A/N - An actual update!...rubs eyes...Nope I'm not seeing things, it is a update! I blame college, it's been a full time thing!...glares...I hate it! But enough of my excuses, thanks for the reviews, as always they warm my heart at night, and really who would want a cold heart, that would just suck...cause you'd be like shivering all the time! So review and keep my heart warm! Yes, you must!...nods...Pwease?
Disclaimer - Ain't never gonna happen, so why do I put this here? Because I don't want my ass sued! I mean it's not likely that they would get anything, cause I'm broke, and I have nothing but this laptop and story, a few unfinished stories that are in development, my One Tree Hill dvds and...reaches into pockets and pulls out dust mites...Damn thought I had something in there :( So as you can clearly see, I have nothing, but my precious belongings that ain't nobody ever gonna get!
So read on and be merry!
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Chapter 15 - Tempted Champions, Return to Chaos - Hide and Seek Redemption for there Woes, but Often Seek Solace in Deserted Woods, With Nothing but there Inner Musing's, too Comfort One.
She hadn't really moved all that much - she had got home, dragged herself upstairs, fallen into bed and well her she was, the mighty Brooke Davis, reduced to an emotionless shell. She had berated herself over and over again, for the abrupt way she had ended it with Haley. Not that she wanted to, that was the last thing she had ever planned on doing. Why? Because she had never been happier than when she was with Haley, kissing her, holding her, just simply being near her in general. And she had given that up. But she had to, right? If she hadn't, then Nathan would have done what he said he would, and she was not about to let Haley get hurt again. Granted, leaving her without a clue as to why I ended things, must of cause her so much joy. Sighing, she decided she hated the voice inside her head, only because it told the truth and right now more than anything, she wanted to hide from it. I don't suppose there's any place I could go, and hide from all of this? That would be perfect, a place where my thoughts and musing's and more importantly the truth are banished at the door. Now this voice was more to her liking, yeah, she liked what it had to say. But in reality, there was no perfect hiding place, no escape, no nothing and that made her feel like the worst person in the world right now. Oh, how the mighty had fallen.
Haley had called her, once, twice, so many time that she lost count. But, Brooke guess that after about the twentieth time, Haley had finally given in, because there was no ringing after that and her room had become eerily silent. She almost wished that the ringing would start up again, just so she could hear something other than her own ragged breathing. She guessed that was down to her earlier cry fest, from when she had reached her room and fallen onto her bed, where the tears had just started, like endless raindrops from the sky. Now, though she was all cried out, such a contrast to her earlier state. Her eyes were red and raw, bloodshot in appearance; like she had gone a whole week without sleep, she was sure more than anything, her hair was a wild mess; that resembled something like a tumble weed rolling across the desert sands, not to mention her throat, there was no doubt that it felt coarse; if she tried to speak, it would come out in such a scratchy way, than no one would understand what she hadsaid anyway and that was only partly why she felt awful, and it was all down to her...and Nathan. How she despised him. She wondered briefly when he had turned into such a deplorable son of a bitch.
Sitting there feeling sorry for herself wasn't going to help, she knew that, but the zest for life she had, had slowly seeped away from her, in a mere few hours. Turning her head, she looked out the window, frowning when she saw that it was still light out. Laying where she was had felt like days, and yet, it couldn't have been. She hated when time played mind games with her, not that it was intentional, and most probably her fault, as many things were as of late, adding to the downward spiral of her life. Guffawing at herself, Brooke couldn't help the sadistic smirk that covered her face, aimed at no one but herself. Oh, woe is me! Such a downward spiral, and in such a short space of time. Yeah, Brooke, you have got the art form of being over dramatic, down to an almost professional level! Yes, in the space of, oh I don't know, four, maybe five hours, your life sure has flipped upside down. How disastrous. You, know if you're like this, then think about Haley. But she didn't want to think about Haley, cause that would only hurt more. Well, I wonder who caused that? Hmm, let me ponder that for a millisecond. Would that be your own damn fault? I do believe so. She really hated her inner voice, she wondered if other people's were this annoying, if not, then she wanted a replacement. Yeah, well, I'm not exactly loving who I'm paired with myself. Giving up the one thing that actually made us happy, what are you stupid? It seemed apparently so. Wonders wide and far, did I just hear an honest confession? Excuse me, while I pick myself up from on the floor. And you call me annoying. I never called you annoying, that would be you, calling me that. I, on the other hand called you stupid, which you are. Brooke, you gave up the only real thing in your life! Haley didn't want you for your money, she didn't care about your popularity, she just wanted to be with you. And you give that up because of Nathan Scott? Yeah, that makes so much sense! Signing, Brooke realised that sometimes listening to that little voice inside your head, while not altogether the poster child for sanity, was on occasions right. What had she done?
She had to talk to Haley.
Sitting up, she reached over for her bedroom phone, this was one phone call that was long overdue. Her fingers hovered over the numbers below her, why was she stalling now, she knew the digits and the sequence they came in, off by heart. She felt her shoulders slump further into herself, and she knew she was moments from reverting back to the pitiful state she had been in minutes before. She was not willing to let that happen. She wanted, no, she so desperately needed to hear Haley's voice. Picking herself up from what had been her cocoon from the outside world for the past hours, she moved out of her bedroom and made her way to her family living room, again, she had to snort at that saying. Family living room, that was classic. For it to be a family living room, one had to have a family to share it with. And as much as Brooke thought of it, she could not remember the last time herself and her parents, had spent enough time in it, for it to count as a family room. Even at Christmas, she had been at Peyton's, she hadn't wanted to wake up to the disappointment of being the only person being in her home, on such a family holiday. My parents would have to be around for us to do that whole big family thing, wouldn't they? That wouldn't be happening anytime soon and she knew it, she didn't try to delude herself, her parents cared more about their careers and their status in the hierarchy of what Brooke like to call 'The who's, who of sleeping your way to the top.', than their own daughter.
Reaching the living room, editing out the word family as it just did not have any merit in her home, Brooke had to squint and shield her eyes from the surprisingly, glaring sun outside. Walking into it had been such a contrast from the darkness her room had been. It took a moment or two for her eyes to adjust to the brightness, but once they had, she walked further into the room and let herself fall down onto the sofa, with an audible sigh. She seemed to be doing that a lot. Sighing. It was getting tiresome, but she couldn't help herself it seemed, they just came upon her all of a sudden. It seemed as though, she'd think of anything to take her mind of the task at hand.
She sat staring at the phone for a few minutes, she felt it was mocking her, in some unimaginable way, which was ridiculous of course. Staring at it wasn't going to make it dial Haley's number, but dialling it would lead to Haley answering it and Haley answering it, would no doubt result in her having to speak to Haley. She couldn't, she was at this moment, the biggest chicken out there, oh, how she hated herself. It was absurd really, she wanted to call Haley, and yet she couldn't bring herself to do it. How, in any world did that make the least bit of sense? She was nothing but a wuss and she the only person she could blame was herse...
What was that ringing?
Oh, God! When had she dialled Haley's number? She didn't even know you could dial a phone, when you weren't even conscious of doing so. But apparently, it could be done, she was demonstrating it at this very moment. What if she picks up? That's what you want her to do! What am I meant to say? 'Oh, yeah about earlier, complete and utter mistake, what in the hell was I thinking? I can't live without you, it's not even been half a day, but I'm already a mess and dying without you.' Well, actually that sounds pretty good to me. Shouldn't she have picked up by now? Uh, yeah.
But she never. The ringing continued on and on, and the droning of the monotone sound only stopped, when the answer machine picked up.
"Hi, this is the James's residence, three quarters of the James family aren't here, they're either a) road tripping it, in an RV, b) enjoying the stressor of college life, c) being a delinquent to the society we live in, you know who you are, or d) actually having, what passes for social life. If none of those options above are who you are looking for, then I guess you're looking for me, lil' ol' Haley James, except I'm not in either, what are the chances? But, if you'd be so kind to leave a message, then I'll be sure to call you back. You know what to do, so do it after the beep."
Hearing that beep Brooke, cancelled the call. No one ever wanted to talk to an answering machine, least of all her, and she certainly didn't want to tell Haley, she was sorry over an answer phone, she wasn't that inconsiderate. Hearing the message Haley had left though, had left a ghost of a smile on her face. The message, was such a Haley thing to do, and she loved it.
Dropping the phone beside her, she brought her hand up and brought it across her face, trying desperately to think of where Haley was. Ok, she could do this, she could narrow it down, make the search easier, because by the end of the day, she vowed to herself, she would have explained herself to Haley. Hoping against hope that this stupid event hadn't cause her what she had, had with Haley. Ok, so there was Taylor, Peyton, Lucas and Karen's Cafe. Hadn't she heard through the grape vine that Peyton and Lucas had a thing on tonight? She was sure she had, because she remembered hearing about it and not feeling anything. No hurt, no resentment, no anger, just nothing. So, two of the four were ruled out, which left Taylor and Karen's Cafe. She could be with Taylor, it was more than likely, Taylor hadn't picked up the phone, she could easily be out with her sister. She prayed that Haley wasn't with Taylor though, because if Haley had told her what had happened, then Taylor was going to kick her ass. Kicking of the asses, especially her own, were not her thing, not one bit. Which left Karen's Cafe, and like a clearing of fog and cloudy skies, she remember Haley's work schedule, tonight was indeed a work night. Haley would never miss a night at Karen's, unless she was seriously ill or losing a limb.
Getting up from where she sat, Brooke glanced at the clock on the wall, 6:30 pm. Huh? Glancing outside, it was infact dark, the moon shone in the sky high above her and the stars seemed to twinkle a little rhyme as they lit up the night sky. Had she really been zoning out for so long? She didn't care anymore, Haley would be closing in about an hour. That gave her enough time to look at least presentable when she showed up at Karen's.
She was going to sort this mess, she had made, no matter how long it took. Nathan be damned. She'd find away around him. With her and Haley together again, anything was possible. She saw that now, she was just a little blind earlier.
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Today had been busy, and when the dinner rush had started, Haley welcomed it. It kept her from thinking about things, or to be more exact a certain someone. But now, she had no such luck of being so busy, that she couldn't think, the dinner rush had lulled and now there was nothing. Looking around her, there was three scattered customers around the cafe. An old man, who's name she was sure was Bob, sitting in the far corner, by the window, staring out it, people watching. Or that's what she guessed he was doing anyway, she wasn't exactly certain. At the opposite end there was a middle aged woman, Haley guessed she was thirty something, just sitting sipping coffee. Her business suit was rumpled and there were noticeable creases, but the woman didn't seem to care. In that moment, all she looked like she cared about was her next sip of coffee, slipping down her throat and warming her from the inside out. It seemed to relax her. At the counter, just down from where she was standing, was a boy, who looked fifteen and not a day older, sitting patiently. He was waiting for somebody, obviously. He had finished his soda twenty minutes before, and then afterwards had just sat there, with his head in his hand, off in his own little world.
Oh, how she wished she could be him at this time, with not a care in the world, just sitting back and watching as it pass on by. But alas, that wasn't to be. Not today anyway. The door chimed suddenly, interrupting the serene calm that had settled over the cafe, for the past hour. Haley looked up, her face hopeful, but it fell as she saw another middle aged woman, it wasn't her. The boy turned and gave a quick smile. Picking up his back pack from the floor, he headed from the door, smiling at the woman. When reaching her, the woman's arm found it way around the boys shoulder and her face transformed with a smile as he started talking animatedly about some tale he had experienced today. As the door swung shut behind the boy and what Haley guess was his mother, the voices grew quieter until they were nothing, and once again the cafe descended into another silent, serene calm.
Haley remembered feeling safe in arms, Brooke's arms to be exact. She remembered how it felt to fall asleep in them and how safe she felt during the night, and then to wake up in the same spot she had fallen asleep in. It made her sad to think about things like that. Or Brooke in general. It hurt. She hadn't expected it to hurt this much, but it did. It felt like the weight of a hundred pound truck was on her chest, and she could hardly breath. She was also pretty sure, that if doctor took an x-ray of her chest, they'd see how broken her heart was. It felt like it was broken in two, snapped right down the middle, it's jagged remains puncturing her insides, causing her the pain she felt every second she was away from Brooke.
She was depressing herself, thinking about Brooke, she had to do something. Keep busy. That was how she was going to get through this, work herself into exhaustion, until the pain was numb, and she could rest without feeling the ungodly ache in her heart. Grabbing a cloth from behind the counter, she started wiping it, making it clean.
It was about five minutes after she had first started, that she noticed Karen staring at her. Looking at her, she stopped.
"What?"
"Oh, I was just wondering, if you were going to polish through to the grain." Karen spoke, an amused smile playing at her mouth.
"Uh, I...I..." Haley stuttered as she began. "I'm sorry?"
"What's on your mind Haley?" Karen wondered. "What's going on in that head of yours?"
"It's nothing, well it's not nothing, but it's not important." Haley lied, looking away, because more than anything, she hated lying to Karen.
"It's important." Karen told her. "If it's in your head and it's making you clean the same spot for over five minutes, then it's important." she then pointed out.
Sighing, Haley dropped the cloth to the counter below her, abandoning it. Much like Brooke did to me. Shaking her head, she tried to clear her thought, there was no use getting negative. "I just have this problem." she finally replied.
"I'm always here to talk if you need it." Karen offered. "Is it about Nathan?" she guessed, which resulted in a loud laugh, causing the two customers left to look her way, for a second, before going back to what they were doing.
"No, no, it really isn't about Nathan." Haley let her know. "Nathan and I aren't even together anymore." she explained, surprising Karen.
"You're not?" Karen question, her voice clearly showing her surprise. "B-But, I thought you were both happy with him."
"Yeah, well see that changed when Nathan changed." Haley said. "We just don't want the same things." Boy, ain't that the truth. Unless he's been hiding his Brooke obsession from me, then we really don't want the same thing, cause all I want is her.
"Was he moving to fast?" Karen wondered, she hadn't expected Haley and Nathan to break up, they seemed like a couple who could make it, but apparently not. Maybe in some other world they still were, but this wasn't another world and they were. Haley seemed surprisingly uncaring about it.
"Well you could say that." Haley answered. Understatement of the century.
"Well I'm sorry to hear that Haley, are you ok?"
"I was, but now I'm not so sure."
"Do you miss him?"
"God no!" Haley answered venomly, once again surprising Karen. Sighing, she realised she would have to explain a little bit more, for her to fully understand, why she was glad to be away from Nathan. "You see Karen, at the start, everything with Nathan was so great, I was the happiest I had been then, than I had ever been in the past. But Nathan changed, and it wasn't for the better." she began, looking lost in thought for a moment. "Kitchen?" she asked suddenly.
"Excuse me?"
"Can we go into the kitchen? I don't want to have a conversation with two other people I don't know in the room." Haley explained.
"Sure we can sweetie." Karen agreed, walking behind the counter, following Haley.
Once in the privacy of the kitchen, Haley began again. "Karen, you remember what it's like at the start of a new relationship right?"
"Vaguley." Karen joked, causing a small laugh to escape from Haley.
"Well, that's what it was like with Nathan. I can honestly say, I was happy. Right up until everything went wrong. He changed so suddenly Karen, that I just didn't see it coming. I wish I had, then maybe I could have stopped him. But I didn't and I couldn't." Haley finished.
"What did he do to you?" Karen asked, her voice had taken on an edge.
Looking down, avoiding Karen's gaze, she wondered if she should tell her. It would be easier to lie and say he didn't do anything. Easier yeah, smart no, "He hurt me." was all she said. It was all she had to say, she knew Karen would understand, and she was right.
To Karen, Haley looked so small all of a sudden, changing in such an instant that she had blinked and missed it. Going with her sudden urge, she hugged Haley, pulling her tight, protecting her, like only a mother could. "You should have told me sooner. I would have helped you anyway I could."
"I know you would Karen." Relaxing into the hug, she hadn't done this in a long time, that she wasn't going to let happen again. Karen was the mom she always dreamed of, she loved her own mom, don't get her wrong, it was just, Karen was more motherly to her than her own ever was. She had grew up in Karen's home, talked to her when something was troubling her, she had experience everything with Karen that she had meant to with her own mother, so it was only natural when a mother-daughter bond had formed between them both. "But you see, I already had someone to take care of me." Haley told her.
"Who?"
"Brooke." Haley breathed out.
"Brooke." Karen repeated. "Brooke Davis?" she asked, her face now a picture of confusion.
"Yeah, Brooke Davis." Haley confirmed, pulling out of the hug she was in, starting to pace. "And that's where the problem comes in."
"I don't understand." Karen confessed, because truly she didn't.
"When Nathan hurt me, he hurt me Karen." Haley spoke, stressing the word hurt, with a heavy sigh, she continued on. "And I don't just mean he gave me a slap on the wrists, more so a slap across the face. It was fun, I really enjoyed it," she explained further, smiling at Karen, only to wipe it off, seeing the look on Karen's face. She obviously didn't find her end to be funny. Now that she thought about it, it was a bit morbid. "He put me in hospital Karen," Hearing Karen gasp, she looked up, but carried on. "Only I couldn't exactly get there myself, so I did the only thing I could. I called Brooke. And she came through for me. Took care of me. She made me feel safe, when all I felt was pain and confusion."
"I don't know when it happened, hell I don't even know how it happened, but somehow, some way, she became all I ever wanted, all I ever really needed. I was majorly confused when I started feeling the way I did about her, I mean firstly it was Brooke Davis, secondly, it was a girl. I actually thought it could be down to hero worship, it made sense, she had figuratively speaking, saved me from the hell that was Nathan Scott, but it wasn't. Then the fact that she was a girl didn't bother me Karen, it really and truly didn't, she was just Brooke. She wasn't Brooke Davis, the most popular girl in school, the party wild child of the night, she was just...just Brooke. That really was enough."
"I never expected her to feel the same though, but she did. Being with her was like...I-I don't know, like being on cloud nine. The feeling you get in the pit of your stomach, when something great happens, was there all the time. When she was around, when she wasn't. When she wasn't around, she was all I could think about, an invasion of my thoughts, but they were so welcome. It was all going great, nothing in the world could touch us, not that anyone knew about us. We didn't want to tell anyone, and it wasn't because we didn't want to. It just wasn't the right timing. Plus there's no knowing, what Nathan would do if he found out. I dread to think."
"Today though, today started off great, I mean really, really great! It was blowing my mind that I was so happy. Brooke made me so incredibily happy. So that's why I'm confused why there isn't any me and Brooke anymore. It doesn't make sense to me. I wish it did, but it doesn't. She just said it wasn't going to work, that she couldn't do it anymore. And before you say maybe it was just an experiment of sorts, it wasn't, I know that much, Brooke isn't like that, she wouldn't do that. So I don't know what changed between this morning and today at lunch. I wanna know, so I can fix it, so I can get her back, because without her, i'm not much of anything."
"Maybe you should ask her." Karen suggested, a smile on her face. Sure this was unexpected news, but she had never heard Haley talk about something as passionately as she had of Brooke.
"I tried that," Haley answered with a hollow laugh. "I tried that so many times, that my fingers hurt from dialling her number...guess I forgot about redial huh?" she joked. "But she never picked up."
"I'm sorry to hear that." Karen told her.
"Did I do something wrong? Because if I did, I didn't mean too, I'll fix it, fix it as best I can, if that'll get me her back." Haley spoke, sounding helpless.
"Come here sweetheart." Karen told her, opening her arms, that Haley went willingly to.
"I just don't know what to do." Haley admitted, sniffling, her eyes brimming with tears. She hadn't cried yet, because she was sure it was a mistake, that Brooke would walk in and tell her that she had been wrong, but she hadn't, and now it was just hitting her.
"Haley, it's ok. If it's meant to be, then you will find a way." Karen told her. "I promise you."
"God, Karen, I just miss her!" Haley breathed out, frustrated. Pacing once more. "Which is impossible, because it hasn't even been a day!"
"The heart works in mysterious ways. No one can predict what it feels."
"That's true," Haley agreed.
"It'll work out," Karen, informed her. "From what you've said about Brooke, then she'll fix this for you."
"You really think so?" Haley wondered, her voice hopeful.
"I really, really do."
"Thank Karen. Thanks for letting me talk." Haley told her sincerely.
"It's what I'm here for sweetheart, anytime, day or night." Karen let her know, with a smile, watching as Haley gave her a small smile back. The ringing of the phone interrupted them, causing the moments silence between the two, to be disrupted. Walking over to it, Karen answered.
While watching Karen on the phone, Haley's mine went off into it's own world, one where her and Brooke were together still, where they were happy. Only good things happen there, there was no such thing as a bad thing. Bad, evil, vindictive, Nathan. Those things didn't exist. She wondered fleetingly, why that couldn't be this world, things would be so much easier then...but who said easier was fun?
"Haley?" Karen called out, pulling Haley from her thoughts.
"Yeah?"
"That was Deb, she's having some problem sorting out the paperwork, for last months income, and she needs me to head over and help her salvage her sanity. Can you close up? I know I wouldn't normal ask, but it sounds like she really needs my help and well, I won't go unless you're okay closing up without me..." Karen babbled on.
"Karen," Haley broke in, with a laugh. "I've closed up before! I know how to do it with my eyes closed. Go!" she ordered.
"Thanks Haley, you're a star!"
"Uh, Karen?" Haley spoke up just before the door closed behind Karen, making her look back. "Don't mention this to Debs ok?"
"Whatever you want, sweetheart." Karen answered, smiling sympathetically to Haley, before heading out.
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Ok, standing outside, freezing my ass of, is so much fun! She had been standing out there for about twenty minutes now, she had seen Karen leave five minutes after she had arrived. Why was she still standing outside? Why hadn't she gone in to talk to Haley? When had the weather got this bad? She didn't know the answer to any these questions. Well, she guessed cause she was scared of what Haley would say to her if she stepped foot into the cafe, that answered the first two, but she didn't know about the weather...weather wasn't really her thing, she only liked it when it was sunny.
Looking up, she noticed a man, the man that had been sitting in Karen's cafe had left, leaving Haley in there all alone. This would be the perfect time to go in Brookie, she's all on her own! Looks like she's clearing up to, this could be your chance, no interruptions, no nothing. Why was that voice always right? Cause I'm awesome! Pfft, she scoffed, in your dreams! Our dreams are one in the same, and the only thing you've dreamt of recently has been that girl in there. Now move your ass and get on in there. Maybe in a minutes. Now! Ok, chill! I'm going!
And she was, her feet were moving, getting closer and closer to Karen's Cafe, it was dark in there now, that would be better, the darkness would hide the emotions pouring over her face.
I can do this, I really can. Good brain making my feet move! I love you brain. O...k, now you're just freaking me out.
She was no more than three steps away from the cafe door, she was going to make this, she really was. That was until the lights suddenly came to life again, bathing if in a glowing light and Brooke was suddenly doing an about turn going back to where she had came from. Reaching a hiding place in the door way of another shop, Brooke blended into the shadows. Shaking her hands, she closed her eyes and breathed out. What. Are. You. Doing. This, is not going to see Haley, this is chickening out and going in the complete opposite direction! Brooke Davis get a grip of yourself and get in that damn cafe now! Do you want to lose her? ...no. I thought not, but you will if you keep on pulling this crap. I will kick your ass if you do not get in there right now.
Taking another deep breath...or five, Brooke started walking again and when she was again three steps away from Karen's her feet kept on walking, and her hand opened the door and there she was standing in Karen's Cafe. She had to have been going solely on autopilot, because she knew if she had thought about this even for a millisecond, she would have been gone again. Looking around, she couldn't see Haley, which was good, she had time to get herself together...or maybe not as long as she thought as Haley pushed open door of the kitchen and came through.
"I'm sorry but we're closed." Haley stated. What she's just going to be cold with me? Ignore me and send me on my way? It's nothing I don't deserve though. Brooke thought to herself, before noticing that Haley hadn't even looked up since she had came through, she was still looking at the notepad that was in her hand. She had to smile at this, Haley was just so adorable that she couldn't express it with words, she would try though, try and tell Haley how she made her feel, how stupid she had been, how she needed her back. Don't you hafta open you mouth to actual speak words? That'd be a start, won't it?
"Haley?" Brooke spoke, her voice hardly above a whisper. She was right, her voice did sound scratchy, most likely because that had been her first word since, she had left Haley at lunch. She watched Haley's head snapped up, almost at a violent speed, finally realising who was in the cafe with her. Does she look hopeful, or am I just crazy? I'm just crazy, cause that looks like a pissed look in her eyes now. Damn it.
"Brooke?"
And with that one word, there really was no telling what their future held before them, with each other or with no one but themselves.
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End of Chapter 15.
Dun, duun duuuun! What's gonna happen next? Will Haley welcome Brooke with open arms? Will Brooke not say another word, and run out of there? Will an astirod from outer space hit just outside Karen's Cafe, trapping them both inside with no escape? Tune in next week and find out...ok but don't tune in next week cause that's like nearly Christmas and I don't plan to update till after Christmas at least! Sorry!
But, I hope everyone who reads this, enjoys it and I hope everyone has a great Xmaz and New Year.
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