AN: Thanks to everyone who was supportive of the last chapter! :)
Please though, no swearing at me in PM's or I'll report you. I've seriously had enough!
I know I'm skipping time slots in this story, but as soon as Flynn is 6 months I'll stop.
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We've lived in Chicago over 3 months now. Rocky and I got into Shake It Up Chicago! I'm really happy, but I really don't want to leave Flynn. He's such a momma's boy and he'll be confused when I'm not around in the week. I can imagine him now, squealing and refusing Georgia's comfort. What type of mother am I to leave my baby alone?
I sat on the couch, head in my arms, just worrying about leaving Flynn, who was with Georgia who was grocery shopping. Flynn hasn't been sleeping, as if he can sense that I'm still lying awake. I've had a rough last few nights with him, feeding at all hours of the night and trying to comfort the four month old boy. Georgia offered to take him a bit today so that I could rest and pack for school, I was leaving tomorrow.
I was also worrying that I was going to leave Flynn unprotected from my dad, who may have been in jail but was very smart!
I really believed I had lost all the baby weight, but some girls at school made fun at me for having a big stomach and it was starting to bother me.

" Hey hey hey! " Rocky chirped as she climbed through the window.
" Hi, " I greeted her half-heartedly.
" Why so glum? " she asked concerned, sitting down next to me slowly.
" No reason, " I said.
She raised her eyebrows, " You can tell me anything you know. "
" Just worrying, " I sighed.
" About, " she asked concerned, wriggling closer to me.
" Flynn, my dad, my weight, " I whispered embarrassed.
She looked at me sympathetically. She didn't know anything except that I was a psychological mess and that I had been separated from my father for some reason. " Flynn will be fine on his own with Georgia, and why would you worry about your weight? Your beautiful Cece. "
" I have a fat stomach, some of the girls at John Hughes teased me about it. "

She pulled up my shirt to see if there was anything to tease about. " Cece you have nothing to worry about . It's just a little baby fat, you'll grow out if it. "
My senses all shot out! " Baby fat? "
" Yeah, " shrugged Rocky. " Kids are chubbier and when you hit puberty it wears off. Though you seem to have your puberty order mixed up! I mean, you're suppose to, you know, grow breasts, after you loose your baby fat. "
I giggled. Oh I have lost all my, or her version at least, baby fat and my breasts are only, well, large, because when I was pregnant they grew so Flynn would be able to suckle from them.
" I mean, how can you be so petite but so, large. What size bra are you? "
I blushed embarrassed.
" Well, uh, I'm not exactly sure, " I lied through my teeth. " Anyway, let's change the, uncomfortable, topic. You excited for tomorrow? "
" Yeah! " Rocky replied, her face lighting up like a Christmas tree. " A whole week away from my annoying brother! What about you? "
" I guess, just really worried about Flynn. "
" Once you're settled in you won't even miss him. "
" That's what I'm worried about! What if he stops missing me? "
" He's a baby, he won't know any better. "
" He misses his mom, he's a momma's boy. "
" Where is his mom? "
" I can't, no more, okay? "
Rocky looked disappointed but understanding, grabbing me a blanket and some ice cream, putting her arm comfortingly around my shoulder while we watched a kid movie.

I woke up in my bed, not sure how I got there.
I turned over to check on Flynn, to see him lying on his back, wide eyed and bushy tailed, his little arms reaching in the air looking for a cuddle. I hadn't seen to him ALL night!
" Hey there mommy's big boy, " I cooed, lifting him up into my arms.

Georgia walked in, smiling at me proudly. " You're such a good mom Ce. "
" Thanks Georgia, " I smiled up at her. " I'm sorry about last night and that I'm leaving. "
" Cece, it's alright. You didn't ask for any of this, you're only thirteen and it wouldn't be fair to expect you to always be there for Flynn, especially at night. You'd be so exhausted. "
" I don't care, I feel so bad that I'm leaving my baby! "
I started crying and Flynn looked up at me confused. I could only see his father in him, which made me bawl more.
Georgia took Flynn from me, placing him in his crib. As soon as she did I dropped to the floor and started uncontrollably crying. Georgia kneeled beside me and gave me a big motherly hug.
" I'm not ready for this whole parenting thing, " I whimpered.
" No one ever is, " Georgia explained sighing. " Being thirteen and unwillingly a mother was never going to be easy. You're a natural though and Flynn adores you! "
" What if he forgets me? Or I miss his first words or steps? Or his first birthday? "
" Shhhh, ssssh, " Georgia tried to calm me down. " I'll videotape everything. "
I smiled at her, " Thanks. "

It has been a month since I started at the school. Rocky and I have been super busy! I have refused to go anywhere on the weekends and spent the whole weekend with Flynn. Rocky still can't understand that, but that's her problem.

Georgia had me skype my psychologist twice a week. I hadn't made much progress and the shrink called me a lost cause when on the phone to Georgia. I guess I was, but Flynn kept me from doing anything I'd regret. Rocky was a great friend too, I guess I should tell her sometime, open up to her. She's the only one who I could see myself opening up to. When I was ready or when I felt I really should I would open up to her.
I lay in my bed cuddling with Flynn, keeping the small boy close. I missed him so much during the week that I spoiled him on the weekends! I always felt guilty when I left and relieved when I get back.

I was sitting with Georgia on the coach. I was sobbing into her shoulder softly. My dad had broken out of jail along with his rapist mate aka Flynn's dad.
" What am I going to do? " I asked through fits of tears.
" I don't know Ce, " Georgia replied on the verge of crying herself.
" He's going to want Flynn and I'm not here to protect my baby! "
" I'm here! If you need I'll pull you out of school for the week, I'm sure everything will be fine after that. "
" Thank you Georgia. "
She got our her cell and arranged it all and we cried a while before I went to my room to check on Flynn who was fast asleep.

I heard a knock on the window and I spun around in fright, taking a position in front of Flynn so no one could get to him, but relaxed when I saw it was Ty and Rocky.
I opened up the window, letting them in.
I put a finger to my lip and motioned that Flynn was sleeping.
I probably looked a mess, my face was rosy red from crying and my hair matted.
" You alright? " asked Rocky. " I heard crying so I came to check on you! "
" I'm okay, " I sniffed.
" Please don't lie to me, " Rocky looked upset, " you're my best friend and I hate seeing you upset! "
" It's my dad, " I replied, my voice breaking.
" You don't have to tell me then, " Rocky sighed knowingly. " Why do you share a room with Flynn? "
" I want to, " I shrugged. It wasn't exactly a lie, so Rocky couldn't get too mad at me when she found out the truth.
" I should get going, " Rocky said. " School tomorrow and all, you should get some rest as well. "
" Georgia pulled me out for this week, " I answered. She looked disappointed, but didn't question it.
" Cece, do you mind if I talk to you alone? " Ty asked.
I nodded and Rocky left.
" I heard your previous conversation with Georgia, Flynn is your baby and his father and your dad are both on the run from jail. "
I flopped onto my bed and burst out crying. I can't believe Ty knew. He'd probably tell Rocky and then my life would definitely be ruined!
Ty sat down next to me. " It's okay, I won't tell anyone, not even Rocky... "
" Thank you Ty. "
" I'm not finished! There's a plus side for me here. I won't tell, if you agree to be my pleasure slave whenever I please, deal? "
I looked at him shocked, why me? What had I done wrong? " N-n-no! "
" Okay, I'll just go tell Rocky her best friend is a slut with a 5 month son. I'm sure she won't understand and won't even hear you out! "
" Fine, " I sighed defeated. " Text me when you wish. "
" Lock the door and windows, " Ty instructed me.
" Right now? "
" YES! Get on with it! "
I locked all the door and windows, shutting the curtain. Ty forced me to the ground onto my knees and tied my hands to the back of one of the bed posts. He unbuckled his pants.
" Suck, " he said sourly.

The rest of that week I stayed at home, Ty called me at least twice a day. Georgia simply thought I'd found a friend besides Rocky and gladly babysat Flynn during those times. I felt like a prostitute and it reminded me of my dad and his friend. I was being used and I felt worthless. When Rocky returned from school she had noticed the change in my attitude. I wasn't exactly an open book, but now I had yet another complicated secret to tell her that I just couldn't. Why was everything so complicated for me? Why did I have so many secrets?

Another month passed in which I was used by Ty as often as he could get me alone. The one day he had decided to take me to a party with him, everyone thought I was just a friend he'd asked along, but about an hour into the party I ended up on my knees tied to the back of a heavy wooden chair, giving blow-jobs to Ty and 7 of his annoying, hormonal friends. Before I knew it, there's was a long line of boys paying Ty so that they could have a fixed amount of time alone with me.
Boy after boy walked into the room and I sobbed as they did. Ty stood behind me and observed everything, videotaping it for some boys who payed extra, but luckily he didn't get my face in any of the shots.
5 excruciating hour later, Ty had made a lot more than I could've imagined. My hair was knotted and my mouth aching. My knees were killing me from kneeling for so long and the rope had cut into my wrists.

When I got back to Georgia's house I immediately got into my pajamas, took Flynn from his cot and cuddled with him for the rest of the night. He was half a year old now and could say his first words anytime between now and his first birthday. Speaking of birthdays, Rocky's thirteenth was coming up and I was planning her an awesome surprise party with everything I wanted at my thirteenth birthday party but never had. My thirteenth birthday was a fail, I spent it 8 months pregnant and a social outcast because everyone thought I was a whore and a slut.
Her birthday party was going to be at her house as soon as we got back from school. I organized everything, but everyone else set it up because I couldn't be there.
We were in Georgia's car on the way back from school. There were police papers everywhere on the front seat, so we squished like sardines on the back seats with Flynn beside me in his car seat.
As we rounded the corner I texted Deuce to tell him we were 5 minutes away.

We walked up to Rocky's apartment, letting her open the door.
" Surprise! " everyone yelled.
Rocky's face was priceless, she looked like a kid who had just got exactly what they wanted for Christmas.
" Thank you so much guys! " she squealed.
Rocky and I were sitting on the barstools in her kitchen drinking sodas and chilling. I wish life was always this simple!
" So Cece, were you excited when you saw the video of Flynn? " Rocky asked me.
" What video? " I asked her confused.
" Didn't Georgia send it to you? " she asked confused. " It's of Flynn's first words! "
" Really? " I asked excitedly. " I didn't even know, let me see! "
She showed me her phone and I clicked on the video.
There was Flynn seated on the floor in our room playing with blocks. Georgia was working the camera.
" Do you want to wave for the camera Flynn? " Georgia asked him.
" Mama! " he called out in a high pitched little voice.
" Who's your mama? " Georgia asked placing the camera on the table but still filming. She said down next to Flynn.
" Mama! " he said again, reaching his hands out to Georgia, who looked uncomfortable and quickly switched of the camera.
I was on the verge of tears. " I better be going. "
I ran out the apartment and downstairs to Georgia's.
" He thinks you're his mom? " I cried when I saw Georgia.
She shifted uncomfortably in her seat. " I didn't want to you to know. I'm sorry, I've tried telling him your his mother but it's not easy to convince a 6 month old you're not his mother. "
I ran into my room, throwing all my clothes onto the floor and emptying all the cupboards. I overturned Flynn's empty cot and threw the clock out the window, glass shattering everywhere.
That was the last thing I remember before I woke up in a hospital bed. White plain walls surrounding me, draped in an ugly hospital gown.
My arms were tied in bandages and I was hooked up to machines. Why was I here?
A nurse walked in and looked at me sympathetically. " Glad to see you're awake Cecelia, I'll go get the doctor and your guardian. "
I sat in silence and thought for a few minutes. A doctor came and checked my blood pressure and heart rate, before leaving and letting Georgia in.
" Oh Cece! " exclaimed Georgia as she walked in. Her face was tear stained, red and swollen. " How are you? "
" Confused, " I admitted. " Why am I here? "
She sighed, " You slit your wrists and overdosed attempting to commit suicide because you thought you weren't a good enough mother. "
I looked up at her, " Flynn deserves a better mother than me. "
" Nonsense, " exclaimed Georgia. " I think maybe you'd feel better if you were always at home for Flynn. If you like I can talk to the school and see if they let you still do the show but go to John Hughes. "
I forced a smile up at her. " What did you tell my friends? "
" Nothing, " she replied. " Rocky's in the waiting room though and Ty says to text him when you're out. The Blues are really nice kids. "
" Rocky is, " I replied.
" And Ty? "
" My diary is in the safe in my closet. The pass code is 0923. Read it, I don't want to talk about this twice because I'm going to explain everything to Rocky. "
" You're going to finally open up? That's amazing Ce! Can I send her in? "
I nodded, " Where's Flynn? "
" Rocky's mom is babysitting, I brought him the first day, but you've been unconscious for two weeks! Rocky hasn't gone home since. Neither have I. She's probably asleep but I'll send her in if she's awake. "
" Thanks. "
I sat there waiting for a while. There's wasn't much to do here. There was no TV and it was a private room. No magazines, no cell phone and no Flynn.
The door, opened, revealing a tired but relieved Rocky.
" You scared me Ce! " she exclaimed, embracing me and sitting down on the bed.
" Hey Rockstar, " I smiled.
" Cece, I didn't do anything wrong did I? "
" Of course not! "
" Phew. "
" Wait a minute... I ruined your birthday! I can't believe I ruined my best friends thirteenth! "
" You didn't ruin my birthday Ce! You mustn't be so selfless. You put everyone before yourself, and I think it's time you let yourself just enjoy life a bit. "
" Thanks Rocky. "
" I bought you some magazines and your iPod and earphones and... "
" Rocky? "
" Yeah Cece? "
" I'm ready to tell you, everything. "
" Thanks Cece. "
" Here it goes... "
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A/N: There's my special, long and time consuming chapter I was going to split into three parts but put together for you guys. Happy New Year.
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