A/N: Hey guyz! I had a free second so I thought I'd update. Just warning you all that on Sunday the 12th I have no technological devices or access to the internet for two weeks, so don't expect any updates:(
I was a lot happier with the response from the last chapter. Thanks everyone! :)
Now for the emotional chapter that my loyal followers have been nagging me to post, thank them because otherwise my next update would probably be like 2018!
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" When I was born my dad wanted a boy, a strong one he could play rugby with. He was upset that I was a girl and angry at my mother for he thought that she was stupid for not producing a boy. He, he started to rape her, trying to get a son. When he realized my mom couldn't have kids anymore, he got really frustrated. He slit her wrists while she was sleeping, claiming she had committed suicide. He wrote a suicide note and everything. I was the same age as Flynn, so I honestly don't remember anything. "
I looked up at Rocky, who was shaking because of my story. She looked appalled and horrified. I had cried a lot over this and kept a straight poker face so not to get Rocky emotional.
" He was your average father for the first few years of my life, nothing special but you know, okay. He lost a lot of money from a business plan gone wrong and started drinking and smoking. At the time I was about 5 years old and thought, well, that all dad's did what he did. One night not long after he came home high and drunk. He, he, he.. "
" You don't have to tell me if you don't want, " Rocky assured me gently after seeing all the color fade from my already naturally pale face.
" No, I want to, " I stuttered. " He started ripping at my clothes and then at his own. He forced me into his bedroom and locked the door before I could even think. That night, at the age of merely 5 and a half, he took my virginity. Slow too. He didn't seem to care that we were related or that I was a small helpless child, it thrilled him either way and he claimed me as his own toy that night, ripping me of my childhood and confidence. It hurt like hell, it was the worst feeling you could imagine. Blood. Tears. He told me to never tell a soul about our little game, and naive innocent Cece agreed. "
Rocky lay down next to me and put her left arm gently and comfortingly around my shoulder.
" For a while there weren't any issues. He even took me to the fair when it was in town! But then, I came home from school with a note from my teacher. It made my dad very upset. It said, um, that I was dyslexic. My dad started swearing at me and then he bashed my head into the wall. There's still blood there. He told me I was useless and idiotic, completely retarded! Said I had to be severely punished to learn my lesson. After that day he would continuously rape and abuse me almost every day. I thought I deserved it for being so stupid. "
" You're not stupid Cece, " Rocky said soothingly.
" I guess not. Anyway, he lost his job when I was 10 years old and forced me to drop out of school. He needed his punching bag more often. For a month I didn't go to school, but then my dad found a job as a waiter working the morning shift and I secretly snuck off to school. It worked until just a few days before I turned 12. Dad was fired and came home early to find I wasn't home. He had a fit! He dragged me out of school, raped me, beat me senseless, raped me again and then I blacked out. The next few days leading up to my 12th birthday, he didn't hurt me once and even bought me nice moisturizers and new clothes, even though I didn't approve of the clothes because they were so sluttish and showed way to much cleavage for my liking thank you very much. On my birthday, I woke up slightly excited! I thought my dad had changed and might have even got me a gift for the first time in my life. I naively skipped into the kitchen, still in my pajamas. My dad frowned and told me to go quickly get changed because we were having a visitor. He handed me a bag and told me to wear what was in it. I went back to my room and changed, not wanting to disappoint him. I dug my hand curiously into the plain black packet. I took out an underwear ensemble. They were pink, lacy and sluttish for a 12 year old girl who was practically flag chested. I looked at the label curiously. "
" Where were they from? " Rocky asked amused, as if she were reading a fascinating book or watching a blockbuster movie.
" Victoria Secrets, " I gulped and looked up at her shocked face. " Yeah I know. So, the shirt was an extremely see through white sleeveless vest with a winking face emoticon in black and white on the stomach area. It was a v-neck that exposed the tips of the lacy pink bra. There were white shorts that were hardly shorts they were so, well , short! The shoes were white high heels and they made me look older. There was also a note in the bag telling me how to do my hair and makeup. I had to curl my hair so that it would take a hurricane to mess it up and put on so much lipstick that it would take hours to wipe it off. I was eventually ready and disguised at how much like a prostitute I looked.
I walked to the living room where my dad was sitting with another man. He was tall, I think about 6'4 , and he obviously worked out at a gym more than regularly. His hair was blonde but with a hint of brown highlights. He had dark brown cold eyes and a huge grin on his face.
My father instructed me to sit and introduced me to his friend, not telling me any names.
His friend started signing some papers and handed over a huge wad of cash to my dad. I was curious, and I only realized what was going on when I was being handcuffed and tied to the four posts of the spare room bed, my legs spread wide and my clothes scattered across the floor. He raped me, but not like how my dad used to, he raped me harder and for much, much longer. It carried on like that for 3 and a half weeks, he would visit me daily and he seemed to have a routine going. That one day though, he was too horny. He teased me and I ended up having an orgasm while he was inside me, which made him wild with delight. I was ashamed and started crying, which infuriated him. He got rid of the condom and started all over without it. I was so worried, so hurt, so angry at my dad. "
" Cece, " Rocky whispered terrified. " Are you Flynn's mom? "
I burst into tears, she joined in crying to.
" I'm so sorry Ce, " she said. " I wish I was there to help. "
" You're the best Rocky, " I sighed. " Unfortunately no one at my school were like you. I was a social outcast and lost all my friends when that little bump started to grow. When I gave birth to Flynn, I was in so much pain, I hated my dad and his friend so much right then. The nurses all looked at me funny and I didn't get any visitors. The doctor asked me who the father was, and I told him I didn't know his name and that he was a rapist. They called the police, trying to figure out who I was and who my blonde haired rapist was. Georgia was one of the officers involved in the case, she adopted me almost immediately and after my dad and his friend were arrested, we moved to Chicago. Then.. "
I was about to tell her about Ty, but I changed my mind. I was too frightened.
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