After a heated discussion with my mother, I sit on the bed staring out of the window, seconds, turned to minutes, minutes turned to an hour, before I was snapped out of it by a friendly bark from Diego. -Lexi?- I hear coming from downstairs, a familiar voice: Lauren. -I'm upstairs Lo- I shout down to her.

Lauren comes up the stairs, baring flowers and chocolates for me. She drops a soft kiss to my cheek. -I never congratulated you properly when I saw you the other day, so I thought I'd swing by quickly before going out withBo- She says, the grin on her face widening as she said Bo's name. I smile softly, knowing how much my sister means to her. -I'm glad you two are working through your difficulties Lo- She glances at me, the love in her eyes clear to see.

Lauren takes a seat next to me. -May I?- She asks indicating to my bump. I nod my head softly with a slight smile. Her hand gently connects to the bump, she slowly moves her hand, soon she was met my a light kick from one of the twins. Her face sharply turns to meet mine with a massive grin. -Lexi! They kick!- I joke around by following her words with -No shit, I felt it first- We both chuckle away.

I sigh, looking at Lauren. -Thanks Lo, I kind of needed this type of distraction.- I smile as she smiles warmly at me, wrapping her arms around me, being careful around the bump. -You're welcome Lexi. We may have had our differences in the past, but that's behind us now- I didn't quite know how to respond to those words, knowing it's currently what everyone thinks is happening between me and Tia. So I just quietly nod it off on her shoulder.

She takes a vase and arranges my flowers in them, placing them on the window. She turns and looks back at me, were I was just staring into space again. She kneels in front of me, placing her hands to my knees. -Lexi? Lex?- She says snapping her fingers of the one hand. -huh?- I come round to, not knowing if she had talked to me more than my name. -Sorry Lo, I was out of it.- I say shrugging my shoulders. She brings her hand to cup my face, kisses my forehead as she brushed my hair behind my ears gently. -I won't make you tell me anything Lexi, but you know where I am should you need my assistance with anything, all I want to know is, when was the last time you slept?- She asks, a curious look plastered on her face. -I couldn't actually tell you, I have has an hour, here and there with Diego, but nothing like I need. I just can't sleep.- I sigh softly.

-It's to do withFaith I'm guessing?- She says stroking my hair, secretly trying to check my temperature. -Is it that obvious, but yeah, I miss her, and I've never slept properly when she's not her. And, I kind of argued with mom earlier.- Before Lo got to answer I blurt out -She doesn't understand, it's not me! I'm not selfish or jealous. I'm not!- Lauren's face looks shocked at my sudden blurting.

-Lexi, sweetie, I don't think this is something for me to be involved in. I think you need to get some rest, maybe try talking to your mom another time, it's not easy for either of you, you may be upset and all other kinds of emotions, I couldn't even begin to understand. But she has to watch you, and for a mother, sweetie, that's tough.- She looks at her watch. -Sweetie, I have to go. But if you need anything at all, please ring me. Me and Bo will come straight here. I promise- I nod my head acknowledging her words. -Thanks Lo it means a lot- She kisses my head gently. -I'll let myself out, lay down, feet, up, rest, Doctor's orders.- She says walking out of my bedroom door.

As instructed I put my legs up on the bed, laying on my left side, stroking my tummy, cuddling up to Faith's pillow that I lay down in front of me, putting my head partly on it as if it were her chest, nuzzling myself in, but still unable to drop off into a decent sleep, that I desperately need.