Lol thanks for the reviews. My emotions are all over the place with everything that's happened. Next chapter will be a bit sappy, but Selena and Demi will be all cute and stuff.

Sorry if there are any mistakes but I just wanted to upload this chapter because I didn't wanna leave you guys hanging.

This is everything that happened but it's all in Demi's pov. Enjoy(:


Demi's Pov

I admit I was a bit scared when I saw that Mandy had called me, I thought something had happened to Selena, but she only wanted me to come over to help her with the nursery for the baby.

I had no problem with helping her, she had mentioned it to me before and I had already agreed, I couldn't exactly say no to her. Mandy is basically like a second mom to me. And this is an opportunity to see Selena so I didn't even give it a second thought, I knew I had to go see her.

Three weeks without seeing or talking to her has been absolute hell. I've been dreaming and thinking about her nonstop. No matter how the dream went I always woke up crying. I thought that it was happening because it was something that had happened recently, i thought it would go away a couple days later, I assumed it was just my conscience, but it's more than that, it was my heart speaking to me as well.

Being away from her was affecting me a lot more than I thought it would. I knew I would miss her, I always miss her even if we had spent all day together, but this time it was different because I didn't know I would see her again.

I panicked the moment I had to knock on the door. I was a nervous wreck, and I still kind of am because I haven't seen Selena yet. Mandy let me in a little while ago, she was doing something so she told me to take a seat.

"Demi is everything okay?" I slightly jumped when I heard Mandy's voice, I wonder how long she's been standing there.

"I guess. I'm just really nervous about seeing her." She smiled at me and shook her head.

"She doesn't even know I called you. I know both of you miss each other, and I'm also aware of how stubborn both of you can be."

"Do you think she'll be happy to see me?" I was curious, I don't know if Selena actually wanted to see me or not.

"Selena!" Mandy screams and I hear Selena yell back. She seems annoyed, I hope she isn't in a bad mood.

I heard her footsteps get louder, the louder and closer they got, the more I began to panic. Just breathe and you'll be fine.

I watch as she walks directly to her mom, I notice she's pouting and it actually helped me calm my nerves, which is weird because my heart is beating incredibly fast right now.

"Yea- whoa. Um hi?" She was surprised to see me, it was obvious. Well her mom didn't even tell her I'd be here so it makes sense. This feels really awkward, I knew I had to say something, I can't just sit on her couch and not do anything.

"H-hey Sel." I got up and smiled at her. I wasn't sure what to do so I kind of just stood there.

She walked towards me and smiled back, she pulled me into her and wrapped her arms around my neck.

"I missed you." She said and pecked my cheek, she then rested her head on my shoulder as I wrapped my arms around her waist.

I was kind of shocked to everything that was happening so it took me a while to actually respond to what was happening.

"I-I missed you too." I spoke up, but ended up stuttering. What the hell? That's the second time and I've barely said ten words to her.

"Ahem." Mandy clears her throat and we immediately pull away from each other.

"Ugh kids. Anyways, I asked Demi to come over and help you sort out the boxes we have in what's going to be the nursery room." I look down at the floor as Mandy talks to Selena.

"You? As in me? Mom why?" Selena whined and threw herself on the couch. I had to hold back a laugh at how cute she looked like this.

"Selena go." Her mom pointed at the stairs and she started walking towards them

"You too Demi." I laughed at Mandy, I didn't mean too, but it's strange seeing her like this, Mandy is the easy going mom, she's was always on our side when Selena and I were younger and now she's bossing me around.

"The hormones are definitely kicking in huh?" I ask Selena, trying to make conversation as we go up the stairs. She laughs at me and then replies.

"Ugh, you have no idea."

"I heard that." Mandy yells from down stairs, I didn't think she'd hear us.


They sure had a lot of boxes, but I didn't mind being here, as long as I get to be with my baby, I mean Selena. Even though I'm with her, it feels like I'm not. We're on separate sides of the room going through boxes and we've barely spoken.

The only thing we talked about was a jacket I found in one of the boxes, she didn't want it so I asked her for it. I still have some of her clothes at home, I obviously don't fit into them, but I still kept them. She has this one hoodie she used to always wear to sleep because it kept her warm and comfortable since it was huge, I occasionally use it to go to sleep, but she doesn't need to know that.

The things I've found so far are interesting, some of them were pictures, or drawings she had from over the years. A lot of the things are hers, I wonder what she got stuck with.

I'm almost done with this box, the last thing in here a red and black notebook. The inside cover was covered with music notes and hearts. I didn't think she still had this notebook, she was always so secrative about it, and now it's finally in my hands, muahaha.

"I didn't know you wrote." I flipped through more pages, some of them were titled and others weren't.

"What?"

"Songs. I knew you wrote poems and stuff, but I didn't know you wrote actual songs."

"Um yeah. Ill take that, I mean there's no point of keeping it in there. It's really, really old, I didn't even remember I had it, so let me take care of it." She's speaking incredibly fast, I barely understood what she was trying to say, but I do know that she doesn't want me to read what's in here, which only makes me wanna read it even more.

I always thought I was the clumsy one when it came to us, but she just proved me wrong. I don't how she managed to fall trying to get her notebook, but she did, and she fell in an awkward position. Her face landed on my lap and I wanted to burst out laughing the moment it happened. Both of us were blushing, but I know for a fact that she's a lot more embarrassed than I am.

She moved around so the back of her head was laying on my thighs. I couldn't help myself and I started stroking her hair.

"Are you really that desperate that you're willing to go down on me for this notebook? I never thought you had it in you Gomez."

"Demi, shut up." She smiled at me, and I found myself smiling back. I moved a strand of hair to the side of her face and just stared at her.

I wasn't creepily staring at her, more like admiring her, just like she's admiring my wrist right now. She reached for my arm and traced the thin white lines. I still haven't said anything, I don't know what to say.

I'm curious about what goes through her head whenever she sees them. Does she feel disgusted, embarrassed that I even did that to myself?

"Demi, I love you. You're my best friend. I just want you to know, that even after all these years, after everything we've been through, you will always mean the world to me, and I will always, always love you."

We stared at each other as she spoke, I was very interested in what she was saying, but I didn't like what she said.

"You're my best friend."

As if I don't already know that, I don't need to be reminded that we're just friends. I don't wanna be just friends anymore, I'm done with being nothing more than friends. I want her to be mine, I need her to be mine.

"Selena, I love you." She sat up once I said and looked at me in confusion.

I'm pretty sure I could guess what it is that she's thinking right now. She's probably just as confused as I am. I didn't think I'd be saying that to her, at least not like that. It's not something I was expecting myself to say, but it's true. I might as well just tell her everything, I think I'm ready to properly open up to her.

"I'm sorry Selena, for everything." I want to say more, but I feel extremely nervous right now. She takes my hand in attempt to comfort and it works.

"I was stupid, immature, and all that other stuff, but most importantly I let things get in the way of our friendship. I wanna start over, and I know this isn't the first time I've said this, but there's a lot more to it. I just wanna tell you everything, I wanna get it over with. I know this is from the past, but I never really let go, with you I don't wanna let go of the past, I wanna remember all the little things we did together.

We drifted apart, and you could say that was a mutual thing because both of us gave up at some point, but we wouldn't have drifted off as much if it weren't for me.

It's obvious I wasn't in a good place back then, and everyone knows I wasn't making the best choices, but there's a reason I made them, it was because of you. I'm not blaming you for anything, well kinda. The only thing you're to blame for is the reason I'm still here.

I was out partying and hooking up with people because I was trying to find in them what I had found with you, and it didn't work. It only helped me stay in the darkness of depression. Those were very hard times because I didn't have you there, I didn't have my best friend there.

I never meant to push you away, I basically pushed you into Taylor's arms, and whenever I'd think about that it would kill me. I was so jealous at that time, I didn't wanna share you with anyone, I wanted you all to myself, I still do.

You've done so much for me, you've changed me for the better. I just wanna thank you, for being there for me, for tolerating all my bullshit over the years. And I love you."

I feel so empty in this moment. I feel naked, vulnerable, I want to cry. I don't regret it, not one bit, but I completely took down my walls for her.

"Demi are you okay?"

"I don't really know anymore. I just wanted you to know that. But there's still one more thing I want you to get clear. I don't even know if this is the right time for it, but for us nothing has ever worked the way we wanted it to. I feel like I've waited way too long for this, but I want you to know, you deserve to know.

I didn't think I'd tell you today, so um I'm sorry if it's stupid but I thought I'd just wing it." I honestly didn't think this would be happening today, but it's something that needs to be done.

Maybe now isn't even the right time, but to me it feels right. Everything about this moment just feels right. I take in a deep breath and smiles at her.

"I'm in love with y-"

"Are you engaged?" She cut me off, I was so confused at what she had just asked me.

"W-what?"

"Don't play stupid. What is this? How long have you had it? Why didn't you say anything to me? Gosh I'm an idiot."

I watch her leave my side as she starts walking around the room.

What the hell just happened? One minute I'm trying to tell her I'm in love with her, and the next she's sobbing as she hugs her knees. How did I manage to fuck things up this bad?

She asked me a question, but did I hear her right? She thinks I'm engaged, but why would she think that?

She starts sobbing even more and hurts me. I feel her pain and I don't even know how I caused it. I left myself off the floor and walk in her direction. I realize what she's talking about when I brush my fingers through my hair. It's the ring Wilmer gave me.

"Selena?"

"W-what?"

"I-I don't know. I just I don't know. I don't wanna see you like this." I didn't know what to say, I've been her rock multiple times, but I've never been the one to cause her pain. I've never had to pick up the pieces for something I did.

She flips me off. I wanna laugh because of how childish she seems, but I know it's wrong because she's hurting. The smalls cries that leave her lips are more than enough to show her pain, I can't believe I fucked up, but she didn't even give me a chance to explain, she came to her own conclusion.

"Sel, you're gonna be okay." I gently squeeze her knee and she looks up at me.

Tears are still rolling down her face, she's taking shaky breath from her mouth. Seeing her like this is enough to break me, but I have to stay strong for her. What good is it gonna do if I start crying with her?

"Girls? What happened?" Mandy comes in and stares at both of us, her eyes go back to Selena.

"I'm sure Selena will tell you later. We're fine, I think." I speak up for her because I know she can't.

"Um, alright. Well I made lunch, just thought I should let you know."

Selena hadn't said a word since we came downstairs, and Mandy and I didn't push her into saying anything. We didn't exactly ignore her, but she was in her own little world, so I carried out a conversation with Mandy.

"So Demi, any new love interests?" I look at Selena and smile at her, I make sure to wink because I know it'll make her blush.

"Actually, there's someone that's caught m-."

"Why don't you tell her that you're engaged huh?" She unexpectedly cut me off, again.

"Demi you're engaged? That's wonderful." I could tell Mandy was just being polite.

"No, Mandy I'm not engaged. And Selena would know that if she let me finish instead of drawing up her own conclusions." I turn to face her. Out of all the things she could say she decides to say that, which isn't even true.

"So no Selena, I'm not engaged. But of course you didn't let me finish, you came to your own conclusion that hurt both of us." I faced her as I spoke, because this time I wasn't talking to Mandy, I was talking to Selena because she can't just assume something like that.

"Excuse me Mandy." I smile at Mandy and excuse myself from the table. There's really no reason for me to stay there anymore, so I just go upstairs.


I didn't know if Selena would stay down there or come back up, so I decided to keep myself busy. I decided to go through her songbook. It's just something I had to do, the temptation was there, and I didn't even bother to fight it. I needed to know what was in there.

Almost every page had four quarter notes at the top of page with a little heart next to it. It's interesting to look at because this is her stuff from when she was younger. She was just another Disney princess, now she's more than that.

Everything in here is just, weird? I don't think that's the proper way to describe it, it's just that I never knew Selena had these feelings towards someone. l mean yeah she had her crushes on guys, and I would have to listen to her, but still, those crushes have nothing on this mystery person.

Everything is new to me, except this one page, l recognize the lyrics, it's actually one of her songs that she released. It's always been one of my favorites.

Again, there's four quarter notes at the top of the page with a heart next to it, as well as the title. There's a star in the top right hand corner and right next to it it says back page. Me being the nosy curious person that l am, l flip to the back page.

It's different from the rest. The other entries were songs, this is anything but a song. She's explaining the reason for l Promise You.

'You're driving me insane, and writing about you is the only way to keep me sane. This song means a lot to me because I actually wrote it, I went through hell to get it released because they found out it was about you. They couldn't do anything to you since you knew nothing about this, the risk was worth it.

You make me feel like no one else ever has, you have no idea of the affect you have on me. Sometimes I get scared that you might figure me out, and that it could end things between us. But I feel like that's a risk I wouldn't mind taking, because if you find out, it could work out for the best.

l secretly hope that once you hear it you'll relate it to us. Because I promise you that l will always love you Demi, no matter what happens, l will always love you because I know we'll make it.'

To say I'm shocked is a complete understatement, like how am I even breathing?

I hear the door open, it doesn't give me enough time to freak out. I know I have a face eating smile right now, but how can I not?

Selena liked me, she even wrote songs about me, and one of them got released. If she liked me then, what are the chances of her liking me now? I could always find out.

"You're something else Gomez." She sits next to me, but she doesn't say anything, which doesn't surprise me. I guess I'll have to do all the talking, I don't mind though because it gives me a chance to be honest and clear things up.

"I don't know if you're gonna talk to me or not, but I'm still gonna talk either way.

I read some of your stuff, and I'm really surprised at everything that's in here. Out of all the songs, I Promise You is probably my favorite. I've written some songs about you as well, Heart Attack is actually about you." Heart Attack isn't the only song about her, but she doesn't need to know, at least right now.

"I was scared of everything that had been happening. Things were changing way too fast and I felt like I had no control over it, and that only caused me to panic.

I've known for years what I feel for you, but even then I couldn't exactly admit it. And when I finally did, I decided to ignore it, which is why we became so distant.

I thought you would never feel that way about me, I was terrified of ruining what we already had so I kept to myself. But I was wrong, because you like me back, and it makes me wish I would have taken a chance with you when we were younger. Like I said before, things never work out the way we want them to when it comes to us. Ever since we became friends our relationship has been full of surprises, and I guess that's what makes it so special and unique because in the end we always come back to each other." She doesn't say anything, but she squeezes my thigh trying to comfort me.

I grab her hand and lock our fingers together, I can't help but notice the look of disappointment on her face. I tug her hand a bit to get her attention, I don't wanna see her like this.

She looks at me and I look back at her. It's there, it's obviously there, she's so hurt by all of this. I'm not even engaged, but she still looks like shit. I have to keep talking if I wanna get my point across.

"I just, I don't even know if this is making any sense, gosh I'm stupid. This sounded a lot better in my head, but I just wanted to be completely honest with you, there's no holding back anymore.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I love you Selena. I'm in love with you, and I'm so very very sorry about everything that I've done to you."

She stares at me, her face isn't showing any emotion, it's all in her eyes. She's definitely surprised and so am I. She finally knows what I should have told her years ago.

I'm in love with her, and now she's aware of it.

"Demi." She whispers my name, her voice was so soft I barely heard it. I feel her tug on my hand and I instantly look up. Our eyes meet and she opens her mouth to speak.

"I-I love you too Voldemort." I didn't know what she was referring to, but then it hit me and I couldn't stop laughing.

I noticed her blushing, but even then I didn't bother to stop, I just couldn't because she's a such a dork, but she loves me, and that's really all that matters.

Out of all people I didn't expect me to be that person she liked so much. I remember being there for her when she would mention Voldemort, she would cry because she was frustrated. She always told me nothing could happen between them because they were just starting to fix their friendship, but I never thought she could be referring to us.

I turned my body around so I could properly face her. She wouldn't meet my eyes and she was still blushing, I couldn't help but smile.

"So I'm your forbidden love? I'm that person you were falling so hard for? I'm your Voldemort?" I smiled like an idiot once I realized what I just said. Both of us had matching smiles on our faces.

"Yeah. That's you." I saw her start to lean in and I became nervous.

I know what she's gonna do, and I can tell she's just as nervous because she cupped my cheek and her hand is shaking against it. Her lips gently brushed up against mine and I smiled again. I pushed our lips together and smiled even more. I don't know why that's become a habit of mine, but it seems to make a moment like this more special.

Our lips soon locked, and just wow. I was lucky enough to have kissed her before, but that was just a one sided kiss, this kiss is different. It's different than any kiss I've ever had, no other kiss has ever had this effect on me.

Her lips are so smooth and gentle, unlike any other pair. This just doesn't feel real, nothing that's happened today feels real to me. I feel like I'm living a dream right now.

She pulls back and I instantly miss her lips. It just the way our lips fit together, and how they moved in sync, like just wow. I can't even from proper thoughts anymore.

"I can't believe I ever denied how I felt for you, I can't believe I kept it hidden for so long.

You're such an amazing person, and I love you so so much. I'm sorry I feel like I'm babbling, but I don't wanna stop telling you how much I love. I'm just happy that I can finally say it, and you feel the same way, and I haven't been this happy in a while Can you kiss me again? Or can I kiss you? I'm a mess ri-."

"Demi shut up, just kiss me." I pulled her into me and kissed her.

I didn't mean to start rambling like that, but fuck her lips are so addictive. They're like some type of drug, I feel like I'm on this high and I don't want it to go to away.

She pulled away again and pecked my nose. Am I doing something wrong?

"W-what's wrong?"

"Nothing. I just, what's next? I love you Demi, and we can't even be together." What does she mean we can't be together? Of course we can be together, I think she's not dating Justin right now, I'm not even too sure.

"Are you with Justin?" I hated saying his name, and she noticed because she laughed as she shook her head at me.

"No, but you're with Wilmer right?"

"Y-yeah." Wilmer, I'm with Wilmer that's why we can't be together. How does she have all of this figured out?

"He gave you that ring, right?" I nodded and sighed

"We can't do this to him, you can't do this to him. You guys love each other, and I'm not getting in the way of that."

"I'll break up with him." I can't let her get away. I have to break up with Wilmer.

"I can't ask you to do that for me. There's a reason you went back to him instead of coming to me, maybe you guys are meant to be."

"What?! Are you serious Selena? You can't say that after what just happened, we're obviously meant to be." What the hell how can she even say something like this?

After what just happened she fucking say something like that? I didn't mean to raise my voice, but fuck!

"But maybe now isn't our time."

"Selena, no. I can't, please?" She isn't even officially mine and I'm begging her to stay.

"I'm just telling you the truth Demi. Have you ever thought why you went back to Wilmer?"

"Yeah, but I don't know. I never really got over him, but you're always the one I wanted, you will always be the one I want, the one I need."

"I've waited years for this, for us, but I'll continue to wait." She pecked my cheek and wiped a tear that was rolling down my face.

"I'm sorry." I knew she heard me, which surprised me because I barely even heard myself.

I sat next to her and cried, it's all I could do. I love her, like I actually love her and I can't be with her. I'm gonna have to break up with Wilmer, but I don't know how I'm gonna do it. I can't just break up with him that's the problem, our relationship isn't like any other relationship, but Selena isn't just some girl, she's the love of my life.


Suefanficlover: I hope you enjoyed this, I didn't expect to be updating so soon.

VeehxD: Lol I'm sorry I made you cry xD. But the next chapter will be a bit sappy, but there's gonna be a lot of fluff(:

LovezObsessed: Lol yeah Justin and Wilmer are bitches.

Demenaforever13: Patience young grasshopper, they will be together soon, or not. MUAHAHAHAHA.