This is my first Twilight fic I hope you enjoy it and that I didn't mutilate Bella's character

FYI: this is NOT a songfic I just put a song in there because it reminded me of Twilight and it gave me a reason for her to lose control

As much as I wish I did I don't own the characters or lyrics in here so far

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January 18

Owww….my eyes fluttered

"Bella!"

Great, just great… it's Mike….ugh

"What happened?" I said weakly, glancing around once I saw the nets up I realized what must have happened.

"Well we were playing volleyball and you were sort of zoning and the ball hit you in the head"

"Oh, can I go home now it looks like PE is over?" I didn't try very hard to put some expression into my voice, good thing Charlie wasn't there

"Fine, and be careful next time" Coach Clapp did not look happy with me

I stumbled into the locker rooms and changed into my jeans and T-shirt

I walked into the parking lot and groaned. Some stupid people were listening to music and had it cranked.

I hurried to my car and started, it hoping its loud volume would drown out the music. No such luck… I sighed.

My hand reached to switch the stereo on for the first time in months, forbidden memories sprung unbidden to my mind. I shook my head trying to ignore the pain and the music a few cars down. I pulled out of the school driving faster than usual fiddling with the radio.

I had been driving for nearly half an hour just trying to get a hold on myself and was way out of town before I realized where I was going.

Then the music started on my radio. I was concentrating too much on the road to stop it.

I've been awake for a while now

you've got me feelin' like a child now

cause every time I see your bubbly face

I get the tingles in a silly place

It starts in my toes

and I crinkle my nose

where ever it goes

i always know

that you make me smile

please stay for a while now

just take your time

where ever you go

For some idiotic reason the song reminded me forcibly of him. I was turning and couldn't turn it off I was forced to just drive and absorb the pain.

The rain is fallin on my window pane

but we are hidin in a safer place

under the covers stayin dry and warm

you give me feelins that I adore

It starts in my toes

makes me crinkle my nose

where ever it goes

I always know

that you make me smile

please stay for a while now

just take your time

where ever you go

What am I gonna say

when you make me feel this way

I just...mmmmmmmmmmm

I sobbed and sobbed realizing that I should pull over, I tried slowly, feebly.

It starts in my toes

makes me crinkle my nose

where ever it goes

I always know

that you make me smile

please stay for a while now

just take your time

where ever you go

I've been asleep for a while now

You tucked me in just like a child now

Cause every time you hold me in your arms

Im comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul

And I lose all control

When you kiss my nose

The feelin shows

Cause you make me smile

Baby just take your time

Holdin me tight

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go…..

I was a total wreck now, completely hysterical, but I had almost made it to the shoulder

I never saw the truck coming

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Sorry for the cliffie I couldn't resist. I hope you enjoyed it I will try to post the next chapter soon PLEASE review, I don't care if it's a flame.