Whispers of What We Were

Chapter 14

"Donna, you really don't have to take Emily and Abel tonight."

"It's no problem really. Ellie and Kenny really wanted a sleepover and I was taking them all to the water park tomorrow anyways."

"Well thank you."

"I will be glad though when school starts next month."

"Tell me about it."

Tara leaned into the open back window of the car. "You two be good for Donna ok?"

"Yes mom."

"So, what time do you want them back?" Donna asked.

"Whenever, but can you drop them off here at Gemma's?"

"Oooh. Hot date Knowles?" He friend asked.

Tara smiled, "something like that."

"Well you have fun." Donna said, getting into the front seat. "And tell my husband in there that if he's going to be late to come around the back because the kids will be sleeping in the front living room and with the amount of beers he's had he'll probably step on them."

"Alright, I will." Tara laughed, walking back into Gemma's house.

Everyone was inside now, mostly just club members, hanging around the kitchen. "Hey Ope! Your wife says when you come to later to go around the back."

"Yeah, yeah." He said, taking a swig of his beer.

Tara then made her way over to Jax. "I'm gonna head out now. It's getting late."

"You want me to come with you?" He asked quietly. No one was paying them any attention though.

"No. I'll be fine. I'm still a little drained from yesterday." She smiled at him. "I'll see you tomorrow."

Jax's eyes lit up. "You bet." Tara turned to walk away and he discreetly ran his fingers across her lower back underneath her shirt, caressing her tattoo.

SOASOASOASOA

Thirteen Years Ago

Tara, Jax, Opie and Donna had decided to take Piney's truck and head down to the lake for the day. Summer was almost over and the guys really hadn't seen much of their girls because of SAMCRO business.

Opie and Donna were still goofing around in the lake while Tara and Jax had just gotten out and were drying off in the sun.

Tara ran her fingers across Jax's newest tattoo; his SOA California tattoo. "Did it hurt?" She asked.

He looked at her from his position on his stomach. "Not really. Took a hell of a long time though."

"It looks good on you."

"Yeah?"

"Yes. Very sexy." Tara replies, kissing the inked reaper.

"You'd look sexy with a tattoo." Jax's eyes roamed over her bikini clad body. Yeah... A tat would look great on her.

"You think?"

"Hell yeah baby."

"I've always kind of wanted one."

Jax turned his body to face her. He never thought in a million years his girl would want a tattoo. "Would you consider getting the crow?" He asked nervously. It had been something he had been thinking about for a long time.

"Like the one Gemma has?"

"Like the one every Old Lady has."

"A tattoo last forever Jax." Tara mused.

Jax's face fell. "You don't think we're going to be together forever?"

"I dream about it. You and me; getting married, having kids, and growing old together..."

"You do?" He was surprised.

Tara nodded, "Do you?" He didn't answer. Did he really want to sound like a total girl and tell her that he has those same dreams? Those same dreams that both excited and terrified him? "I just want you to be sure Jax."

He caressed her cheek. "I'm sure." That was an easier answer.

"Ok; but I'm not getting it on my tits like your mom."

"Jesus Christ I'd hope not."

They laughed.

"Could I get your name on it Jax?"

"Really? Why?"

"I just want people to know that I'm not just anyone's Old Lady you know?"

Jax smiled. "You're my Old Lady." He said, kissing her. "So, where are you going to get it?"

SOASOASOASOA

For the first time since Tara had come back to Charming, the silence in her house was soothing. She had been on eggshells for too long and it was nice to finally relax. She laughed to herself when she thought of Jax trying to plan a date.

When she had come back Tara never thought that Jax would even want her back. She had taken his kids away from him. Could they really work through all of that?

She went into her bedroom and started to unbutton her top. She looked down at her bedside table. Her iPod. She had been listening to it earlier this morning. It was in her dock station. She turned her head. Another iPod.

The sound of her bedroom door opening startled her. "Hello Tara."

She tried to scream but he was too quick and had her pinned to the floor with a gun held to her head in no time.

SOASOASOASOA

Thirteen Years Ago

"Jax I hate you. What the hell was I thinking?"

"You were thinking you wanted a tattoo. And owww... you're holding my hand a little tight there babe."

"You said it didn't hurt much."

"Well I didn't want to sound like a total pussy."

"Are we almost done?"

"Yeah babe. It's looking really good."

"Well... You'll be the one who sees it the most so as long as you like it."

Jax smiled and leaned down to whisper in Tara's ear. "I can't wait to take you from behind baby."

Tara rolled her eyes.

SOASOASOASOA

Jax decided to leave the party and head home shortly after Tara. His mom was still busy cleaning so he slipped out before she started asking him questions about Tara.

He made his way into his house thinking about where he would take Tara on their date. Their first date actually. What had he gotten himself into?

When he got into the bedroom he used to share with Tara he knew right away that something was amiss. He turned on the light and was shocked by what he saw.

The room had been completely trashed and up against the wall was some kind of sick mural. As Jax walked closer to mural, he noticed the wall was littered with pictures. His anger boiled as he saw pictures of Tara and his kids in Chicago. There were some of Tara naked. One of the pictures was of Tara's bare back; her tattoo had been scratched out of the picture.

"Shit!" Jax said and then quickly bolted out of the house to his bike.

He had to get to Tara.

END CHAPTER

A/N: I would have gotten this up earlier but I was obsessively stalking SOA at comic con!

I am now broke. That is all...

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