My foe's foe is my friend
Disclaimer: I can't think of anything to write… Well, not mine.
Note: I'm a maths-looser… Ok I'm a bit depressive and I'll do something really horrible now, no not exactly, Sarah will do it. I wanted her to do it in the last chapter already … but well just read it! Hope you enjoy!
Sorry it took so long to update this time!
Chapter 6 – A really horrible thing to say
Lily, Lynn, Anne and Mary had decided that their friend was love sick. They also had decided that fresh air was the best thing to cure love. Sarah didn't care much. She didn't care about anything at the moment. She knew her friends had figured out she had argued with Sirius. Even if it wasn't for the reason they thought it was.
So Sarah allowed them pull her down to the lake. It was a Saturday a very sunny, warm day. The girls gossiped happily but Sarah didn't listen. Her mind was blank, she wasn't thinking at all. Everything was so confusing.
Sarah didn't even notice Remus and James had joined them. She was busy staring into the lake. Maybe I should drown myself.
Mary elbowed her gently. "Look!" she whispered in her ear.
Sarah looked up and had to smile, something she hadn't done often in the last days. Lily was laughing, actually laughing at one of James' jokes. She was for once not screaming or glaring at him but eyeing him with a most curious expression. As if she wasn't quite sure what to think.
"Let's have a bet!" Mary giggled. "I say they'll be dating by next month."
"Ok." Sarah agreed. "I say it's going to take two months at least. What happens if I loose?"
"Let's say the looser has to kiss a fire crap." Lynn joined the conversation. "I say two weeks!"
"Two weeks? Never going to happen!" Sarah laughed.
"No risk no fun!" Lynn said wisely. "What's about you, Anne? Want to join?"
But Anne didn't reply, because her mouth was blocked by Remus' tongue.
Sarah felt as if someone had punched her in the stomach. All her good temper was gone. Why had she agreed to join them? She wanted to be alone, just alone!
Anne and Remus broke apart and started flirting. This did hurt Sarah even more. She caught phrases like "most wonderful person I've ever met" and "most important person in my life"
Sirius' plan wasn't working. No sign of jealousy, none at all.
"I can't believe you're still with Remus, Anne!" It had slipped out. She was so angry.
"Why?" Anne was a bit puzzled.
"Well, he is kind of boring and compared to Sirius not what you'd call handsome!" Sarah said coolly. Anne stood up, a bit red in the face.
"Maybe, but at least my boyfriend isn't snogging other girls or…"
"Calm down you two!" Remus interrupted them. "Anne, don't mind her. Sarah is in love and it's only natural she thinks her boyfriend is better than me. We're all friends, remember?" He added with a small smile.
"No not really. Sirius had always been my favourite marauder!" Sarah said with an icy voice. Why am I saying all this? Remus calmness had enraged her even more.
Everyone else stopped talking watching them tensely. Even James stooped looking at Lily giving Sarah and Remus his full attention. Nobody could believe their ears; Sarah had always preferred Sirius? No way!
Remus looked unsure. "I thought we were friends." He said. "You always said I was your favourite marauder!"
It had started to rain. No one cared or noticed.
"I had to think of something! You hadn't let me copy your home work otherwise, had you?" Sarah snapped. She wasn't really thinking. The words flooded out. All she cared about was insulting Remus. Hurting him!
Remus stared at her in disbelieve. Nobody dared say anything.
"I thought we were friends." He said again, his voice was shaking slightly.
"Friends?" Sarah shrieked loosing her sense completely. "Who wants to be friends with you? You are a freak, a … a werewolf!"
Sarah instantly knew she had crossed a line. She wanted to say sorry, but she was like petrified. Petrified by her own horrible words. No I haven't said this! No, Remus! I love you!
Remus gave her one last hurt glance and turned, running away in the direction of the forest.
For one moment everything was silent. Only the rain was falling heavily. Everyone was shocked. Then Anne screamed "Remus" and ran away after him.
"How could you!" Mary shouted at Sarah, but Sarah couldn't say anything. Mary grabbed Lynn by the arm and stormed past her back towards the castle.
James and Lily still stood there.
"Lily" Sarah croaked. "Lily I…"
"This was a really horrible thing to say!" Lily cut through her glaring at her friend in disgust. It broke Sarah's heart. Lily hated her. Everyone hated her.
"I think we aren't friends anymore!" Lily said finally and without giving her a further look she took James' hand and they followed Mary and Lynn.
Sarah still couldn't move. All her friends loathed her and she knew she deserved it. It all was her fault. My fault! She had had his friendship, but she had wanted more! And now she had nothing but a broken hard.
Tears streamed down her face and mixed with rain. Sarah started to run. Just ran away! Coward! I'm a coward. I always ran away. No worthy Gryffindor!
She didn't know where she was heading to. Blinded by tears she didn't realise anything but the pain. The pain of loosing the two most important persons in her life.
BANG!
Sarah fell into the mud, she had run into someone. She didn't think of standing up. I'm already dirty… inside!
"Sarah? Sorry, I was at Hagrid's, didn't see you coming." It was a very familiar voice. "Are you alright?" Sirius asked in concern. "Come on, I'll help you up!"
"No" Sarah whispered. "Go away!"
"Are you crying?" Sirius asked frowning. Sarah didn't answer. Suddenly she felt strong arms pulling her up into a standing position. Soft hands touched her face lifting it. Sarah met a pair of grey eyes piercing hers worried.
"What happened?" Sirius asked seriously.
"I did… I said…" Sarah couldn't continue, she burst into tears.
Sirius wrapped his arms securely around her, pressing her body tight to his. Sarah sobbed into Sirius' shoulder while he stroked her wet hair.
Sarah stared at the blank blackboard of the empty classroom. Sirius locked the classroom door with his wand.
"You hate me, too, now." She said hoarsely, now looking at her muddy hands. She had told Sirius everything, he had found out anyway. She wanted to show one sign of bravery.
"No I don't." Sirius said firmly. "I know why you said all this. Jealousy is destroying everything. Believe me, I feel the same sometimes… I've made the same mistake."
"Anne? What did you say to her?" Sarah asked.
Sirius smiled weekly. "I'm not talking about Anne, I'm talking about you!"
"Me? I don't understand…" She said puzzled.
"I never loved Anne, I loved you…I do still! I could never hate you."
No. This wasn't possible, it didn't make sense.
"You always teased me. You can't be… you've never been nice to me…" she stumbled.
"This is what I was talking about! I made the same mistake as you. When I noticed you had fallen for Lupin, I went mad. I used the possibility to get you. I had never asked you out, you hated me. I was a coward. It is easy to ask girls out if you don't really like them. You are different. This Remus/Anne relation was my chance. The day I kissed you… it wasn't to make Anne jealous, I was jealous because I saw you admiring Remus. I used you. I'm sorry. You should hate me!"
Sarah was petrified again. No. No. No, no, no! All the feelings for Anne, just pretence?
"I think you want to slap me?" Sirius asked nervously. "Feel free."
He stepped towards her. She reached out her hand and instead of slapping him she pulled his face closer to hers and kissed him.
Sirius kissed back. Not fiercely like last time. Gently.
Sarah stopped worrying about the things which had happened by the lake. The only things she worried about was getting rid of the muddy and wet cloths and the only thought she had was Lying on school tables is very uncomfortable indeed.
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