A/N: I know this chapter is quite short but I consider it as a filler soo..please review so that I can keep updating regularly.
As days passed, the feeling of emptiness within me became stronger. I wanted to turn back time, to relive that day in the forest and find a way to keep his hand in my arm a while longer. If that had happened, maybe by now I would have an idea of what I was feeling. A groan escaped my lips as I lounged on the large couch in the living room. I placed my arm on top of my eyes trying to block the day light that crept through a small crack in the closed shatters. I would give the world to have a vision, only one vision that would keep my mind away from him. Worst past was, I couldn't even bring his face to my mind whenever I felt like it. Whenever I felt Edward was near I had to force my mind into something. Up to now I had recited the book of genesis in Latin more than times than I can keep count of.
"Hard isn't it?" I felt Rosalie's voice coming from besides me.
I opened my eyes only to see her sitting on the couch's arm. Her eyes looking at me with a mixture of pity and sympathy, and I hated it.
"What do you mean?" I asked right away, a part of me scared she knew more than I gave her credit for.
"Jasper" Rosalie said softly as her hand began combing through my short hair.
I gave out a sight. She knew nothing.
"Yes it's...it's been hard. I haven't had a vision of him in about a month now. I am worried"
"I am sure he is fine Alice, Tanya would have called otherwise"
"You are right, I think I just need some fresh air" I muttered as I stood up
"I bet" Rosalie smiled as she got up as well "Just listen Alice, I know I am not the easiest person to talk to but, I'm here, I'm your sister and...Feel free to talk to me okay?"
I simply nodded before I turned away and walked out the door. I can't explain how guilty I could felt for hating her sympathy a few minutes ago. Rosalie had always been the closed type, never talked much unless it was to give some deeply sarcastic comment but now, she had acted like a true sister. Against all odds, I could feel concern in her voice, she was truly worried and it instantly made me think she might know something I wasn't aware off.
Another jolt of guilt ran down my spine when I found myself in the same spot I had been visiting throughout the week, the border. A part of me simply enjoyed the way it seemed as if my heart was going to suddenly start beating every time I stood there, in the border. The same mixture of danger and expectancy washed over me. I was waiting for him and wasn't it obvious? The real question was why? Not why I was here but why, after two weeks, I was still imagining that he might, somehow, show up again. He knew I was here, they knew I was here, but no one seemed to bother anymore. I assumed I was considered a threat any loner and I wasn't sure if I was happy about that.
After a few minutes I found myself sitting on the grass, my eyes closed and my face turned up to the sky. I was glad the treetops were acting as shade avoiding my skin to glitter. It was a large thud sound coming from in front of me what made me open my eyes and turn my head down.
There he was.
The same stance he had held last time we saw each other. His arms crossed in front of his chest, his brown eyes staring right through me. I could instantly notice there was something missing, the loath, it wasn't there anymore and, if it was, he was doing a pretty good job hiding it. I was the first to speak.
"I gave Bella your message. She said she was going to call you"
"She did" Jacob answered with a shrug "I didn't answer though"
I had to force my jaw closed.
"What? I thought you two were done fighting. You dogs are so territorial" I scoffed getting up.
"She is going to marry Edward and there is nothing you can do about it so, if you ask me, this fight is stupid"
I kept asking me why was I acting the way I was but there was only one answer and it couldn't be the right one. I wasn't jealous, no.
"I don't need your opinion Alice" He snapped
I wanted to stay longer, as a matter of fact I wanted to stay there forever but every second I spent next to him only made me sink lower. I don't think anyone would have any idea of how much self-control I needed to remain still. I thought self-control was supposed to come easy for me; I was a vegetarian after all. But the urges I had at the moment were harder to resist than any I had felt before. My craving for blood was nothing compared to this.
"Backing up leech?" Jacob said behind me. I could even feel his smirk.
"Want me to stay a little longer?"
I was surprised to hear that phrase escape my lips. It had been amongst the boldest things I had said. It was a clear sort of teasing and I knew the look into my eyes only made it worst.
It amazes me how simple words can be the trigger of all sort of events. One second my eyes met his and the next I was in his arms again. It was much different to the time when he had asked me to give the message to Bella. I felt heat in my skin, so tempting. My feet remained at my side of the line as well as his remained at his side. It was an odd Romeo and Juliet representation. Everything in my mind shut down at the very second I felt his lips on mine. I had no control over my actions and it seemed to me neither did he. His hands rested at the small of my back only bringing me closer to him but it wasn't close enough for me.
I have had a taste of the forbidden and now, it wasn't enough.
A/N: This happened really quick but that is the way it's supposed to be. I promised there will explanations for Jacob's behavior on the next chapter. The same as more details coming from Alice's POV.
