Chapter 31
Strike Two
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Sirius drew Julia closer to him, his arm still draped around her as they sat on the couch. Julia uncomfortably twisted her hands in her lap. She felt stiff and awkward as Sirius gently rubbed her bare shoulder. When a guy puts an arm around a girl, it's just natural that the girl rests her head on his shoulder. It's like imprinted in female DNA. But she didn't want to do that. Though Sirius was gaining more and more of her trust, she couldn't help but think about seeing her kiss that other girl...
The silence crept on longer and longer until it was finally interrupted by footsteps hurrying down the stairs. Julia heard a laugh echo through the room and immediately recognized the voice as Lily's.
As Lily and James reached the bottom step, their eyes went to Julia and Sirius sitting on the couch together. Lily smiled and squeezed James's hand. She didn't have to open her mouth for James to know that she thought the sight of the two was cute.
"Hey good thing you two left the group too." Said James as he and Lily entered the sitting room.
"Yeah?" Sirius asked.
"Now that I think of it, it would have looked pretty suspicious if they noticed Lily and me wandering off by ourselves."
"Aw, would you be embarrassed if Mommy knew you were kissing a girl?" Julia teased as she unconsciously leaned into Sirius.
James chuckled, "Nah, I wouldn't care..."
"Would she be mad if she found out?" Lily asked as she glanced at Sirius and Julia's interlocking hands.
Julia, noticing Lily looking at their hands, realized how stupid she was being, let go of Sirius's hand. She pretended to be fixing her hair, which not only gave her a good excuse to let go of his hand but also to get away from the arm that was draped around her.
"I'm not sure if she would care." James thought out loud. "But I'm not really sure. I mean she's never even see me around any other girl but you let alone kissing one..."
Julia raised an eyebrow at him and a small smile crossed her face. "Oh yeah? And what exactly am I?" She asked.
James, realizing his mistake, grinned and shook his head. "I didn't mean it like that. Your like a sister Julia."
Julia nodded, she had figured that was what he meant. She opened her mouth to answer when the door bell rang once again.
James turned on the spot and walked over to open it. A cold gust of December air rolled in the room, mixing with the warm, cinnamon smelling air of the Potters' house.
"Remus!" James greeted as he ushered the Lupins into the house.
There was more clattering of footsteps and the rest of the group, that had gone on the tour, rejoined the others. While everyone was exchanging greetings, Petunia slithered her way through the group to get to Lily.
"Thank God your boyfriend at least has a cute friend." She said, eying Remus hungrily. "Is he single?" She said, removing her eyes from the tall Remus standing by the door to her sister.
Lily, sort of shocked, just gaped at her, a disgusted expression written on her face. Sirius, unable to control himself, let out a loud snort.
Petunia's eyes darted to him. She looked at him like he was the scum of all scum. Sirius, on the verge of bursting out laughing, tried to smile politely at her. "Sorry." He said. "Got a cold." He winked at her but her expression did not falter.
Petunia's eyes, after looking Sirius up and down disgustedly, moved back to Lily. "Well?" She pursued.
"Forget it." Lily snapped. "Remus is a nice guy and he'd want nothing to do with you."
Petunia rolled her eyes at her and turned back to Sirius. "Is he single?" She repeated, sounding slightly annoyed.
Sirius, unable to hold it in, grinned widely. "He is single and looking for a lady." He dramatically pointed to Remus. "He's all yours." He finished.
Lily narrowed her eyes at him while Julia jabbed him in the side. "What?" Sirius said with a light shrug. "Just helping my mate find a girl. Is that such a crime?" He said, knowing what he did was not for the good of his mate, mostly just his own amusement.
"It's a crime when the girl is my sister!" Lily blurted out. "Do you realize how disgusted she is with the idea of magic? All she'll do is end up hurting him!" She inquired.
Sirius shrugged casually. "Maybe she'll learn to except magic when she falls in love with Remus." He joked, wiggling his eyebrows.
Lily just rolled her eyes, "Please, that's disgusting."
A thought occurred to Sirius and he spoke, in mock excitement. "Then, when they get married, you and Remus will be brother and sister. Oh how cute." He joked turning to Julia. "Don't you think that's cute."
Julia couldn't help but smile as she shook her head.
Sirius let out a dramatic sigh. "Fine. I bet James will find this as amusing as I do..." And with that, he left to go tell James about what he had just heard.
Lily rolled her eyes and walked over to Remus, hoping to save him from her sister but she came a second too late. She watched Petunia push through the crowd to get to Remus.
"Hello, I'm Petunia Evans." She said sweetly, which disgusted Lily. Petunia was as sweet as a lemon.
"Oh, Lily's sister." Remus said, extending a hand towards her. "Nice to meet you. I'm Remus Lupin." He said, smiling. "I've heard so much about you from Lily." Thinking back on it, he couldn't remember Lily ever saying anything nice about her sister...
Petunia forced a smile, and anyone looking at her could tell the smile was fake. She hated the idea that her sister could have ever interacted with such a cute boy. "Oh can I take your coat?" She asked.
"Uh-." But before he could reply, Petunia was already stripping the coat off of him. As she did, her hand brushed against his forearm. Petunia gasped, in a bad acting sort of way, and put a hand over his forearm. "Wow what a muscle." She exclaimed. "Do you work out?" She asked but then fell into a fit of giggles. "Well of course you do, how else would you have a muscle like that?" She finished, throwing his coat at Lily. "Put that away will you?" She snapped at her sister, her voice dripping with sourness.
Sirius couldn't help but let out another laugh as he watched with James feet away. No offense to Remus, but he wasn't exactly the muscular type. He was tall and skinny. But Sirius, like all of Remus's friends, knew he had the mind to make up for not being physically strong. Though he would never get into a fight, if he ever did, he would surely be able to get out of it with his knowledge of spells, curses and hexes.
Lily scowled as her sister shoved the coat into her arms. "All the coats are hanging in the closet right there." She said, handing her sister back the coat. "Surely you can do it yourself."
Remus, still bright red from what Petunia had said, looked from sister to sister before saying. "It's no problem. I can do it myself." He said, reaching for the coat.
Petunia immediately lunged for the coat. "No let me." She said with a smile. As soon as her back was turned, however, the smile was replaced by a scowl at her hatred for her sister.
Lily's apology to Remus was interrupted as James and Sirius reached Lily, Remus and Julia. "Oh he's so cute!" James cooed putting a hand to his forehead and batting his eye lashes.
Sirius gasped loudly. "Oh and the muscles! Look at the muscles!" He said nudging James and pointed at Remus. He spoke in a high squeaky voice as he tried to impersonate Petunia.
James gasped too at which time, Remus had managed to turn a whole darker shade of pink. "Oh he's looking at us!" He mock squealed excitedly, like he had been a lovestruck girl staring at her crush. "Act pretty Sirius!" At which time, both boys struck a pose; Sirius leaning to the side, tilting his head to the right and batting his eyelashes while James turned to the side, smiling widely and looking up at the ceiling.
Julia was trying extremely hard not to laugh, placing a hand over her mouth to keep her smile hidden. However, when she looked over at Lily and watched her crack the smallest smile, it sent her into a full blown laugh.
The smile disappeared off of Lily as she turned to see Remus, bright red, awkwardly looking where Petunia disappeared. "Shhh...she might hear you!" He said, not wanting to offend Petunia.
Lily glared at James and Sirius, "Would you leave him alone!" She snapped.
"But he's just so cute!" Sirius said, making Remus scratch the back of his neck nervously.
"Oh put a cork in it Black." She said, eying Julia who was trying very hard to suppress her laughter. "You're just jealous because she thought Remus was cuter then the pair of you." She said, trying to make Remus feel better.
This however, sent the three of them into a louder laugh. Remus shook his head. "Don't worry about it Lily." He said. "I get this from them all the time."
"But you still get red every time." James said, jokingly pinching his cheek.
Remus moved his head away and smiled sheepishly. "No worries though Mooney." Sirius began, gaining his composure. "I'm sure Petunia thinks it's adorable that you blush." He said, winking at Remus.
Lily glared at Sirius. Remus opened his mouth but was at a loss of what to say. "Well- I-." He began but closed his mouth.
"Now he's stuttering!" Sirius said, moving to the side of Remus and giving him a 'manly' pat on the back. "They just don't get cuter than this!"
"Shh...She's coming!" Remus whispered as Petunia joined the group again.
"Uh thanks for that." Remus said to Petunia. As soon as he opened his mouth, his face had resumed its bright pink color.
Petunia giggled softly. "Oh you're so sweet. It was no problem at all!" She said, purposely placing her fingertips on his arm as she spoke.
"Er...well..." He muttered, not sure what to say. He knew James, Sirius and probably Julia were all trying hard not to laugh right now but he didn't want to look for confirmation. Instead, he just found a spot on the floor and looked at it.
"Dinner's ready!" Mrs. Potter called out over the conversations going on in the entrance hall. Remus looked up thankfully at her. He was saved from the awkwardness...at least for now.
"So Remus." James began, speaking very seriously. "Why don't you tell us about your work-out plan. We'd all like to know how you stay so fit."
Remus gave James a look, as though begging James to be quiet. "Yeah Mooney. We'd really like to know!" Sirius encouraged.
"Mooney?" Petunia piped in. "What is that a nick name or something?" She asked.
"Well duh." Lily snapped at her sister. She didn't like the idea of her sister hanging around her friends. Her sister had always acted viciously towards herself and the whole magically world so her acting friendly towards people involved in that world seemed so hypocritical; so fake.
Petunia, ignoring her sister, continued. "Where did it come from?"
They all looked at each other silently. "Well I-it means..." Remus began but didn't know what to say. Obviously he wasn't going to tell her the truth but he didn't know what else to say.
"Oh don't be so modest." James said, grinning. "Remus won Hogwarts Moon Competition three years in a row. So people just call him Mooney know." He replied in a matter-of-fact tone.
"And what exactly is a Moon Competition?" Remus whispered to James.
James merely grinned as Petunia asked the same question Remus had just muttered. "Oh right. It's a dance competition." He said.
Remus appeared to be permanently red as he elbowed James in the stomach. Julia let out a snort of laughter but quickly tried to cover it up as a cough.
Petunia nodded her head approvingly. "Well you'll just have to show me some dance moves later now won't you?" She said as the group slowed down to enter the dinning room.
"No, I couldn't possibly..." Remus shook his head as he followed the group into the dinning room. He glared at James from the corner of his eyes.
"Wow you really are modest." Petunia said, moving closer to Remus. "Not many guys are like that." She looked up at him and smiled softly. "I like it."
With that, Petunia stuck her nose in the air and strutted into the dinning room, taking a seat on the far side of the room.
"Oh so modest..." Sirius cooed.
"That's sexy..." James said, grinning at Remus. "I like it."
Julia shook her head,, still trying to quiet her laughter. Lily gave James and Sirius both a look that told them 'You better shut it right now'.
Remus, his redness remaining at a constant, let out a soft groan as he closed his eyes slowly.
Sirius laughed and gave him a 'manly' pat on the shoulder. "Aw we're just playing Remus."
"Yeah we really don't think your modesty is sexy. No offense of course." He joked before walking into the dinning room.
"Speak for yourself!" Sirius joked along before following James's lead into the dinning room.
Remus soon followed the group after taking a deep breath outside the door. He could feel his face and ears were hot and bright red and he begged them to loose some of their color as he entered the room.
Remus looked around for a seat and saw an open one next to Lily. As he made his way over there, he heard a voice call, "Oh Remus!" He tried to ignore the voice but he heard it once more in the same sing-song tone.
Remus looked over to see Petunia patting the seat next to her and batting her eye lashes at him. "I saved a seat just for you." She said.
"Well-I was going to sit next to Lily..." He said, softly. He didn't want to be rude, but he really had no interest in her.
"Please." Petunia said, making a hideous puppy-dog pout.
"Uh, well..." He looked over at Sirius who was making a sickening kissy-face at him; his lips puckered and his eyes closed. "Er, okay. I guess." He said, making his way around the table to sit next to her.
Petunia looked significantly happier as Remus gloomily sat down next to her.
Soon after they had all settled down in their seats, trays and trays of delicious food was being brought in by rather clean house elves.
Lily, after lecturing James to leave Remus alone, sighed, defeated, before asking, "Can you pass me the mashed potatoes?"
James complied, handing them to her. "No problem." His gaze lingered on her small freckled covered face, for what Lily thought, was a little long.
"What?" She asked, her hand moving to the side of her face, thinking there was something on her face.
"Hey, I can't stare at my beautiful girlfriend once and a while?" He asked, a grin spreading across his face.
Lily smiled, the color rising in her face. "Well, I never said that I had a problem with it..." She said, a smile stretching across her face too.
James reached under the table and pulled Lily's chair closer to him, the soft scraping noise of the chair on the floor barely heard from the loud chattering inside the room. He looked out of the corner of his eyes, his smile still not faltering as he reached for hand.
Lily grinned as she felt the chair jerk underneath her. She looked over at him and smiled before turning back to the meal in front of her.
James, grabbed hold of her elbow as she began to eat her mashed potatoes. Lily lifted the fork up then to her mouth. As she was opening her mouth to slide the potatoes in, James jerked her elbow, smearing mashed potatoes across her lips.
"James!" She said, smiling, as she pulled her elbow away from him.
Sirius laughed as he watched the scene unfold. He knew James was behind what he had just seen but joked anyways, "Jeez Lily, this is supposed to be a proper dinner. You know, like one where you're supposed to have manners." He teased.
Lily laughed and rolled her eyes. "Sorry Lils." James said with a wink. "I couldn't resist...Won't happen again." He said, loudly.
Lily, smartening up, picked up the fork in her opposite and began to eat with it. After a few bites and nothing more from James, she figured he had stopped for good and stopped looking down at his hand so often to see if he would strike again.
But as soon as she let her guard down, James slide his hand under the arm of her chair and poked her in the side. Lily, not expecting this, gasped, hitting her opposite hip on the other arm of the chair. "James!" She said, turning to look a him, a mock expression of anger written across it.
"Whoops again." He said with a light shrug. "Hey!" He said, as though an idea had just popped into his mind. "Maybe if my hand had another hand to hold, it wouldn't keep doing that." He said, grinning mischievously.
"Well lucky for you James, you have two hands." She said, returning the grin. "So you can just hold your own."
James chuckled. "But please Lily." He jokingly pleaded as he stuck out his hand for her to take.
Lily laughed, "James I'm trying to eat.." She said, in a light manner.
"So? You don't need two hands to eat." He replied.
"What if I want to cut something?" She asked.
"I'll cut it for you."
Lily chuckled. "But you'll only have one hand free too."
"That's just another one of my hidden abilities. I can cut stuff with only one hand." Lily raised an eyebrow at this, obviously doubtfully. "What? It is!" He jokingly pressed.
Lily, giving a false defeated sigh, placed her hand over James's. "Happy now?" She asked.
James nodded, "Very."
"Well," Sirius spoke up, after listening to Lily and James's entire conversation. "You two better be just holding hands...That better not be some code name for something else..." He said, pointing his fork at the pair.
Lily scrunched her nose and James just laughed. Sirius looked next from him to Julia, who was quietly eating her meal. "Too bad I didn't have someone to hold my hand..." He hinted out loud.
Julia pretending not to hear this, however, gave herself away as her cheeks turned a light pink Still feeling Sirius's eyes on her, she turned to look at him. Sirius gave her a soft smile before leaning towards her and whispering softly in her ear, "Did I ever tell you how cute you are when you blush?"
The color rose even more in her cheeks. As Sirius noticed this, his smile only grew bigger. Julia opened her mouth to reply, closed it and opened it once more before her lips just feel in an almost apologetically smile. She shook her head before looking down at her food.
How could she still be mad at him? Not after what he did for her. He must have gone through a lot of trouble to get that locket...She thought.
"Hey Julia!" A voice called out to her, forcing herself to give up on her thoughts. She looked up to her brother's voice and he continued. "You have to tell the Potters about that quidditch game you won against Hufflepuff. It was absolutely brilliant!" He said, excitedly.
Julia smiled remembering that day quite well before starting the story. "Well the score was tied..."
After they had all stuffed their faces until their stomachs couldn't hold anymore, they began to make their way into the entrance hall to say their good-byes. Remus, noticing Petunia waiting at the doorway for him (which inconveniently enough for him, had a sprig of mistletoe hovering above the it), decided to take an alternative route to the entrance hall.
Meeting up with his friends, he opened his mouth to say good-bye to them only to be interrupted by Mrs. Potter. "Oh Remus dear you must stay over night. Julia, Tom and Sirius already are and we'd be delighted if you would stay too." She said, smiling up at him. "And Lily, you too of course!" She said happily. "I won't take no for an answer!" She cheerfully demanded.
Petunia frowned and turned to her mother. "I want to stay too! Tell her I'm staying too!" She whispered sharply.
Mrs. Evans frowned and she was about to tell her daughter that she wasn't invited when Mrs. Potter's eyes landed on Petunia. "Oh silly me!" She said, running over to Petunia and taking her arm. "You are welcome to stay as well. You seem to get along with everyone very well. You must stay!" She demanded again. "Yes you must!" She said, nodding in a final sort of way.
Lily let out an almost inaudible groan. She looked at Remus and muttered an apology. He merely shrugged in reply. He didn't mind Petunia so much as Sirius and James's constant teasing.
"Oh won't this be fun." Sirius whispered to Remus in a mock-girlish sort of giggle.
Remus looked over at Petunia who was looking directly at him smiling in a 'trying-to-be-seductive-but-miserably-failing' sort of way.
Sirius, whistling loudly, entered the dark room, not bothering to turn on the light. He was headed towards the windows, which were covered by a heavy dark curtain. The whole room was submersed in darkness but Sirius hadn't bothered to turn on the light. He had been in this room hundreds of times and knew exactly where he needed to go.
After James had shown all his guests into their rooms (though they usually ended up all sleeping in the same room; or a least one room for the girls and one for the boys) , the boys had decided to hang out in James's room. After talking and making fun of Remus shamelessly, they decided that they were all up for some Wizards Chess. And after losing rock-paper-scissor, Sirius was chosen to be the one to get the board.
Sirius reached the window, under which, was a large trunk filled with several games that James rarely ever played, sitting on top was the Wizards Chess.
"Guess who!" A voice shouted from behind him, making him drop the chess pieces onto the floor. He turned sharply, instinctively pulling out his wand. The shadow gasped and hid her head behind her arms.
Sirius, knowing none of his friends would react to a drawn wand like that, said, "Er, sorry Petunia, you just scared me." He said, bending down to pick up the pieces.
"Oh it's no problem." She said, with a giggle, as she bent down to help him with the pieces.
Petunia looked over at the dark figure squatting across from her. She couldn't see his face and it looked as though he was trying to avoid her gaze...
Sirius, not entirely sure why Petunia was staring at him the way she was, tried to break the silence. "Er so what are you doing in here anyway?" He asked.
"Well," Petunia began, placing the pieces she had just picked on the floor next to her. "I was actually hoping I would get to be with you...alone." She whispered the last word in another pathetic attempt to be seductive. She, being already very close to him, leaned forwards towards him. "I really like you Remus."
Sirius immediately leaned back away from her. He lost his balancing, his elbows were the only thing keeping him from laying on the floor completely. "Woah." He said, rather shocked at what she was doing. "I'm definitely not Re-." He began as she moved closer to him, practically laying on top of him.
As he was speaking, a third voice piped in. "Sirius? Why are you in the dark all by your-." The lights flicked on.
Julia's face remained expressionless as she saw Petunia laying on the floor on top of Sirius. "-self." She finished quietly.
Sirius jumped up, pushing Petunia to the floor. "I-I-uh that wasn't what you thought." He tried to explain.
Petunia hopped up, glaring at Sirius as she brushed off her dress. Then she seemed to realize her mistake; that the boy wasn't Remus. Her mouth curled into a small smile as she covered her mouth with a single hand. "Whoops." She muttered letting out a giggle.
"Get out of here!" Sirius snarled at her. He had to explain what really happened and he didn't need her acting all flirt-y while he did.
Petunia let out one more giggle before she walked out of the room in search of the real Remus.
Julia looked at Sirius, shook her head than turned to leave the now brightly lit room. "Wait!" Sirius said, running past her to block the door. "Please Julia. She thought I was Remus. That's-"
"And it sure in hell looked like you were doing a lot to let her know that you weren't Remus." Julia said quietly, as she tried to bypass Sirius.
"Julia please listen to me." Sirius said, putting his hands on her shoulder to stop her from going anywhere.
"Let me go Sirius." She said calmly. "I want to leave."
What had she really expected? Did she really think that Sirius was going to change? Obviously he couldn't. He had been a player when she met him and apparently was going to keep being one until the day he died. She thought that he had actually felt guilty about what he had done. But clearly, he didn't care.
"No not until I know you believe me!" He said back, as he pushed her gently back towards the bed in the center of the room.
Julia tried to squirm out of his grasp. "Sirius just let me go! I want to leave!" She repeated.
"No." Sirius said, boldly as he pushed her shoulders down, forcing her to sit on the bed.
Julia complied, figuring she wasn't going to get out of this until Sirius finished his little story.
"Are you listening now?"
"Yes just spit it out so I can leave." Julia replied. Though her words were harsh, her tone was still soft and gentle as always.
"Julia, look at me." He said to her as he watched her glance past him at a portrait on the wall. She didn't move her head.
"Julia please!" He repeated. "Juls come on." There was a pleading note in his voice and Julia couldn't help but look at him.
"I love you okay." He said, his voice remaining strong and dominate, like it usually was. "I love you-." He began, letting out a loud sigh. "I love you more than anything. You mean so much to me." He lowered himself next to the bed so he was no longer hovering over her.
"Do you remember our first kiss?" He asked, rhetorically. "I know this is probably going to sound really stupid...But a kiss never meet so much to me." He looked down at the ground before finding her face again, her eyes were gazing past him again even though her head was facing him. "It felt like I finally found someone who actually understood me. And the best part about it was, not only did you get me, but you wanted to love me." He voice seemed to falter but he continued to speak.
"I know what you saw looked bad and I'm sorry for that. I really am. I love you and I don't want to hurt you anymore." He said, his voice finally losing it's volume.
Julia, really meeting his eyes for the first time, stood up, Sirius following suit. Julia's eyes bore straight into his as they stood there, merely inches away from each other. Sirius looked at her hopefully as her lips parted...
"We're not a couple Sirius." Julia said, breaking anything Sirius had thought was there. "You don't have to apologize. You can make out with as many girls as you want for all I care."
Sirius remained silently, his head hung. He looked down at Julia's bare feet soaking in what she just said but before he could get his mind really around it, Julia spoke up. "Can I go now?" She asked meekly.
Sirius looked up at her and didn't know what else to tell her. So he merely nodded and stepped to the side so Julia could get passed him.
Julia glanced at him as she was hurrying past him, a mixture of pain and anger written across it. Sirius almost winced; it felt like his heart was being torn out of his chest. "I love you Julia..." He blurted out as her figure entered the hallway.
Julia entered the girls' room quietly and collapsed onto the bed, letting out a small sigh.
Lily closed the book and looked over at Julia. "What's wrong?"
Julia shook her head and rolled onto her stomach. "Nothing." She muttered and buried her face in her pillow.
Lily, sensing something really was wrong, walked over to her bed and sat down next to Julia. "Come on Julia you can tell me."
Julia let out a loud sigh before speaking, figuring Lily could help her sort out what she had just seen, "Sirius was making out with your sister."
Lily let out a small chuckle. "No. Come on. Really you can tell me."
Julia looked up from the pillow as Lily, strands of her hair sticking to her tear stained face. "How is that funny?"
Lily's smile vanished off her face. Julia was crying...The thought seemed to settle into her mind. She had never seen her cry before.
Julia put her head back into the pillow and spoke, her voice barely audible through the pillow. "He told me Petunia thought he was Remus and that's why Petunia was laying on top of him on the floor."
Lily closed her eyes and wondered why Sirius was so stupid. She knew Sirius wouldn't do anything like that, at least she knew after finding out the truth about why he had done it the first time. But how could he get himself into such a situation?
"I think he's telling the truth." Lily said, confidently.
Julia looked up from the pillow. "What?" She said quietly. "Why do you think he's telling the truth now? You didn't think he was telling the truth the first time."
Lily shook her head and looked down at the bed. "Julia he loves you and he really wants you back. He's so happy that you guys are friends now. He wouldn't do anything to ruin that." She said, avoiding Julia's question.
"Well he ruined it the first time." Julia said a little harshly. She couldn't believe that Lily was actually buying his story.
"Er, I know." Lily replied. "But I know he regretted it. He wouldn't mess up twice."
The girls were quiet for a moment. Julia was trying to figure out how the first time this happened, Lily had thought Sirius was the scum of the earth but now she was just shrugging it off as a misconception.
Lily broke the silence by saying, "I really think you should forgive him."
Julia sat up in bed, avoiding Lily's gaze. "Do you have any idea how much I wish I could? That I could just forget anything ever happened?" She shook her head. "Or at least forget about him. But I can't." She turned to Lily, meeting her eyes. "All I ever do is think about that stupid boy. I can't even look at another guy and think he's cute because I can't get my mind off Sirius.
"Sometimes I really do think I should just take him back." Julia spoke quieter, looking down at her hands. 'But than I remember how much I trusted him...He wasn't just my boyfriend. He was my best friend. I felt like I could tell him anything." Tears were now streaming out of her eyes and she thought of Sirius and herself sitting on the couch in the Gryffindor Common Room.
"Can I kiss you?" He had asked. She remembered being so happy at that point. She felt completely vulnerable at that point but at the same time, completely safe. Safe because it was Sirius she had fallen in love with and she trusted him so much.
The memory faded out of her mind as she blinked away tears. "I love him." She blurted out, turning to Lily. "I love him so much. I just wish there was a way I could forget about what he did." She sniffed quietly. "And I was on my way to forgetting about it...But then it happened all over again."
Lily, not sure what to say, remained quiet. It was so hard for her not to tell Julia what Sirius had done for her. Lily was an extremely loyal person and she always stood by her friends. The problem was, that she had two loyalties battling each other. She wanted to keep Sirius's secret, but at the same time, she didn't want Julia to suffer.
"I really thought he was sorry for what he did." Julia continued. "I also really thought he still liked me too...I mean he was always flirting with me...and the locket..." Her hand went unconsciously to the necklace draped around her neck. "But I guess I was wrong..."
Lily finally spoke up. "Julia I know he loves you. He loves you so much."
"How? How do you know?" Julia asked, almost desperate for a reason to love him back.
Lily let out a slow breath as she tried to wrap her mind around what she was going to do. She decided at the last millisecond that maybe she should just let Sirius do this on his own time, but at that point, it was too late. Her mouth was already forming the words...
A/N- Yay! I finally updated!! And if you want to thank anyone for this chapter thank my sister because this chapter probably wouldn't be up for another 5 months if she wasn't bothering me to update every single chance she got.
Soooo what could Lily POSSIBLY be telling Julia??
Thanks for everyone who reviewed last chapter!!! I should be updated a little more frequently now that I'm back in the writing zone!
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Kait
