OK this is chapter three

What could Harry want with Zaf?

Please R and R

DISCLAIMER: I don't own spooks (I'm just borrowing them!)


Zaf shut the door to Harry's office nervously. The pounding in his head was becoming more and more unbearable with every moment.

"Sit Zaf," Harry instructed and Zaf obeyed.

"I know this is difficult Zaf, but I need you to write up your final statement of events and look at the photographs so you can ID your captors and finally close the case."Harry said.

Zaf rolled his eyes, this was the thing he had been trying to avoid since he came back to the grid. He didn't want to look at the photos in the file that was now in his shaking hands, in his dreams they were just blurred faces. That's what Zaf wanted, he didn't want vivid images of them in his head, the blurred ones were bad enough.

"Please Zaf, the sooner you do this the sooner you can heal and move on." Harry pleaded, he saw the obvious hesitation of Zaf and knew he was trying to avoid doing this. Harry tried to put this off too but now it couldn't wait the government wanted a completed report. This was the only thing left, and the hardest thing to do.

Zaf nodded an ok, closed his eyes willing his head to stop pounding for a minute, took a deep breath and opened the file. He saw the faces of the criminals who caught him, memories flooded his mind. His hands trembled and the pounding of his head increased so much he thought it was going to explode. He couldn't stop them, the sick burning feeling in his stomach had returned and a wave of nausea hit him hard. His stomach lurched and he ran out of Harry's office hand over his mouth.

Adam, Ros and Jo looked at each other in alarm. What was going on? Adam stood up from his desk and looked over at Harry's eyes wide and full of question. Harry shrugged his response. Adam decided to follow Zaf and went down the corridor.

Zaf just made it to the toilets just in time. He leaned over and emptied his stomach. His stomach heaved again and again. It hurt to breath. Zaf sat down his whole body trembling. Shakily he put his hand to his painful head, his forehead covered in sweat. He felt tears prick his eyes as he tried to erase the memories in his head.

Adam could hear Zaf throwing up from outside the bathroom. He waited before going in as he knew Zaf wouldn't want anyone to know what had just happened. He then slowly entered the bathroom.

"Zaf mate, are you ok?"He heard the horrible sound of Zaf being sick for the third time and grimaced. He had no idea what to do or say to help him.

"I will be I a minute ok Adam?" Replied Zaf struggling to hide his discomfort as yet another flashback hit him , followed by the familiar wave of nausea. Zaf groaned as his stomach heaved yet again but there was nothing to bring up. Shakily he stood up and took a deep breath, trying to pull himself together. Slowly he opened the cubicle door to find Adam standing there his usually bright blue eyes clouded with concern.

"You sure you are ok? What happened?"Adam asked

"Just reacted badly to flashbacks that's all Zaf tried to smile but he couldn't manage it completely. He ran a shaky hand through his hair and then started to splash water across his face. The images in his head fading away.

"I'll give you a minute ok. If you want to take the day I'm sure Harry will understand.

"No it's ok I just need a minute. See you in a sec."

With that Adam left Zaf with his own thoughts and returned back to the office where he was greeted by the anxious faces of Jo and Ros. "He's ok. Harry was showing him images of his captors and he had some flashbacks. He'll be back in a minute just act normal ok?"Adam ordered.

True to his word a few minutes later Zaf entered the office, switched on his computer and began the work he was doing before. He didn't look up or make eye contact to his other team members. He didn't need to he knew they'd be watching anyway. At least his hands had stopped trembling and the flashbacks had stopped thought Zaf as he let his workload consume his anger, frustration and fear.


Next chapter is a Zaf and Jo moment so keep reading