My foe's foe is my friend
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Note: I don't know how long it'll take to finish this story… Maybe I'll write 2 more chaps, maybe 6 … Just review and tell me what you think!
Chapter 7 – A terrible mistake
Sarah woke up late the next day. "Morning girls" she mumbled. Nobody replied, because nobody was there to reply. Why have they left without me?
And than the horrible memory of the last day came back to her. Oh no!
Sarah dressed up quickly and tried to decide who she should talk to first. Lily or Remus? She chose Lily. Lily was never angry for long and she would also know what to do about Remus. Remus… she really liked him but now she really liked Sirius as well. There was no point denying that Sirius was the only one she could have, but still she would have given everything to have Remus friendship back.
Speaking to Lily was … impossible. Everyone avoided her. Everyone except Sirius. Anne was even worse than the rest; she started talking to Peter in a very load voice when she joined the Gryffindor table at breakfast, insulting her.
Sarah ignored it. After all she deserved it. Remus was nowhere to be seen. It was obvious he was avoiding her to.
"Where is Remus?" Sarah inquired.
"Hiding. He isn't exactly keen on meeting you." Sirius shrugged.
"I figured that one out, thank you!" Sarah sighed. "I really need to talk to him. I've to apologize, to explain."
"D' you … Do you still love him?" Sirius asked unsure.
Sarah groaned. She didn't want to answer this question. She knew if she would tell him the truth he would be upset. She didn't know the truth herself, to be honest.
Sirius however seemed to read the answer in her eyes.
"Are you going to tell me that you weren't yourself when… last night, or something? It's ok with me!" he said but it didn't sound as if it was ok at all.
"No!" Sarah said hastily. "I … I don't want to say this"
She tried to kiss him but he pushed her away.
"Don't!" Sirius whispered. "Don't lie to yourself, don't lie to me. You'll just hurt us both!"
Sarah stepped back. Her eyes filled with tears again. Not Sirius too! Why does he do this now
"I need you, Sirius! Please, don't leave me alone. I really like you!" She sobbed, turned and ran away.
Sarah ripped another letter in half. It was after midnight and she was the only one still awake. She had made a decision. If Remus didn't want to talk she had to write him a letter. Several attempts were already lying at her feet.
They were all like:
I'm so sorry. I said a lot of really horrible things and I don't expect that you forgive me.
I said all this out of jealousy. I love you.
The relationship with Sirius was only pretence. I only love you. Sorry.
I know you can't accept my apology, but I did all this because you are the most important person in my life.
I have to confess: I don't like Sirius at all... I love you! …I tried to destroy your relationship with Anne. I'm so sorry.
Sarah gave up. She couldn't find the right words. How can someone explain this in a letter? She had to talk to him in person! And if I have to use a full-body-bind-curse on him, I'll do it!
She picked up her letters, threw them into the dustbin and climbed up the stairs to the girls' dormitory.
Sarah had made a terrible mistake without noticing. At Hogwarts there is an important rule: If you want to get rid of a letter forever, burn it!
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When Sarah awoke the next day, she wasn't surprised the others had left already. They still hated her. She fought her tears and dressed. Remus wouldn't skip a lesson. Their first lesson was Transfiguration. She would talk to him right before.
The moment Sarah entered the Great Hall the students started whispering and pointing. She was confused. What's up now? I thought they started getting used to me dating Sirius.
She was even more confused when Lily got up from her seat and walked straight towards her.
Lily grabbed Sarah's arm and asked quietly: "Is it true? And don't dare lie to me!"
"What? What is supposed to be true?" Sarah asked completely puzzled.
"What Rita says and…. Didn't you see?" Lily gasped suddenly.
"See what?" Sarah was getting a bit impatient. What was this all about?
"C'mon I show you…" Lily hissed and walked out of the Great Hall.
"Why are you talking to me again, anyway?" Sarah asked.
"I had to know" Lily said a bit trembling. This is not a very helpful answer. "Look!"
And than Sarah saw it: In the Entrance Hall, opposite the marble staircase someone had written in red ink the huge letters: SARAH HARRIS IS A BITCH!
Sarah was stunned. Who did this? And why?
"Rita Skeeter told us all this morning that you tried to destroy Remus and Anne' s relation out of jealousy and that you just fooled around with Sirius." Lily said in a rush.
How… The letters! Oh no! Rita must have found them. I …
"I am going to kill her!" Sarah screamed out her last thought. "But firstly I've to talk to Sirius and Remus." She added and left Lily staring after her in confusion.
"Sirius!" Sarah called. "Sirius wait!"
Sirius however didn't bother to wait; he just walked a bit quicker.
Levicorpus!
"Argh! Are you mad? Let me down!" Sirius dangled from the sealing shouting at her.
She let him down and pushed him while he was still confused into an empty passage way.
"Listen to me, please!" Sarah cried.
"No!" he snapped. "You listen!" and he pulled a letter out of his pocket. Sarah's heart sank as she read the words "I have to confess: I don't Sirius at all…. I love you! I tried to destroy your relationship with Anne. I'm so sorry."
"Rita gave to me! It's your handwriting… I know Rita fancies me and just did it to make me leave you, but … You wrote it!" He shouted.
"I never mend to send it!" Sarah groaned. "I threw away these letters! I didn't mean what I wrote."
"I thought you mend what you said yesterday. "
"I did."
Sirius said nothing but made a funny noise.
"Are you crying?" Sarah asked unsure.
"No!" Sirius croaked angrily. "Just… clear off!" He's lying. Sirius Black cries because of me.
It made Sarah revolt herself. What had she done? She couldn't stand Sirius hating her too, because …. because she loved him, too? The truth hit her like a Fanged-Frisbee.
"Yesterday I said I like you. You are right, I lied. I don't like you, I love you! I just needed time to notice." Sarah whispered. She wasn't sure he had heard her. She waited for a moment longer and turned to go. A hand held her back. He dares…
"Now I realise what I've done to all these girls." Sirius whispered. "I… Thanks for showing me what being in love really means."
He tried to pull his hand away again but Sarah didn't let go.
No, I thank you." She mumbled.
"For what?"
"For loving me."
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I didn't like the chapter very much… Don't know why.
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