Heeeeeeeeeeeey. Lol I'm so so so sorry I didn't update sooner. Like I got sidetracked with all this other stuff and I didn't even know what I was trying to do with this chapter so I basically deleted the end. Um I have a good amount of the next chapter written on my phone so I'll get to that when I can.
But thanks for being patient with me(:


Demi's Pov

"Is everything okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just kinda tired." I reply and pull the blanket over me as I shift to lay on my side.

"But you barely do anything."

"I guess I'm just tired of not being able to do anything. There's only so much you can do with a broken leg."

"Cheer up babe, you're recovering fast, you'll get the cast taken off sooner than you think." He pecks my forehead and settles down next to me.

At first I thought we were taking things too fast, but it's different with us, we already had a past, the feelings were never really gone, I think we were just pushing them away, at least I was.

I can't help but play with the ring on my finger. It's different to see something on it, I had gotten use it to it being bare, but now a promise ring is in its place. It makes me happy to know Wilmer loves me enough to get us matching rings, but it scares me at the same time.

I shouldn't be thinking about Selena so much when I'm with Wilmer. I was such a jerk to her, it still hurts me to know how bad I hurt her that day. She was crying into the phone begging me to not hang up, but I did it either way.

Everything's changed, it changed way too fast and I don't know if it's for the best or not, but there's really nothing I can do about it. I don't even know what to think anymore, I just feel so lost and confused about everything that's happened.

Jennel is gone, and it kills me to think about her. I didn't even tell her to stay, I let her walk out without putting up a fight. I completely fucked her over, she didn't deserve it. I miss her so much it hurts, I thought I'd be better off with Wilmer, but I'm not. I can't be happy with someone when someone else is occupying my thoughts.

But even if I didn't go back to Wilmer, I could have stayed with Jennel, and I'd probably be thinking about kissing Selena. It wouldn't work out right, no one would be happy.

"Babe what's wrong?"

I shake my head, signaling that nothing is wrong.

"Demi you're crying. What's wrong?" I hadn't even realized I was crying till Wilmer pointed it out. I was too busy lost in my thoughts.

"I'll tell you later. Do you think you can drive me to the studio?"


"Demi? What are you doing here?"

"I just needed to get something out. I know we already recorded the song last month, but do you think I could sing it again? We don't have to replace it, unless you want to-"

"Demi breathe. It's fine, go ahead and go on in, I'll set everything up."

"Thanks, it means a lot."

"No problem Demi." He opens the door for me and walks behind me. I walk straight to the mini fridge and get out a small bottle of water. My throat's a bit dry, and I kinda want this recording to come out right.

"Alright, ready when you are." I put the bottle down and walk to the center of the room.

It's interesting how a room can have so much affect, there's so much that can be done in here. I could have gone somewhere else, but it wouldn't be the same, I need to be here, I need to get rid of all these feelings, maybe it isn't the proper way, but it buys me time until I'm ready to talk to Selena.

"Puttin' my defenses up
'Cause I don't wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I'd have a heart attack"


"I know you said you didn't mind if we changed the recordings, but I think we should use this one instead of the first one. The way you sang it this time was so different compared to the first, your voice has more emotion to it. Are you okay with that?"

"Y-yeah. Thanks Bill, I wasn't expecting to change it, but hey if it sounds better go ahead."

"Alright Demi, see you soon." He waves at me as I walk out into the hallway.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't proud of myself right now, I can't wait to release this song, it means a lot to me. It describes me perfectly, I'm scared of falling in love so I put my defenses up, it's basically what I'm doing right now.

I don't do it on purpose, it kind of just happens on its own. I'm determined to fix things with Selena, especially now since I've already given it so much thought, but I don't even know what I would say. I fucked up bad, I hurt her and that's the last thing I ever wanted to do.

Selena's one of the many people that I think about, but it amazes me how one person can take over your thoughts. She's constantly on my mind, and I'm okay with that. I definitely have to fix things before they get even worse. I'll just call her and see where things go from there.

"Cause we're one and the same
We're anything but ordinary."

Speak of the devil, what is she even doing here? I can't believe that's her ringtone for me, she's just as stupid as I am. Well she isn't stupid, I'm stupid, she's just cute.

She hung up on me, ouch. I could always go and talk to her, but I'm scared she might be mad at me and I don't wanna fight with her. I'll just call her again.

"Cause we're one and the s-"

Her phone goes off again, but this time she barely lets it ring. This isn't fair, how do I fix things when she's ignoring me? Wait, that's what she was trying to do with me. Karma's a fucking bitch.

"Hello?" Is she talking to me?

"Justin can you come pick me up?" Nope, she's not. She's talking to her boyfriend. Ew.

"Jennel. Jennel Garcia, why?" I wish I could hear both sides of of the conversation instead of just one. What does Jennel have to do with them? I knew they talked, but I didn't think they'd keep talking even after she left.

"Oh, um the song is called Y'Oughta Know. Her cover's on YouTube it's amazing if you haven't heard it yet." Jennel released her cover already? That's not fair I haven't even heard it yet.

"Oh, wow okay. I'll call her when I get home, I wanna be the first to tell her. Thanks so much babe that means a lot to me, I'm sure she'll be excited to hear the good news."

"Cause we're one and the same
We're anything but ordinary One and the same "

"Demi?" I hadn't even realized I had dialed her number again, I'm lucky she answered.

"Selena, hey." I start walking away from her, but not without getting a good look at her. She's smiling, quite big actually, I can't help but smile, luckily she doesn't see me since she's walking towards the entrance, I'll just take the back exit.

"How are you?"

"Um." Great I'm already freezing up. I was sure she wouldn't answer so I didn't think about what I would say.

"Demi?"

"S-sorry."

"Is everything okay?"

"A-are you busy tonight?" What's with the stuttering? I'm usually the confident one and I can't even speak without messing up.

"Demi." She sighs my name, and I automatically take it as a bad sign.

"Selena, I ju-"

"Demi, stop. You can't just call me after ignoring me and expect that I'll go out with you. I'm not giving in so easily. Do you not remember how you talked to me that day? Do you not remember how I cried, begging you to hear me out? Or did you forget?"

She didn't scream at me, she didn't raise her voice, and she wasn't rude to me, but she didn't need to be, her tone gave away her feelings, it gave away her pain, and hearing her voice slightly crack was enough to hurt me as well.

"I didn't forget, bu-"

"But what Demi?"

"I'm sorry Sel, I didn't mean to hurt you."

"Bye Demi."

"Selena please!"

"Demi, you can't do this to me. You can't call me like this, you know I'll give in. You know I can't be without you and you use that to your advantage."

"What? Selena what are you talking about?"

"Just forget it."

"Selena I can't. Stay where you are."

"What?" I start walking a lot faster, well more like limping. Stupid cane, at least it's helping me keep my balance otherwise I would have tumbled over.

I limp to the front of the building and find Selena sitting on the bench looking around, probably for me.

"I didn't mean for things to happen like this." I keep walking towards her, the streetlight is directly over her so I have a pretty good view of her face.

"It's too late."

"Is it really?" I stand in front of her, my phone is still next to my ear. She looks up at me and smiles.

"I think it might be." She speaks one last time into the phone and hangs up. I place my phone in my pocket and sit down next to her.

"I'm really sorry Selena."

"I know, and I forgive you, but that doesn't mean I haven't forgotten."

"I understand." I really do understand, I don't expect to forget everything that happened, I'm just happy she forgave me.

"I don't wanna leave things like this." I speak up before she has a chance to respond.

She lets out a shaky breath and shakes her head. I watch her hands as the white from her knuckles become visible, her hands are balled up. I don't know if she plans on swinging, but I don't think I would even mind.

She stretches her hands and deeply sighs. I hear her sniff a bit and I notice she's crying. I slide over till our knees are touching and gently place my hand on her thigh.

"Demi, don't. I'm sorry. I don't want things to be like this either but I think it's for the best. Maybe things are better like this, maybe we need to be away from each other."

"What? No Selena please, I need you in my life."

"Just please Demi, try to understand where I'm coming from."

"And where exactly is that? You're not telling me anything Sel. I get that I fucked up, but I wanna know what's going on with you." I reach for her hands and look up at her. I'm desperate to kiss her again, but I can't do it. It feels so right, but now isn't the time.

"I just want time apart Demi."

"No you don't. I know you don't want things to be like this."

"Just please, leave. We need more time apart, I mean it Demi. Yeah it hurts because I like being with you, but it's for the best. We need time to figure things out."

"Figure things out? What's there to figure out? I want you and you want me, what's there to figure out?" Crap, that didn't come out right. I don't even know how to fix that.

"I didn't mean, I just, it's just that, well."

"Hahaha." I didn't expect her to laugh at me, but it made things a lot less awkward.

"Sorry."

"Don't be, it was cute. I get what you mean, at least I think I do."

"Give me a chance?"

"For what?"

"To prove, to show, to." To what? I don't even know what I'm trying to say. I'm trying so hard to not slip up, but it seems almost impossible right now.

I'm not sure what I'm trying to get at right now. I want her to give me a chance, but what's there to prove? How much I like her? How much I need her in my life? I can't tell her yet, chances are she doesn't even like me. But either way I already kinda told her when I kissed her. It wasn't even just the fact that I kissed her, but I told her I was feeling something I shouldn't. How am I supposed to get myself out of this one?

"I don't even know what I'm saying right now. I guess I'm just trying to apologize. Selena I didn't mean anything I said, and I didn't want to hurt you the way I did.

I was a total jerk to you, but I'm serious when I told you I didn't mean any of it. I was just putting my defenses up." Can I get any cornier? Well she doesn't know I'm using a line from my song,.

"I don't get why you have to."

"It's complicated, but I just want you to know that everything I said the last time we talked was a lie. It wasn't me talking."

"Oh, let me guess it was your evil twin?"

"Would you believe me if I said yes?"

"Shut up dork. If you say it was a lie, does that mean that everything you said after you kissed me was the truth?"

Do I tell her? Should I tell her? I wanna take that risk and not care about what's gonna happen, but that might result in me leaving her, and I don't want that to happen.

I hadn't even realized we were still holding hands till she started rubbing circles on my hands with her thumbs. I looked back at her and smiled which she returned , I guess she had the same thought. We didn't bother pulling away, it felt right to me, it always has.

"Justin's here." I spoke up as I saw his car entering the parking lot, I could easily identify his car, he's so arrogant about it.

I get up, and tug her along with me. We walk to the curb and wait for Justin to pull up. I still haven't said anything, I guess this is my way of stalling.

"Demi? Hey, how's it going?"

"Hey Justin, I'm great. I ran into Selena on the way out and decided to keep her company till you got here."

"Thanks Demi. We gotta get going, I hope to see you soon."

"Me too, it's been too long." How I got through that conversation I will never understand.

He's a good guy, I guess, but I just don't like him for Selena, she's better off with me.

"Your highness." I open the door for her and stand behind it waiting for her to get in.

"I'm sorry Demi." I nodded, telling her I understand. I wish things didn't have to be this way, but she wants time apart, and I'll give her all the time she needs.

I close the door once she settles down and I lean into the car.

"In our situation, lies are meant to hurt, but the truth isn't. Whatever makes you happy, is the truth." I pecked the side of her head and walked back to the bench. I hope she understands what I'm trying to say.


Suefancficlover: Thanks, that means a lot(:

Manhattanpizza: Lol yeah, I'd say Demena is gonna happen soon(;

LovezObsessed: I know Demi is an idiot. And yeah I feel bad for Selena, but she'll get through it.

VeehxD: Lol I think everyone's mad at Demi. But she'll get her shit straight.

BVeronkia: I'm gonna try to include it more.