A/n: Thank you for all your support, despite my lack of updating. So glad that you are all still here, a special thank you to those of you who always review. Although I regret to have to inform you that I most likely won't be updating anymore, that is I most likely won't be able to update anymore, under the reality that I am basically being forced to take an Apprentiship, and if I say no I then I am sanctioned by the Job Center for three years. I won't be able to pay for the electric in my house anymore, nor the water, basically what I am paid will literally just cover the rent, if I am lucky since I will no longer get any housing benefits. On top of that my sister won't speak to me because of it, it won't be long before the food in the house runs out and then we will be living on tap water. As all the money that my sister gets will have to go to bills.
Sebastian woke the following morning with a pounding headache. Something that he could only have predicted. For a few moments he forgot where he was. That was until everything came flooding back to him again. He groaned softly. Last night had been one hell of a ride. He almost cringed at the memory of pretty much just throwing himself at Vincent. He sat up, and instantly regretted it. He clutched a hand to his head, before slowly climbing out of bed and heading to the bathroom, to get a drink of water from the tap. What had he been thinking? He hadn't been thinking, that was the only answer.
When he returned Vincent was still asleep. The last thing that Sebastian wanted to do was wake him up. He sat on the edge of bed and rummaged around in pocket of his jacket and finally found his phone. Five missed calls, four from Hunter and one from Nick, plus seven texts. Five from Hunter, one from Nick and one from Brittany.
He opened the one from Brittany first Got home, if you decide to come to mine tonight my mum said to tell you that she will leave a key under the bin.
He smiled at the text and made a mental note to give her a ring or a text later on to let her know that everything was okay. First he had to deal with the texts from Hunter and Nick. He took a breath in, having a feeling that he already knew what they were going to say. Sure enough the texts from Hunter read what he had expected. All five of them. Are still mad at me? I thought you wanted me to fix it and I did. Please just call me.
Sebastian, you ignoring me? What time you back?
Okay if you are not talking to me then fine, but please text me what time you are coming back
S, you are freaking me out now. Call me, text me, anything. Just so I know you are okay. Please I am begging you.
Sebastian Smythe, please let me know you are alright. Where you staying? Who you with? I tried all the Warblers and none of them know where you are, although Kurt said you went out with Brittany, but she left without you. No one has seen you all night. Just call a Warbler if you won't talk to me, please. I am begging you. I love you and couldn't stand it if anything happened to you.
Sebastian frowned and deleted the texts from his phone. He didn't want to be tempted to read them again later, something that he knew would happen only to well. He opened Nick's text last of all. Nick had never really been one to text much, when he did they were short and got straight to the point. There was never anything that wasn't needed, unlike Hunter and the way that he rambled on in them.
Hey, Sebastian. Call me when you get this. We're all worried about you. Nick xxx
Typical, even in a frantic worry about one of his friends Nick didn't fail his signature text ending. The three kisses to defend his honour as Number 3. He sighed softly and turned his head to glance at Vincent. He was still asleep, Sebastian rose to his feet and headed back into the bathroom to call Nick back, in order to save accidentally waking him up.
Hunter hadn't slept a wink all night. How could he have gotten any sleep. Sebastian was not only mad at him, but he had broken up with him, broken his heart and on top of all that he was being way to stubborn just to send him a simple text back to tell him that he was alright. That was all Hunter had wanted. Why couldn't he just do that? It wasn't exactly a hard task, was it? He'd spent most of the night staring at his phone, surely Sebastian had to call soon or even text. He had to do something to keep him from going insane. He sat up and pulled his laptop into his lap and started typing away at it. Typing a sorry to Sebastian. Even if he never showed it to him a least he would know that he had tried to put down into words how he felt. He'd never meant to hurt him. He had never wanted to hurt him, that hadn't ever been his intentions. He just wanted to win Sectionals, he wanted to prove to him that he was capable of teaching a dance routine to the rest of the Warblers and that he didn't need the help of Sebastian. Only that had all blown up in his face and he'd lost the one person that he needed in this world. He soon started work on a song. Something that hinted at his feelings yet didn't give to much away about anything. He was sure that he could get Nick and Jeff to help him out with the harmonising. He could only hope that it wasn't all for a lost cause and that Sebastian would actually turn up to practise, that afternoon. Surely he wouldn't miss it right? If only he could be sure that Sebastian would show up, even if he pushed him away and ignored his advances and attempt to win him back. As long as he was there and he could be certain that the love of his life and his best friend was safe, that was what would make him smile.
Hunter took a breath in and finally rose to his feet, stripping off his clothes as he headed into the bathroom, his hand reached up to turn on the shower when he heard his dormitory door being thrown open and Nick's voice rang out "Hunter! Where are you?"
Hunter groaned and grabbed a towel, wrapping it around his waist and stepping out the bathroom "Ever heard of knocking, Duval?" he frowned at him folding his arms to his chest.
"Sorry," Nick apologised "Sebastian called. I texted him last night saying we were worried and he called just about ten minutes ago. I pretty much ran all the way here, from my dorm"
"Your dorm? Your dorm is at the other end of Dalton. How on earth did you manage that?. You are the worst runner in Dalton"
Nick shrugged his shoulders slightly "No idea" he said in a reply as he sat down on Hunter's bed, almost out of breath. "Go have a shower. I just have to get my breath back before I leave"
Hunter nodded slightly "Thanks for telling me about Sebastian." he smiled "I am going to need to the help of yours and Jeff's harmonising skills in Warbler practise today."
"Count us in, you lead we will follow"
Hunter nodded and headed back into the bathroom, shutting the door behind him and turning on the shower, letting the water run for a couple of minutes, to warm up, before dropping his towel and climbing in. He was barely aware of Nick leaving the room. His thoughts remained on Sebastian. He wished he knew where he was. Nick would have told him if he knew, right?
He sighed softly to himself. Was this really how things were going to be from now on? His thoughts dwelling upon Sebastian? Wondering what he was doing every minute of the day and night when he couldn't see him with his own eyes. It was tearing him apart. He just needed Sebastian to forgive him and he'd do anything he wanted him to just to prove how much he needed him. Hunter knew it was going to be hard, Sebastian Smythe was a hard guy to please at the best of times. The best way to get into his good books was to give him an orgasm that he would never forget. Only how was he going to do that when he wouldn't so much as text him back, just to let him know that he was alive.
Sebastian swallowed the lump in his throat. He stepped out the bathroom, after a refreshing shower, and into the main room of the hotel suite, in just a towel. He flashed Vincent a small smile, seeing that he had now woken up.
"Morning" Vincent grinned at him
"Morning." Sebastian replied, sitting himself down on the end of the bed. "I didn't wake you with the shower did I?"
"No, I was waking up anyway as you got up. What time you leaving?"
Sebastian shrugged. He didn't want to think about that right now. He'd told Nick to let their teachers know that he wouldn't be in for the morning lessons, yet as for the afternoon he hadn't the foggiest. "I don't know. Whenever I feel like it I guess. Although I can't miss Warbler Practise"
Vincent nodded slightly. "You are welcome to stay as long as you want. It's of no burden to me. I like having your company."
Sebastian smiled softly, and made a start on drying himself off. He hadn't gotten very far before he felt Vincent moving down the bed towards him. He felt his breath catching in his throat as Vincent's hands rested against his shoulders.
"Let me" Vincent whispered into his ear, pressing soft kisses along his jawline, causing Sebastian's eyes to, subconsciously, close and his head to move backwards, in order to give him more access. Technically this was cheating, right? If he had broken up with Hunter, then he couldn't exactly cheat on him.
Vincent's eyes travelled down Sebastian's body, god did that guy have one amazing body. Sebastian was still sat on the edge of the bed and it was all that Vincent could do not to just bend him over and fuck him. Only what would that prove? It would only tell Sebastian that he was good at nothing but sex, and he certainly didn't want that. He wanted Sebastian to really know what it was like to be at the mercy of another guy. He didn't doubt for a second that Hunter had done exactly that, not that it was something that he wanted to think about, yet he wasn't Hunter and he could think of much better ways to make Sebastian his and leave his mark in his memory. With those thoughts in his head he climbed off the bed and grabbed something from the drawer as he passed it. Sebastian didn't see what it was, yet he had a hunch as Vincent spoke to him.
"You trust me right?"
Sebastian found himself unable to utter any words and resulted to nodding his head.
"Lie back on the bed" Vincent continued and walked around, kneeling on the floor in front of him.
Sebastian swallowed and did as he was told. His heart was pounding in his chest. Vincent's, on the other hand, was a hell of a lot calmer than he thought he would be in this position. He had dreamed of this, having Sebastian at his uttermost mercy, from the moment they had met. Yet it had always been Sebastian taking charge. Now for once he was going to lie there and be his play thing, instead of it being the opposite way around. He'd have done this last night if Sebastian hadn't been drunk and unable to speak for himself. Now that he could say stop at any moment he couldn't hold back anymore. He squeezed some lube onto his fingers, from the bottle in his hand.
"Just one thing, if you want me to stop just say the word and I will instantly. I promise. Wouldn't want it to get to much for you" Although he wasn't exactly sure if he would be able to or not. He had never seen Sebastian from this angle, so up close and exposed.
Without another word, he pressed his fingers to Sebastian's entrance. Sebastian groaned softly, automatically arching up into his fingers, only to have Vincent press his free hand to his stomach and gently press down, holding him down. It felt so good inside Sebastian, so warm, so tight. He wanted to plunge into him, fuck him senseless. He'd never been inside him before, Sebastian had never given him the chance. He continued to stretch him open with his fingers, gently pushing a second on in. He needed to be inside of him.
"Vincent," Sebastian's voice was low, his breathing still ragged from arousal.
His lips collided with the tip of Sebastian's erection, his tongue running down the pulsating length. Lower and lower, all he could hear were the deep breaths coming from Sebastian's lips, his legs shaking. Not waiting to get permission, he pressed his tongue to Sebastian's entrance, hearing him let out a tremulous breath. He continued to lick at him, his tongue circling the tight ring of muscles, slowly pushing through, hearing Sebastian let out a deep moan.
Just hearing the way that Sebastian was enjoying this, feeling his body respond, he knew this was the best choice he had made. He pushed his tongue deeper into Sebastian, who let out a small yelp, his legs trembling, his hand pulling at his hair. The passion increased as Vincent pushed his fingers inside of Sebastian alongside his tongue, hearing more mewls as he spread him open. He could get used to this.
"Fuck...fuck" Sebastian groaned "Please... stop teasing me... please...just fuck me already"
"Oh I have no plans on doing that. You deserve more than that Sebastian." as he spoke his fingers continued their work inside of him, he added in a third finger. "You deserve to feel like you mean something. The way you feel right now is the way you make me feel when I am with you. You teased me enough last night now its my turn to tease you"
"Please don't." Sebastian almost begged him "You know I hate being teased like this"
Vincent simply grinned up a him "Oh I don't think you do. You should really think before you speak Sebastian, your body is telling me otherwise" he smiled, pressed his lips to Sebastian's erection and lowered down onto him, taking his entire length into his mouth. Sebastian groaned loudly and bucked his hips upwards.
"God please fuck me," Sebastian almost begged him. Yet Vincent continued to suck him, acting as though he hadn't heard his pleading words, his hand wrapped around the base of his cock, sucking him. Finally Sebastian came with a cry, coating his throat with cum. Vincent kept up the same rhythm until Sebastian was completely spent.
"You should get dressed," he said to him, rising to his feet and holding his hands out to help him up. Sebastian raised his arms and took hold of his hands and let him pull him up to his feet. Their eyes met and for a few moments neither said anything. Sebastian finally spoke. "I haven't got any clean clothes"
"Borrow some of mine. You can bring me them back tonight, I can meet you at Scandal?"
Sebastian shook his head "No, I think I need to stay away from that place for a few nights, after how much I drank last night I don't want to be around alcohol. Lima Bean?"
"Lima Bean sounds perfect." he smiled. And leant in and pressed a kiss to his lips. Sebastian's lips fit against his like a puzzle piece. Vincent felt his tongue gently flick across his bottom lip before drawing back. He pressed his hand against Sebastian's chest, resting it just over his heart. He could feel it beating like crazy beneath his palm. The kiss lasted a little longer than Vincent should probably have let it, yet Sebastian was just impossible not to love. He had something about him that made everyone want him, the only problem with that was that it seemed nobody wanted to share him. He must haven known the effect that he had on men, and most likely most women.
Vincent sat down on the bed and rested back against the pillows, watching Sebastian get dressed. "You know, I much prefer to watch getting undressed"
Sebastian smiled softly towards him and lent down to press a kiss to his lips. " I should go. See you later"
Without another word he was gone, just like that. Vincent found himself staring at the door that had swung shut on its hinges. That was how things always were with Sebastian, he never seemed to stay around for long enough. It just wasn't fair. He knew that he should let him be who he wanted and be with who he wanted to be with, it was clear that he was completely head over heels for this Hunter guy. Yet was it so wrong for him to just want him all to himself. Just to wrap him up in his arms and take him back to England and be with him forever? He had to tell him exactly how he felt and it was going to have to be tonight, when he met him at the Lima Bean. It was the only way that he'd at least be able to rest and stop himself from going mad over his feelings. Sebastian Smythe was the guy for him, he knew that and as long as he walked the earth he would never be happy with anyone else.
Sebastian was dreading setting foot back into Dalton again. Somehow being with Vincent all night had made him forget that he had to face Hunter again at some point. He knew he couldn't avoid him forever, but now it just seemed like he was facing him a little too soon. He took a breath in as he made his way up the stairs. With any luck Hunter would be in lessons and therefore not in their dormitory, which would mean he could have a shower and then escape to the Library to get some work done, before Warbler Practise, at least he would be safe from Hunter in there for a while, since unless warbler practise was being held in there, when the Common Room was in use by the teachers, Hunter never bothered to so much as set foot in the place. Thankfully he was correct, their dorm room was empty. Sebastian had a quick shower, before pulling on his uniform, picking up his bag and heading back down stairs.
He stepped into the library, there were only a few students in there, most likely on a study period. Most of them rapidly working on an essay that was probably due that afternoon. Sebastian glanced around the room and finally found a table to sit at. He hurried over and dumped his bag down upon the top of it before sitting himself into the seat and pulling out an essay, he'd already done most of it, thankfully, since his brain wasn't in the mood for actually functioning properly. He'd decided up the seat facing the door. He wanted to be on his guard, if Hunter, by some miracle walked in he wanted to see him first, instead of being caught off guard by him.
He'd been there just a few minutes before he heard the door opening, he risked glancing up, praying that he wouldn't be face with anyone that he didn't want to see. Thankfully it was only Blaine, at least he wasn't avoiding him. He smiled softly at him, before looking back down at his essay. He was soon away of a pair of legs at the table beside him.
"Mind if I join you?" Blaine's voice whispered next to him.
Sebastian shook his head "It's a free country"
Blaine sat down next to him. "I was worried about you last night. All the warblers were. Where were you?"
"With a friend" came Sebastian's reply, he didn't look up from his essay. He had a feeling that he would only regret looking upon the expression on Blaine's face.
"What friend? You weren't with any of the Warblers, and Brittany said she had left you at Scandal." Blaine
"It might be hard to believe but I do have friends outside Dalton." Sebastian continued
"Who? Did you sleep with him? Hunter seems to think you were just off shagging another guy."
Sebastian sighed and looked at Blaine "And what is it to do with you if I was? What is it to do with Hunter? What is it to do with any of you who I do and don't fuck" he hissed at him
"Stop going down my throat. I am only saying. Whatever you and Hunter fell out about is not worth it. I might not want to admit it but you to belong together. When you are with him I have never seen you happier, even when you were with me you never seemed as happy."
"You have no idea, Blaine. I can hold a grudge for a long time. Hunter isn't going to be forgiven that easily and you can tell him that, if he has told you to try and soften me up then he has failed. I am here for the Warblers, for practising for Regionals and nothing else, not for him. Do I make myself clear"
Blaine nodded "Just for the record, Hunter hasn't said anything to me. He has barely said a word to everyone all day. He's really cut up about you dumping him. Just don't give up on him Sebastian."
"Stop telling me what do, Blaine" Sebastian almost yelled at him. "I don't care if he hasn't said a word all day. I don't care if he is cut up about it. He shouldn't have fed the Warblers fucking drugs and then we would never have fallen out. You realise he could have gotten the lot of you not only pulled from the competition but expelled from Dalton."
"I am not telling you what to do. I am just saying..." Blaine started, yet he was cut off by Sebastian.
"Then don't I don't want to hear it Blaine. Did you come here to lecture me on my love life or to get some work done?"
"Don't start biting my head off. I was only trying to help"
"Well don't. I have had enough of everyone trying to help me to live my own life. I am perfectly capable of doing it on my own."
"You could have fooled me" Blaine muttered under his breath, yet it was loud enough for Sebastian to hear.
"What is that supposed to mean?" Sebastian hissed at him, looking up at him again.
"Nothing, just that you claim to love Hunter. You left me to be with him and now you are arguing with him about something stupid. If you love him as much as you say just make things up with him. Stop hurting yourself and him just because you are stubborn"
"It's not that easy, Blaine. You don't get it, do you. I can't forgive him. I have tired, I just can't. Its killing me to fight with him, but for some reason I can't just let this go."
Blaine swallowed the lump in his throat. He certainly never thought that he would be sat next to Sebastian, trying to fix his relationship with another guy. He'd give anything to hear Sebastian tell him that he loved him again. Yet he knew now that was never going to happen. Sebastian was in love with Hunter and there was nothing that he could do about it, save get used to it and stop trying to get in the way. "You are right I don't get it. But what I do get is that you and Hunter are meant to be together. You are soul mates, as much as it pain me to say it you love him more than you ever loved me. Admit it I was just another notch on your bed until you found someone who you loved."
Sebastian looked at him, was that really how he felt? That he was just another guy to add to his list? "Okay, for starters I never want you to think that you were, as you put it, just another notch on my bed, you were never that and you know it. I did love you, I still do, only with Hunter its different. I didn't think I could feel anything as close to how I felt with you, yet somehow being with Hunter I seems to be more and that scares me. It scares me more than I would ever admit and that is why I can't forgive him" Sebastian answered, placing down his pen, he knew that getting anymore more work done was going to be impossible now, his mind was way to busy at the moment, not that it was Blaine's fault. He was only pointing out some home truths and forcing Sebastian to see the light. "Why me? What is it about me that makes everyone fall in love with me?"
Blaine looked at him, could he really not see it? It had always confused him at how Sebastian couldn't see just how gorgeous he was. "You are gorgeous and behind that sarcastic front you put up you are the most caring person in the world. You are just the worlds perfect guy. How can you not see that."
"I come with so much baggage and the need for orgasms, I just can't see why everyone wants to be with me."
"Maybe one day you will. Yet none of that matters. Who cares how many hearts you break or how many guys you have falling at your feet. You have found the one guy you want to spend your life with and yet you are wasting so much time being mad at him for one simple thing."
"Blaine, could you please just shut up before I glue your mouth shut myself" Sebastian hiss at him. The fact that he knew Blaine was right was what was bugging him the most. He certainly hadn't expected Blaine to be pushing him into the arms of Hunter. It was all just a little strange and he wasn't all that sure how to deal with it. He needed someone from the outside to talk to. Someone who didn't have views on the relationship that he had once had with Hunter. He stuffed his work book into his bag and rose to his feet to walk out, realising in that moment that he wasn't ready for Warbler Practise just yet. He had to get away from Dalton, what was the harm in turning up early to meet Vincent at the Lima Bean. He could easily sit comfortably there with a cup of coffee and get more of his essay done.
Yet he was stopped in his racks as he reached the door, in walked Hunter, followed by Nick, Jeff and Trent. The rest of the Warblers filed in behind hem.
"Sebastian!" Hunter exclaimed, his voice filled with surprise. As the day had gone on he had convinced him that Sebastian wasn't going to show up for practise. "I thought you were going to give today's practise a miss."
"I am" Sebastian said simply to him and moved to walk past, only to have Hunter press his hand to his chest. "Please, just give me one song. Then you can leave I promise you, I won't try and stop you"
Sebastian's arms folded to his chest and he studied Hunter for a moment before giving in "Fine, one song and then I am leaving"
Hunter nodded towards Nick and Jeff who nodded back and got into position behind him to back him up. Hunter's heart was racing in his chest. What was to stop Sebastian from just leaving half way through and not letting him finish.
[Hunter]
Nothing is so good it lasts eternally
Perfect situations must go wrong
But this has never yet prevented me
Wanting far too much for far too long.
Looking back I could have played it differently
Won a few more moments who can tell
But it took time to understand the man
Now at least I know I know him well
[Nick and Jeff]
Wasn't it good?
Wasn't he fine?
Isn't it madness
He can't be mine?
[Hunter]
Oh so good
Oh so fine
He can't be mine?
Hunter took a few steps towards Sebastian, half expecting him to simply just push him aside and not even look at him, yet for the few moments that their eyes did meet, before Sebastian glanced away, Hunter saw all that love in there. The love that he knew Sebastian still felt, despite just how mad he was a him. This was going to take time and Hunter was going to have to get used to that. He couldn't blackmail him into being with him this time, that was for certain.
[Hunter]
Call me whatever
But the past has shown
I'm stronger on my own
Don't need nobody
Don't want to make exceptions to the rule
Cause I am no one's fool suffering gladly
But now I don't have a choice
Inside me there is a voice
That tells me gotta let go
[SVETLANA]
No one in your life is with you constantly
No one is completely on your side
And though I move my world to be with him
Still the gap between us is too wide.
Looking back I could
Have played things
Some other way
[Nick and Jeff – Harmonising]
Looking back I could
Have played it
Differently
[Nick and Jeff]
Yeah, yeah, yeah
[Hunter]
It isn't easy cause I wanna fight
But now my hands are tied and I don't like it
I hate it when there's nothing I can do
But when I look at you I get excited
Maybe I could do with your help
To coax me outta myself and help me wanna let go
Sebastian wanted to walk out, yet something was sopping him. His legs just would do what his brain was screaming at them to do. They remained rooted to the spot, almost like they were working alone with his heart to make him stay. He couldn't move a muscle, as Hunter walked closer to him again and, before Sebastian could do anything, Hunter had wrapped his arms around him and Sebastian found himself raising his own arms and wrapping them around Hunter. He closed his eyes and took a breath in. It did feel amazing to be back in Hunter's arms again. It was killing him being parted from him, yet it seemed that there was nothing that he could do. He felt trapped. Trapped by his own feelings. They were betraying him over and over again. Guilt suddenly seemed to ride through his body. His thoughts, for some reason, ran all the way back to that morning. He had to tell Hunter about it, he had every right to know that he had spent most of the morning with another's guys head between his legs. The same guy that he had spent most of the previous nigh drinking with and kissing.
"Hunter" Sebastian managed to say after a few moments, he had forgotten that the other Warblers were in the room, until he opened his eyes, they had all engaged themselves in other tasks, like pretending to be reading a book from the shelves around them, or reading through an essay. Yet Sebastian knew better, he knew that they were just trying to listen in on anything that was said between himself and Hunter. "We have to talk."
Hunter swallowed and pulled away from him, suddenly feeling more nervous than he had ever felt in his life. Those words normally meant something bad, didn't they? What could possibly be worse than Sebastian dumping him the other day. He couldn't say anything that would hurt him any less, could he? It just wasn't possible. "Then lets talk" he said in a shaky voice, dreading what Sebastian wanted to say to him.
"Not here, can we go somewhere else?"
Hunter nodded "Warbler practise is postponed until tomorrow, same time" he said to the other's taking Sebastian's hand and taking him out the room. Pulling him into a empty classroom and closed the door. Hunter took a breath in and rested back against the door, watching Sebastian, just waiting for him to talk. He swallowed the lump in his throat. Surely it couldn't be all that bad? He kept thinking the worst, and then he thought that the worst had already happened. He imagined so many things to come out of Sebastian's lips, yet what he heard wasn't in any version of it.
"I slept with someone else"
Hunter's jaw dropped, he couldn't stop the wave of jealousy from sweeping over him. It was worse than the jealousy he had felt having to watch Sebastian and Blaine at the beginning of the school year, at least then he hadn't experienced dating Sebastian. Now suddenly hearing him say that he had slept with another felt worse than that. "Who?" he finally managed to choke out, his eyes never once leaving Sebastian's face. He could see just how sorry he was and how much hurt there was in his eyes, although exactly what he had to be sorry for Hunter wasn't sure. He hadn't done anything wrong. They weren't dating, at least not in Sebastian's eyes they weren't, so it wasn't like he had cheated on him. So why did he seem to be filled with guilt over this?
"You don't know them, an old friend, well an old shag to be fair, but the point is it didn't mean anything. I care about him an awful lot, he used to be a really good friend until he moved away to London I think it was and after Brittany left last night he was just there for me and I spent the night with him in his hotel room and it wasn't until the next morning that..."
Hunter closed his eyes and held up his hand. "I don't want to know the details"
"Whatever I didn't mean anything. I don't want to be with him, he just makes me feel like I belong and the last time I felt like that was when we were in France together. I love you Hunter and being without you is killing me. Yet I am to stubborn to act upon it." Sebastian found himself saying "I am thankful that you put everything right, I was just so mad at you and I shouldn't have dumped you in an angry rage. It wasn't..."
Sebastian was cut off by Hunter's lips against his. His eyes fluttered to a close and he found himself melting into the kiss. Hunter certainly did have a way with him and he couldn't deny that. He wrapped his arms around him and pulled him in closer to him. A groan escaped him as Hunter ran his tongue along his lower lip, before pushing it slowly into his mouth.
"Never break up with me again, Smythe" Hunter whispered after a few minutes of kissing.
"Never feed drugs to my Warblers again." Sebastian countered him
"Touché" Hunter grinned and kissed him again. "Come on, I could do with a shower and I have no idea what I am doing with that stupid Shakespeare essay I could down with a little bit of help with it. If you could spare some time to help me"
"If you insist." Sebastian grinned at him and held out his hand to Hunter, who instantly took it and brought it to his lips, pressing a soft kiss there before gently tugging him out of the room and taking him up to their dormitory.
Hunter pulled off his blazer and dropped it onto his bed, before removing his tie and dropping it on top of his blazer, his belt, trousers, shirt and boxers soon followed. He walked into he bathroom, Sebastian's eyes followed him across the room, he really did love seeing him naked. He heard the shower turning on and flumped down on his bed, pulling his phone out of his pocket, dropping a text to Vincent Can I drop your clothes off tomorrow? I have been side tracked. If its going to be w problem I can still meet you at the Lima Bean tonight, before it closes.
His eyes stared at the ceiling. He felt horrible, almost like he was letting everyone around him down and no matter how hard he tried he just couldn't shake the feeling that he was going to get hurt in the long run, as punishment for treating everyone so horribly. He almost jumped out of his skin at his phone ringing beside him. For a few moments he wondered whether to answer it, without even looking at it he knew who it was. Vincent! He took a deep breath before answering "Hey"
"You made up with him didn't you?" Vincent's vice came down the phone. It sounded as though he had just had his heart ripped out "That boyfriend of yours"
"Sort of, we made up, but I don't think things are back to normal yet. I don't know if they ever will be"
"Good, glad to hear it, look about the clothes, just keep them. It's no big deal."
Sebastian sat up "What is wrong? Don't say nothing. I can tell by the tone of your voice.
Vincent sighed "Not something I want to tell you over the phone. Although it doesn't matter. Nothing is going to change"
"I am meeting you in the Lima Bean in ten minutes and we are going to have a talk, no questions" Sebastian said to him, hanging up the phone and swinging his legs off the bed. He grabbed his Dalton blazer before shoving it on and knocking on the bathroom door before walking in.
Hunter's head appeared around the cubicle door. "Thought you didn't want to join me" he said to him. "Clearly I was wrong"
"Hunter shut up" Sebastian said to him "I am not joining you I came to tell you that I have to go and meet a mate at the Lima Bean. The guy I was with last night in ten minutes and I wondered if you wanted to come"
"Wouldn't that be awkward? I mean your ex boyfriend and your boyfriend at the same table? I think I had better just stay here and wait for you. How long you going to be?" Hunter hadn't felt so jealous in his life before. It wasn't fair. Why did Sebastian have to have so many guys after him? At least Blaine seemed to have finally gotten the message, at least for the moment.
"Not sure. A couple of hours tops" Sebastian replied to him, stepping forwards and pressing is lips to Hunter's, letting them linger there for a few moments before pulling away. "See you soon, Sleeping Beauty" Sebastian grinned at him
"Stop calling me that, Smythe" Hunter hissed at him, although there was a hint of smirk on his face. "Otherwise I go back to calling you Cinderella and we both know how much you hate that."
Sebastian just laughed, a laugh that made Hunter's heart rate instantly quicken, before he turned and walked out the room. Hunter heard the dorm room door opening and then closing again and a sigh escaped his lips. Was he over reacting? Was there really anything to be jealous of? Sebastian was welcome to have friends outside the Warblers, yet all these ex's was starting to get a little over whelming. It seemed like every time he met someone new, that guy was an ex of Sebastian.
Hunter turned off the shower, before stepping out and grabbing a towel, drying himself off he headed back into the dormitory and over to the bookshelf in the corner. He didn't really have a large collection of books, just a few to pass free time when he didn't feel in the mood for doing homework, or there wasn't any homework to do. He pulled down Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban and lay, naked, on his bed and started to read. Exactly how long had passed he wasn't sure, yet he had gotten a good third of the way through the book when he heard the handle of the door, instantly he grabbed the quilt and pulled it over himself, covering him up, his eyes flicking over to the door. Yet a sigh of relief escaped his lips at Sebastian walking into the room again. He put down the book, after having folded the edge of the page that he was on to mark his place.
"What's up?" he asked, instantly knowing that there was something wrong. Sebastian's face said it all. He had something on his mind and Hunter just wanted to help. He held out his hand towards him, giving him the opportunity to come over.
Sebastian stripped off his blazer and shirt, before pulling his shoes off and heading over to Hunter, on his way over he fumbled with his belt and tossed it onto his bed. He sat on the edge of Hunter's bed and instantly Hunter's arms were around him, making him feel so much better. "He told me he loved me."
Prick! Hunter instantly thought, yet suppressed the urge to say out loud "What did you say?" he found himself saying instead.
"I didn't say anything for ages, I just sort of froze and stared at him. I thought maybe I had misheard him, yet at the same time I knew that I hadn't. I guess I have always known how he felt about me, I just refused to let it sink in."
"Don't get wound up about it. You will make yourself sick, Sebastian" Hunter said to him. Truth was he wanted to shout and scream at the world himself. Why couldn't people find someone else to fall in love with? Why did it have to be his boyfriend? It wasn't fair. He felt as though he had to share Sebastian with the rest of the world. "Come on, get some sleep and things will look brighter in the morning."
"I am not so sure about that. I can't help thinking I have hurt him, I would do anything to not have such a power over guys. I just want to be happy with you without everyone I meet falling in love with me. Why can't I have that?"
"Because, you are flawless" Hunter smiled pressing a kiss to him shoulder "I know you think you have your flaws but to the world you are perfect. Never forget that."
Sebastian sighed and rested his head back against Hunter. "Sometimes I wish everyone didn't see me that way. I just want be me and just for the record. I have flaws, I just keep them well hidden"
Hunter pulled Sebastian backwards into a lying position, lying against the pillows himself. "Really? And what might these invisible flaws be?"
"For a start I have OCD, but I am guessing you sort of worked that out already. I just hate mess, it drives me insane. I need everything to be the right place and know as soon as I walk into a room if something has been moved." Sebastian replied, shifting slightly so that he was lying along side Hunter and facing him.
Hunter smiled and nodded "That I knew about and I wouldn't call it a flaw exactly, just that you like things to be clean. I don't see anything wrong with it. If it gets out of control then there are places that you can go to get help."
Sebastian just smiled slightly and pressed his lips to Hunter's nose. "I don't see how I am pefect, sometimes I just feel like I don't belong. Like I was born in the wrong place at the wrong time and that I don't fit into this world. Is that stupid?"
"Of course not. Yet I still fail to see how that is a flaw. You criticise yourself to much"
"I can't help that" Sebastian admitted "I have always been like that."
Hunter pulled Sebastian into his arms. "All I care about is that I have you in my life and that I have a place in your heart"
"You won't. You don't" Sebastian replied, which made Hunter move back slightly, and look at him.
"What? What do you mean? I thought you loved me"
Sebastian smiled "I do, you don't have a place in my heart. My friends have a place in my heart. You on the other hand rule my heart. I would present it to you on a silver platter if that was what you wanted."
Hunter whacked his arm playfully "Don't frighten me like that." he pouted, kissing him again. "How about a gold platter?"
"Huh?" Sebastian questioned, not really sure what Hunter was talking about.
"Can I have your heart on a gold platter instead of a silver one? Only I am allergic to silver"
"Really? You are allergic to silver?" Sebastian gasped.
Hunter nodded.
"In that case I am sure we can upgrade to gold, providing that you provide the plater. I am after all supplying my heart"
Hunter laughed. "Deal, now sleep."
Sebastian moved into him again and rested his head against Hunter;s chest. He had missed being in his arms, just being able to relax in his arms and feel safe as though nothing could harm him. It wasn't long before the pair of them drifted off to sleep.
A/n: I hope you liked this chapter. Review let me know what you think. For anyone who is interested the songs are I Know him So well from the musical Chess (I think that is where it is from ) and Can I Trust you from the tv series I Dream, featuring S Club 8, if you youtube it you can hear the original. Sorry for how late this chapter is and sorry that it is a little short, I just couldn't seem to get into writing it. Kind of hoping that will change when it cmoes to writing up the next chapter. Plus I have gotten a little distracted with two Harry Potter fanfictions, I blame my brain for coming up with ideas.
