyly.

SOASOASOASOA

"Thanks so much for the ride Jax."

"No problem... Did you asking me for a ride have anything to do with that car that has been following us since the hospital?"

Tara paled and peeked around the corner. A few houses down, Josh was sitting in a car. "Oh my god." She whispered.

"What the hell is going on?"

"You know that agent that has been harassing the club." Jax nodded. This next part was going to hurt. "He's not here for the club. He's here for me. I was seeing him in Chicago." Jax's face fell. "He's been stalking me."

"What?"

"A few months ago things got violent and I broke things off..." Tara trailed off as Jax bolted down the street. "Jax! Don't!" She called after him.

"Go inside Tara! Lock the door!"

Tara opened her front door and quickly went inside. She leaned against the door and took several deep breaths before she began frantically began pacing in the living room.

About ten minutes had gone by when Tara was startled by a pounding on her door.

"Tara! It's me."

She sighed in relief and went to open the front door. Jax noticed Tara's blotchy eyes and he took Tara quickly in his arms. He ran his fingers through her hair, trying to soothe her.

"Tara... What the fuck did that bastard do to you?"

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