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I felt my blood boil almost instantly at the sight of Jacob standing in front of me, resting his back carelessly against a tree trunk as if he was trying to show me I was I no opponent at all.
"But I didn't do it, so you have no right to do anything Jacob" I answered as politely as I could although it came out in a highly ironic tone.
"Says who? I don't' see anyone around?" I could notice the muscles of his arms visibly shaking. It was obvious he was angry at the fact his name had just rolled out of my tongue.
"Come on, you have more brains than this" I spat rolling my eyes and crossing my arms in front of my chest in a careless attitude "If you make a move you're dead"
The truth was I was terrified. I knew I was strong and I had a large amount of confidence in myself but I knew that if I started a fight with the boy in front of me, I'll most probably be ripped into shreds. I had seen him fight before and his skills were unbelievable besides, my size didn't helped me against him at all
"I wouldn't be too sure of that bloodsucker" He snapped back making my attention return to him. His hands were now in fists and I knew it wouldn't be long before he transformed.
"If you think I will stay and listen to insults, I won't. But at least I tried my best to be reasonable" I said turning my back to him and starting to walk away.
It was then when I felt his iron grip on my arm. He pulled me back, whirling me around to face him in the process. I could feel the heat of his hand against my deathly cold flesh and, for a second, I felt human. My eyes stared at him in question. Why wasn't he attacking me now?
"Don't" He said after a few minutes of silence "I need you to tell Bella something" Jacob added his voice much softer than before the same as his facial expression.
"Right" I answered shortly feeling how his hand left my arm leaving me in the absolute cold again.
"Tell her that I" Jake's voice broke.
I noticed his stance now, his hands were not longer in fists, his arms not longer shaking. His bright eyes held so much sorrow as he mentioned Bella's name. For a moment he was completely vulnerable in my eyes. If I wasn't more civilized I could have easily taken this moment to attack and I was sure I would have won. I began wondering what would Bella think if she was here with me, if she saw the expression on his face.
"Tell her that I still…" he started again. I could easily see the strength he was using to put words together and I have to admit it pained me even though he was the enemy "Just tell her to stay safe okay?"
I took a deep breath and nodded
"I will"
I turned around again not exactly sure of what had just happened. They had always told me it was impossible for a vampire and a werewolf to stand in the same ground without feeling loath for each other and now here we were, talking as if all the differences were forgotten even for a small fraction of a second.
"Alice" I heard his voice call out making me stop on my tracks and turn to look at his imposing figure once again. My eyes wide in surprise, he had just called me by my name "I never thought I'll say this but…thanks"
"Yes" I said before walking away.
I could sense his eyes on my back as I walked away from his eyesight . The odds of Jacob and I ripping each other to shreds had been pretty high and still, it didn't happen. My eyes remained closed for a while as my feet led me back home only stopping due to the necessity to satiate my thirst. A strange feeling traveled across my body as I resumed my walk, longing, I was longing for something but I was too afraid to admit to myself what it was. Suddenly I started to feel my skin grow colder, colder than before. I thought I had already gotten used to the temperature but now, after I had held contact with the warmness of a touch, his touch…
I forced myself to stop thinking about that moment when I felt human, when I was certain I had begun to breathe, when my skin recognized heat after god knows how many years. Repeating myself over and over again that this was nonsense and it was all in my head, I arrived home. I knew I would have to shake this thoughts away before I crossed the door otherwise Edward would be able to know, and I was certain his reaction was going to be far from comprehensible. Finally, I crossed the door only to see Emmet and Rosalie sitting in the living room, they fingers entwined as they talked about something with high enthusiasm. Both of them turned as soon as they heard the door open and gave me a warm smile, no, it wasn't warm, nothing would feel warm for me again after…
"How did the walk went?" Edward asked as he appeared downstairs, his voice exuded pure interest and I assumed it was due to the surprise I showed when I heard his voice.
"Uneventful…I caught a rabbit" I joked with a shrug trying to keep my thoughts on the poor creature I had eaten a few seconds ago. He couldn't know, he wasn't going to find out.
I noticed Edward raise an eyebrow quizzically and I felt the necessity of slapping myself at that very moment. He had just heard I was keeping something from him and now he wasn't going to let it go. I was sure of it. I tried hard to keep all thoughts of my encounter with the werewolf out of my head, I didn't knew if it was because of Edward or because I found myself in pain every time I remembered his expression as he mentioned Bella's name…so vulnerable.
"Have you seen Bella?" I blurted out before Edward had a chance to ask anything about my secret.
"Yes, actually I just left her home a few seconds ago"
"You think Charlie would mind if I go see her?" I asked although I had already decided I would go.
I heard Edward chuckle.
"Why do you even ask? You are going anyways" he said with a smirk on his face.
"You know I can't take you invading my privacy in that shameless way" I half joked placing my hands on my hips and giving him a deathly glare although it was pretty obvious I looked anything but menacing to him.
"I promise I try not to"
Edward raised his hand as if he was about to pledge. I simply stared at him letting him know I knew he wasn't being honest.
"Oh just go Alice" he said with a small laugh before he went upstairs again.
I followed upstairs knowing I should do something for my appearance before I went to visit Bella. It didn't matter the size of the animal, I always looked like a mess after hunting. After taking some new clothes from my closet I went to take a bath. Actually, taking a bath was not soothing at all for us, we couldn't' even feel the hot water on our skin, but it was a necessity. I took as little time as possible, I felt depressed standing there and feeling the water cooling down as soon as it hit my skin. What would have Jacob felt when he touched my arm? Shivers? I shook my head hard from side to side, I couldn't honestly be thinking about this. Even the small of werewolves resulted revolting to me and now here I was, thinking about his touch.
Time flew rapidly and I found myself at Bella's door again trying my best to look calmed. How long would I be able to pull this charade? First I had to hide the fact that Jasper's memory wounded me, since this afternoon, something else was there. A feeling of guilt hit me suddenly, Jasper, he was trying so hard to be better, to succeed and all because of me. Before he had gone away he had told me he was going to try hard to control his emotions, for me, because he didn't wanted me to be worried. I was sure I was in his mind, if he only knew he wasn't in mine.
"Alice! Come in" Charlie's voice shook me out of my thoughts
"Hello Mr. Swann, is Bella here?" I asked pretending my talk with Edward had never happened.
"Yes she is. Take a seat, she'll be down in a minute"
I did as told and sat down in the large brown couch in the living room. My eyes focused on the TV, a baseball game was on. A smile crept over my face as I though how boring this baseball seemed in comparison to the one I played with my brothers on the woods, humans would be ecstatic if they saw us play. It was either that or they would be terrified. I swallowed hard at the though, I hated that humans ran away from us, that they created scary stories about us. I didn't wanted to be a monster but it was too late, I was one already.
"Alice! What are you doing here?" Bella's surprised voice reached my ears.
I smiled. An honest smile for the first time in two weeks.
"Do I need a reason to visit my friends?" I asked standing up and hugging her tightly.
"Alice, can't, breathe" Bella said between gasps making me jump away immediately with an apologetically look on my face.
"Sorry about that"
"Don't worry. Now, honestly, what is it?" Bella asked as we both sat on the couch
"Well, first you need to promise you won't tell this to anyone, specially to Edward cause I don't want to get into trouble okay?" I stated firmly as my eyes examined hers "And believe me, I will know if you decide to do it"
"Sure, I'm a tombstone"
"Right" I started trying hard to relax.
I didn't knew why I was so nervous in the first place, I was simply delivering a message. Thing was, the message brought me back to the moment, the meeting, his touch…
"I saw Jacob today. I found him as I was walking near La Push border"
I could notice the surprise and fear in Bella's eyes. She was simply too expressive.
"Don't worry, as you can see I am okay and Jacob is okay as well. He just told me to tell you to stay safe, but it seemed like he wanted to say something else"
"Oh, I will call him later" Bella said still in shock "But how was he? was he okay? Please tell me everything Alice"
"He seemed fine, I guess he just misses you" I lied with a convincing look in my eyes.
I was surprised when I felt Bella's arms around me.
"Thank you for letting me know this Alice, I promise I won't tell"
A new week ran passed me as a hurricane. I went to school and talked to Bella and the rest but still, things weren't the same and it was starting to show. I can't tell exactly how many I had been asked if there was something wrong with me and I had to lie and say I missed Jasper. Well, I did missed him immensely, but that wasn't the thing that was bothering me. His face was still in my mind, every time I closed my eyes I saw him and I cursed myself for not being able to shove him away. Whenever someone mentioned his name my mind flew to that afternoon in the woods, the husky sound of his voice, the gentle and extremely warn touch of his hand. Whatever was happening to me I knew it was wrong, I was not supposed to feel this way, I was supposed to writhe in anger every time I though about the werewolf. This was all wrong.
"We are having a bonfire tomorrow by the beach, want to come?" Angela asked smiling at me.
It was obvious she wanted me to distract myself for whatever was making me ask strange.
"Oh…I would love to but I don't think I can" I apologized giving out a weak smile.
My eyes looked at Bella silently pleading for help.
"I was going to…help Bella with some homework"
Bella nodded.
"Yes, I really need help with the literature assignment" Bella followed my game.
What I felt when Angela mentioned the beach was beyond description. I was eager to go, to watch the sea, to feel the sand. Of course there was also the fact that I knew he would be there. This was slowly turning into an obsession and I could feel it. It was amazing how this didn't happened before, the first time I saw him at Bella's. His touch had been the trigger for my emotions to overflow and now I simply knew everything was about to spiral down sooner or later.
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