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"I'm not sure if this will work for us though," Rodimus said as he sat up facing me. "I don't think it's ever been done before."
I sat down on my knees and gave him a curious look. "Well, come on, tell!"
He thought for a moment about how to explain this to me how this worked.
"You know we have a spark, right?"
I nodded. "I can sense them."
"That could make this work after all…" he took my hand and gently pulled me onto his lap.
I had no idea what to expect so I kept my eyes fixed on his to make sure I wouldn't miss anything. It did make me feel a bit insecure.
"Don't worry, you'll like it," he put me at ease. "We – transformers- can merge our sparks and that way share our deepest most personal feelings. It's very intense."
"You can do that?" I was surprised. "Azori'jins can do that too, at least some of them. Doesn't matter if one is powerful or not, it's something you either can, or can't. Depends on how sensitive you are." I gave him a smile and softly bit my lip. "I'm very sensitive."
"Than let's find out if this works between us. Gently he pulled me closer for a tender kiss. At first I didn't feel anything unusual, but than I was overwhelmed by a 'wave' of intensive emotions that made me feel more loved and cherished as I'd ever felt before.
"Can you sense that?" he whispered.
"Oh, Rodimus, that IS intense… I had no idea you felt that way…" I was completely happily overwhelmed and lay my head against his shoulder as I enjoyed this new sensation and caressed my body against his.
I let out my own deepest feelings and emotions, hoping his spark would pick up the deepest essence of my soul. When his arms tightened around me I looked up to him.
"Can you sense me?" I asked directly in his mind.
"Oh yeah," he replied back in my mind.
We must have sat there in a loving embrace for over an hour.
"I can't remember feeling this way for like … ever," I said.
"Really?" That surprised him. "There must have been someone who noticed you, you're gorgeous for one, and funny, sweet and intelligent… and so much more. Are you sure you haven't left a heartbroken Azori'jin behind on Azoria?"
He hadn't finished his question when he suddenly felt a strong shift within my soul.
"Woooh… Did I just pulled a sensitive string there?"
"You sensed that?" I pulled myself away. I hadn't expected him to say anything that would bring up that bad memory from not even that long ago.
"Someone has hurt you… bad…"
"I really don't …" I looked away to hide the hurt look in my eyes.
When he felt I closed off my soul for him he lay his hand on my cheek and turned my face back so he could look me in the eyes.
"Please don't lock me out… You know you can trust me with anything."
I opened up to him again and leaned my forehead against his. "I can't tell you all of it… you have to see… in my memories."
I showed him how Kanaye and me had a meeting with another very powerful Azori'jin family. They told us that our parents had made an arrangement with them to give their daughter to their oldest son in marriage. To keep the peace we decided to keep the arrangement. Their family was way bigger than ours, it was just the two of us.
From there on my life changed dramatically. At first I got along fine with my new husband 'Takehiko' but slowly I found out that I was expected to be beautiful, obedient and 'produce' offspring.
I didn't feel much for that of course and made sure Takehiko knew that. I shouldn't have, cause he beat the living daylight out of me. My freedom was taken from me, I was to stay in the palace from than on.
Luckily Kanaye still had access to me so every now and than to give me some mental support. He was trying very hard to find a way out of this. And to help me to not get pregnant he gave me a tea made of specific herbs to prevent that.
When I wasn't with child after months Takehiko wasn't as friendly anymore as he had been at first. For every single reason he could find he would slap me around until after two years I'd had just enough. Kanaye helped me out of the palace, risking his life, but he couldn't watch me suffer any longer either.
"He got me a shuttle and supplies and got me off the planet. He stayed behind to make sure Takehiko didn't find out I had left the planet. I don't know what happened to him after that."
Rodimus didn't say anything for a while and just held me. I could tell my story had shocked him deeply.
"You know, if I ever get my hands on that guy…" I didn't let him finish.
"NO! You will not get your hand on him. When he shows up you make sure you get the heck out of his way!" I urged him. "He can do what I can do and he's way stronger than me! He will have fried your circuits at the first look you'll give him."
He let out a sigh. "So I cannot even protect you from your ex?"
"Well… his senses are not very well developed… he shouldn't be able to sense you. If you could use that to your advantage?"
"If he ever shows up, I will find a way to do so," he said determined.
"And … officially he's not my ex…"
"Doesn't matter." He ran his fingers through my hair. "You're with me now, and I will treat you like a princess."
I gave him a hug and let him feel how much he meant to me.
"I'm so glad I found you again. You brought my soul back to life."
His spark and my soul merged once more until I slowly fell asleep. Careful not to wake me he lay me down on my side and watched me sleep.
