I rewrote this chapter like twice and I'm finally okayish with it lol.
Selena might perform on X Factor this week, it hasn't been confirmed, but I hope it's true because I need more Demena in my life.
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Demi's Pov
"The last thing I wanna do is pressure you, I'm just curious is all. But if you were to break up with Wilmer, I'm not saying that you should, or that you need to, but if you did, when would it happen?"
I thought about what she said over and over but I don't know how to respond to that. I know that I have to break up with Wilmer, I need Selena in my life, I can't be away from her anymore, but how do I go about it?
I hate knowing that I'm gonna hurt Wilmer, I'm hurting him right now just by being with Selena. I don't get when my love life became so complicated, I'm not one to cheat, but in just a couple months I've cheated and it really disappoints me because I'm not like this, the old me was, but I'm not.
Wilmer has been nothing but nice and caring, I don't wanna hurt him, but there's really no other way. I'm happy with him and he's happy with me, we get along well, but he's not the one I truly want. I just wish I wouldn't have fucked up so badly, but everything that's happened so far is for a reason I guess.
"I don't know. I mean I have to break up with him that's for sure, but it's not easy. I have time to think about it though." I finally reply, and maybe it wasn't the right thing to say. It's nothing but the truth, but maybe I could have worded it differently.
Selena may not be pushing me to break up with Wilmer, but I know she wants me to. Now that I told her I have time to think about it, it probably doesn't make her too happy.
"What do you mean you have time to think about it?"
"Oh, um I'm going on tour. It's a couple of weeks I think? It's no more than month though." She sighed loudly and laced our fingers together.
"Okay. W-when are you leaving?"
"Tonight."
She didn't say anything, and neither did I. Our conversation kinda just ended right there. I don't know if she's mad, but there's really nothing I can do, I have to go on tour, and it's not too long. I've been gone longer and we've gotten through it.
"I have an idea, it's something stupid, and it's so wrong, and I'd never do anything like this, but when it comes to you I do the stupidest shit ever. So um, what if we just be like closer, since you're leaving and all, and you won't see Wilmer till you come back, maybe we could, you know?"
"Act like a couple?"
"Y-yeah. Thank God you understood because I'm pretty sure I wasn't making sense anymore. But like we don't have to, unless you want to, but it's cool if you don't. I-it's up to y-."
I didn't think this is something I'd be doing so soon, but I'm glad I was able to do it. I cut her rambling off with a kiss. It was the first thing that came to mind, she's so nervous about the idea she just proposed and there's really no reason for her to be.
I felt her smile against my lips and that made me feel even more happier. Her hands are on the sides of my face, she's becoming more confident, which is a good things because I don't want her to feel embarrassed around me.
I pull back and rest my forehead against her and watch as her eyes slowly flutter open. She smiles at me and rubs her nose against mine, this only makes me smile even more.
"So I take that as a yes?"
"Hmm, I'm not sure. There's this really cute girl that's totally obsessed with me, I wouldn't wanna make her jealous."
"Fuck you Demi." She shoved my shoulder and I rolled my eyes at her. Was that supposed to hurt me?
"Whoa, don't you think we're moving to fast? But hey if you wanna fuck me you can go ahead and do it." I love messing with her, she's just too cute.
"I'm done." She rolled her eyes and walked away from me.
I was left on the floor laughing like an idiot. It's cute to see her so frustrated, she hardly ever has any comebacks.
I hear her footsteps stop, she's standing at the door, but she's smiling at me.
"Bye." She waves and opens the door.
I jump up and run towards her before she has a chance to leave. Right when she was leaving the room I grabbed her by the waist and pulled her into me.
"I'm sorry I'll behave." I whispered into her ear and saw as she slightly shivered. She turned around to face me and I found myself getting lost in her eyes.
"I know you won't." She whispered against my lips and I felt myself getting nervous.
"I uhh."
"Dork." She laughed at the fact that I couldn't even speak. She's just too close to me and she isn't doing anything, she already makes me nervous and she's making it worse.
"Are you serious?"
"Y-yeah. I was on my way to get a popsicle and bam, I slipped and broke my leg."
"You're so, you're stupid. Did it hurt, like a lot?"
"Yeah, I didn't really cry, I kinda just sat there and laughed. Wilmer was the one panicking, he was pacing back and forth he had no clue what to do." I couldn't help but notice the look on her face when I mentioned Wilmer, she looks so disgusted, it's cute to see her get jealous.
"He had his phone in his hand but didn't know what to do, it wasn't till I stopped laughing that he actually called someone. I had to tell him to call my mom and even then he couldn't do it right.
I admit that wasn't one of my brightest moments, I haven't a popsicle ever since. But seeing Wilmer like that was so cute." I know I was pushing it, but she won't hold it against me, at least I think.
Selena is the jealous type, and so am I but it depends on the person. I have more control over it, she obviously doesn't because she's sitting on her bed next to me with her arms crossed and a pout on her lips.
"Is someone jealous?"
"N-no."
"I'll take that as a yes."
"Whatever."
"Can't you just accept the fact that you're jealous?"
"Why do I feel like we've done this before?"
"Because we have. You're always jealous and you never want to admit it." I poke her cheek and she smacks my hand away.
"I am not, you get jealous too." She accuses me but I'm hardly ever jealous.
That's a lie, but I never really show my jealousy, I keep it to myself. Or at least I try to.
"Name one time I've been jealous. I know for a fact that you've been jealous more times than I have."
"Wh-what? Pshh no. Alright, I got you. There was that one time when we were like 15 and we went to the store, the cashier was flirting with me.
You grabbed my hand and you were all over me, he ended up getting creeped out. Everytime we would go he would avoid us because he was scared that my girlfriend would do something to him.
Also during some award show, I can't remember the name, but Justin was there and you pretty much shot daggers at him whenever you'd see him. He asked me if you were mad at him or something and I lied and said you had a bad day.
And last year when I was staying over at your place Justin wanted me to go over to his house, you didn't want me to go. You didn't even respond when I asked you if you wanted me to go or not, but you didn't have to because I knew how you felt about it.
And then the d-."
"Fine I get I get jealous too." I cut her off before she could continue. I didn't think she could come up with all those examples.
"No, this one's my favorite. When we went on a double date together, you told me to go fuck Justin in the bathroom. I tried so hard not to laugh that day, I knew something had been bothering you, and now it makes sense."
"Can you blame me? You're so pretty and gorgeous, and cute, and funny, and amazing, how can I not get jealous?"
"I love you." She leans in and captures my bottom lip. I feel her hand on my waist as she pulls me in closer. For someone that's never kissed a girl until today, she sure does know what to do.
I pull back and smile at her. I don't know how I ever lived without her kisses, and now I'm gonna have to survive a month without her.
"I love me too." I lean in peck her forehead but she shoves my shoulder once she realizes what I just said. She punches my arm and I let out a small scream.
I sit up and start rubbing my arm where here fist had just been. I can't believe she actually punched me, out of everything she could have done she chooses to punch me, and that actually hurt. She can pack a pretty mean punch.
"I'm sorry." She covered her mouth as she tried not to laugh. I shook my head at her and just shrugged it off.
"I know you're not, but since you're so cute I'll forgive you."
"Hey girls are you all done?" I looked at Selena, hoping she would respond because I had no idea what to say.
We didn't even finish sorting through the boxes. We had been in her room for a while and we got bored and hungry so we decided to come downstairs and get some food
"Demi?" Selena looks at me and pouts. I roll my eyes at her and sigh. I was hoping she would be the one to cover for us.
"Selena hit me!" I tell Mandy and she looks at me confused. Selena is shooting daggers at me from the other side of the kitchen.
"What?! Selena?" She turns to face Selena and I feel such a need to laugh.
Why is it that I want to laugh when I shouldn't laugh? I know I'm supposed to be mature, but I can't. I just snitched on Selena for hitting.
"W-what? Mom she's lying!" She accused me and winked at me.
"Mandy why would I lie to you?" Both Mandy and Selena rolled their eyes, they look a lot alike.
"Selena, just apologize to your girlfriend."
Mandy walked away laughing to herself, but we were left standing in the kitchen, confused to what had just occurred.
"Did she just call me your girlfriend? Does your mom know? Are we in trouble?" I'm panicking.
Am I in trouble? Did she hear us? What if she doesn't like me anymore?
"Um, y-yeah. Wow. Well you're not my girlfriend, at least not yet. Help me get some food." She walked past me and pecked my lips.
I watched her walk away and noticed her ass. At least now I don't have to be so secretive about it, I can look at my baby all I want.
"Dems stop staring." I laugh at her and start walking towards her.
"What do you want me to take?"
"This." She hands me three large bags of different chips and two boxes of cookies.
I have no choice but to press them against myself, otherwise everything would have fallen.
"Is that it?"
"Um, I think so?" She checks the pantry for anything else she might have missed.
I was being sarcastic, I didn't think she'd actually want more food. I honestly wouldn't be surprised if we end up coming back for more.
"I think we're good to go. Come on." She closes the closet door and walks past me.
I follow her out of the kitchen and up the stairs. I realize she made me carry everything, the only thing she has is a jar of pickles and a gallon of orange juice. But there's no use in saying anything.
"What movie are we gonna watch?" She sets everything on the table next to her bed and walks towards the tv in her room.
I place everything I have on the same table. Once I'm done I go to her bed and make myself comfortable.
"I don't know, it's up to you."
"Demi?"
"Demi."
I slowly opened my eyes and looked up, I saw the light of the tv but it took me a while to realize I was in Selena's bed.
"Shh." I shushed her and tightened my grip on her.
I'm not surprised we fell asleep, we does this every time we watch a movie. I don't even know when we fell asleep, but I'm happy that we did, because I got to wake up with her in my arms.
"Baby you have to get up. I don't want you to miss your flight."
"Fuck, my flight." I got out of her bed and slipped my shoes on. What the fuck am I supposed to do?
I don't have any clothes with me, it's late, I leave in two hours I don't have anything with me. Oh my fuck she called me baby.
"Did you call me baby?"
"Um I think I did." I watch as she sits up and scratches her head. Her eyes are barely open and her hair is messy, but she still looks so gorgeous.
"Yeah, I did." She smiles at me once she realizes that she actually did call me baby, I don't know why it causes me to blush.
"Demi remember you're leaving in two hours and you don't have any luggage. Are you gonna go back home or?"
I don't know what to do right now. I don't wanna go back home because Wilmer's gonna be there and I really don't wanna see him until I come back from tour, but how do I fly out without any clothing, or anything for that matter?
At this point I don't even wanna go anymore, I just wanna go back to bed and hold Selena, but I can't.
"Um I don't know what to do. I wanna enjoy as much time as possible with you, but I have to leave, and I don't wanna leave, and ugh this is so complicated."
"I'll walk you out." She gets out of her bed, I hear her sigh and it breaks my heart. I really don't wanna leave her.
Marissa is coming with me so maybe I can ask her to get my stuff for me? I hate that she'd have to go out of her way to do it, but I need to be with Selena.
"N-no. Um I'll ask Marissa to get my stuff for me." I walk towards her bed and reach for my phone.
'It's late and your flight leaves soon. Um I don't know if I did anything wrong because we haven't really spoken all day. I figured you'd call or something, or that you'd be back home to pick up your stuff, but since you're not I asked Max to stop by so he has everything. I love you Demi, have a good flight, stay safe, and call when you can.'
The moment I opened my phone his message opened up. I read it over and over, each time the guilt was there. I feel guilty for doing this, but it doesn't feel wrong, because being with Selena has never felt wrong.
"Max has my things so I don't have to worry about it."
"That's good.
So um I was thinking, would it be okay if I could like I don't know drive you to the airport? We could just chill in your car till it's time for you to actually be at the airport?"
VeehxD: Lol I don't like making problems for them, but either way they get through it.
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