A/N: Hello =] This is a lot later than I was planning because my silly little Beta decided to take her time going over this chapter..in the end I got fed up and looked over it myself and decided to post it anyway...I'm a impatient bitch so don't blame me if the gramma is bad :D Anyway...This chapter is just a bit of woffel if you ask me..just to fill in the blanks..but I do like the ending :) mmmmm lol...anyway hope you enjoy
Disclaimer: SM Owns all Twilight...I own a fat ass load of horror films..that I like to watch while I write :)
Chapter 5 – Sharing Moments
BPOV
"Okay, now before I tell you, I need you all to promise me that you will not over react." I shot a pointed look at Jake who ducked his head while Billy nudged him with his shoulders.
"We promise Bells." Charlie said patting my hand. "Don't we Jake?"
"Yeah, yeah, I get it. I promise I won't over react. I mean, it's not like your pregnant or anything. No need to over react." Jake chuckled slightly along with Billy and Charlie, but it all soon stopped, when they noticed the look on my face.
I pulled Elizabeth closer and kissed the top of her head while she was looking at a picture book. I didn't want to have to look any of them in the eye. From my silence, they could have guessed what I was going to tell them. Silence filled the room, the tension so thick it gave me goose bumps.
"WHAT THE FUCK!"
I didn't look up as I heard more cussing, along with bangs and crashes. I closed my eyes and could feel the anger bubbling up inside of me. I was looking to my family or support, not to create more problems for me. I heard the door open and people running in, followed by more shouting.
I looked up at the commotion going on in front of me. Edward and Emmett were holding onto Jake, trying to calm him down, while Carlisle and a female nurse I didn't recognize were talking to Charlie and Billy. It was too noisy and my head was starting to hurt. I needed to stop all this chaos before I exploded.
Oh, too late.
"WOULD EVERYONE PLEASE SHUT THE FUCK UP?"
The room turned deadly silent and everyone in the room turned to look at me, shock present on their features.
"How can you be so selfish?" I whispered, barely audible around the room had it not been so quiet.
"All I wanted was a little help from my family, to be supportive, tell me everything will be alright and just be there for me. You can't even do that without your own anger getting in the way."
I noticed my cheeks were wet with tears when Mason reached up and whipped them away. I smiled gently down at him, rubbing his cheek and tapped his nose. The room continued to stay silent as I toyed with my son's fragile face.
"Bella…" Charlie began.
I sighed deeply.
"Charlie, just go home. Take the kids and I will see you tomorrow."
"But Bells."
"Please Charlie, all of you go. I need some time alone."
I looked down at my kids, who were looking up at me with concern. I mustered up the best smile I could to reassure them.
"Okay, it's time to say goodbye. Be good for Grandpa Charlie, Billy and Jake and I will see you tomorrow."
I bent down and kissed them both on the head just before Charlie and Jake picked them up. Charlie bent down to bit me goodbye but I turned away and led down on my side, away from everyone and let the tears flow freely.
There were a few murmurs and shuffles before I heard the door close, leaving myself in peace. Sobs pierced through the silence, my body shaking with the force of my tears. I was tired of trying to be strong. It was my time to be weak and cry over everything that had happened so far in my life. Time passed, I'm not sure how much, but it grew dark outside, the moon shining through my window casting a shadow on my face. The tears dried on my face, causing my skin to become irritable. I got out of bed and made my way to the joining bathroom to freshen up.
After washing my face and brushed my teeth, I paddled my way bad to bed. Just as I was getting settled under the covers there was a slight knock on the door.
"Umm, come in."
The door creaked open and Edward popped his head around the door.
"May I come in?"
"Sure."
He stepped in, closing the door with his back to me, before turning around and leaning against the door. I propped up some pillows and wrapped myself up in my covers before glancing over at him. He was just stood there, staring at me, with his hands in his scrubs and one foot propped against the door. His piercing green eyes gazing intensely back at my own.
After a few moments of silence, he coughed gently before pushing off the door and sitting down in the chair next to my bed.
"How are you feeling?"
"I really don't know. I'm just so tired and I haven't had time to process everything that's going on."
Edward sighed and looked down at the floor.
"I guess that's understandable."
There were a few more moments for slightly awkward silence before I piped up again.
"So what brings you here?"
Edward looked back up at me, his green eyes filled with emotion.
"I just thought you might want to talk to someone. I thought maybe I could help."
The pitiful look in his eyes made but blood boil and I felt my face growing red. I didn't need anyone's pity of sympathy.
"I really don't want your pity Edward. You have no idea what I have been through, so don't feel sorry for me. I've been through this before without anyone's help, what makes you think I need any now?"
The sorrow was still present in his eyes.
"Bella, rape is a serious and life changing experience. You have to talk to someone about it otherwise it will all just build up until one day you explode and..."
"How the hell would you know what it's like to be raped Edward?"
There was a long pause before Edward spoke again, but it was so quite I could barely hear him.
"What did you say?"
Edward sighed, leaning back in his chair and pinching the bridge of his nose, before sighing again and leaning on his elbows.
"My sister-in-law was raped."
Guilt washed over me as I looked at the pained look on Edward's face. I opened my mouth before closing it, not too sure what to say.
"You should see Emmett whenever he comes out of you room. He looks just like he did when he find out about Rosalie."
I played with my fingers looking down at my lap, the tears threatening to spill over. I wasn't the only one who had been through something like this before.
"Edward, why are you telling me this?"
I looked back up at Edward. He had his eyes closed and he was running in fingers through his tousled copper hair. He sighed and gave a final tug at the ends of his hair and opened his eyes.
"I don't want you to feel as if that there is no one there for you. My family was there for Rosalie, but she had a…better…situation than you have."
"You mean she didn't get pregnant…twice."
"No, she didn't."
"Do you mind telling me what happened?"
"I suppose it wouldn't hurt to tell you…at long as you tell me your story."
I nodded slightly, the uneasy feeling now settling in my stomach.
"Rosalie had just gotten out of a bad relationship with this really nasty piece of work called Royce King. Emmett met her in this dodgy bar just on the outside of Seattle and she was a complete mess, grinding on top of the bar. Emmett had to carry her out of there before she started removing her clothes. He bought her back to the house and took care of her. The next morning she woke up, saw his dimples and they have been together ever since.
It was coming up to their second year anniversary and Rosalie was out buying a present and doing a little bit of late night shopping. She was coming out of the shopping center, there was no one around, and she was the only one left in the parking lot. She was just at her car when Royce came out of nowhere. Rosalie tried to fight him off but he was just too strong for her. He raped her and left her. Somehow she managed to get home and broke down in Emmett's arms. He took her to the hospital and she got treatment. Royce was arrested and sent to jail. Emmett was a mess after that and couldn't work for a while. He felt like he had failed Rosalie."
I reached over and gently placed my hand on top of his. My hand tingled from the contact. Edward must have felt it too as he took hold of my own and rubbed little circles with his thumb.
"He didn't fail her."
Edward looked up at me, but I continued to look at our joined hands.
"He was there for her and did what needed to be done to keep her safe."
"Yeah, your right."
Edward grabbed my hand in both of his.
"And that's why he's been bugging me ever since you got in, asking how you are."
Edward laughed slightly and I joined him.
"I think he's too scared to come and ask you himself."
"Well you let him know, he's welcome in here anytime. It might be nice to talk to someone who cares."
"Your family does care Bella. They would rather die than see you go through anymore pain. Believe me when I say that the anger gets to you when someone you love it hurt. They feel as if they failed you and it's hard to forgive yourself, when you feel like that. Don't block them out when they just got you back in their lives."
I chuckled lightly, tucking my hair behind me ears.
"Are you sure you picked the right profession Edward?"
He looked at me with a puzzled expression.
"Seems like you would have made a good therapist."
Edward chuckled, laugh lines forming in the corner of his eyes as he gentle ruffled his copper tousles.
"No, I just have some idea what your families going through."
There were a few moments of silence, but it was more comfortable. Edward seemed deep in though and I didn't want to disturb him. I relaxed back into my pillow and wiggled around to get comfortable. This seemed to pull Edward from his thoughts as he stood from his chair and stretched slightly. His scrubs pulled up slightly, revealing a slither of skin. You could see his very prominent V and a light copper happy trail. I bet the rest of his body was just as beautiful.
But someone as beautiful as him would be happily married or in a loving relationship. Not the fucked up kind like I was in. No one as beautiful as him would ever look twice at me. I would most likely spend the rest of my life caring for my soon to be three children…with a bunch of cats, living with my father in my childhood house.
I was knocked out of my pitiful musing by a small cough from Edward.
"Well, I have to get back to work. If you need anything, don't hesitate to ask, Bella."
"Thanks Edward, I appreciate the chat."
Edward gave me a nod, bidding me goodbye, before stepping out of the room, leaving me alone to my own thoughts.
There is nothing like the present to reminisce on what has happened so far. It seems like a life time ago James hit me with a glass and threw Mason across the room. I'm not too sure if things have gotten better or worse since I got here. I've been exposed to my family truly how weak I am. I fell to the power of James and its ruined my life. Mason and Elizabeth will grow without a father, something I never imagined for my children.
I placed a hand on my stomach. My unborn baby will never know its father. But that's a good thing. I vow to never let my baby see that monster of a man. They will never know of the pain that he caused our family. I will protect my baby this time. All of my children.
It's time to get my life sorted and be strong for my kids. I have to prove to my family that I can be strong and that I'm not useless. It's time to make a plan.
I jumped out of bed, ran over to the desk in the room and searched through the draws for some paper and a pen. Once I found one, I jumped back into bed and began to write my to-do list.
Sort your life out Bella!
Get a real job!
Move into your own house ASAP!
Be a good mum!
Ask Edward out on a date?
I laughed at myself for writing the last one out. There would be no way that I could get Edward to go out on a date with me, even if he was single. Anyway, my kids are the most important things in my life at the moment. If I'm meant to fall in love then I will leave it to fate.
I must have lost track of time because the next thing I know, it's sunny outside and a nurse comes through my door to check my blood pressure (heavens knows what for) and to inform me that I have been discharged from the hospital and that Doctor Cullen sends his regards and is sorry that he can't bid me goodbye as he is needed in surgery.
I jump out of bed and run into my bathroom, hopping into the shower once it's warmed up nicely. After washing my hair with the strawberry shampoo Charlie bought down for me, I step out of the show and get dressed. It must be rather warm outside as Charlie only packed me a white lacy summer dress. I slipped on a pair of sandals and packed my belongings away. With once last glance around the room, checking to make sure I had everything, I walked out of my room and down to reception.
I approached the woman behind the counter. She had bleach blond hair, too much make up and what looked to be a very bad nose job. She was too busy polishing her nails to hear me approach.
"Excuse me, I'm Isabella…uh."
What do I say as my last name now? Should I go back to Swan or my married name?
"Honey, if you don't know your last name then I can't help you."
The receptionist's voice was too fake and sounded like someone was screeching like a banshee.
"Isabella Swan." I barked out at her for being so rude in the first place.
She huffed and typed a few things on her computer before handing me a few papers.
"I need to sign here and here." She pointed to the places with her claw like nails.
I sat down in the seating area and filled out my paper work. I was just handing back the documents when I heard someone calling my name down the hall. I turned around to see Edward and Emmett running towards me, both with big grins on their faces.
"Bella, we just heard you were leaving."
"I can't believe you weren't going to say goodbye." Emmett put his head in his hands and began to fake cry.
I chuckled while patting his back, the way I did when Mason got upset.
"There, there baby. It will be alright. I will see you again soon."
"Okay then." Emmett straightened up and pulled me in for a hug. Even though I never really got a chance to talk to him, it was never awkward between us. I guess it was his childish personality and my mothering nature that helped that.
I pulled away from Emmett but was soon pulled into the arms of Edward. I buried my face in his chest and breathed in his amazing scent. Gah, I could stand like this all day. I felt Edwards's breath against my ear and shivered when he whispered in my ear.
"Remember what I told you Bella, you're not alone."
But the moment was ruined when a very loud and rude cough came from behind me. I let go of Edward and turned to look at the receptionists who was now glaring holes in my face. I guess someone is a little jealous.
Edward chuckled slightly nervously and rubbed the back of his neck, while Emmett chuckled behind his hand like a three year old. After a few moments of awkwardness I bid my goodbyes.
"Well I should get going. I want to see the kids. Thank you both for everything you have done for me and I hope to see you again soon; perhaps under better circumstances."
"Well we are having a sort of family get together tomorrow night. It would be a pleasure if you could join us."
I was shocked at first, unable to think of an answer to Edwards proposition.
"Umm, thank you for the invitation but I wouldn't want to impose."
"Whatever Bella, you wouldn't be imposing. We would love to have you there. I was to introduce you to my Rosie and my little sis and her cowboy."
I chuckled at Emmett's enthusiasm.
"Well if you are sure."
"Yes."
"Well then I would love to come."
"And bring the kids along; Alice, Rosalie and Esme love kids. I will pick you all up tomorrow around 6. How does that sound?"
"Wow that sounds great!"
"It's a date then."
Oh boy; A date with Edward.
Shut it you loser, you will be with his family Moron!
I gave then both another hug before heading towards the exit. However, it wasn't long before Edward called my name and ran up to me again.
"Here, I think you forgot this."
He thrusted a piece of paper into my hand and gave me a quick kiss on the cheek before bolting back to Emmett and they both ran off down the hall.
With a slightly burning cheek, tingling from where his lips were, I unfolded the paper and almost had a heart attack. Under number 5 of my to-do list, written in the most elegant script I had ever seen was Promise?
A/N: Okay all together now....Awwwwww.....Just how cheese was that :) Gotta love a bit of cheesey goodness..yum yum
OH!...IMPORTANT ANNOUNCMENT!!! THIS WILL PROBERLY BE MY LAST UPDATE UNTIL I HAVE DONE MY EXAMS!!! I really don't have a lot of time left to revise and I haven't done any so thats a main priority...but if I have time then maybe I will try and write something...this goes to the same as my other stories...if I can get the next updates done..
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Lizzie xxx
