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The blonde woman smiled at Liv "I figured you could use some company, can I come in?"
Olivia moved away from the entrance of the door way "Be my guest" She told Alex as she moved her hand in a welcoming gesture. Alex smiled at her and walked inside, but once she did Frannie started growling at her. Olivia was shocked she had never ever heard Frannie growl. "Hey Frannie that isn't nice, you don't growl at someone you don't know." Olivia scolded the dog "But if you learn she is a bitch then, by all means growl away." Olivia added with a smirk as she shut the door and Frannie stopped.
"Oh so now I'm a bitch Detective?" Alex asked with a smirk.
Olivia chuckled "You have your moments."
"How is Amanda?" Alex asked as she moved into the kitchen area and put both bottles of wine of the counter before she dug the wine opener out of her purse.
"She is out of surgery." Olivia told her as she walked into the kitchen area as well. "As you can see there isn't much place to sit." Olivia explained and Alex chuckled.
"Liv, you have a couch right there." Alex said as she pointed over to the couch.
"Yeah guess I do." Olivia laughed
"Guess no glasses?" Alex asked and Olivia shook her head no. "Then I guess it's a good thing I bought two bottles then." Alex told her as she gave her the bottle of wine.
Olivia took the bottle and walked over to the couch and sat down. "So what are you really doing here?" Olivia asked
"What does that mean Liv?" Alex asked "I told you I figured you could use company." Alex told her as she sat down on the other side of the couch.
"Why now?" Olivia asked as she took a swig of the wine.
"Why now what?" Alex asked confused
"Why come back now?" Olivia asked her
"Liv, I saw what that asshole of a man who called himself a D.A. I swear he got his degree from a box of Cracker Jacks did to you on that stand. There was no way I was letting him do that to you again, and there was not a chance in hell I was letting William Lewis go free again." Alex explained.
"Well thank you for that, but Lewis is dead now." Olivia said flatly as she took a swig.
"Yeah I got a phone call about that. I will try my best to stop it, but internal affairs want to investigate the shooting." Alex told her and Olivia cut her off.
"He shot Amanda three times, he deserved to die." Olivia shouted and Alex put her hand on top of Liv's.
"Hey, I know that. I will try my best to prevent it. Don't worry about it. You weren't the only one there and saw what happened. You know the whole squad has your back." Alex told her softly and Olivia nodded. "I'm serious." Alex added and Olivia nodded again.
"Yeah I know they do." Olivia said softly and chugged down some more wine.
Olivia and Alex sat in silence for a few until Alex broke the silence "So Amanda makes you happy?" Alex asked and Olivia nodded and then started to laugh. "Okay I think you had way too much wine." Alex said with a laugh as put her bottle on the ground and leaned over to take Olivia's.
"No, no it's not that." Olivia said between laughter.
"Okay yeah way too much. You are officially cut off." Alex told her again but it just made Olivia laugh even harder.
"No Al, it's not the wine." Olivia tried but laughed harder.
"Okay did you take something from the hospital?" Alex asked now starting to laugh as well, because who couldn't listen to Olivia Benson Laugh and not laugh as well. Her laugh is contagious after all!
Finally Olivia was able to pull herself together and say what she has been trying to say. "It isn't the wine, it just seems that everyone who has found out we are together has asked if she makes me happy."
Alex looked at Olivia with a confused look on her face "Okay why are you looking at me like that?" Olivia asked
"Because I just don't see how that is funny Liv, does she not make you happy?" Alex asked.
Olivia shook her head "Okay maybe I have had a little too much wine." Olivia told her but then finished off her bottle. "But yes she does make me happy." Olivia told her before she asked "Do you have any more wine?"
Alex laughed "I think you had enough." Alex told her and Olivia stood up "Where are you going, because you are in no shape to drive." Alex said standing up and followed her.
"Calm down, I forgot that there is a mini bar in here." Olivia told her opening the fridge and holding up two little bottles of vodka "Want one?" Olivia asked and Alex shook her head.
Olivia took both little bottles back to where she was sitting on the couch and sat down "Seriously Liv, I think you had enough." Alex tried to reason with her, but Olivia Benson is stubborn.
"I am fine; I know when enough is enough Alex." Olivia told her opening the bottle and took a swig.
"Fine, but that's it, no more." Alex told her.
Olivia held up her bottle and said "Cheers" then took another swig.
Once again Alex and Olivia sat there in silence once again, but again it didn't take long for that silence to end "Liv, can I ask you something?" Alex asked and Olivia nodded "Can you please put the bottle down first?" Alex asked and Olivia put the bottle on the glass table in front of the couch.
"Okay what is your question?" Olivia asked
Alex took in a deep breath and moved closer to Olivia and took her hand. "Do you miss me?" Alex asked looking Olivia deep in the eyes.
Olivia stayed quiet she had no idea how to answer this question, yes she missed Alex at times, but she loved Amanda. "I did miss you." Olivia whispered.
"You did miss me?" Alex asked thinking she didn't hear her correctly.
"Yes Alex I did, you were gone I had no idea where you were. I loved you, and it was like none of that mattered, you didn't care. You said goodbye and that was it." Olivia told her. "Then you came back, and I thought you were back to stay, but you had a life where ever the hell you were. And just like that you were gone again. Then when you finally did come back, we fought all the time." Olivia shouted at her. "So yes I did miss you." Olivia told her but was cut off by Alex's lips on hers.
Olivia was taken a back from Alex's kiss and then Alex pulled back. "I missed you every single day, I hated that I had to leave like that. I had no choice Liv, I am so sorry. But don't think that I didn't miss you because I did, and I loved you. I still do." Alex whispered softly and then leaned in to kiss her again.
Olivia didn't know if it was all the alcohol she had, or if it was the fact that Alex's lips were on hers for the first time in forever but she didn't stop her.
Olivia placed her hand on the back of Alex's neck and pulled her closer and completely on top of her. As the kiss got deeper, Alex moved her hand to the tie on Olivia's robe and began to untie it and started to kiss down Olivia's neck. "I missed you, I missed this." Alex whispered and just then did it all hit Olivia.
"Wait Alex stop." Olivia said sternly and pushed Alex by the shoulders.
"What, what's wrong?" Alex asked as she leaned in to kiss Olivia again but Olivia stopped her.
"No I said stop." Olivia told her as she pushed Alex back, and got up from the couch and pulled the tie around her tightly. "And what is wrong is that I am with Amanda, and I cannot do this." Olivia told her as she ran her fingers through her hair that was still damp.
"Liv…" Alex tried as she stood up as well but Olivia stopped her.
"No, I am with Amanda and I love Amanda too much to do this to her. We had our thing, it didn't work out Alex. I am not willing to jeopardize what I have with Amanda. She makes me happy and I love her. I am sorry, but I think you need to leave." Olivia told her as she walked over to the door and held it open for her.
Alex nodded her head and grabbed her purse. "I'm sorry Liv." Alex told her as she walked out the door.
Once Alex was gone, Olivia shut the door and locked it. She walked over to the mini fridge and pulled out another bottle of vodka chugged it down not even caring about the burning sensation in her throat from all that vodka at once. "What the fuck did I do?" Olivia shouted out to nobody as she threw the empty bottle across the room hitting the wall and watched it shatter into pieces.
Authors Note: Don't hate me, I promise everything will work out in the end. Anyhow I hope you all enjoyed this chapter, please review and let me know what y'all thought!
