Previously:

So there we all were enjoying lunch at Bennet's desk when Nancy came up to me and said that a gentleman was waiting at the front desk for me and that he insisted that he see me. Walt and Bennet shot me a look of worry as I placed my lunch down and headed for the front desk.

Carrie P.O.V

Like most things in life we over think, and when Nancy came up to me and said an man insisted that he see me I honestly had a flash of panic come over me. But as it turns out it was my dad waiting at reception. As soon as I saw him I invited to come and sit with Bennet, Walt and I whilst we had lunch. Dad was just checking in with me to see I wasn't in trouble and checking in on Walt because his parents asked him to. Once he was certain that we were fine he promised to check in same time next week and then he was off to meet Harlan Silver for lunch. Once he was gone Walt looked at me and said, "Am I the only one worried that was going to be that guy we bumped into the other day? I mean your dad tells his dad everything and surely he knows that if he wants to know where you are to just ask his dad. He did seem really eager to see you." Poor Bennet looked out of place and like he understood this was a boy problem just one he knew not the detail of. Walt was right though, for a second I had thought George had found out where I was and going to confront me. "Am I missing something?" Bennet said looking between the worried look on Walt's face and mine which I was sure mirrored Walt's, maybe I should give Bennet the details of the train wreck that was my history with George Silver.

I turned to face Bennet and started to explain what happened between George Silver and I. "I had a run in with an ex the other day, he wanted to talk but I obviously not wanting to visit any old wounds ran off, we didn't exactly end things on great terms and the downside to the messy break up is that our fathers are best friends." Bennet gave me that look that screamed 'give me details' so I sat back down in my chair and started from the beginning. "I met George at my old internship, well actually that's not true we met when I was younger. I was four at the time and he was seven, his father had taken him out of the city to get away from it for a while, he rubbed poison ivy all over me. He was so good looking and charming but I was still a bit hung up on Sebastian dating a girl that despises me and declined his invitation to go to his mother Kik's soirée. After much convincing from the girls though I ended up going and he treated me like a princess even though everyone else looked down on me. After one of his mothers episodes though I found out that his mother was best friends with mine and after finding that out she gave us her blessing. George and I dated happily for a few months and I brought him to a school dance, which was where everything went pear shaped. Needless to say he tried to push me into something I didn't want to do and I broke up with him. I haven't seen him since. Well up until a few days ago." Bennet looked at me with pride and sadness, Walt too.

"Carrie that was really brave of you to do, in this day and age girls still don't understand that they can say no if they don't feel comfortable doing something let alone leave the guy if he keeps pressuring you. It isn't safe to be with someone like that. It's just sad that people and girls in particular are so blinded by what they think is love that they can't see that what they're doing isn't healthy." The way Bennet talked about what I did and how brave I was changed how I saw things, I never realised that some girls do stuff because they think that they love the person hurting them. I imagine that makes it hard for girls, growing up and learning about how true love is forever and that when a guy you love comes along you keep him not matter what because that's what happens to the fairytale princesses. Nobody knows if Snow White grew sad and missed the days when she cared for the seven dwarfs or if Cinderella grew bored of balls and fancy dresses. We grow up with the expectations that once we fall in love that's when everything is perfect, but life is far from perfect. Life is hard and most of the times what we enjoy only makes things harder for us in the end.

Thinking like that made me think of Maggie, as much as I am mad at her for what she did she embodies the type of girl that will fall for the wrong type of guy and end up hurt. We've been friends for so long that being mad at her hurts but I also know that I need to keep my ground. Maggie is just starting to realise her actions have consequence and losing me is one. Walt looked down at his watch and relayed that lunch break was over and hugged both Bennet and I before heading back to work. I cleared up the rubbish from lunch and took my water bottle to the reception desk and resumed manning the phone lines.

Maggie P.O.V

This sucks, I know that what I did was wrong but I thought my friendship with Carrie was stronger than that. Sometimes I really wish we were kids again so that we didn't have to worry about boys and college and what we are going to do after we graduate. I don't have a clue what I am going to do, my options are get a crappy dead end job here or marry someone because there isn't any money for me to go to college, a scholarship would help but that would mean being like Mouse and have to study constantly and there was no way I was that desperate. So I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. It didn't help I kept falling back into Simon's arms, well the back seat of his police cruiser to be exact.

Why couldn't I be more like Carrie or Mouse? They have drive and support of their parents, what do I have? Nothing, I am going to be stuck in Castlebury forever. Not that it matters anymore what I think about them, I don't even want to think about Walt and Carrie but I lose Mouse by default, she was always more team Carrie so I won't have her side. Not that I deserve to have Mouses back, I did kiss Sebastian. Speak of the devil here he comes; I thought I'd be alone with my thoughts at the park. "What is with you shooting whatever chances I have with Carrie in the face? We'd JUST made up when you blurted out that we'd kissed. I thought that with the way she acted finding out about her dad making out in his car with a woman that you'd keep from her the fact that we kissed. Now she's run off to the city for god knows how long and Mouse has told me to stay away." He looked both angry and sad, like I had enough on my plate without him adding to my problems, "I love her Maggie and after this, well I hope to god I get another shot because I can't lose her. She means more to me than anything else and if I lose that I have no idea what I will do." Now I felt terrible, more so than before.

"I know, I know I stuffed up big. Do you think I wanted to hurt Carrie? I've known her since kindergarten, she's been with me through everything and I went and screwed it up like I screwed everything up. I can't have anything perfect in my life because god be damned if I am happy for an extended period. But you aren't perfect yourself. You had to tell me about Walt, do you have any idea what it is like to be told that the person you love could never love you? No you don't. I spend two years feeling like crap because I thought Walt didn't like me or my body but no I had to find out after two years that it was him, not me that had problems. So yeah you might have Carrie pissed at you for kissing me and hiding her dads secret but at least she loves you." The tears were pouring down my face, talking about Walt brought up everything and managed to make me feel like I was Niagara Falls.

I got up and started to walk away from him, being near him made me worse, "Look maybe it would be best if we stayed away from each other. Carrie and I may not be friends anymore but that doesn't mean that I don't care about her, that's why I told her. So for her sake stay away from me, you were cool but together we are just volatile for Carrie. I don't want to hurt her more than I already have." And with that I walked away, to where? Anywhere, I just needed to put as much distance between Sebastian Kidd and myself as possible.

AN:

You have no idea how long I have wanted to update but I got stuck so I decided to push myself. Like one of the many advice blogs I have read on being a writer said you can't always wait for inspiration to hit you. To be a writer sometimes means doing actual work, to sit down for hours and push yourself. So I stopped waiting for inspiration and I watched the episodes over again and had my reviews next to me to push me forward.

To those who reviewed, thank you. You people with your lovely comments are what keep me going. If I didn't have half the reviews that I have gotten then I don't think I would have continued with this. You guys are my rock.

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