I don't really like this chapter, but I didn't know how else to write it. Thanks for reading this, you guys are awesome, I really appreciate your reviews as well. Hope you guys like this chapter, there will be Demena for sure in the next chapter(:
Selena's Pov
"Selena we need to talk." How is it that a couple of words can make me a complete mess?
"Y-yeah?" I look up at my mom, I try to read her expression, but it seems impossible.
"Are you and Demi, like well, you know?"
"No." I knew what she meant, and I know she doesn't believe me because I'm grinning and blushing like an idiot right now.
Just by mentioning her name, and asking if we're together has me smiling. It's gonna be worse once we're actually together.
"That smile, you're in love." Sh pinched my cheek,making me laugh,
"Yeah. I actually am." I smile even wider at her, and she smiles back.
I thought I was gonna get a lecture, but my mom seems to be in a good mood.
"Aww, my baby's in love. If you aren't with Demi, then what's going on between you two?"
"Stupid complicated stuff. She's in a relationship, I'm not. We love each other, and that's basically it. I mea-" I stop talking when I hear my phone go off.
I scoot my chair back and walk towards the counter, I can hear my mom laughing at the song that just played. I'm pretty sure One And The Same will never stop being my ringtone for her.
'Hey there gorgeous.'
'Hey beautiful. How are you? Was your flight okay?' I walked back to the table with my phone, waiting for Demi to reply.
"You were saying?"
"I don't know. I don't know what's gonna happen between us. We know where we stand, after years of denial and keeping it to ourselves, we've finally opened up, but I don't know what's next.
She says she's gonna break up with Wilmer when she gets back, but that's up to her. I'm not making her do it."
'Yeah everything's fine. Well kinda :|'
'Why?'
"Look, I just want you to know I support you a hundred percent. You're still my baby girl no matter what. I just don't want you to end up hurt. Just think about what you're getting in t- Selena are you even paying attention to me?"
'Because my baby isn't here with me.'
I smiled at my phone for a good minute before texting back.
'You really know how to make a girl smile.'
"We'll talk later, why don't you go upstairs and call your girlfriend." I look up from my phone and see my mom smiling at me.
I get up and run to the stairs, happy that I can talk to Demi. And she just called Demi my girlfriend again, perfect.
"Whoa your room's a mess."
"Nice to see you too."
"I'm sorry. It's just you try to be organized, but your room is still as messy as it was when I left."
"Demi, did you Skype to complain about my room?"
"N-no. I'm sorry, I just, I'm sorry." She could barely speak, which took me by surprise.
"Demi are you okay?" I could tell she was nervous, she kept playing with her fingers, and once I questioned her, she didn't look up.
"Marissa said I'm whipped, but I know I'm not. Right?"
"Ha, you whipped yeah right." I don't understand how I'm able to not laugh right now.
Demi is so whipped, how does she not realize she's whipped? She gives in so easily to almost everything, well with me she always has.
"I'm serious Sel." She pouted and crossed her arms.
"Alright, you're whipped."
"What? Psh I am not."
"Demi you are whipped. You were willing to cancel your tour for me."
Silence, absolute silence.
"B-but that's different."
"Is it?" I could tell she was getting frustrated.
It's not like she's mad, she just doesn't know what to say anymore. She knows I'm right, and she hates it.
"No. Ugh. Is that a bad thing?" She uncrosses her arms and places her left elbow on the table so she can rest her cheek in her hand.
"Well not for me. I can get what I want.
"But that's only because you're you. You're beautiful and cute, and you're s- why are you looking at me?"
I didn't say anything, I just looked at the screen and watched her talk about me. The way her eyes lit up with each compliment she gave me made me smile.
"And you say you're not whipped."
"Fuck you."
"Isn't that the plan? Or I could get Jennel to do it." I wink and smirk at her.
"Wh-what? Jennel? I'm pretty sure that's my job."
"Funny she said the same thing."
"You guys talk?" The way she spoke made me feel like she doesn't like me talking to her.
"Yeah, she's flying over here today. Justin helped her to get signed."
Demi's mouth fell open, I couldn't help but giggle at how cute she's being.
"What? Selena you shouldn't be talking to my ex."
"Whoa, um I can talk to whoever I wanna talk to." She can't tell me who I can and can't talk to.
"Whoa calm down babe. I'm just saying, she's my ex. My baby shouldn't get along with my ex, it's too weird."
"So I'm your baby now?" I asked with a grin on my face.
I have this weird feeling in my stomach right now. My stomach feels tight, but not in a bad way, it just makes me all giddy.
"No. You've always been my baby. It's just that now you're aware of it."
"I love you."
"I know." She replied with a smirk.
Ugh, if it weren't for the fact that we're thousands of miles away I would have definitely punched her again.
"I hate you."
"You do?" The way she said it made her seem so small, but the look on her face said otherwise, I could tell we had the same thought.
"No no no no no! I didn't mean it that way. I didn't mean that 'I hate you. I hate you.' I meant that 'I hate you like you're the love of my life."
"Oh! Well then I hate you too. And that dress is ugly.
"It is?"
"No! It is beautiful and so are you."
It surprised me that even after all these years we were able to memorize those lines exactly the way they were written. Well except for my part, I thought I'd change it up a bit.
I know both of us were just goofing around, but it ended up being more serious than it was intended to be.
Her last line, I could tell she actually meant it, and the same goes for what I said about her being the love of my life.
"Damn, Rosie could have gotten some."
"Ew. I mean not ew like I'm disgusted, it's just weird to hear you talk like that. But would Rosie have gotten some?" Her face had a mix of emotions.
It's like Demi was actually thinking about what I said about Rosie, but she was surprised that I even said something like that.
"Anyways how's the other side of the world?"
"What? Sel come on answer."
I don't know why I thought I could get away with changing the subject, Demi can be so persistent.
"Yes. But you took too long."
"Whoa wait so I could have gotten some? Damn, even when I was young I had game."
"Um hello? Have some respect."
"I am respecting you. I have never done anything to make you uncomfortable. Wait forget what I just said. This is just awkward I'm sorry." She looked away from the screen and looked at her lap.
I saw her look down, but I noticed a small pout on her lips.
I mean yeah that was a bit awkward, not exactly awkward it was just different. Before we had boundaries, we would occasionally cross them but we never said anything about it. We both secretly enjoyed whatever it was that was happening, so there was no point in saying anything about.
I just don't want something like this to affect us. They say friendships tend to get ruined once you get together, but it's different with us. Our friendship fell apart due to the fact that we like each other, it's a mutual feeling. But either way things are gonna change, and I don't know if that's a good thing.
It's one thing to have a best friend and to love them, but to have a best friend and fall in love with them is totally different. It's complicated in a way, but that depends on the person. And now that I'm giving it a bit more thought it just makes my mind race.
This is what my mom was trying to tell me, that I need to think about what I'm getting myself into. I'm getting into a relationship with the love of my life, why does this make me so nervous? And it's not even the nervous like 'oh no', 'it's oh shit I'm scared as fuck type of nervous.'
"Selena you okay? You zoned out for a while."
Am I honestly okay though? Everything kinda just hit me unexpectedly. This isn't something I wanna keep from her, but I feel like this would worry her, and she needs to relax. She's doing what she loves, I don't wanna get in the way of that.
"Yeah, sorry. Um I gotta go."
"What? Sel but, alright. I'll try to text you w-when I can." I could see how disappointed she felt, I don't do it on purpose though.
"I love you princess."
"I-I love you too."
"I'm sorry Demi."
"Bye Sel." And just like that she logged off, leaving me to stare at a blank screen.
"Sel cheer up."
"I'm sorry." I take a sip of my coffe and sigh once I put back on the table.
Jennel got here a while ago, I thought I'd take her out to that coffee shop we went to before she left.
She knew something was off the moment I called her, it surprises me how close we we're able to get in such little time, but I'm okay with it.
Jennel's is just an overall nice person, she has such a caring personality, and it isn't just that, but she's an idiot.
"You know it's okay for you to be feeling like this. It makes sense, you shouldn't beat yourself up for it. Honestly I think you should talk to her about it.
Demi's walls are gone now. When she falls, she falls hard, you should know that, you've actually been there through her heartbreaks. As strong as Demi is, she's weak when it comes to who she falls for, and since it's you, it makes it even worse.
She's had time, more like years to think about what could happen if you guys ever got together. She's had a mix of emotions due to it, but in the end no matter what conclusion she came to, she knew she wanted you.
Of course she's scared, just like you are, but she's already fallen way too hard for you, there's really no going back for her."
That's not really what I wanted to hear. I mean I needed to hear it but it just makes me feel guilty. I shouldn't be allowed to think because I've made this even more complicated than what it already is.
Scared? What am I scared of? People finding out? We've kept or friendship private, we've gone out and managed not to get caught. Everyone thinks we don't talk to each other, which is a good thing in a way. But it's not like I wanna hide it, but I don't wanna yell it out to the world either. I wouldn't mind if they found out, I'm okay with who I am, and I'm not ashamed of who I love. So why am I so scared?
"But I don't get why I'm scared. I've already fallen for her, I'm past the stage of puppy love, this is actual love. I am head over heels in love with her, what is that I'm so scared about?"
"Losing her." Her voice was small, but I still heard it, and she's right.
I'm scared of losing Demi. I've lost her before, and it would kill me to lose her again.
Demi's Pov
"Demetria Gomez."
"Marissa, get the hell out. What is with you today?" She laughs and closes the door.
I watch as she slips her shoes off and walks towards me. She throws herself on the bed next to me and turns around to face me.
"You and Selena, like it's about time. 13 years of friendship, it's taken you like 4 years to finally tell her you love her. And you guys aren't even together, but that's okay because I'm so happy for you guys."
"Don't remind me, as if it isn't enough that we're thousands of miles apart. " I sigh and rub my face.
I miss her so much, and she cut me off when we Skyped. Technically I did, but I knew she didn't wanna talk to me anymore. I don't know what happened, maybe I said something I shouldn't have and that upset her. I just wish she wouldn't shut me out.
"Demi but it's a good thing for you guys to be apart. I'm not trying to be a buzz kill, but do you know how hard things are gonna get the moment we land in LA?
You have to confront Wilmer, whom you haven't even talked to yet, and then Selena. It's just a break up, but I feel like it won't be something easy."
"Do you think this a sign? Maybe this isn't our time and I need to stay with Wilmer?"
"Are you having second thoughts?" Am I having second thoughts?
Fuck, I'm having second thoughts. This doesn't surprise me, I tend to think about things more than neccessary. They aren't exactly second thoughts, more like precaution, I guess.
It's not like I don't wanna be with her, but there's so much drama, so much complications, it seems almost impossible for us to be together. Do I have to fight for her, or just let things flow?
"I don't know anymore."
Demifanatic123: She'll get rid of Wilmer soon(:
Suefanficlover: Lol nah Wilmer won't cheat, there's enough complications right now.
Demenaforever13: I might take your idea into consideration lol
Manhattanpizza: Lol aww thanks, I love you too. There's gonna be more Jennel and Selena since she's now and LA.
PinkWillow: I'll write something separate for the selfie, or I'll at least try lol.
LovezObsessed: MUAHAHAHAHAHA. Lol jk nah.
