Whispers of What We Were
Chapter 15
"Josh, please put the gun away. If you leave now, I won't call the cops."
"Shut up! Tara, I love you! Don't you see that?" He waved the gun around frantically. "I just want to talk to you." He said, a little more calmly.
"O-ok. That's fine. Let's talk." Tara was terrified but she knew she had to do what he said if she wanted to get through this alive. She cursed herself for not letting Jax come home with her.
"Have a seat Tara." She hated the way he pronounced her name. She sat down on the bed. "Good". Josh grabbed a chair from her desk so he could sit across from her. "I'll start... You hurt me when you left Tara." He stated simply.
Did he want her honest answer? She really didn't know how to play this. "You were scaring me."
"I know. Baby I get that now and I am so sorry."
Did he really think she would take him back after all of this? He was delusional and unbalanced. Tara remembered back to her psych rotation at the hospital. There was no way this was going to end well.
"I'm sorry I scared you and I'm sorry I hurt you...but TarTar, you have to know that that damn tattoo just upset me. I was so jealous."
"I get that Josh but-"
"No! You don't get it! You are mine, not his! You're better than that. Better than some biker's slut!"
Tara cringed at his words. She had to calm him down. "That tattoo was a mistake ok? I was young and I thought I was in love." She lied.
"You're not in love with him?"
"No Josh, I'm not." God she loved Jax so much.
"That's great news TarTar." He patted her knee as if she was some small child. "Any other mistakes you want to own up to before we continue our life together?" Tara was silent. She knew what he wanted her to say but she couldn't. She wasn't about to bullshit all over her right as a woman. She just couldn't. "Tara, you killed our baby." He accused.
"I had an abortion at six weeks. It was never a baby." She told him with a renewed confidence. The woman and doctor in her would never tell him anything different.
He reached out and slapped her hard. It sent her flying back on the bed, causing her to hit her head on the bed post and black out.
"Yes Tara. You made a mistake. Thank you for being honest with me." Josh said, as if only hearing what he wanted to hear. "We should remedy that situation as soon as possible." He said as he unbuttoned his shirt and undid his pants. "I love you TarTar."
SOASOASOASOA
Once Jax got on his bike he broke every speeding law to make the fifteen minute ride to Tara's as fast as she could. A long time ago he had promised that while he was around, he would never let her get hurt again. Not after what her father had done to her.
SOASOASOASOA
Fourteen Years Ago.
"Mom, where is she?"
"Jax, she didn't want me to call you."
"Opie called me."
"She asked him not to tell you either."
"I don't care! Where the fuck is my girlfriend?"
Gemma sighed, "I put her in the guest room. We just got back from the hospital. The police are going to want to talk to her in the morning."
"Shit."
"She's had a rough night baby." In the months after Jax's birthday, Gemma realized that Tara wasn't going anywhere so she had made an attempt to get closer to the girl, and to her surprise, enjoyed having her around.
"Why didn't she call me?"
"She was scared baby. Scared that you'd kill the bastard."
"The thought is crossing my mind."
"Don't do anything stupid Jax. We're going to figure this out the right way. I talked her into filing a police report."
"They take him away and then where does she go huh? Foster care? Those places are bullshit!"
"Baby, calm down... You love her right? I want you to be sure of your answer."
"I love her mom." He replied without hesitation.
Gemma smiled. Her son had it bad. "Ok then, I'll figure it out. You just go be with your girl."
"Thanks." Jax made his way upstairs to his parent's guest room. He opened the door and saw Tara sitting on the bed wearing his sweat pants and SAMCRO shirt. It dwarfed her. She had a cast on her left wrist and was holding an ice pack to her face. "Oh baby." He made his way to her. "What happened?"
"I heard your bike outside... Did Gemma call you? You weren't supposed to be home tonight." She ignored his question.
"Opie called me. Said Gemma had picked you up from his house and was taking you to the hospital." He sat next to her on the bed and took her hand in his. "What happened Tara?"
"Just promise me you won't hurt him?"
"Ok baby, I promise."
"I was in my kitchen studying because it has better light than my room when he came home. This week has been really hard on him and he's been spending more time at the bar than usual."
Jax nodded. He knew that this week had been the anniversary of her mother's death. He had taken Tara to her grave a couple of days ago.
"He was so drunk when he came in. I tried to pack up my books and get up to my room but he stopped me. Started going on about how much I looked like her and how dare I hurt him like that. Why was it her and not me?" She started to cry. He punched me and when I fell he stepped on my wrist. He was a little unsteady and I got out of there as fast as I could... I ran to Opie's."
"How did my mom get involved?"
"Piney called her. He knew I had to go to the hospital for my wrist and knew I'd need an adult to sign some paperwork."
"Tara baby, I am so sorry." He pulled her into his arms.
"It wasn't your fault Jax."
"Yes it was. It's my job to protect you and I didn't... I promise I won't let that happen again."
Tara nodded and yawned, snuggling further into Jax's chest. It had been a long night. She fell asleep feeling the safest she ever had.
That next morning Gemma had gone to pay a visit to Tara's dad. He was alarmingly sober and when told of his daughters injuries that he had caused, he broke down. That was when she gave him a change of custody agreement that would grant Gemma custody of Tara until she turned eighteen. He was skeptical at first but Gemma threatened him with the notion of SAMCRO coming after him.
As Gemma left the house she smiled to herself. This was definitely the right thing to do. She knew by the look in Jax's eyes when he told her he loved Tara.
SOASOASOASOA
Jax slowed his bike about a block away from Tara's house and parked it. If Kohn was there, the last thing he needed was to give away his arrival.
He ran as fast as he could down the block. He grabbed the hidden key in the nearby flower pot and let himself in. He could hear music coming from Tara's bedroom. Maybe he hadn't been here at all.
"Please Josh. Stop! Don't do this!"
Jax ran down the hallway to the bedroom. He only had half a second to take in the sight of his wife, half naked and crying on the bed before a gun was pointed at him.
"Back off Teller. She doesn't want you!" He screamed before shooting Jax in the stomach.
Tara screamed as Jax fell to the floor. "We all knew how this was going to end TarTar."
"Yeah... With you dead." From the floor Jax pulled out his gun and shot Kohn in the head.
END CHAPTER 15
A/N: So Jax saved Tara... but is Jax ok? I liked the idea of Gemma saving Tara from her father just to beef up their back story. They used to be really close.
