A/N: Thank you all for the reviews :)
So now that Tsubaki has given Sesshoumaru the scoop on Naima and Naraku, what will he do about it?...
My heart was practically beating in my throat as I rode to Sesshoumaru's place after stopping at my own first. Kagome, Kagura, and Sango had all confirmed that what Tsubaki had said was true. "He came over here really early," Sango said.
"How did Tsubaki find out though?" I asked. They all looked at each other very nervously.
"Well, you see sweetie," Kagura began, "...we knew that you were in a pretty upset mood and after you didn't come home last night, we were worried about you. We tried to call your cell, but you didn't pick up. So we called a few other girls to see if they had heard from you...and I guess the word eventually got back to Tsubaki."
"Naima how could you sleep with Naraku? You know that Sesshoumaru loves you so much," Kagome asked with a disappointed look.
"I didn't have sex with Naraku. I stopped before it could get that far. After we kissed, all we did was sleep. Nothing else happened. Look, I've got to go find Sesshoumaru." I turned around and ran out of the door, beginning to make my way to Sesshoumaru's.
When I pulled into the parking lot, I noticed that Sesshoumaru's car was there, but neither Koga or Jaken's was. I swallowed hard and sighed deeply. My body trembling with nervousness and fear. I already knew that Sesshoumaru thought that I had comitted the ultimate betrayal with Naraku. Even though I was innocent of that, I still betrayed him by kissing Naraku and spending the night with him. The guilt ran rampant throughout me and I was now regreting going to see Naraku last night.
I rang the doorbell to the apartment as soon as I got to the door. I shuffled around very nervously as I waited for Sesshoumaru to come and answer. "Come in," I heard his voice boom after a few more seconds. I already knew that he had caught my Naraku heavy scent. The irritation in his voice proved it. I took in a deep breath before opening the door and cautiously walking inside. Each step I took felt as if I was an inmate walking the Green Mile. I could practically hear the walls mocking me. "Dead woman walking," was what they chanted. My heart was at top speed when I finally made it to the livingroom. I saw Sesshoumaru sitting cross-legged on the couch with his eyes closed, almost like he was in a meditative state. I fidgeted with my helmet nervously as I continued to stand in one spot, looking at him very intensely. "Sit down," he instructed in a calm, yet firm voice. I nodded and quickly obeyed by taking a seat in the chair across from the couch. The room was deadly silent as I continued to stare at the closed eyed dog demon. The only sounds to be heard were from my heavy breathing. I now knew for sure that Sesshoumaru was meditating to clam his nerves. He often did that when he was very angry with someone. I knew that it would be best if I didn't say anything to him until he was ready to talk. One minute, two minutes, three, four, five. Time steadily ticked away and Sesshoumaru had yet to open his eyes. "Naima." The sudden vocalization of my name startled me a little and caused me to jump a bit. Should I answer? Do I dare speak?
"Y-yes?" a cracky whisper left my lips.
"You seem to be harboring a lot of nervous energy right now. Your demonic aura has changed significantly. Tell me. What is the cause of this nervousness?" I remained quiet as I didn't know how to answer such an elaboate question. "If I am your boyfriend and you love me so, then why do you tremble with fear? Are you afraid of me or is there another reason why you are so nervous?" Still, I said nothing. He shook his head slightly as a frown appeared on his previously stoic face. "Naima, I am so disappointed that a strong woman like you can be easily broken. The scent of that half breed lingers very strongly upon you." He slowly opened his eyes and looked upon me with his usual blank stare. "Yet...I am impressed that I don't smell arousal mixed in as well. But something isn't right with this scenario because the only man's scent I should smell on you is my own. I know that you spent the night with Naraku. I saw the pictures of your motorcycle at his home that were sent to me on my phone around five o'clock this morning. I also saw the picture of you yourself in the parkinglot. Now I want you to tell me what all went on between you two because you at least owe me that much, and for your sake you better be one hundred percent honest because I know when you lie." I sniffled and wiped a few tears away, knowing that the end of us was more than likely near. Sesshoumaru would never forgive me for this. I know that I was wrong for what I did to him, but...I didn't want to lose him because I still loved him, even though I loved Naraku too.
"I...uhhh..." I began, my voice sounding very congested, "I went to his house last night because I wanted to apologize to him for saying some very mean things to him when we got into an arguement last night after you left. We talked about our past together and why our relationship turned sour. One thing led to another and we kissed. We kissed for a long time."
"How long?"
"I honestly don't know. It was for a while though."
"Did you slip each other tongue?"
"...Y-yes."
"Did you feel each other up?"
"No."
"Did you do anything else sexual?"
"No."
"Why not? You deep tongue kissed so foreplay was obviously the next step. Why didn't you go through with it?"
"Because I love you."
"Yet you kissed another man."
"I know and I'm so sorry. I was wrong and I know it, but I stopped before anything else could happen because I still love you."
"Your love for me should have brought you home last night. Didn't you even consider the fact that staying with him would put our relationship at risk?"
"Yes."
"But you stayed anyway?"
"Its complicated Sesshoumaru."
"What's complicated about it Naima?" His calm demenour was beginning to wear thin. Anger was now more noticeable in his usually cool voice. "I can see the complication in any of this. If you love me so much, then you should know better than to kiss another man."
"I-I-I'm sorry Sesshoumaru."
"Are you sorry because you feel bad or are you sorry because you got caught?"
"I'm sorry for hurting you. You know that I would never do anything like this to you on purpose. Its not like I just woke up yesterday and said, 'Oh, I think I'll make out with my best friend today.' It kind of just happened. I got caught up in the moment and...I got carried away."
"All this time you've been resisting Naraku's advances, but all of a sudden you want to give in? What was so different about last night Naima? Huh? Were you still horny because I walked out on you and you couldn't control your lusts?"
"No Sesshoumaru," I was beginning to cry again, "it wasn't anything like that. I swear to you that I only went to his house because I had said some mean things to him and it could have ruined our friendship. There wasn't any other alterior motive for me going."
"So when you two fight, you run after him, but when we fight, you don't care?"
"You're the one who walked out on me remember?"
"And do you remember why I did it? Because I'm sick and tired of you always putting him over me. I'm sick of it!"
"When do I put him over you? Sesshoumaru, we are best friends. We are practically like family."
"Oh no. Family doesn't make out with each other. You two might be close, but it isn't in a family way."
"Okay, but still, we've been through a lot together, so if he needs me I'm going to be there for him regardless if you like it or not."
"That's not the point Naima!" The calmness was completely shattered then. He got off of the couch and stood in front of me with angry eyes. This emotional outburst that was so rare for him began to frighten me. I gripped onto the sides of the chair tightly as I stared at him through wet eyes. "That's not the point at all. The point is is that regardless of how long you two have know each other, or how close you two have been in the past, you have absolutely no right to bring him into our relationship!"
"Sess..."
"No! Let me finish. Now I've sat here and been as patient as I can be with you because I know that Naraku means a lot to you. I know that and I have accepted it. But my patience has ran out and I'm beginning to realize that I cannot continue to be with a woman who will run out on me at even the slightest problem that her best friend might have. For almost three years I've been by your side and I have yet to do something with another woman. Why? Because I only have eyes for you. But its now clear that you have a wondering eye and its looking at Naraku right now."
"Sesshoumaru it's not like that at all," I cried as I stood up too, "the situation is complicated and I...I'm just confused right now."
"Why are you confused! You say you love me so why would you be confused about it! You are still in love with Naraku aren't you?!"
"...Y-y-yes, but I love you too."
"That's not good enough Naima!"
"I can't help it!" My sudden outburst caused him to quiet down a little bit. "...Naraku and I never had proper closure. I guess my feelings for him never really completely went away and seeing him again has brought them back to the surface. And the things that I found out recently have only made the situation even more complicated. I know that I should move on and let him go...but I can't. I can't control what I feel inside. I love him. I love you. Its not like I'm stepping out on you on purpose or just randomly messing around with some guy that I think is hot. Its not like that at all. I'm...I'm just torn."
"You're torn between a man who broke your heart and a man who has stuck by your side no matter what? You dare put me in a competition with him?"
"...I'm sorry."
"You keep apologizing but do you even really mean it?!"
"Yes! Yes I mean it."
"What are you sorry for?"
"I'm sorry for hurting you, I'm sorry for bringing drama into our relationship, and I'm sorry for betraying your trust."
"Again."
"...yes. A-again." We both became really quiet for a while. We could both feel that the end was near and the pain I felt was unbearable. Yet, I could only blame myself. It was my own fault and Sesshoumaru had every right to kick me to the curb.
"Your record," he began in his normally calm voice, "...your record with me is all mixed up now. Part of it says that I can't trust you, because this isn't the first time that you've kissed Naraku. Yet, your record also shows that you still have some morality left in you since you haven't slept with Naraku and you've, for the most part, been honest with me during this whole thing. So I want you to be honest with me now. Look me in the eyes Naima." I did as he said and lifted my gaze to meet up with his. "Do you really, truly, love me?"
"Yes. I love you."
"But you don't love Naraku...right?"
"..." He sighed deeply.
"I think you already know where we stand as a couple right now. I honestly do believe you when you say that you love me, but its clear that I can't trust you because you love Naraku too. I know that you didn't sleep with him, but whose to say that you won't the next time. When you finally decide who you want, then maybe you and I can talk about making things work between us. But as long as you still love Naraku, I think you and I need to go our seperate ways." I sobbed at his last statement. I already knew that Sesshoumaru would want to break up, but to hear him say it...
"So...its over?"
"Until I know for sure that your heart completely belongs to me...then we are finished."
"...please...please can't we just...talk about it?"
"What else is there to say? We both know that we can't continue our relationship as long as he still lingers in your heart. There's no other choice. We have to end it." I nodded my head knowing that he was right.
"O-okay," I sniffed.
"You know the way out," he said before leaving the livingroom and walking back to his room. I flinched slightly at the sound of his door closing. I felt so completely horrible right then. I had destroyed two years and several months of happiness just because I couldn't decide if I wanted him or my best friend. I never thought it would be like this. I sighed deeply, trying to stiffle my tears as I walked to the door, knowing that this just might be the last time that I would be able to come here. A sudden vibration in my pocket knocked me out of my depressing thoughts. I pulled my phone out only to see that it was Naraku calling me. I closed the phone back up and put it back into my pocket. I couldn't talk to him right now, regardless if I was at Sesshoumaru's place or not. I couldn't bring myself to talk to Naraku after what had just happened between Sesshoumaru and I. The phone began to vibrate again after I left the apartment and began to walk down the steps outside. This time it was Li who was calling me.
"Hello?" I greeted my sister.
"Hey ma...what's wrong?"
"Oh...no-nothing."
"Naima. Don't lie to me, I know something is up."
"Its nothing. Don't worry about it. How's the baby?"
"She's fine. Just a two more weeks and she'll be out. You're going to be at the hospital with me right?"
"Of course. I won't miss the birth of my niece."
"Are you bringing Sesshoumaru too? Considering that he just might be Leila's uncle and all."
"...I've got to go."
"Naima. Baby, what is wrong with you? I know something is up. Just tell me."
"Your concern should be with Leila right now."
"Come home this weekend. You've been long overdue for a visit anyways, so I want you to come home."
"Alright."
"You promise?"
"I promise."
"Okay. I'll talk to you later baby. I love you very much."
"I love you too."
"Bye bye sweetie."
"Goodbye."
A/N: Awww big sis to the rescue, lol
