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Hikaru's POV

Packing my suitcase took a while. It didn't help that with all the presents I bought for Tamaki made the volume of my stuff at least double to what I came with. I thought if I got lots of presents, he'd forgive me? Maybe? Probably not. He's not one to forgive and forget.

"What are you doing Hikaru?" Haruhi laughed at me jumping up and down on my suitcase in a vain attempt to shut it.

"My-suitcase-has-shrunk. Can't-shut-it." I panted my face red.

Of course, her suitcase has stayed the same size. Lucky thing, she doesn't have this impulse to buy anything and everything she sees.

"I really don't think it's shrunk, you should have packed last night – like I told you to."

In the end I had to go out and buy some rope to bind my suitcase together, which makes us late for the boat ride back to the mainland.

"Great, so we're stuck on this island until the next boat, and then we'll be stuck on the mainland until the next plane 'cos we missed ours." I moaned as I watched the boat pull away from the harbour.

"Don't know why you're so annoyed, this is all your fault! You and you're suitcase. What are we going to do? Tamaki thinks we're going on the 14:35 plane, he's going to go mental!"

"Don't worry, I'll handle it." She looked at me skeptically but I know I can handle Tamaki, if Haruhi still wants to be with me when we get home I wouldn't be too surprised if I flew to the moon.

We sat on the bench by the harbour, hand in hand. We didn't talk; we'd said most of what needed to be said last night. We just stared out the sea, looking at the faint outline of the mainland on the horizon. We watched the clouds move by, birds flying from mast to mast, cawing to their mate.

Boats left and arrived at the docks, and an hour later the next boat to the mainland arrives. I stand up and carry mine and Haruhi's luggage across the rickety wooden pathway. She nervously pulls herself up, and follows me with a fake smile.

"I'll ring Tamaki. Yes, he'll be fine with it." She fumbled around in her bag for her ancient mobile phone. Her face turned into a deep frown as she furiously jabbed buttons with her finger. "Come on! Work! You stupid phone! I need you to work. Now."

In true 'Hikaru-style' I came to the rescue. I flipped my phone out for my pocket, dropping the suitcases. In an attempt to be smooth, I leapt and tried to catch my phone, tripping over my suitcase and knocking my phone into the water.

"Well..." I scratched the back of my neck, wondering how we were going to contact Tamaki now. But Haruhi put on her smile again, picked up her suitcase and walked onto the boat as if she hasn't got a care in the world. I followed her, and we sat down on the deck.

"I'll try again Hikaru, my phone's always doing this." She kept pressing buttons like there's no tomorrow.

"I'll could get you a new one. I'm gonna have to go to the phone shop anyway I guess!"

A smile spreads across her face as the screen on her phone lights up.

"Tamaki? You there?"

"Haruhi? You on your way? I'm waiting! Did you get on the boat okay?"

"Yes, Tamaki, we're going to ge-" The line crackles and cuts off. I guess we'll have some explaining to do.

Haruhi's POV

I could run. I could face up to it. But all those ideas made my stomach churn. I couldn't just act like nothing had happened? Could I? Lying only made things worse, I had to be honest but I was scared and I don't want to hurt him. Because in my heart of hearts I knew I liked them both but I was so confused over who to choose, and I'd tried to make that clear to Hikaru last night. There's good which I love and the bad which I could deal with, after all accepting someone's faults is how to keep a relationship and really, I didn't deserve either of them.

After we tiredly pulled through passport security I felt all the emotions running through me. I was sad the holiday was over, me and Hikaru's private time was finished and this was probably the last time abroad for me for a while. And then again there was the overwhelming happiness of being back in the place I was familiar with and people had the same customs and language as me. There was the anxiety that make me feel sick and my churn. Because in a few moments I'm going to see Tamaki. And I have no idea what to do.

"Haruhi!" Came the shout of the blonde I'd been dreading and also pining to see. But before I could say anything and gush my apologies, he hugged me so hard I think I may have forgotten how to breathe. I smiled because his happy go lucky one was so infectious.

He breathed a message into my ear "I've missed you so much."

Here he was blissfully unaware that I've been having an affair, he's so innocent. He doesn't know and I can only begin to picture the look on his face if I told him. To my surprise I a tear drops from my eye, just a small one but it's still a tear, and it shows something though I'm not sure what. And then he says three words which surprise me beyond belief but really I should have seen it coming.

"I love you. I mean with you being away I began to realise-"

And the only thing I can think to say is.

"I know." Why am I so bad with emotions? At least it's honest.

I heard Hikaru coughing and we separated and headed out to an awaiting car as a butler took our suitcases into the boot. Tamaki was shooting me confused and hurt looks, he looked like a kicked puppy, Hikaru's eyebrow is cocked upwards and a frown on his face. Great I've ended up hurting them both, just like I thought I would. I mouth 'later' to Hikaru and rest my head against the window and stare at the road until my eye lids begin to get heavier and my thoughts wandered before I knew it I was being rustled awake and into ... the twins house?

I tried to meet Tamaki's eye but he purposely looked away and as usual Tamaki hid his hurt beneath a smile and bellowed "We're back!" As streamers and balloons were thrown in our faces and a huger banner with the words 'welcome back' adorned the ceiling. Food is spread around the room on tables and the decorations are exuberant to say the least, the host club never does go by halves. The host club stood in front of us, Kaoru and Honey with huge grins on their face, Mori with a small smile that you would miss if you weren't looking enough for it and Kyoya with his usual indifference. And even though it was way over the top I felt so happy to be back where I belong. Not that I'll admit that to anyone.

And suddenly I'm nearly knocked over by a very happy Honey. "I've missed you so much haru-chan! Don't go away again for a while, kay?" I ruffled his hair and can't help but smile as he hands me Usa-chan, his most beloved item. Mori was hovering protectively over his cousin's shoulder, as usual, but he leaned over and patted my head which I knew to be the equivalent of a hug from Mori. Meanwhile Kaoru and Hikaru talked and held onto each other like there was no tomorrow and I was just glad there together again. Even if they all annoy me till I want to hurt them, often badly, I really did love them.

Kyoya stood in the background his smug smile and glinting glasses hiding his eyes which show his actual emotions. As Honey and Mori pulled away to greet Hikaru he walked over and I can tell he is looking me right in the eye, even if I can't see his. I feel like a tiny fish caught in a pond with a shark.

"According to my sources you had a very pleasant time. Perhaps you even got a little too…"

He pulled a hand up to adjust his glasses and I gulped nervously.

"…Carried away. You should know better Haruhi, I suggest you choose wisely in the future. But otherwise it's good to have you back."

Oh shit he knows. Kyoya does like to know everything though and I should have known he'd check up on me and Hikaru with his 'sources'. He does have a point I can't hold it off much longer, I have some decisions to make.

Kaoru's POV

It had been one hell of a morning, I can tell you. Organising a last minute party, Tamaki was all up for it, he seemed to have forgotten his threat to ban me and Hikaru from the host club, he was too excited about Haruhi coming back. We decided just the host club, just having a night in, and no alcohol after what happened last time. It took a while to persuade Haruhi's father to let her stay the night too, but after a few arguments and a bit of… bribery, he finally agreed. But it was all worth it seeing Hikaru again and catching up on all the things I'd missed, there were a few photos shown and a brief outline of what they did. But quite vague, I guess they're tired after travelling. We don't talk for too long though as most of our night is going to spent watching movies.

The room is comfy and has an almost cosy feeling about it. With a fireplace and sofa wrapped in blankets and cushions. Our rooms change as often as the latest trends, so mother can stay on top with all her friends when they come to visit. And so we settled down on our sofa, I leant my head against Hikaru's shoulder whilst he is leant against Haruhi who in turn is curled against Tamaki. Honey sat with a pillow to his chest, Kyoya upright and attentive, his usual knowing look is there. Whilst Mori slips in the lion King that Honey insisted on watching. It's a good film and it makes us all feel whole again. The host club with two members missing wasn't the same. Tamaki hasn't been the same without Haruhi and I've only felt like half a person. But there was something still upsetting our groups balance and this tension came from Tamaki, Haruhi and Hikaru.

The look in Hikaru's eyes is one I recognise from the time we've spend together: jealousy and anger. Directed at the snuggling couple next to him, usually with this look on his face he would burst and shout but he is sat that there brooding and that scared me. I had always known him to have feelings for Haruhi but never has he looked so fierce about it. It's then I noticed his hand secretly clutched to Haruhi's, tucked away out of sight, and the pieces start to come together.

"You okay." The concern is laced in there loud and clear.

He answered honestly "No."

I give him the 'go on' stare.

"Tell you later." And with that he ignored any more questions related to his behaviour. So I gave up and just concentrated on the film.

"I love that film!" Exclaimed Honey as the ending credits roll. "So what's next?"

But we all already know, Tamaki's favourite movie which he insisted on watching every time we held a movie night, but it was tradition and he's the boss. So he slid in Phantom of the Opera and we all got ready for him to bring out the tissues and cry, as he did every time. By now I'd seen the film so much that I usually fell asleep half way through, but today I almost feel sorry for the phantom. And I think of Ami, so far I've tried to keep my mind off her but something just brings it back. Anything from the soppy film to the shouts of a little girl to a laugh that sounds a bit like hers. And it was frustrating.

The thoughts seem to stop any hopes of sleep, so as I heard the sobs of Tamaki draw to an end I decided to put on a final film, something that'll have nothing to do with Ami. Ahhhh… Final Destination 3 should work. I disentangled myself from Hikaru and the opening music can be softly heard. I took a quick scan round the room and checked to see who's awake; Honey and the dark lord are the only two asleep and it was pretty comical listening to Kyoya of all people snore.

In the end I drift off to sleep with the images of girls exploding in sunbeds somewhere at the back of my mind. Most importantly though I'm next to the person I couldn't live without.