Authors thoughts: Sorry for a late update I'm a terrible human being, I just keep losing inspiration. We are continuing from where we were in the last chapter but it's evening and she's at home. It's super difficult writing chapters without Damon ~le cries. Enjoy
Elena lay in her bed facing the ceiling with her hands neatly tucked behind her neck her mind wandering relentlessly. She felt physically and emotionally exhausted. Closing her eyes firmly she released a deep breath wishing for the days when life was simpler and things were easier, the days when her mother was around constantly nagging at her and when whether or not Matt would ask her out on a date was the biggest worry in her life. She wondered what her mother would think of her now that she was fraternising with the enemy, she wondered if under different circumstances her mother would like Damon—most probably not she concluded to herself an absent smile tugging at the corner of her lips, her mother would see straight through the incredibly handsome looks and the arrogant attitude. The sound of her phone ringing brought her thoughts back to the present as she sat up soberly remembering the chaos she had found herself in the middle of. This wasn't an alternate universe where Damon was a human boy with a bad attitude, this was real life and he was a vampire. Wiping her eyes with the back of her hand she picked up her phone gingerly a breath of relief mixed with a twinge of disappointment shooting through her when she read the caller ID. A part of her had hoped for it to be Damon she realised furious with herself, whilst the other part of her had wanted for it to be anyone but him.
"Hey,"
"Elena, I hope I didn't wake you…"Caroline replied the anxiety in her voice evident.
"I'm fine honest, you don't need to worry about me Care, I'll be okay," she lied hoping she sounded convincing.
Silence filled the other line and she momentarily wondered if the phone had cut off.
"That's not why I'm calling you," a brief pause. "Well of course I wanted to make sure that you were okay, you seemed really beat down but I know you're a tough cookie. You can take anything," her friend babbled nervously causing Elena's pulse to spike, something was wrong.
"Caroline! What's going on?" she hated how awfully pained and terrified she sounded but couldn't help it anyway.
"It's Damon."
Elena felt a tide of nausea wash over her despite herself whilst a million different thoughts swarmed through her mind as she waited for Caroline to continue.
"We've been assigned his case," she added after a moment sounding cautious.
"Oh." That was all Elena managed to get out but she felt her chest tighten and her hands begin to tremble.
They both remained silent for a while.
"I'm so sorry. I just thought you deserved to know…"
Digging her hands into the palm of her hand she released a tiny breath closing her eyes firmly shut the way she used to as a child when she hoped to become invisible for a while.
"Caroline it's fine. I'm fine."
"I wish I could reject the case but then mom and dad would start asking—"
"I said I'm fine!" she snapped cutting her off a lot harsher than she had intended. "I'm sorry," she added quickly dragging her hands through her hair.
"Do you…" Caroline let the words drift off awkwardly the unasked question hanging between them like thick smoke in the air. "You know…love him?"
"No." The words tumbled out of her mouth so fast it stilled them both into silence.
"I'm sorry regardless. Look, I've got to go now but I'll speak to you tomorrow?"
Elena bit on her lip her lip quivering to her dismay but she knew she had to know or it would destroy her. "When will it happen?"
"Elena, you know I can't tell you that."
"Caroline, please!"
A conflicted silence.
"Dawn."
She shot to her feet gripping the phone firmly her heart shattering against her chest, her airways felt constricted and she felt lightheaded. She glanced at the clock on her wall that read 9PM.
"What? That's so soon, that's too soon!"
"I know but the longer we leave it the greater the chance he becomes expectant of our arrival. This way, at least we have the element of surprise. Look, I really have to go and—" she stopped mid-sentence but she needn't because Elena knew precisely what she had to go and do. She had to go and prepare for the hunt.
"Thanks for letting me know Care."
Elena hung up and then flung the phone at the wall angrily letting out a scream in frustration. She dragged down her face and sat down on her bed clenching her hands into fists whilst flares of anger shot through her. She felt angry at Damon, at the world but most of all she felt furious with herself because she should have known better. In fact, no she had known better but had chosen to ignore her instincts which had been telling her to run in the opposite direction from the moment she had met him. Then there was him, he had allowed for her to feel something for him but it didn't make sense. What had been his endgame? To have some fun? To get an insight to how the hunters worked? Her mind reeled with unanswered questions that were driving her insane.
None of it mattered anyway. He would be dead by dawn. Damon Salvatore, that annoyingly arrogant vampire who had driven her insane with frustration dead. Her eyes drifted to her window sill as she remembered the day he had convinced her jump out of it and how he'd promised to catch her. She had been sceptical but he had caught her just as he'd promised. She remembered the palpations she had gotten in her chest whenever she was in his proximity—she shook her head cutting the thoughts short. She wouldn't do this to herself; she wouldn't torture herself over something he had done. He deserved to die and she knew that. He had written his fate the moment he had taken things into his own hands, she was just glad that it would all be over and done with by tomorrow she thought to herself a singular tear escaping her eyes.
He deserved to die.
He deserved to die.
Update: I've left this story untouched for weeks & want to check is anyone actually reading this? I've had a new idea so I'm tempted to ditch this one but I thought I'd carry on in case anyone is reading it, if you are please let me know.
Author's notes: Poor Elena is a bit bipolar when it comes to her feelings for Damon, she honestly doesn't know what she feels for him. Is she attracted to him? DUH. Does she love him? Um...
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I'll stop rambling now, but please do review :))
