Chapter 19

Heartbroken

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"How come you never told me you had this?" Asked Lily. Her and James were ascending the stairs to the third floor. They were waiting for the massive, white stone staircase to change positions.

"Because I just got it." Answered James as he adjusted the cloak so it would fit over both of their feet. It was a rather large cloak and thanks to Remus's help, he was able to charm it so it was even bigger.

"Where'd you find one?" Lily said. "I know you have your connections," She teased. "But these are rare."

"I got it from my father. It's sort of a tradition to pass it down when their child turns 16." He explained.

"So no one can see us? Really?" Lily said, half to herself. She just couldn't get her mind around the idea that an object could make two people disappear.

"No but they can hear us." James replied as a startled first year gave a confused look to the empty yet talking space next to him which was Lily and James.

Lily chuckled softly. "Oh whoops."

"So you're sure that McGonagall won't be in her office know."

"Positive." Lily answered James's question.

"And how come you're so sure?" James questioned.

"There was a copy of her schedule on her desk and I saw it when I went in to ask her a question." Lily said. "Clever huh?"

"I know an easier way." James replied, a smart grin crossing his face.

"Oh yeah?" Lily asked. "And what way is that?"

"I can't tell you. It's sort of a Marauder thing." James replied with a wink.

"Oh please. Julia and I have been your friends just as long as they Marauders and how come they get to know everything?" Lily questioned.

"Because you're just not one." James replied lamely.

"Well I should be one!"

"You're not a guy." James smiled a bit at how childish that came sounded.

"Are we in first year? Come on James." Lily said.

"Well sorry." James shrugged.

"You want me to know or else you wouldn't have said anything." Lily said as she went through ways that James could know McGonagall's schedule in her mind.

"That's not necessarily true."

"But it is. You want me to be a Marauder." Lily said confidently.

"Woah I never said..." He began but Lily cut him off.

"Fine don't admit it." Lily said. "But don't deny it either. It won't do any good." Lily said with a gentle smile.

They both stopped in front of the door to their Transfiguration teacher's office. A sign posted on the door read:

I'm teaching a class now. Please do not enter until I get back

M.M.

"You ready?" Lily asked James.

"Ready as I'll ever be." He replied with a cheeky wink.

Lily gently turned the knob of the door before pushing it open to reveal a perfectly neat office. Sickeningly neat.

Lily slid out from underneath the cloak and circled the desk in the center of the room. "I wonder if she has any of our upcoming tests in there." James said with a mischievous grin.

"We can't do that!" Lily said, blocking his way to the desk.

"Come on Evans, we're here already."

Lily frowned, "You don't even need to see the test. You ace all of them anyway." Lily pointed out.

"Yeah but I know some students that would pay good money for a copy of one." James said.

"James." Lily replied, sounding a lot like his mother.

"Okay okay fine. Don't be fun." James said, wrapping his strong arms around her waist.

James slid his hand down her hair and towards her shoulder were he was planning on resting his hand. However, he paused as his hand grazed her neck. "Your pulse is crazy."

Lily pushed his hand away from her neck and he continued, "Are you really nervous about being here?" He asked.

"No, I suggested it remember." Lily said.

"So then it's me?" James questioned, a devious smile crossed his face as he watched her blush.

"I'm just not good with these planned make out things." Lily explained. "They get me all worked up. That's why I'm more of an impulse person."

James nodded before pulling her closer to him. Lily let out a small gasp as she felt their bodies collide. James spoke, "It's just me though." He said.

"Just you?" Lily questioned, getting her blushing under control.

James nodded, "Why, am I different than any other guy you've made out with?"

"Yes." Lily said immediately. "You're a million times better." She whispered.

A million times better...James thought. He smiled blissfully as he set his lips over hers. Lily let out a small whimper as he did. Why was it every time she was this close to James she turned into mush? She felt like collapsing in his arms but she forced herself to keep her knees from giving way. She had never felt so vulnerable to a man before. Normally she was in control of the situation. It was her that was the strong one but not in this case. James stole her like no other guy had ever done before.

The kiss was gentle and sweet. Like an innocent spring morning. To James, it felt like the first kiss he ever experienced. You know, when you can remember everything at that very moment in time. The smell, the taste and every other minuscule detail. He could decipher a sugary taste on her lips, the taste most likely being her gloss. The soft fragrance of vanilla perfume took over his nose. But the vanilla smell wasn't the kind that smelled sour or overpowering. It smelt like the soft air of cookie dough. The vanilla smell was there but it was perfectly delicious.

They were both lost. Lost in another world that neither of them could seem to get out of. It was like their souls were turned off momentarily and the only thing that was working was their senses as they attempted to remember everything about that very kiss.

So naturally, as the door swung open neither of them noticed. And even though there was a buzzing voice talking to them, neither of them knew. They both had their eyes closed absorbed in each other.

"Lily! James!" McGonagall said for the third time. She spoke louder than she had any other time in an attempt to pull them out of their trance.

James eyes opened and they found the strict looking professor standing there. Damn... He thought. It was too good to end. James glanced at Lily, who still didn't seem to notice McGonagall standing there. So why stop a good thing? James thought as he put up a finger to McGonagall to tell her to wait a second.

McGonagall face lit up pink with anger as the two finished the most amazing kiss either of them had ever experienced.

James was the one to break the kiss. He slowly peeled his lips off of hers. Lily let out a whimper as he did and attempted to kiss him again but James spoke before she could, "We have a visitor." James said with a small smile.

"Huh?" Lily frowned and turned to face McGonagall. Her mouth dropped a little. "Uh, we should be going." She said with a quick nod before heading towards the door. The faster she could get out of there the better she figured.

"Not so fast." McGonagall said.

James ran a hand through his hair. "It was just innocent fun..." He said, trying to ease what they had just been caught doing.

"Innocent fun?" McGonagall said in a less than amused way. "Innocent fun is playing Exploding Snap. Making out in my office certainly isn't."

Lily glanced at James as she tried not to smile. She didn't know why she was smiling. Getting in trouble certainly wasn't funny. But maybe she was just happy from the previous event.

"Sorry Professor." James said, bowing his head in mock shame.

"You very well should be." McGonagall said. She paused a moment as if she were debating whether to say what she was about to next. "I didn't know you were going out." She said.

James and Lily both looked up at her startled by her choice of subject. "Uh, yeah." Lily said.

Their professor nodded her head in approval. "I always thought you two might..." She said but stopped herself. "Well that's beside the point."

When neither of her students said anything she continued, "And what do you suppose should be your punishment?" She asked.

Lily and James exchanged a glance and James nodded for Lily to speak. "I guess a detention and points off." She said.

McGonagall nodded, "Sounds fair to me." She said. "Be here on Saturday at noon." She said. "And twenty points off of your house."

"Alright Professor." James said, inching towards the door. He didn't care what she had to say. He just wished she would hurry up so Lily and himself could continue.

"And don't think of skipping to go to Quidditch James." McGonagall warned. "I mean it."

"I wouldn't leave Lily to a detention by herself. Don't worry I'll be here." James said, before grabbing his cloak and slipping out the door.

"Goodbye Professor." Lily mumbled before also leaving.


Lily and James sat in the Great Hall with Julia after they had talked to McGonagall. They had planned to finish what they had started later in the day because both of them had promised they'd meet the gang at lunch.

Julia was the only one there at the moment and didn't look all that well. She was frowning at her bowl of soup and stirring it absent-mindedly.

"Julia are you feeling alright?" James asked, noting her lack of appetite.

"What? Yeah sure…whatever." She mumbled, sliding the rest of her soup over to him. She hadn't been listening, she had too much on her mind, so she just assumed it he was asking for her leftovers.

James looked over at Lily and frowned. Lily clearly has noticed her friend's odd behavior. "Uh, Julia is there something you what to talk about?"

"Huh?" Julia said, looking up from the table. "Oh maybe later." She mumbled as she watched the form of Sirius Black sit next to her out of the corner of her eye.

"Okay…" Lily said. She figured it was probably a girl thing that she didn't want to talk about in front of the guys. It seemed like a reasonable explanation.

"I'm starved." Sirius said, helping himself to some chicken.

"Yeah you were working up quiet an appetite before." Julia mumbled. But it wasn't her normal mumble. It was more of a hiss or a snap.

Sirius looked over at her and smiled gently. "Are you okay?"

"Oh bloody brilliant." She said in a sarcastic tone, pushing the arm that Sirius had put around her waist off it. "Don't touch me." She snapped.

Sirius frowned and looked up at her. "Juls, what's wrong? Do you want to talk about something?" He asked, completely confused to why she would be acting like this.

"Oh no." Julia shook her head. "You know damn well why I'm upset you filthy cow!" She spat before turning on her heel to the Great Hall door.

Sirius was in a such a state of shock that he almost let her leave like that. "Wait Juls." Sirius said, putting a hand on her arm. "Tell me what's wrong." He said, as gently as he could.

Julia wrenched her arm away from him, "I said you know!" She nearly yelled, her temper rising faster. How could he be so stupid?

Sirius, brow furrowed, continued, "No I don't. Now would you calm down and explain to me…"

"Do not tell me to calm down!" She demanded, her face growing red with frustration.

"Well I don't know what the bloody hell you're going on about so you might as well shut up if you're not going to tell me!" Sirius spat before he could stop himself.

Julia scowled, "I was leaving before you stopped me."

"Wait Juls," Sirius chased her down the aisle between the tables. "I didn't mean that."

"Yes you did."

"Julia please!" He said. He stood in front of her blocking her from leaving the Great Hall.

"Get out of my damn way!" She pushed him, though it didn't do any good.

"Can you tell me what's wrong?" He tried again.

"Fine! I don't like being made a fool of! Now get out of my way."

"Who made a fool out of you? I'll teach them to mess with my girlfriend." He said, in an attempt to cheer her up.

Julia frowned, "Sirius, we're over." She chocked out before recoiling and looking past him.

The breath caught in Sirius's throat and his heart sank, "I must have heard you wrong, I thought you said we're over."

"That's what I said." Julia said, looking into his eyes. "And let me tell you something." She continued. She could feel her heart beating faster and her hands shaking in rage. "You are the foulest excuse for a boyfriend ever!" She snapped, before leaving a stunned, heart broken Gryffindor in the door way to the Great Hall.

Sirius returned to the Gryffindor table like a wounded dog, trying to dodge the onlookers whispers. He sat down at the table, not believe anything. She must be mistaken…He kept thinking over and over again. He thought she liked him. Loved him even. He thought himself and Julia were a match made in Heaven. They fit together so well so why this sudden breakup?

"What did you do?" Snapped Lily as soon as he sat down. She turned to him in disgust and when he didn't answer she grabbed his shirt and turned him to face him. "What did you do?" She repeated.

Sirius shook his head. "I don't know…" He said in nothing above a whisper.

"Well you obviously did something." Lily said with an annoyed tone. "I've never seen her madder in my life. In fact, I've never seen her mad. You did something."

Sirius pushed Lily's hands off of his shirt. "I said I don't know." He snapped.

"You better not have done anything stupid…" Lily said, standing up from the table in search of Julia.

Sirius looked down at his plate no longer hungry. "It just doesn't make sense."

"Yeah, I thought you were happy." James said, equally shocked.

"We were. Or at least I thought so." Sirius answered.

"Was there anytime she mentioned breaking up or…"

"No." Sirius confidently answered. He remembered just the other day, in the mud, he had promised her they'd be together forever and now they were nothing.

"Did you do anything that might have ticked her off?" James perused.

"No."

"It's not your anniversary?"

"That's next month. Or would have been I guess." He said, burying his face in his hands as he mulled over anything that he might have said.

"Is it her birthday?"

"No."

"Is it Valentine's Day?" James said, in a bit of a panic voice.

"No." Sirius said with a roll of his eyes.

"Phew…" James mumbled.

"And even if it was one of those do you really think she'd get that mad at me for forgetting one?" Sirius asked. "She's so…easygoing."

James shrugged, "Is there anything you might have done that was stupid?" He asked. "Like you didn't buy a hooker or anything." He asked, half jokingly.

Sirius would have grinned at his comment if he wasn't so confused. "No…"

"Well then I haven't a clue." James said with a mere shrug also not feeling hungry anymore.

Sirius entered the common room feeling completely drained. He had spent his day searching for anyone who might know why Julia was mad at him. He tried to talk to her umpteen times but she locked her dorm door tight and wasn't answering for anyone. The only one he could think of that knew what might be going on was Lily. Who was also inconveniently locked in the sixth year girls' dorm as well.

Sirius sat at one of the table and buried his face in his hands. James looked over at his friend and frowned. He didn't know what to do to help him. "What me to go talk to them?" James asked. "They might open the door for me."

Sirius looked over at him and simply nodded, "Thanks." He mumbled.

James took to the stairs, making sure to skip the triggered ones. Cautiously, he rapped on the door. "Hey it's me, James." He said.

The door swung upon immediately. "Is Sirius there too?" Lily asked, looking around James.

"No he's in the common room." James answered. He glanced back at the dark haired boy sitting on a black leather couch.

"Do you want him in?" Lily asked over her shoulder to Julia.

"Yeah sure..." Julia mumbled in response.

James looked at Julia as he stepped into the dormitory. Her eyes were puffy red though she wasn't crying as she laid on her bed starring up at the ceiling.

"What happened?" James questioned. He wasn't sure what else to ask.

Julia shook her head. She wasn't sure that she could really explain what had happened. She hadn't even gotten the courage to tell Lily yet. She was too embarrassed. Too heart broken. "I've never been this mad or hurt before in my life." Julia said and her friends stayed quiet as she spoke. "This is even worse than when my parents died."

James looked over at Lily and frowned, "It can't be that bad."

Julia remained quiet as she mulled over his comment. He was wrong. "No." Julia finally said. "Because my parents didn't mean to die. But Sirius meant what he did."

"I swear to God if he did something to you I will bury him alive." Lily hissed but Julia shook her head.

"Well he did something." Julia said, burying her face in her pillow. James frowned before sitting down at the bottom of her bed.

"I was talking to him and whatever he did, he doesn't know he did." James said.

"Pst." Julia said. "He probably just doesn't know that I know."

Lily and James exchanged a worried glance. Whatever happened had to be serious enough for an easygoing girl like Julia to break up with Sirius.

A/N And I'm back. Sorry this took so long to get out. My computers been messed up the last few days so I had to re-write it all.

So what do you think? I wonder why Julia's mad a Sirius...

The more people that review the quicker I can get the next chapter out. It should be easy to write so as long as I get reviews I can have it out before next week.

Pretty please review?

Kaitlynn.