Two Years Later

Brian

"Da-da Da-da Da-da"

I open my eyes looking around for Justin first, then at the clock. Holy Christ, again? Its three-thirty a.m. I pull a pillow over my face.

I close my eyes again, willing myself to get up when Justin appears from the bathroom. "Go back to sleep" he says gently. "I'll get her".

I don't argue. The baby monitor is on Justin's side of the bed and I'm too tired to get up and switch it off so I listen to their conversation.

"Pa-pa" Nora calls out when Justin enters the room "Da-da" she calls again.

"What's wrong sweetheart?" he says quietly stifling a yawn "Daddy's still sleeping"

"Da-da" she says again this time starting to fuss. "Shine" she says in her baby talk.

That's my cue, I get up and pull on some sweatpants and head to the nursery. I look in on Justin smiling "Sorry I tried" he says "I'll go get a bottle"

"Yeah only skip the milk bring the Beam" I joke.

"That's ok, come here baby girl" I say as I take her from Justin's arm. He gets up so I can sit down with her in the rocking chair. I hold her close, her blond hair a mess of curls; she twirls her hair with one hand and sucks her other thumb. I rock her and sing:

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

You make me happy, when skies are grey

You'll never know dear, how much I love you

Please don't take my sunshine away

Justin returns offering her the bottle, she finally closes her eyes as I continue to rock her back to sleep, practically in a sleep deprived stupor myself.

I must have dozed off holding Nora; Justin wakes me by lifting her out of my arms and placing her back in her crib. I tip-toe over to him standing behind him as he watches our daughter sleep, placing my hand on his arm; I lean over to him, kissing him, and whispered "Happy 2nd Anniversary my love" he smiles placing his hand over mine.

"Now we're going back to bed." I insist pulling him away from our angelic sleeping daughter.


Justin

Relief set in when Nora woke up and I discover it was eight-thirty, much more respectable. I wished I had time to give Brian a proper anniversary wake up; however, I left him sleeping in our bed figuring he would appreciate the gesture more after Nora's rough night. Last night was an enigma, at almost nine months, Nora rarely woke up in the middle of the night anymore but she was up and down all night last night. I was somewhat worried she was getting sick. I took her upstairs and fed her breakfast. We headed into the family room as I placed her on the floor under her favorite play gym.

I gave Debbie a call. She assured me it was probably just a new growth spurt causing her to be hungry in the middle of the night and totally normal. Debbie was a god-send of parental advice but I always missed my mom most when I talked to her about Nora.

I scooped Nora up from the floor, cuddling her and playing with her and one of her toys that lit up and played a song when you pushed it. Glancing at the clock, I noticed it was getting close to ten. I carried her back down the stairs to her room. Picking out some purple striped leggings and a purple shirt that says "Daddy's Girl", I wrestled a new diaper and her outfit on her. I brushed her golden blonde hair that was the exact shade of mine; wondering where the curls came from. No one in my family had curly hair; must be on the donor's side.

"Where's my big girl?" I hear Molly calling from the hallway.

"Shh" I tell her "Rough night, Brian's still sleeping. You picked a good night to stay at Mark's place"

"Oh sorry" she whispers "Come to Aunt Molly, Eleanor"

I smiled, Molly was the only one that still used her full name. Brian fell in love with the name Eleanor on our honeymoon; when we discovered it meant "sun ray"; he was convinced it was meant to be. I thought it didn't really suit a baby, so we settled on Nora for a nickname.

"She'll probably be cranky" I warn "You still want to take her today?"

"Of course" she says in a baby voice to Nora who's smiling brightly "I can't get enough of my sweet little angel"

"I really don't mind. I miss her like crazy during the school year, I need my fix during the summer" she reassured me returning to a normal voice "By the way, Happy Anniversary" she offers kissing my cheek.

I run through her schedule with Molly; she humors me by listening to information she is already well aware of. "I got to go" she finally complains "Mark's waiting for me"

"Ok, bye sweetheart" I said kissing Nora on the cheek "Papa loves you"


Brian

Justin crawled back in bed with me, his room-temperature skin penetrating the warm cocoon of covers I was enjoying. He kissed me awake gently.

"Where's the baby" I grumble barely awake.

"Molly took her out for the day" Justin explained before kissing me more firmly.

"Brian" he said grabbing the back of my head and darting his tongue in my mouth "I don't want to talk about the baby right now" he moved my hand to his hard-on letting me know what he had in mind.

"I think I can manage that" I whispered stroking him, while kissing him slowly, sensually.

"Brian" he says between kisses "It's our anniversary…"

I start running my tongue down his torso

He's still talking "…. and we are alone in the house for the first time in like six months…"

I take his nipple in my mouth, teasing it with my tongue, eliciting a faint moan.

Yet he still continues "we haven't had sex in like three days…."

I look up at him a bit irritated "Don't you see I am trying to rectify that?"

Finally he makes his point with a cocky smile "do you really want to make love slowly in our bed which we can do anytime; or would you like to fuck me on every surface of this house?"

"I see your point" grabbing him and pulling him out of bed taking him upstairs to the main living area.

I position him against one of the beams in the loft space. Removing his t-shirt and sweatpants; I lift his arms above his head and hold him pinned to the beam. "Is this more what you had in mind?" I say grinding my dick on him so he can feel how hot he makes me.

"Yeah, I want you" he beckons.

"You want me to fuck you?" I ask seductively "You want me to come inside your tight little ass?" I continue to hold his wrists pinned above his head with one arm and use the other to stoke his cock, pushing my cock into position.

"Yes, do it!" he says his face heavy with desire.

"Say it" I command, spanking his exposed ass.

"Fuck me Brian" he cries out "Fuck me hard"

I enter him forcefully, thrusting into him with primal urgency, the sounds of ecstasy coming out of my lover only serving to encourage me. Oh fuck yes, that's it, don't stop. Justin lets out a familiar grunt signaling his orgasm but I am far from ready for this to be over.

I give him a minute to catch his breath, just enough time to walk him over to the couch, putting him on his knees and bending him over, I continue ramming him, the change letting me enter him deeper than before. This being one of our favorite positions, we find our rhythm quickly allowing me to indulge my other desires: grabbing a hand full of his silky hair and occasionally smacking his ass.

The rhythmic smacking of our skin together is broken only by the words of encouragement we feed each other: fuck me; your ass is so tight; you feel so good; don't stop.

I look up briefly and can see our reflection in a mirror hanging on the wall. I observe Justin reach down, stoking himself, timing each movement with my thrusts. I stare at his reflection in the mirror: his face in a trance, his beautiful hard cock, and his perfect slim practically hairless body. Combined with the touch of his silky skin against mine and I know I can't hold back anymore, I grab Justin's hips tightly, giving him a warning. He braces himself as I pump furiously, releasing streams of hot liquid into him. After I am done; I turn Justin around sinking my mouth around his still unfulfilled, throbbing cock eliciting his second climax of the day.


Justin

I sank in exhaustion back in our bed. "That was fun" I offered as Brian climbed in after stopping to light a cigarette.

"It's been way to long since I fucked your brains out" he laughed acknowledging just how much life had changed "I was starting to feel like we were turning into a couple of Stepford fags."

"Heaven forbid" I said "Well just so you know this daddy, still needs his daddy" I said climbing on top of him, straddling him, reaching around to see if I could get another rise out of him.

"Again? Already?" he laughed "What are you seventeen again all of a sudden?"

"I'm sorry" I offered not apologetically, slapping my semi-hard dick on his stomach to show him I could still get it up "I thought I married Brian fucking Kinney! The hottest stud on Liberty Avenue"

"Well it's finally happened Sunshine" he looked dejected "You wore me out"

"I always knew our twelve-year age difference would catch up to me eventually" I joked, climbing off of him and moving his cigarette to the ashtray on the bedside table.

"It's lucky for me that I enjoy your ass as much as I enjoy your cock" I teased rolling him over.


Brian

After Justin took his turn fucking my brains out, we both fell asleep recovering from the sleepless night and the hours of sex. It was almost two before we made our way to the shower to get ready for the day. Justin had called to check on Nora before joining me in our shower.

"She's fine" he reported "she's still taking her nap"

"What time is Daphne coming over?" I asked soaping his chest.

"Around six" he answered turning around so I could wash his back "our reservations are for seven. She said she had a surprise for us"

"I've had enough surprises from Daphne" I joked. "I'll never recover from seeing Nora be born; I was never so glad to have missed Gus's actual birth"

"I'll admit even though technically I have seen hers before" he shuttered referring to the time he took Daphne's virginity "vaginas are always disturbing; thank God we aren't lesbians or worse, straight"

"Well let's just hope Daphne can help Nora on that topic when the time comes" I said half-joking still a little freaked out that we were attempting to raise a girl.


Justin

After showering and dressing, I headed downstairs to check on the gallery. I'm surprised to see Gus sitting at the reception desk drawing on a sketch pad. "Hi Pop" he said barely looking up. He looks more like Brian everyday.

I kissed the top of his head "Hey Gus, this is a nice surprise!" I peeked over his shoulder "that's really good. Your shading is definitely getting better".

"Thanks, that's what mom says too" he laughed.

Lindsay appears from the back office, "What does mom say?"

"That his shading is getting better" I explained "How's it going Linz?"

"Pretty busy morning actually. Tom was back in; he's looking for a few pieces for the new office" she said pointing to the large canvas on the back wall "he loves this one but he wanted to measure first".

Of course, I thought, Tom Engel was a big collector of my work but he was a selective buyer, it wasn't unusual for him to come back repeatedly before making a purchase. "You have the patience of a saint" I told Lindsay.

"Hey Gus" Lindsay said smiling "show Pop your sketches from class yesterday"

Gus groaned before flipping pages in his sketch pad and handing it to me reluctantly. I glanced down at the page; there were six small portraits, all an image of the same girl. "I'm going upstairs to say hi to Dad" he said embarrassed.

I looked at Lindsay "who's the girl?" I gawked at her.

She let out a loud laugh, "April", she answered "Cute huh?"

"Well the drawings are good" I answered "Does he…?"

"Like her? Oh yes! He's completely smitten" she interrupted excitedly "Mel saw him after school with her. She said the flirting was going both ways."

"Well holy shit, Gus is straight!" I laughed "I did not see that coming; did you?"

She shook her head no. "We did our best; we gave him four gay parents but the heart wants what the heart wants"

We both looked at each other and said at the same time "Brian's going to freak"


Brian

I had just opened a juice for Gus when Justin returned to the loft. "Hey Gus, your mom's waiting for you. She's ready to go" he called.

"Okay" he said hopping off the chair and grabbing his juice. "See you later Dad" he hugged me "Bye Pop" he called after Justin before disappearing downstairs.

"Did he tell you?" Justin asked like a cat that swallowed the canary.

"Tell me what?" I said clueless "Did he make the travel team for soccer?" I guessed.

"No he has his first crush…" Justin spit out "…on a girl" he finished looking at me for a reaction.

"What? No way" I said shrugging "he just hasn't met the right boy yet".

"Brian" he laughed "you need to start coming to terms with Gus possibly being straight".

I sighed "The truth is, I've suspected for a while. I was just hoping that I would have had more of an influence. I blame the munchers"

Justin laughed, kissing me. "Yeah, based on early judging, I think J.R. is headed for hetero-ville too. Lindz and Mel are 0-2"


Justin

"Hey Daphne" I welcomed my oldest friend into the house with a warm hug and a kiss.

"Hey Jus" she said "Where's my girl?"

"Yeah, I see where I fall on the priority list" I laughed as she pushed her way passed me to scoop Nora out of her swing to hug her.

"Come here baby girl" Daphne coo's at her "How's my angel?"

She carries Nora back to join me in the kitchen as I prepare her bottle. "How's she doing on the new formula?" she asked concerned.

"Fine" I said "Don't beat yourself up Daphne, you couldn't pump forever, we understood"

"I know" she said "I was really hoping I could have made it a year"

Daphne had so generously supplied us with her breast milk for the first seven months of Nora's life. She went way above and beyond surrogate expectations but she insisted it was better for her.

"So you excited for your anniversary dinner?" she asked "Where is Brian anyway?"

"He's still downstairs getting ready" I answered her "It will be nice to have a night out. It's been a bigger adjustment than we thought"

She laughed "I bet" taking Nora's bottle from me and taking her over to the couch to feed her.

"I can't believe this child came out of me. She's getting so big" she said gazing at her. "Her skin's so fair" she remarked rubbing her arm with her finger.

"Do you remember that nurse in the delivery?" I laughed "She was confused; how such a fair-skinned, blond child had been born to you".

"I know, even after Brian told her we used a donor egg, she looked completely perplexed" Daphne smiled "You'd think they would have seen it before by now"

"Yeah, but judging by the trouble we ran into with her birth certificate, there's still a lot of resistance to gay parents" I sighed recalling how the hospital insisted on listing Daphne and I as parents and refusing to list Taylor-Kinney as her last name.

She sat Nora up on her shoulder to burp her; just then Brian walked upstairs wearing a fitted grey shirt and black pants.

"Wow Brian" I called out "You look hot babe" I approached him giving him a deep kiss.

"Thanks you too but thanks to you my ass and my cock are sore" he said oblivious to our company.

Daphne cleared her throat and I laughed and smiled as Brian cringed that she had overheard his comment. "Sorry Daphne" he called loudly "When did you get here?" he said chiding me for not warning him.

"Sorry" I mouthed to Brian.

"That's okay" she reassured him "I'm glad you enjoyed your afternoon alone together"

"Are you ready to go?" he asked me "We're going to miss our reservation"

"Wait" Daphne called "Before you go, I have a surprise" she said putting Nora back in her swing.

"What is it?" I asked.

She took a legal size manila envelope out of her bag and handed it to Brian.

"Oh my God" he said looking through the papers before hugging her tightly.

"Mel asked me to give it to you today" Daphne said excitedly almost crying.

"What, what is it?" I asked.

Brian handed me the paperwork I flipped through the documents not really understanding what I was looking at until I got to the last page. It was Nora's amended birth certificate. On it our daughter's name was listed as Eleanor Jennifer Taylor-Kinney and listed as her parents: Brian Kinney and Justin Taylor-Kinney.

I hugged Brian secure in the thought that Nora was officially, legally our daughter.


Brian

I escorted Justin into the restaurant.

The hostess asked for his name "Kinney" Justin answered her. "We have a reservation"

"Oh yes, I see" she smiled "Happy Anniversary gentlemen. Right this way"

Justin looked at me confused that she knew it was our anniversary as we followed her to our table. Just as I requested we had a private table in the back. On the table were a dozen red roses I had ordered earlier. The hostess stepped aside so I could pull Justin's seat out. She in turn pulled out mine.

"We've been curious about the lucky recipient since they arrived" she remarked gesturing to the flowers that Justin was admiring and placing our napkins in our laps "wish my husband would plan romantic surprises for me" she winked at me. "Can I offer you gentlemen something to drink?"

I ordered a bottle of wine for us and took Justin's hand running my finger over his wedding band. He looked shocked.

"You bought me flowers?" he said flashing his thousand watt smile. "I can't believe it. They're beautiful"

"So are you" I said making him blush slightly.

"You're being awfully cheesy tonight" he said.

"I prefer ridiculously romantic" I said kissing his hand.

"Well I love this side of you" he said, leaning across the table to kiss me "I love you"

As we sipped our wine, waiting for the first course to arrive I caught a waiter standing in my peripheral vision trying to catch Justin's eye. I chuckled a little "You've got an admirer" I said interrupting him.

"Really?" he asked not turning to look. "Where?"

"The hot waiter in the corner" I told him "he looks familiar. I think I've seen him at Babylon."

"That's pretty obnoxious, cruising me when I'm on a date with my husband" feigning disgust, not really able to hide his enjoyment of the situation.

"Enjoy it while it last Sunshine" I added jealous that I had the pleasure less and less these days.

"Come on Brian, you're still so hot" he comforted me "plus even if they don't want you for your body, all the twinks will still want you for your bank account" he teased.

"I'm really only concerned about one twink wanting me for my body" I teased.

"Well considering I will be thirty in a few months; I'm getting a little old to be considered a twink but I still love your body" Justin said quietly "I have no complaints except maybe that we don't have sex enough since Nora was born"

"Well I warned you things would change" I cautioned him smiling.

"Do you have any regrets?" he asked shifting the conversation to a more serious tone.

I thought about his question and recalled Lindsay's words to me "Once you see your child, you will be instantly in love but because this time you will be bringing that child into the world with the person you love it will be even more special, more meaningful."

"Justin" I said "I don't do regrets"


Justin

"That was the most amazing dinner!" I gushed carrying my roses back to the car as we left the restaurant. I was floating on air.

"I'm glad you enjoyed it" Brian said wrapping his arm around me and kissing me on the cheek while we walked.

"Are you sure you don't want to go out tonight? We could fuck in public for old time's sake." I offered thinking Brian might appreciate that celebration more. "I can ask Daph if she can stay"

"The only place I'm interested in going is home" he said "you wore me out today."

As we entered our building I noticed the light was on in the gallery. "Brian" I pointed to the light coming through the glass door. "Lindsay forgot to turn the light off today, that's not like her".

We opened the door to the gallery. "SURPRISE!" screamed a mass of people. I could tell by the look on Brian's face that he was in on it. We were greeted with warm hugs and kisses from practically everyone we knew.

The party was wonderful; even Daphne joined us after Nora went to bed leaving strict orders to Gus to call her if she woke up. I was in mid conversation with Michael when the music changed suddenly. Brian walked over and grabbed my hand, leading me into the middle of the room as the conversation died down low enough for me to hear the song.

You can dance-every dance with the guy
Who gives you the eye, let him hold you tight
You can smile-every smile for the man
Who held your hand neath the pale moon light
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me

We danced in front of all of our friends and family. Brian, looking sexy as ever, guided me around the floor. We never broke eye contact and I couldn't stop smiling.


Brian

"So was it all you hoped for?" I asked Justin as we returned to the loft.

"And more" he said "almost impossible to believe that you planned it"

'Well I have a lot of years of romantic gestures to make up for" I said kissing him.

"Brian" Justin said holding my chin looking at my lovingly "As much as I love the flowers and surprises. You know I don't really need them anymore. I know you love me. You don't have anything to prove to me"

"That's not the only reason I do them" I clarified. Justin looked skeptical.

"Trust me" I said pouring us two glasses of whiskey and handing a glass to him. "No one is more surprised than me…" we toasted and drank the shots. "…but I do them for me; I do them to see the look on your face. That look makes me happy."

"I don't have a look" he protested. I just laughed.

"I'm gonna go check on Nora" he said kissing me "Meet me in bed?"

I nodded, pouring another glass of whiskey and drinking it down quickly. I picked up Nora's birth certificate on the counter and stared at it. I can't believe she's finally mine. An overwhelming swell of emotion built up in me; I couldn't believe what a life I have now. I never imagined it would be like this.

I walked downstairs to our bedroom but Justin wasn't there. I waited for a few minutes and went to find him. I found him in the nursery staring down at Nora. An idyllic smile on his face; his eyes filled with love; his expression a mixture of pride and awe. I wrapped my arms around him and kissed him. "That's the look" I whispered.

The End

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