Whispers of What We Were

Chapter 17

When Jax was finally brought in the Recovery Room he looked nothing like Tara's tough biker husband. He looked fragile. She hated that this had happened because of her. Jax had never been seriously injured in his life and last night he had almost died; and it wasn't even club related.

With tears in her eyes and a guilt ridden conscious, she sat next to Jax and took his hand. Hours went by and no one bothered her, mainly because Tara was a doctor and if something went wrong, she'd know right away.

She passed the time watching Jax's cardiac monitors but her mind couldn't help but wander to the last time she had a family member in the hospital. The last time had made her run away scared and now this time; she was staying right where she was.

Finally, at around the fourth hour, Tara had finally been lulled to sleep by the beeping of the monitors.

SOASOASOASOA

Four Years Ago

"Here you go little man. I found you about three lime Jell-O's" One of the nurses said, handing Abel a few bowls of jell-o.

"Thanks Katie." Tara thanked the nurse. "Say thank you Abel."

"Thanks." He answered, his mouth already full of the green dessert.

"Is it good baby?" Abel nodded.

There was a knock on the door and Gemma came in holding Emily. "Mommy!" Gemma let her down and Emily ran to Tara. "I missed you mommy. I was so scared. Grandma Gemma said I had to wait to see you."

Tara held her five year old tight. After the day they'd had, it was nice to have her two kids beside her. "Oh baby girl... It's ok now." She tried to soothe her. "I'll bet you were very brave though."

"The bravest five year old I know." Gemma said with a smile.

"Want some of my Jell-O Emmy?" Abel asked his sister from his hospital bed.

Emily nodded and Tara picked her up and put her in the big bed next to Abel. "You two stay here and watch some TV. I'm going to go and talk to Grandma Gemma."

Tara led Gemma out into the hallway, making sure she could see Emily and Abel through the window.

"Where's Jax?" Gemma asked.

"Where do you think he is Gemma?" Both knew he was tracking down whoever had opened fire at the park.

"I agree he should be here with his family, but he needs to do this."

"No normal person should have to do this Gemma." She whispered harshly. "My son could have died today." Angry tears filled her eyes. "I can't do this anymore."

Gemma eyed her daughter-in-law skeptically. "What does that mean?"

Tara shook her head. She couldn't do this now. Having that conversation with Jax was hard enough. Just because they were in a hospital didn't mean Gemma wouldn't freak out on her when she told her she was taking the kids and leaving Charming. "Nothing, never mind. Would you stay with them for about an hour so I can grab a shower and change?"

"Of course. Listen to me Tara... You chose Jax... and you chose this club ok?"

Tara nodded. "You love the man... You learn to love the club." She muttered the quote before walking away from Gemma.

SOASOASOASOA

"Tara?"

Tara opened her eyes and was met with the most beautiful blue eyes she had ever seen. "Jax?"

He groaned. "Hey baby. We're going to have to postpone out date."

She smiled through her tears. "I am so glad you're awake Jax." She said, taking the time to check his vitals.

"Hey... I'm fine." Jax noticed her nervousness.

She started to cry. "I'm so sorry Jax."

He reached out to her, his hand caressing her cheek. "None of this was your fault ok?" He turned her head so he could look her in the eye. "Ok?"

Tara nodded. "I just keep thinking about what would have happened if you hadn't shown up."

"Don't think about that. It's over now."

"I love you Jax."

"I love you too."

A few minutes went by before Jax spoke again. "You called me your husband."

"What?"

"When you called the ambulance... You called me your husband." Jax smiled.

Tara couldn't help but smiled when Jax did. It was infectious. "You will always be my husband Jax. The father of my kids. My Hero. I love you."

Jax closed his eyes. "Just please don't leave me again. I don't think I could take it baby."

"I won't, I promise. It might take some time to get back to where we were... But I want to get back to where we were. I really do."

"Good. And when I get out of here... We're still going on that date."

"Can't wait."

END CHAPTER

A/N: Just a little chapter to get you through the week while I study for exams. Hope you like.