I finished this last night but couldn't get on the computer. I'm gonna end it soon, I honestly don't know when, I'm starting to lose interest in this story and I have no ideas anymore. If you guys have any please let me know. Heads up tho, there won't be any drama, maybe schedule problems but that's it.
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Demi's Pov
This is the first time I've talked to Selena in weeks. Ever since we Skyped it's been impossible to be able to communicate.
It wasn't just the busy schedule and the time zones, we weren't exactly making an effort. In a way I was ignoring her, and I get the feeling she was doing the same thing with me.
I would get maybe two texts from her each day, and occasionally a call, but that was it. Some days I would blow up her phone, only for her to not reply. She wouldn't answer me, and I wouldn't answer her, we just couldn't get a hold of each other.
And now that I'm on my way back to her house from the airport it just makes it awkward. I haven't gotten a kiss or a hug, I got a small smile, and a pat on the back, that was it. And the smile wasn't even one of the gorgeous one that reach her gorgeous eyes, it was a forced smile.
The amount of words we've exchanged isn't enough, but I guess in a way this was to be expected. I don't know why I thought she'd receive me with open arms.
"I see you've taken a liking to my jacket."
I look away from the window when I hear her voice. We had just reached a red light so she took the time to look at me.
"Yeah. I've been trying to wear it for as long as I can, is that a bad thing or does that make me creepy?" I smile at her and she smiles back, but this time it's an actual smile.
She grabs my hand and laces our fingers together, her other hand rests on the steering wheel. It's weird to see her driving, it was usually me that would drive, and she's driving my car, which makes it even weirder.
"It's cute."
"Just like you." I whisper, but she still heard me.
I saw the light change to green, she turned to face the road, but I still caught the smile and blush on her face.
"Ahem whipped." She pretended to cough, I rolled my eyes and sighed.
"How long do I have to wait to get a kiss from you? Or a hug, or maybe an actual greeting?"
I don't mean to sound like a bitch, but it just really bothers me. She's joking around as if we never stopped talking, which is a good thing in a way, but still I need her.
"Not now." I felt her squeeze my hand, this time she sighs.
"I'm sorry." I apologize and look out the window, I hadn't realized we were almost at her house.
"Demi I, never mind."
"No Sel tell me."
"I'm sorry. I've just had a lot of time, well more like too much time to think and I guess it's just gotten to my head."
The car comes to stop, she takes her seatbelt off and the engine turns off. Her hand slips out of mine, I just sit here and watch as she gets out.
I take my seatbelt off and hold my face in my hands. What the hell just happened? What the hell is happening to us? Marissa was right, things wouldn't be so easy.
Or maybe they will be, because right now her lips are pressed against mine and her fingers are tangled in my hair.
I hadn't even noticed when she opened the door, I was too lost in my thoughts. When she took my chin in her hands and gently tugged it so I could face her I realized that she had gotten out of the car to open the door for me, but she didn't let me speak because once our eyes met she crashed our lips together.
I'm not complaining though because I can tell she needed this just as much as I did. I hate to pull away, but she leaves me breathless.
"What was that for?" She doesn't respond, she walks away.
I run out of my car and slam the door. Why is that I'm always chasing after her? Even when we were kids it was the same thing, she would walk or run away laughing and I would have to chase her, just like now.
"Demi!" She squeals my name as I pick her up.
I don't know how we ended up like this, but her legs are wrapped around my waist and my hands are resting on her thighs. I lost my balance for a quick second, I felt her tense up but she calmed down once I was properly standing.
"I love you princess." I didn't think I'd be her princess, I always thought it would be the other way around, but I don't mind.
She leaned down to kiss me, but I moved before her lips could come in contact with mine, which was a stupid thing to do because I lost my balance again and fell backwards, making her fall with me,and now we're laying on her yard.
She punches my arm as she gets off the ground, but she won't stop laughing so I know she isn't mad at me. Her laugh is contagious so I join her. Selena puts her hand out and I take it so I can get back up. Once I'm up on my feet she runs again, but this time she makes it inside. She's so childish.
"Selena you're girlfriend is on the couch, stop making her run." I hear Mandy screaming as she passes through the living room.
"Selena your mom is teasing me." I scream just like she did and follow her into the kitchen.
"Mom leave her alone." I hear Selena's voice, but I don't know where she's at.
"Yeah Mandy leave me alone." I walk up to Mandy and wrap my arm around her shoulder.
"How was your tour Demi?" I walk towards the stool to take a seat, but I feel two hands wrap around my waist.
She pulls me down so I can sit on her lap. She kisses my shoulder and I let out a shaky breathe. Her mom is right there and Selena decides to do this.
"I-it was great. I really enjoyed myself, the beach there was gorgeous. The water was so clear, it wasn't crowded, I just really had fun. And the fans there are so supportive and amazing."
"That's great Demi. When's the album coming out?"
"M-May. It should be out by May." I bend Selena's finger, not hard enough to hurt her, but enough to tell her that she needs to stop.
Her mom has been giving me weird looks because I'm talking funny, but she has no clue that Selena is walking her fingers up and down my thigh.
"You okay there Demi?" I hear Selena laughing, and I just shake my head.
"Actually is it okay if I lay down for a bit? I'm really tired from the flight."
"Of course Demi, make yourself at home." I nod and get off Selena's lap.
I tug a piece of her hair and start running. I hear her scream out in pain, but I keep running. I'm halfway up the stairs when I see her. I stop running and just walk the short distance.
I open the door to her room, just as I go to walk in she grabs my hand and spins me around. Her hands go to my cheeks and she pulls me in for a kiss. We start walking, I hear the door close and then a small thud. The back of my legs hit her bed, causing the headboard to hit the wall.
I fall on her bed, our lips part, but only for them to come together once again. I push myself backwards until my back hits her headboard, she places herself in between my legs. Our breaths are out of control, but we don't stop, we're both hungry for each other.
My hands go to her hips, her shirt had gone up a bit so I gently scratched at the exposed skin. I'm guessing she liked it because her hips bucked against mine.
I pushed her off and took in a deep breath, trying to regain my breath as quickly as possible. I can't believe that just happened.
"Fuck Demi what the hell?"
"Oh shit Selena I'm sorry. I-I panicked. Are you okay?" I sat up and watched as got up from the floor, I can't believe I pushed her off like that.
"I'm fine Demi. But are you?" She got on her bed and sat next to me.
I turned to face her and tried to smile, but I couldn't. I couldn't stop replaying what had just happened. I can still feel her body on mine, I still feel how her lips moved against mine, the way her tongue pressed down on mine, I can't shrug this feeling off, I'm stuck on this temporary high.
"We can't do this Selena. I'm sorry I got caught up in the moment."
"Fuck Demi! Can we just stop? For once can we be selfish and forget the world? Can we just fuck everything so we can finally be together? Is it really that fucking hard?" She started shouting and I stared at her in awe.
Selena's a lot more patient than I am, and a lot more calm so it surprises me that she talking like this. It's not just her tone of voice, it's what she's saying. She's tired of this, she just wants us to be together, just like I do, but it can't happen so easily.
There's Wilmer, and then our careers, and our fans. I was lucky enough to not lose a lot of my fans with me entering rehab, but if people found out I'm with a girl what would happen? And it's not even about me, what about her?
"I'll call you later."
"You're serious?"
"Yes. I'm sorry, but I can't do this anymore, it isn't fair to anyone. You're an amazing person Wilmer, you really are, I really do love you, but we can't be together anymore. I'm done hurting people."
"But you're hurting me Demi." I let go of his hand and sigh.
Why can't this be easy? Can't I just tell him to fuck off? But that's not like me, unfortunately because that would make things so much easier and quicker.
"I'm sorry Wilmer, it's the way things have to be. You still mean a lot to me, and trust me this is hurting me as well, but it's for the best. You don't deserve to have someone cheat on you like this, you deserve to be in a happy relationship with someone, and that person can't be me."
"Alright." He sighs and rubs his face.
"I'm really sorry Wilmer." I get up and pat his back.
It feels awkward, but what else do I do? I've never really been good at goodbyes, but I don't think this is a goodbye, it's more like an I'll see you later.
I wrap my arms around his neck and lean in to peck the side of his head. I let my lips linger a bit longer than necessary, but once I pull away he pulls me into him.
"It's Selena, isn't it?"
His question totally caught me off guard, but I don't have to respond, the smile on my face says it all
"It's about time. In that case I'm really happy for you Dems."
"She pushed you off the bed?"
"Yeah. I mean I'm not mad, I know she didn't do it on purpose. I kinda just pushed her into that? I started it, not really thinking how it would play out. I got caught up in the moment. I feel bad about it."
The door to her room wasn't closed all the way so I could clearly hear everything she was saying. I let my self in deciding to surprise her.
"You shouldn't feel bad about it, both of you got caught up in the moment. She just came to her sense before you did, no big deal."
It took me a while but I finally recognized the other person's voice. I had completely forgotten Jennel was here. I fucked her over bad, it makes sense that we never had any contact since she left.
"I guess. We aren't even together and I feel like I've fucked things up already. I guess I'm still scared."
"There's nothing for you to be scared of beautiful." I opened the door and saw Selena sitting on her bed and Jennel spread out on the floor. She always said the floor was more comfortable than an actual bed.
"D-Demi."
"S-Selena." I say Selena's name just like she said mine, she rolled her eyes and I heard Jennel laugh.
"Hey there rockstar." I turn to face Jennel and greet her with the nickname I gave her, I guess it's something that stuck with me
She smiled at me and waved. I kept walking towards Selena's bed and then settled down next to her, our knees brushed up against each other. It didn't really have an affect on me, it was just an accident, but it seem to have affected her because she took in a deep shaky breath.
I looked down at Jennel and she was already looking at me, but she was smirking at me. She looked at Selena and raised her eyebrows, that caused her to blush and hide her face in my shoulder. I'm so confused.
"I'll be right back, I left something in my car." I get off the bed and practically run downstairs.
Once I made it outside I texted Selena and told her to come meet me outside. This is something I don't wanna put off any longer, it needs to be done now.
"Demi is everything okay?"
"Yes. No? Yes, yes. I just okay. Give me a minute." I had to cut off my rambling otherwise I wouldn't have stopped.
This is something somewhat easy, it's just a question, a simple question which I'm pretty sure I already know the answer to. You got this Demi.
"Alright. This wasn't supposed to happen like this, none of this was supposed to happen like this. I always thought this moment would be different, maybe more romantic, like at a restaurant, another country, not your driveway, but this is something I don't want to put off any longer.
We met when were 7, I asked you to sit on my jacket and color with me. You smiled at me, showing your missing teeth, and I laughed.
We got the roles on Barney, and we became best friends. We were inseparable, we were practically sisters.
We grew up together, our families grew closer, we even moved out to California together.
As we got older, as I started spending more time with you I began to love you even more.
I loved you like a best friend, we would stay up late and talk about boys and read stupid magazines just like any other best friends would at that age. We had each others back because that's just the way things work between friends.
But then I saw you differently. The hugs, the kisses, the hand holding, and the I love you's weren't the same anymore, they affected me a lot more.
Your touch would drive me insane and I was only 15. I was 15, I barely knew what I was doing with my life, but I knew I never wanted you out of my life. I knew that if you weren't there I didn't have a purpose in life.
We drifted apart, and that killed me. My best friend wasn't there anymore, my other half was missing, I was alone even though I was surrounded by people. I crashed, and you weren't there, I realized it was up to me to make the difference.
I got better because of you, because that was the only way to get you back in my life. If it wouldn't have been for you who knows if I'd still be alive today.
And now that your back in my life, now that you've proved that you aren't walking out, I wanna make sure it stays like that, I wanna be sure that you're gonna be there for me, because I'm gonna be there for you. So Selena, will you be my girlfriend?"
She blinked a couple times, but I still saw the tears rolling down her face. I was quick to wipe them away, which caused her to smile.
"Hmm, I don't know Demi. I've got my eye on this girl right now."
What? What the fuck does she mean she has her eye on someone? I'm hers, she's mine simple as that.
Did I seriously just pour out my heart for absolutely no reason? I didn't even think this through, it just came out of nowhere and this what she does. She tells me she has her eye on someone and then she smiles at me and oh shit she's talking about me, isn't she?
I feel her fingers under my chin, I don't look up though, I don't want to because I'm close to tears. I'm an idiot for thinking she doesn't love me.
"You might know her though, she's about your height, has chocolate-brown eyes, an amazing voice and the loudest cutest laugh. And she's totally whipped." She laughs and tilts my chin up, our lips are so close.
I look down at her lips, and then back at her, but she was already focused on my lips. I wrap my arms around her neck and feel her hands on my waist. She pulls me into her and tightens her grip on my waist.
Our lips are centimeters apart, she leans in a bit and slowly brushes her lips against mine. The stay in place as I feel her breath hit my lips, I feel her lips form into a smile as she whispers against my lips.
"Yes Demi. I'll be your girlfriend "
Veehxd: Lol well obviously they aren't overthinking things anymore.
Demenaforever13: Hope you like how things worked out.
Manhattanpizza: Demetria Gomez does have a nice ring to it, I'm pretty sure I'll be using it more often, apart form Voldemort.
Suefanficlover: Hope this was quick enough(:
LovezObsessed: Lol hope you're happy with this(:
