Whispers of What We Were

Chapter 19

"Home sweet home." Tara said as Juice and Opie helped Jax into the house and set him down on the couch.

"I should be saying that to you." Jax said softly. He loved that his family would be under one roof again; hopefully for longer than what Tara had planned.

Tara smiled at him. No doubt she wanted things back the way they were; but diving in head first was probably not the best idea. Both had changed a lot in four years and that chance that they were no longer compatible gnawed at Tara.

"Anything else you need brother?" Opie asked.

"Nah... I think I'm all taken care of here." He made a point of looking over at Tara.

"Alright, make sure you give him a hard time doc." Juice said.

"I always do."

After Opie and Juice left, Jax spoke, "So... what now?"

"Now... You rest."

"But I'm not even tired." He whined.

Tara smiled and took two pills out of a prescription bottle. "You will be after these." She handed him the pills. "Plus, the kids will be back in a couple of hours and they won't let you sleep later."

Jax took the pills and downed them. "This is going to be good Tara. You, me, Em and Abel."

Tara sat down on the couch next to him. "We'll see."

"What has you so scared? Kohn is gone; we both said we fucked up when you left... I want us to work this out. We belong together."

Tara nodded slowly. She agreed with everything he was saying. "I just don't want you and me to get back together and have us not like the people we've become over the past four years."

Jax yawned, the pills already kicking in. He turned to Tara, "I know in my heart that I'm going to love you no matter what but if you want we can take the time to get to know each other again." He yawned again. "I just don't want you and the kids to go anywhere..."

"Ok Jax. That sounds good... We'll get to know each other another time." Tara got up from the couch to let him stretch out. "You need your rest". She leaned down and kissed him on the forehead.

"What are you going to so while I sleep?" He asked, eyes already closed.

"I don't know. Clean up a bit. Read."

"The cleaning supplies are in the same place." Jax said.

Tara laughed, "I'm sure they're the same ones I bought four years ago."

SOASOASOASOA

Nine Years Ago

"Home sweet home."

"Feels good to be back." Tara said, walking into the home she shared with her fiancé for the first time with their new addition.

Jax set the baby carrier on the table and looked at his sweet little baby girl. "And home sweet home to you too little one."

"Two days old and she's already got you wrapped around her little finger."

Jax took Emily's tiny finger in his hands. "She sure does. God help us when she figures that out." He agreed. "Daddy's little princess." He whispered.

Tara smiled at the father-daughter interaction. Jax would give Emily the moon if he could. Ever since he first held her minutes after she was delivered Tara saw how in love with his little girl he was. Tara took the time to look around the house. "No Gemma? I thought her and the club would all be here."

Jax smiled. "I told her we wouldn't be home for another four hours." He walked towards Tara and wrapped his arms around her.

"So, we have about two hours of peacefulness." She joked. She loved Gemma, she really did, but ever since Emily was born Gemma was planning her coming home party.

"Thought we'd get Emily all settled before the craziness begins." He kissed Tara.

"You're perfect you know that?" Jax nodded playfully and Tara smacked him lightly on the chest. "Four months is going to go by so fast." She whispered, looking at their little girl, who was snoozing in her carrier.

"I know baby... But you need to go back to school. We talked about this."

"I know, I know... It seemed easy when we talked about it but now... "

"She's here and she's perfect."

"Just like her Daddy."

"And Mommy." Jax said. "Doctor Mommy." He corrected.

"I love you Jax."

"I love you too Tara." He stroked Emily's cheek, "and we love you too Emily."

"You are so whipped."

"Not a bad place to be."

SOASOASOASOA

"Daddy! Welcome home." Emily said, rushing over to her father.

"Em be careful, Dad is still healing." Tara warned.

Emily climbed up on the couch to sit next to her father. "It's good to see you princess." Jax said, giving his daughter a kiss on the head.

"Yeah, it's better seeing you here than at the hospital." Emily said.

Tara watched from a distance. The last time Emily had been at St. Thomas was when Abel was shot.

"I know. I didn't like being there either. But I'm home now."

"And mommy's home too." Abel said, sitting on the other side of Jax.

Jax looked to Tara "Yeah baby... Mommy's home too." Tara said, ruffling her son's hair. "I thought I'd make Taco's for dinner."

"Yay! My favorite." Emily said.

"Mine too." Jax said.

"Taco's it is then." Tara disappeared into the kitchen.

"Daddy... Are we really going to be a family again?" Emily asked Jax.

"I'm working on it Princess. I just need your guys help convincing Mom."

"We'll help." Abel said, turning on the TV to some cartoons.

"Yeah Daddy, we'll help."

Jax smiled. He had the best kids in the world.

END CHAPTER