A/N: I'm baaaack, lol. I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and holiday season! I know I did with my crazy family, lol. Oh yeah, thank you all for the reviews too!!
Okay, so now that Naima has fought his ex, what does Naraku think about all of this?
The song lyrics are from Silk's "Lose Control" Woooo yeah! We love Silk! lol
I did as my sister requested and stayed home during Spring Break. Even though I would have loved to have been in Miami, which was where many of my friends were going, the break from anything school related was really needed. Plus spending time with my sisters is never boring. Their antics can really keep a person entertained. Still, even with me being away from drama, drama was all I could think about. It was now Friday afternoon and Spring Break would be over in two days. That also meant that I would soon have to face Myoga-sama again in order for him to hand down judgement upon me. Not only was that on my mind, but I couldn't get Sesshoumaru out of my head either. It was now two weeks since we had broken up and I missed him like crazy. I missed everything about him. His eyes, his scent, his hair, his cool but sweet personality. I even missed how much he used to irritate me whenever I would try to be all emotional with him and he'd still have that 'whatever' attitude. But I think what I missed most was his laugh and smile. He didn't do either of those often, but when he did it would always make me melt. So rare but so special.
"So did you hear anything yet from Myoga-sama?" Bankotsu asked as I talked to him over the phone. He and Sai were in Miami as well, probably having the time of their lives. My scenery was far different. I was in my room, lying in my bed, still in my PJs, watching the ceiling and listening to sad love songs as I talked to him.
"No, Myoga-sama will tell me his decision on Monday," I replied.
"What did Coach Takemaru say?"
"He forgave me after I went to apologize to him. He said that he'll miss having me on the team, since I can't run track anymore during college."
"Tough break."
"Well, its the price you pay for breaking the rules and fighting."
"Umm, no. That wasn't a fight. That was a straight 'Brooklyn Beat Down'. You messed Tsubaki up! I was quite impressed by your fighting skills." I smiled a little.
"Well, I'm now starting to feel a little bad since she had to get stitches, but she deserved it, really."
"Heck yeah she did. You should have seen Naraku's face when I told him that his wifey whooped his ex's behind. He scolded me for not breaking you two up, but I told him that I don't get into catfights. Nuh uh. A man might get his eyes scrathed out. Especially when there is an actual cat involved. Ha ha, get it? Catfight and you're a panther demon?" I smiled and shook my head.
"You're an idiot. So I guess Naraku is in Miami with you all as well?"
"Well actually, he decided...wait a minute...is...is that Luther playing in the background?" I instantly grabbed the remote and turned the stereo off before Bankotsu started making jokes.
"N-No...No I wasn't listening to Luther Vandross," I lied. Bankotsu only laughed.
"Oh wow, you are just as bad as Naraku. Just the other day he was moping in his room, drunk, and singing that Lenny Williams song. You know, the one that goes, 'Girl you know I-I-I-I love you...'" I laughed really hard upon hearing that.
"You're not serious are you?"
"I wish I wasn't. He was soooo drunk. And what's so bad about it was that he never got past the first verse before he passed out." I stiffled another laugh. I was sad because he was mopey, but amused at the thought of my best friend singing "Because I Love You", while drunk. "You know, you two should get together and listen to some songs too, although nothing sad like Luther. No, you two should listen to some Silk or R. Kelly. You know, babymaking music."
"Umm I think not. Besides I thought he went to Miami with you, Sai, Kikyo, and your brothers."
"Nope. He is still in Brooklyn...all...alone. You're still in Brooklyn...all...alone. Hmmm, maybe you two should go and keep each other company and relieve that sexual tension between you two."
"Are you relieving yours?"
"Why are you in my business woman?"
"Why are you in mine?"
"I don't know. You tell me?" I giggled and shook my head. He laughed too. "You know what we should do about this whole dramatic situation?"
"What?"
"I'll dump Sai, you'll forget about Naraku and Sesshoumaru, we will go to Vegas and elope, and we'll move to Cancun and live there forever with Bankotsu Jr. Just the three of us." I laughed so hard. I could always count on Bankotsu to make me laugh at sad times.
"You don't have any sense left do you?"
"Not really. But look, I gotta go. I'll call you later on, okay?"
"Okay. Have fun for me."
"You can have fun too. Just call your BFF up."
"Bye pervert." I rolled my eyes as I clicked off the phone. I turned the radio back on and laid back down on my pillows, staring up at the while ceiling. So Naraku didn't go to Miami huh? Neither did Sesshoumaru from what Koga had told me. It had been two weeks since I had last talked to both men personally. I got all of my information on them by our mutual friends. Maybe I should talk to Naraku and see how he's doing. I mean, Sesshoumaru won't answer my calls so I know it has to make Naraku feel bad when I don't answer his. To be honest, I really wanted to talk to my best friend, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. It still didn't feel quite right. As I was wrapped in this thought, a knock came at my door. "Go away," I told whoever it was knocking. I really didn't want to be bothered at the moment. Seconds later, the door to my bedroom opened and my little sister entered the room. I sat up in bed and stared at her with wide eyes.
"How did you get in here? The door was locked," I demanded. Tarei grinned really wide as she waved a credit card in her hand.
"Why Master Card granted me access. Master Card, twenty dollars. Breaking into your sister's bedroom, priceless." I rolled my eyes and threw a pillow at her. She giggled as she dodged the pillow.
"What do you want Tarei?"
"To spend time with you. I refuse to let you continue to sit in here and listen to Luther. For the sake of your mind and the rest of our minds. I mean, you can only keep going in circles for so long." I giggled and shook my head at her. She came over and sat on the bed with me.
"I'm sorry that my sad love songs drive you crazy, but I can't help it."
"Why sweetie?"
"What do you mean why?"
"I mean why do you keep moping around, pining after Sesshoumaru when you have Naraku right there beside you, willing to take care of you. He loves you so much."
"I know, but I want to be certain of who I want to spend the rest of my life with before I rush back into another relationship with either one of them."
"Well, I can't choose for you, but I hope you pick Naraku. He's sooo awesome and sexy too."
"Eww, you would be attracted to your brother-in-law. You do know that right?"
"So. We won't be related by blood."
"That's still kind of Jerry Springer-ish, little mama."
"Whatever. Oh yeah, Katsu just called and said that they admitted Li and will induce her soon."
"Do they want us to go to the hospital?"
"No, he said that he'd call when she goes into labor."
"Where is Haikaru?"
"Asleep." I nodded my head. Tarei stretched forward and grabbed the stereo remote from beside me.
"I'll leave you alone now, but at least listen to something with some bass. Geez, all of these slow songs will make you even more depressed. Ahhh here we go!" She turned the volume up and the sounds of Tupac's "Do For Love" filled the room. "Oh yes, now this is more appropriate." Just as she put the remote back down, the doorbell rang. We both gave each other questioning looks for neither of us were expecting anybody. "I'll be right back pumpkin." She got off of my bed and kissed me on the forehead before leaving my bedroom. I folded my arms and laid back against the headboard as I continued to listen to the classic, mid-tempo, hip hop song. I closed my eyes and slowly bobbed my head to the beat, so lost in the music that I almost didn't register when another voice began to sing the words to the song. A deep, male voice, which I had really missed hearing.
"I shoulda seen you was trouble right from the starrrrt, taught me so many lessons. How not to mess with broken hearts, so many questions. When this began we was the perfect match. Perhaps, we had some problems but we workin at it." I looked up and saw that Naraku now stood in my bedroom with a small smile on his face. I couldn't help but smile too and joined him in the song.
"And now, the arguments are gettin loud, I wanna stay. But I can't help from walkin out just a little way. Just take my hand and understand, if you could see. I never planned to be your man, it just wasn't me."
i "But now I'm searchin for commitment, in other arrrrms. I wanna shelter you from harm, don't be alarmed. Your attitude was the cause, you got me stressin. Soon as I open up the door with your jealous questions. Like, where can I be? You're killin me with your jealousy. Now my ambition's to be free. I can't breathe, cause soon as I leave, it's like a trap. I hear you callin me to come back, I'm a sucka for love." /i
"Don't sing the chorus. Please," I begged as I clicked the stereo off before the song could get that far. Naraku chuckled as he closed the door to my bedroom and walked over to my bed to sit down. We both sat cross legged on opposite ends and stared at each other in silence for a few moments. "What are you doing here?" I asked after a while, breaking the silence.
"I came to see my best friend. Is there something wrong with that?" I didn't reply to his question. He sighed deeply. "Bankotsu told me that you are threatened with expulsion because of your fight with Tsubaki." I slowly nodded my head.
"Yeah. Yeah, I am."
"Well, I just wanted to make sure that you were doing okay. I had to come over to check on you, since you won't answer any of my calls. Which by the way is very cold if you don't know that."
"I'm sorry. I just couldn't do it."
"Because of Sesshoumaru...right?" I slowly nodded my head again. He sighed deeply. "Who knew that love could be so complicated? No fairy tales for us, I see. Just tell me this. Do I even stand a chance against Sesshoumaru, or is he the one you truly want to be with?" I was still very quiet as I stared into his ruby red eyes.
(Talking)
I'm sorry I never meant to hurt you
No, I really didn't
I'm so sorry
I just want you to sit down for just a minute
And let me talk to you
"I...I don't know...who I want. I'm not ready to make a decision yet. It...its hard. Really." He nodded his head.
"I understand. You do need some space to make your decision, but you could have at least answered one of my calls so your best friend knows that you're okay. Do you know how pathetic I have been since I haven't been able to talk to you? Just the other day, I found myself drunk and singing Lenny Williams." I giggled, remembering what Bankotsu had told me.
"So I've heard. That really is sad, but I'm not one to talk. I've been listening to Luther all day. I even had to fight the urge to pull out Daddy's old love records." He laughed loudly.
"Oh how pathetic are we?"
"Very."
"You see, that's why we need to be around each other. So we can cheer each other up when we are depressed. I miss that beautiful smile of yours. And that laugh. You know what? I know exactly how to bring both of them out." I smiled a little at him.
"Oh yeah? How?"
"Like this." Without any warning, Naraku leaned forward and began to tickle my sides. Sure enough I began to giggle and laugh, trying to fight him off. He used to always do that whenever I wasn't feeling too happy.
"Stop it...quit it..." I begged between laughs as he continued to tickle me.
"Nuh uh. You should've answered your phone," he replied as he continue to tickle me. I giggled even more. He then crawled over to me and pushed me backward on the bed. He climbed ontop of me and nuzzled his face in the crook of my neck, tickling me with his nose and lips. My laughs were uncontrolable and my stomach was beginning to hurt from laughing so hard.
Last night we had an argument
You told me you love me
All the things I said I never meant
No baby
I didn't mean to make you cry
I didn't mean to make you say bye bye bye
Baby won't you let me look inside your soul (oh my baby yeah)
Let me make you lose control (let me make you lose control, control)
Let me be the one you need (I wanna be the one for you girl)
Baby just come to me (Oh oh, just come on, on)
"Stop it," I cried, still trying to get him off of me, "...okay...okay I'm sorry. I'll answer your calls from now on. I won't do it again. I promise."
"Say my name," he demanded, as he kissed my neck. I laughed defiantly.
"I'm not saying your name. I refuse."
"Okay then, you leave me with no choice." He began to tickle me even more. My stomach was really sore now from laughing so much.
"Okay okay. I give. Naraku!"
"Who is the man?"
"You are."
"Who?"
"Naraku! Now get off me!" Naraku grinned as he got off of me and laid down beside me, his head resting on one of my pillows. I snarled at him as I laid down beside him, my stomach muscles very sore. "Ugh! I can't stand you sometimes!" I growled as I playfully smacked him on the arm.
"Oh no. What did I tell you about being mean to me? It looks like you haven't learned your lesson." He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer. He once again began to tickle my neck with his face. I squealed and laughed, trying to get loose from his grip, but Naraku held me very firmly.
"Alright! Okay, I'm sorry! Stop tickling me!" I begged. He laughed as he finally stopped.
"I see that you're still ticklish in the same spots that you used to be," he said, resting his head on my shoulder. "Yet, you still haven't been able to find my ticklish spot after all of these years." I smirked as I laid my head ontop of his.
"I'll find it one day. Don't worry."
Ooo, now tell me girl what you want from me
Whatever it is you desire
I wanna give my baby
I wanna feel your body yearn (Oooo)
All your softest spots I plan to learn
Baby won't you let me just kiss you down (let me kiss you down baby)
Make you spin around and 'round (I'll make you spin around and 'round, oh)
Flip you girl from left to right (If you don't mind)
If you don't mind (Baby, ohhh)
Baby can I just spend the night
"I have so much fun being silly with you. I really hope that this won't be taken away from me when you make your decision. I could stay like this forever. How I'd love to cuddle up next to each other every night. Except we'd be..."
"Don't even finish that statement, perv," I cut him off, already knowing what was about to come out of his mouth. He chuckled and pulled me closer to him. He yawned a little.
"Alright," he said, burying his face in my neck again and planting small kisses over it, "I won't finish my statement, for I see that you were thinking the same thing. I'm just happy to be next to you right now. I love you so much Naima."
"I love you too Naraku."
"So let's be together my dear. Please. I promise you that I won't ever do anything to hurt you ever again. I need you, Naima." I sighed deeply as I pulled away from his grip. I sat up in bed and hugged my knees close to my chest, leaning back against the headboard.
"I don't know Naraku." He stared up at me with question in his eyes.
"What do you mean my dear?"
"I mean...I just don't know. I already told you that I'm not ready to make a decision yet. Sesshoumaru and I have a lot of love between us too. He might be the one who I'm meant to be with. Then again, he may not be. I love both of you sooo much...but...I'm beginning to wonder about some things."
"What kinds of things?"
"Well...I can't help but wonder...maybe all of these bad things are happening, because it isn't meant for us to be together. I mean, soooo much bad karma seems to follow us lately. Maybe...maybe we just aren't meant to be. Maybe...maybe it is destined for us to just remain friends." He stared at me with wide eyes as he pulled himself up until he sat right beside me.
(Talking)
You know what I'm talking about baby
I never meant to hurt you
I never wanted to see you cry
So I'm right here now baby
I'm asking you, I'm begging you
Just give me one more chance baby
Ohhhhhh
"No, my dear. You mustn't think like that. We are meant to be."
"How do you figure that?"
"You seem to think that fate tears us apart, but I believe that fate brings us together. Nobody loves you more than me and I know that nobody loves me more than you."
"Sesshoumaru loves me very much..."
"Nobody loves you more than me." He reached up and ran a hand down my cheek. "Absolutely nobody." He brushed his thumb over my lips as I stared up at him, feeling completely vunerable at the moment. I couldn't believe it but right then, I felt so...helpless. Once again, my eyes began to moisten with tears of confusion. Ugggghhh! I felt so weak for crying. That's all I seemed to be doing lately. Cry, cry, cry. The strong Naima that I once knew was steadily breaking down into a helpless Naima that I thought that I'd never be. Naraku smiled gently as he wiped a few tears away. He then leaned over and kissed me ever so softly on the cheek. He then climbed out of bed and went over to my stereo. He searched through my CDs until he found one that caught his eye. He put it into the stereo and searched through the tracks. When he pressed play, I smiled a little upon hearing which CD it was. It was none other than Silk. The song playing was our song, "Lose Control". He turned around and smiled at me. He walked back over to the bed and extended a hand. "Dance with me," he requested. I shook my head no.
"I-I don't think so," I said. He ignored me anyways and took hold of my hand. He gently pulled me off of the bed and into his arms. His two limbs wrapped tightly around my body, as if I was the only thing keeping him alive. Ever so slowly, I put my arms around his neck and laid my head on his shoulder.
Baby won't you let me just kiss you down (let me kiss you all over your sweet body baby)
Make you spin around and 'round (I wanna make you lose, I wanna make you lose control)
Flip you girl from left to right (I'll flip you girl, if you don't mind)
If you don't mind (If you don't mind)
Baby can I just spend the night (Oooo baby, baby yeah)
Let me turn you on, on
"You know, if I was a poet or a more romantic man, I would know exactly what to say to you right now," he softly said to me as we slow danced, "but I can't think of a poetic way to tell you how much I love and care about you. Everytime I'm around you, I find myself smiling more and more. You don't know how happy you make me feel inside and I just hope that I can give you even the smallest ounce of happiness that you have given me. I don't desire for you to become my girlfriend though. No, I'd much rather prefer that you were my wife. Because a woman like you deserves to be made a wife and not simply a girlfriend. All I need for you to do, is just say yes." I sniffled a little as a few tears began to fall on his shoulder.
"I-I'm...I'm confused Naraku. I don't know which way to go."
Can I turn you on
Can I turn you on (ohhh let me turn you on)
Till the break of dawn baby (ohhh let me turn you on)
Can I turn you on
Can I turn you on (my my my my my baby)
Till the break of dawn baby
"Its okay. I'm a patient man. I have no problem waiting. The only thing that concerns me is that you might not come back to me. If I fear one thing in life, that's the thing I fear." He inhaled my scent as he pulled me closer to him, if that was even possible. I closed my eyes and relaxed into the way he held me. So much love and passion was in his embrace. I could feel the sincerity in his words. Yet, the tears still continued to flow. "You know, when I came back from Japan, I never imagined that I would have to fight so hard to get back the woman I'm in love with. Then again, it was stupid of me to think that you'd still be single after all of this time. But I continued to fight because I desired to have you in my life again. I desired to wipe away all of those tears that I caused all those years ago. But during this fight for you, I never stopped to realize that in my efforts to dry the tears that I caused, I was gradually making more and more flow." He loosened his grip a little and stepped back so he could look at me.
Naraku's POV
Ohhh don't you know, don't you know (ooooo)
Sometimes all you can say is 'oooo' (oooooo)
Ooooo (oooo)
Oh, oh baby (oooo)
I'll never baby (oooo)
Oh I love you baby yes I do (oooo)
I'll never let you go (ooooo)
I'll never hurt you again, just let me make you go crazy (oooo)
(fade out)
As I stared down at this tear stained beauty, I felt a twinge of guilt within me. I had been so wrapped up in trying to win her back from Sesshoumaru, that I never once considered what made her happy. I always thought that I could make her happy, but the tears she's crying says otherwise. I know that I'm partially the reason behind these tears and it hurts me to see her cry so much. To see the strong woman whom I fell in love with broken. I love Naima with everything in me and I desire to make her my wife, but the thing I desire most...is to see her happy. And she is clearly not happy right now. I hate to admit it...but...she smiled a lot more whenever she was around Sesshoumaru. So if Sesshoumaru is the one who holds her joy...then there is only one thing I can do...
Naima's POV
Naraku smiled very softly as he wiped a few more tears away, although his own eyes seemed to hold sadness in them as well. "I don't want to be a catalyst of your tears anymore, Naima," he softly said to me, "because I love you too much." He then cupped my cheeks into his hands and leaned down to give me a soft, passion filled kiss on my lips. I put my hands on his shoulders as I kissed him back. Like always, his lips felt so good against my own, however...there was something different about this kiss. I couldn't quite put my finger on it, but it felt very different from any other kiss that Naraku had given me. After a few moments, he pulled away and looked deep into my eyes. "Do you honestly, truly, love Sesshoumaru?" I slightly raised my eyebrows a bit. Not only did his eyes still hold their sadness, but his voice now held sadness as well. What was going on in that head of his?
"...Y-yes," I said.
"Does he make you happy?"
"...Y-yes. He makes me very happy." After I gave him my last answer, a very small smile appeared on his face.
"Alright. That's all I wanted to know." He leaned down and planted a small kiss on my forehead before embracing me in another bear hug. Like the kiss, something about this hug felt different too. Almost like...he was saying...goodbye. Goodbye? But he wasn't going anywhere, was he? No, of course not. If he was leaving he would surely tell me. Still...
"Naraku?"
"I'm going to go home," he told me with a smile on his face, "Tarei told me that you'll probably have to leave to go to the hospital soon, so there is no sense in me staying. Just, call me later and tell me what your niece is like. Okay?" I slowly nodded my head. "Alright then. I'll see you around. Hopefully at school." I chuckled a bit.
"Yeah. Me too." He chuckled a little too. He then gave me a really serious look.
"I love you, Naima."
"I love you too, Naraku."
A/N: There's only one thing he can do? What's Naraku talking about?
