Authors Note: Thank you all for the wonderful Reviews. I really love that you all are loving this story. Once again I do not own any of these characters.
though I would like to make one shout out to Dragonspit: As I read your review I found the part about Alex interesting, I didn't think about that being a possibility, but now it is in my mind. So as to if she does find love again, or tries to go after Liv, I guess we will just have to find out.
Hope you all Enjoy!
"It's touch and go right now, she has lost a lot of blood. I would say 50/50 but I could be wrong." The paramedic told Olivia and Elliot took her hand.
The ride to the hospital seemed to take forever, it was like time had stood still and there was no way of making it start again. "I know you Liv, and I know what you are thinking, it is not your fault" Elliot whispered to Olivia.
Olivia didn't answer but slowly nodded her head, but deep down inside she blamed herself and she always would.
Finally after what seemed like years the ambulance pulled up to the Emergency Room section of the hospital, nurses and doctors came rushing out the door to help the paramedics get Amanda's stretcher out of the ambulance and quickly rushed her inside. "I am sorry ma'am you have to stay behind." A nurse told Olivia quickly.
"No please let me go with her" Olivia pleaded and rushed after the group of nurses.
"Ma'am you have to stay behind in the waiting room." The nurse told her again, and Elliot grabbed Olivia and pulled her back and bought her to the waiting room and they took a seat. Even after years of being her partner it never seemed to amaze him on how stubborn the brunette could be.
Meanwhile back at the crime scene, CSU were tearing apart the home, "Finn, Amaro" Cragen shouted from his squad car.
"Yes Captain?" Both men asked at the same time.
"Elliot just sent me a text; they just arrived at the hospital, he and Liv are in the waiting room. They know nothing at the moment. I want both of you to go down there now. CSU can handle it from here. I will be there shortly." Cragen told them.
Amaro and Finn both nodded their heads, and Finn got into Liv's car, Liv had left her keys in the ignition when they got there.
"Are you with Amanda Rollins?" A nurse who neither of them had seen before came out and asked Liv and Elliot.
"Yes" Olivia answered quickly while she stood up. "How is she?" Olivia asked
"Does she have any family?" The nurse asked and Olivia felt her knees go weak; thankfully Elliot quickly stood up and grabbed Olivia.
"I am her family, what is going on?" Olivia asked once again.
"She is being prepped for surgery right now, she has lost a lot of blood." The nurse explained but Olivia cut her off.
"How bad is it?" Olivia asked with tears in her eyes.
"We won't know until she is under." The nurse explained. "I will let you know if anything changes, may I have your names please?" The nurse asked.
"Olivia Benson Manhattan Special Victims, and this is Elliot Stabler "Olivia told her
"Was she raped?" The nurse asked
"No, she was never out of my sight." Elliot told the nurse
"Okay, well if anything changes I will be back" The nurse told them and quickly turned on her heels and disappeared back into the doors she came out of.
Olivia and Elliot were sitting in the waiting room, when Finn and Amaro came walking in. "Liv? How is she?" Finn asked rushing over to them.
"I don't know. She is in surgery; she's lost a lot of blood." Olivia told him and Finn pulled her in for a hug.
"Cragen is on his way." Amaro told them, looking at his phone.
"Elliot have you been checked?" Finn asked him shaking his hand
"No I am fine, he didn't want me. Just for one thing to get Amanda, and nothing else. Everything was directed toward Amanda." Elliot explained.
Olivia was watching the hands move on the clock hanging on the wall, watching the time pass ever so slowly, when Cragen came rushing in. "Any news?" He asked quickly and Olivia explained to him the same thing she told Finn and Amaro.
Cragen sat down next to his detectives, even if Elliot wasn't one anymore, he would always be one to Cragen. "Captain can I talk to you?" Olivia asked after a few moments. Cragen nodded his head and followed Olivia to a secluded corner of the room.
"What's up Liv?" Cragen asked
"I'm sorry" Olivia told him softly.
"What for?" Cragen asked slightly confused.
"I know I shouldn't have shot Lewis like that, but I'm sorry he deserved it and I don't regret doing it." Olivia explained and Cragen put his hand on her shoulder.
"Don't worry about that right now Liv, that bastard had it coming to him. I will deal with whatever needs to be done, you just worry about Amanda, I will handle the rest. I have your back, and you did nothing wrong in my eyes." Cragen told her and Olivia smiled a bit.
"Thank you" Olivia told him and then they both made their way back to the group and sat down, and just as they did the nurse that had greeted them three hours ago when they came in returned. "How is she?" Olivia asked standing back up again.
"She is still in surgery, but there is no easy way to say this" The nurse began and Cragen stood up quickly along with Finn and put their hands on Olivia's shoulders to support her, with Nick and Elliot standing behind her. "There is a lot of damage, between the stab wounds and the gunshot wounds. Her heart has stopped twice now, the second time took longer to revive, and doctors are worried that if it is to stop again they won't be able to revive her." The nurse explained and Olivia's eyes filled with tears and her knees went weak.
Finn pulled her close to him and held her close, words couldn't even form in Olivia's mouth let alone her brain. "Thank you, please keep her us updated" Finn told her, because there was nothing there to be said.
"Will do, I just wanted to inform you" The nurse told them and turned to head back to the surgery room.
"Wait" Olivia shouted at the nurse, and she stopped in her tracks and turned around "Can I please see her?" Olivia begged.
The nurse shook her head "I am sorry but I cannot let you do that." The nurse said in an apologetic tone.
Olivia swallowed and then asked "Then can you please tell her something for me?"
The nurse nodded and came closer to Olivia "Yes I can" The nurse told her with a smile.
Olivia smiled with tears in her eyes "I know she is under but can you please tell her, you are so strong, you are a fighter and a survivor. Don't give up now, because I have told you before and I will tell you again that is how they win. Don't let them win, Amanda. We all are here for you, and we all have your back." Olivia told her and started to choke up before she could get the last words out, but she pulled herself together and said the last words for the nurse to tell her. "I am so sorry baby, and I love you so much stay strong. We can get through this together."
The nurse nodded and pulled Olivia in for a tight hug and whispered in her ear "I will tell her you said that Detective, and I will do my best to make sure she pulls through."
Olivia pulled back from the hug and whispered "Thank you."
After the nurse left Olivia sat back down and then Cragen, Finn, Nick, and Elliot put their hands on top of hers and said at the same time "She will pull through don't worry."
Olivia went back to watching the hands move on the clock while she thought to herself on how lucky she was to have such a group of supportive co-workers, not even that friends, no actually they were more like a family. One big dysfunctional family!
Even though Olivia was watching the clock, she wasn't fully aware of how much time had really passed until Finn broke her from her thoughts.
"You want anything Liv? I am going to get a snack from the café." Finn asked and Olivia shook her head "C'mon Liv you know you need to eat, can I at least get you a coffee?" Finn asked and Olivia knew he wouldn't take no for an answer.
"Okay yeah a coffee here let me give you some money…" Olivia began but Finn cut her off.
"Don't you worry about it, I got you." Finn said with a smile and left to go to the café.
As Finn was coming back with the snacks and coffee, the nurse was walking back out into the waiting room. Finn rushed over to the group at the same moment the nurse reached them. "How is she?" Finn asked while he set down the café items and put his hand on Olivia's shoulder.
The nurse smiled and looked at Olivia and then spoke "Well Detective your words worked, Amanda is out of surgery and in recovery."
Authors Note: Well there is Chapter 12, I hope you all enjoyed. Don't forget to review!
